After I got sick, my father has not taken the initiative to contact me, in fact, I have never blamed him, as a son, I have always felt that my father is a tragic figure, he is like Lu Xun's Kong Yiji, everyone thinks he is ridiculous, but he himself maintains a high and arrogant heart. He is not tall and not smart, but he earns money with his strength and maintains our family. I haven't watched him rest all year round. Farming, running the mountains, as long as you can make money, you can see him.

My family moved from the Jinshan Coal Mine to a place called Group 8. Grandparents, uncles, and aunts all lived there. We are no strangers to here, before every New Year or summer vacation, my brother and I will be sent to my grandmother's house to live for a period of time, eight groups are the name before the division of production to the household, has been retained until now, grandma's family lives in the town ten miles away from here, every Monday is a big market, the town is very lively on the day of the market, the surrounding villagers will go to the market to catch the big market, sell the excess things at home, but also buy some things needed at home. Every week, my mother would take the eggs that she had saved for a week and sell them at the market, and if there were both roosters and hens in the house, the eggs laid by the hens would be more valuable, because those eggs would hatch chicks.

I heard my father say that when he was two years old, my grandfather died of a sudden illness, and my father had a total of 4 sisters at that time, and I had an uncle and two aunts, and my father was the youngest. At that time, China had not yet reformed and opened up, and there was a famine, and my grandmother had no way to live alone with 4 children, so she remarried a man surnamed Sun and followed him to this town. Dad's original surname was Bi, and after remarrying with his grandmother, he wanted to change his surname to grandson. When my father was young, my grandfather didn't treat him well at all, and I wanted to give him away several times, but it was the uncle and the two aunts who watched him closely, so my father was not taken away, and my grandfather and grandmother gave birth to three more children. One uncle, two aunts. Dad, when they grew up, Uncle went to be a soldier. In those days, it was good to be a soldier, and when I came back, I was assigned to work, and my uncle was assigned to work in a supply and marketing cooperative. When my grandmother took my father and remarried, my uncle was already 10 years old. He knew that the person who raised him was not his biological father, and he was not good to them, so he wanted to give away his second brother several times. After the uncle joined the work, he soon married a teacher in the next town, and the uncle had a pair of children.

The uncle and the two aunts got married and moved away, and the father didn't want to go home alone, so he ate and lived in the production team, and he drove a four-wheeled bicycle in the production team. When he reached the age of marriage, no one made a name for him. He is less than 1.7 meters tall, no girl in any family wants to follow her, he has been leaning until he is 25 years old, and he is in group 6. There is a girl in the 8 groups next door, the height is the same as his general surname Zhang, this girl is the youngest in the family, the family is used to it, when she reaches the age of marriage, she is allowed to choose by herself, and as a result, she picks and chooses herself to be older, and this girl's aunt is anxious. came forward to introduce one personally, and the kid introduced was short and poor, but the girl took a fancy to it.

Dad and Mom got married. They didn't have a house, so they lived in the east house of their grandmother's house. The mother-in-law and daughter-in-law are not fuel-efficient lamps, and finally on a rainy night, Mom and Dad were kicked out of the house by Grandma. They braved the heavy rain to go to Group 6 and started renting a house, and I was born in that rental house.

I was born on the coldest day of the year, on the eighth day of the lunar month, when my mother gave birth to me, I had a difficult birth. I heard that when I was just born, my head was very long, there was no crying, and I gave birth to an old midwife surnamed Jin, who is said to have very rich experience in midwifery, and knows the five elements all over the world, she carried my head and feet on the ground with one hand, and hit my ass with the other hand, and hit me many times, and I made the first cry in this world. In order to thank the midwife, my nickname is Admiralty, according to the midwife's calculations, the time I was born, the five elements were short of gold. Later, after I learned how to read in elementary school, I asked my parents, since the five elements were short of gold at that time, why wasn't it called Jin Xin? When I registered my household registration, the surname on my household registration was Bi. My birth brought a lot of joy to the family. My parents had my grandmother kicked out of the house, so there was nothing. The birth of his younger brother two years later put the already impoverished family in a desperate situation. When there was really no way, after discussion with my parents, we were going to move, go to my aunt, and go to Jinshan Coal Mine. My uncle is a worker in a coal mine and can introduce my father to the coal mine.

In the Jinshan Coal Mine, my father used yellow mud and wheat straw to drag a large number of them and build our first home. My first memory is from the Jinshan Coal Mine.

I bought the first Panda TV at home in Jinshan Coal Mine, and when I wanted to change it, I had to twist a rotary button in the upper right corner of the TV, and most of the time I didn't need it, because I could only accept one TV. The family bought their first bicycle. There was also a very old four-wheeled bicycle without a shell, which was later driven away to pay for medical expenses because of a fight with a neighbor.

At that time, the country had just reformed and opened up, and there was a shortage of energy. Environmental awareness is not so strong. The Jinshan Coal Mine is highly affluent. You can see the buildings, a lot of motorbikes on the street. At that time, the mine recruited a lot of outsiders, some from Guanli, some from the surrounding counties and cities, these people did not have a local hukou, there is a unified call for blind stream.

I went to elementary school here, when I was in the second grade. My family moved to Group 8, which is my mother's hometown.

The new house we are moving into is a new brick house built by my uncle, who is my mother's only eldest brother. The reason why my uncle wanted to move was because my uncle's eldest daughter died of illness, and it is said that the year before my uncle's daughter died, many crows landed on the poplar trees by the river and wailed. After the death of his daughter, his uncle was very sad, he didn't do anything for a year, he borrowed a shotgun to shoot a crow for a year, and then my uncle still couldn't accept it, my daughter was leaving, and decided to move, and the brick house that had just been built was cheap, and it was sold to our family, and I also wanted to help my own sister.

Later, as I read more and more, I learned from books that close relatives are not allowed to get married, which may affect the next generation, and my uncle and aunt are close relatives, and my aunt and sister are two sisters.