"Forty-two years ago, I was one of the most ordinary farmers in the city of Kashu in the early country. That year there was a plague in the city, my parents died, and my brothers and sisters were also insequently infected. I didn't have the money to heal them, so I had to climb to the top of Lianyue Mountain to collect herbs by myself. However, due to hunger and weakness, I accidentally fell into the valley and fell unconscious. When I awoke, I found myself bound by two alien soldiers, and I tried to explain, but I could not remember anything, and when they saw that I was suspicious of my words and deeds, they shackled me and escorted me back to their main camp, the Tsunade Clan. That is, the Gong clan who now lives in the imperial city of Karzhou. ”

"It's the emperor! Was it the emperor who kidnapped you from Lianyue Mountain back then? Lianyue Mountain...... "My heart suddenly shrank, "I understand, you are because I was found on Lianyue Mountain like you, and you thought of your own situation back then, so you treated me favorably?" ”

"Back then, the emperor was just a yellow-mouthed child. The king of the Tsubaki tribe is his father, Tsubaki. Being found on Lianyue Mountain is not the reason why I treat you preferentially, it is just the reason why I ordered the people of Lifu to be forbidden to enter this mountain after I paid homage to the prime minister. I don't want anyone to have an accident on that ominous mountain, and I don't want anyone to touch my memories and touch my most unbearable past. I can't control the people of the entire city of Kashu, so I can only forbid the people in my own house to stay away from it. But the truth is that even if no one dares to set foot on it anymore, that mountain is still so evil and obscure. You were found by my soldiers in Lianyue Mountain, covered with scars and lost your memory, just like me forty-two years ago! Hou Ye's tone was abrupt and urgent, and the hand pressing on my shoulder seemed to inadvertently increase the force. But I'm not as lucky as you. Looking at the herbs in my basket, I remembered my family, my brothers and sisters! During the days of captivity in the Tsubashi Camp, I did not think for a moment of them, not for a moment that I did not pray to the heavens, that they would find out that my brother had accidentally fallen into the enemy camp in order to collect medicine for them. As a slave and a foreign race, I have been bullied and tortured by the Tsunade people, and what has supported me all those years is only the hope that my compatriots will one day come to save me, but I waited and hoped, but I never looked forward to the first soldiers who came to rescue me. ”

"It turns out that you are not a heartheart, but... First people? ”

"The first people... I wish I hadn't been a beginner! Just because I was a beginner, what I did in the camp was the lowest kind of hard work. I was herded into the stables to serve the horses' food, drink, dung and urine. I don't know how long this hellish life has passed, and finally one day, fate has a chance to turn around. The young horse I bred was chosen by the little prince Huan Xin, who stood out during the hunt and got the blue eyes of his father, but was also feared by his brother. They sent killers to kill the prince's horse, and I used my body to block the arrows that pierced the pony. They thought they had succeeded, but I crawled desperately to the prince's tent, and the prince was very angry when he learned the ins and outs, but he did not immediately attack. He took a fancy to my faithfulness and kept me by his side. I also admired his forbearance, and I have been loyal ever since. Years later, the little prince grew into a heroic young man, and I helped him defeat his brother internally, and relied on strategy to help him defeat the enemy army repeatedly. Later, the deed died, and Huan Xin became the king of the Tsubaki clan. And I, a foreigner from the Great Battalion, no longer need to be subservient to others, and finally become a general under one person and above ten thousand. In just a few years, I fought in the east and west, and helped the city become the most powerful country in the north. But my long-cherished wish is not elsewhere, I just want to return to my Karishu, the capital closest to the mountain that Lianyue Mountain, the mountain where it all began. So I persuaded the king to conquer Kashu, even if it provoked the fear of the most powerful Moguo in the south. I am not afraid of war, and I will do whatever it takes to conquer the capital that once turned its back on me. ”

My heart trembled more and more, but Hou Ye seemed to feel something, and the force exerted on my shoulder also increased, until there was a faint burning pain from my old wound.

I realized that maybe Wen Zhao and Wen Ling's parents and relatives died innocently because of Hou Ye's deep obsession. Wen Zhao refused to confess his intention to sneak into the Hou Mansion when he was a child, but now it seems that it is becoming clearer and clearer.

“… And then? ”

"Later, I succeeded. I led my troops into Karju and personally killed the king of the first country. The king praised me a lot, actually... Heh, he just found that he had a hard time riding a tiger. Occupying the first country, the southern desert lost the only barrier, and the desert people were afraid that the strong soldiers and horses had the ambition to dominate the world, so they took the lead and started a war with us in Lihan. But I wonder if there is anyone in the entire Zhuchun except for me, who has the ability to resist the millions of male masters who have taken the Heart Grass in the Southern Desert? The king whispered and begged me to defend the castle, but he did not know that my wish had been fulfilled, and he no longer wanted to lead my troops into battle. ”

Hou Ye suddenly chuckled, as if he had endless mockery and disdain for the past, "That's it, after all, the monarch has been in danger for decades, how can I put him in danger and ignore it." I promised to help him negotiate peace with the desert people, he was overjoyed, and according to my request, he changed the surname of Zhu Chun to the surname of the desert and the 'palace' that I was accustomed to, and built this magnificent Lihou Mansion for me in my original home in Xishi, and even set the name of the country as the 'heart' named by me. ”

"Heart... The country name of Daxin is yours. I exclaimed, "This country name is very similar to my home country." ”

"The initial loss and profit are all born from the heart. Along the way, I allowed myself to be tainted by ambition and blinded by hatred. Promotion, desire grows... But my heart is always empty. Return to Hotaru, my heart, is always lonely. Hou Ye raised his hand and put it on his heart, and I turned around, only to see his raised neck. As soon as the candlelight jumped, two lines of muddy tears quietly descended, sliding into the placket of Hou Ye's loose and old neck lines.

"Gui Hotaru, you know... How much do I regret it? ”

The other hand left on my shoulder trembled more and more, and I got up and turned around, only to see a ray of moonlight reflected on Hou Ye's tear-stained face through the crack in the door. That trace of silver and white seemed to reveal endless sadness and loneliness, and the wrinkles that were washed by tears were clearly reflected as if they were dead.

"Master Hou... It's not your fault......"

"Everything may not have started because of me, but how did I push myself into the abyss of irredeemability step by step?" The eyelashes flashed, and Hou Ye's sudden gaze made me a little overwhelmed. "Gui Hotaru, I've never had the slightest choice on this path, but what about them... The first king of the past, the saint of today, and countless people who lost their lives and homes because of my thoughts, I let them have no way out, and I let them go against their original intentions. Do you know how much I regret it? I'm not as indignant as you are at my current situation in the court, because I know very well that I will always get retribution in the reincarnation of the Heavenly Dao! But Gui Hotaru, you are different, seeing you, I am like seeing the lonely self forty-two years ago. I want to help you, I want to help you go back to your home, I don't want you to go down the same path as me, forgetting your original intention, full of hatred... I don't want you to be like that, I don't want to! ”

Before the words fell, I had already thrown myself into the arms of Hou Ye.

Perhaps such a move was too intimate for him, and for a while, Hou Ye lost all his words and actions as if frozen. I wrapped my arms around his waist and let my tears seep into his drenched clothes. The smell of alcohol was so thick that my mind seemed to stop thinking. Memories of others flashed before my eyes, humiliation and despair, forbearance and resentment, war and power, joy and remorse......

That was Hou Ye's memory.

"Girl, it's time, Yiyunzhai sent someone to ask Hou Ye to go back——"

I subconsciously jumped back and looked at the door that had suddenly opened.

I saw the moonlight pouring outside the door, reflecting the slender and thin silhouette of the turbid moon, her face was backlit, vague and unreal, only a pair of eyes stared at the boss in the dark, although the body was like petrified, the whites of the eyes trembled extremely violently because of fright. There was a cool breeze blowing in, and the sparks in the charcoal basin were swirling, and the Hou Ye was drunk, and his body with his back to the door shrank, and his feet were like stepping on floating cotton, and he staggered a little.