He looked at his younger brother who fell in the courtyard, and was so distressed that he burst into tears, but his mother just didn't let him help him, he couldn't do anything but cry.

For many years afterward, whenever he remembered that time, he still remembered very clearly the feeling of powerlessness and deep frustration at that time.

But in such a powerless day, the mother concubine only accompanied him and his younger brother for less than a year.

"Suddenly one day, I was awakened by the cry of the fifth child in the middle of the night, the hall was dark and dreary, and it was so cold that I held him and searched the entire Tibetan Crow Palace, but I didn't find the mother concubine."

Xiao Lisheng was completely immersed in the past, stood dumbfounded, his eyes fell on the void in a daze, and muttered: "There is not even a subordinate in the Tibetan Crow Palace, I hugged him, he was crying, I also felt very sad, and in the end, I also cried." ”

"Crying and crying, we all fell asleep, and when we woke up the next day, there were two more palace maids in the palace, and they said that the emperor sent them to take care of us, and told me that my mother was dead."

"How ridiculous, how did my mother die, or someone else told me, I didn't even see her body." Xiao Lisheng smiled as he spoke.

The rain splashed into the eaves of the porch and hit him in the face, and he remained motionless, not even reaching out to wipe it.

He smiled and said softly and slowly: "After the death of the concubine, all the valuable things in the Tibetan Crow Palace were taken away by those people in the palace, and the huge Tibetan Crow Palace was only left with empty palace walls, and when it was the hardest, there was not even a complete table. ”

"I took that poor child, ate leftovers and cold food, and waited at the gate of the palace every day, always thinking that the mother would definitely come back."

Those days of waiting were really difficult, and now when he talks about it, he has a smile on his face, but his eyes are full of pain, and he can't hide it.

"It's so difficult, but those jackals in the palace are still unwilling to let us go, when I was twelve years old, my father sent someone to the Tibetan Crow Palace to pass the decree, ordering me to go to Nanzhao as a proton."

When the Holy Decree arrived at the Crow Palace, he hadn't seen his father for a long time, one year, two years, three years, no, four years.

It was only when he was in trouble that he remembered that he still had two sons in the Crow Palace, and at that time, he held the holy decree and suddenly understood a truth.

He became a pawn of his father.

A chess piece that stabilizes his great country.

"Uncle Huang and the others should think so, thinking that I played a conspiracy and tricked the fifth child into going to Nanzhao and staying by myself." Xiao Li looked at Buddha Leng and smiled extremely sarcastically: "Yes, it is true that I coaxed Lao Wu to go, but it is not because I am afraid of hardship." ”

In the eyes of his father and the Xiao family, he Xiao Lisheng was young, but he was already scheming and scheming, and sent his own brother to Nanzhao.

Everyone forgot that it was his father who really sent the fifth child away.

"Nanzhao and Da Zhou exchanged protons and went to Nanzhao, although it is lonely in a foreign country, at least they have food and clothing, and they have no worries about their lives." He talked about this old incident with obscure eyes, and said with difficulty: "If I go, I will be able to be safe, Nanzhao will not kill me, but the fifth child stayed, he was only eight years old, he never understood anything, he helped him to eat and dress, and he stayed in the Tibetan Crow Palace, how to live?" ”

Xiao Jingse lost his mother at a young age, and he has too little memory of his mother and concubine, and he can't remember his father, he only knows that he has an elder brother.

When he was hungry, he called out to his brother, it was cold, and his brother dressed him.

If he goes to Nanzhao, who will give him a mouthful of food? Who added a dress to him?

His body is weak and can't stand that kind of devastation, but when he goes to Nanzhao, it's different, Nanzhao won't let him have an accident, at least he can ensure that he has no worries about food and clothing.

Speaking of Xiao Jingse, the smile on his face finally saw a little warmth: "He listened to me the most, I coaxed him to beg his father and let him go to Nanzhao, and he really listened to my words." ”

"I know that the fifth child has been in Nanzhao for more than ten years, and he must be resentful of me, and after he comes back, he is no longer kind to me, and there is an insurmountable estrangement."

He smiled obscurely: "After sending him away, I secretly made up my mind that I must get ahead in front of my father, become a real prince, and bring him back." ”

It was also from this time that he worked harder, reading and writing without sleep or food, practicing martial arts and swords, and finding any opportunity to express himself.

In fact, he doesn't like to stand in front of people like a clown and be ridiculed and teased by everyone, but he has to insist.

"I have been lonely for many years, and I never thought that one day, I would get a resignation." Speaking of Yun Geci, his voice softened a little: "Even now, when I ascended the throne and Da Zhou clenched my hands, I already felt that marrying her was the only fortunate thing in my life." ”

It was because of this luck that he was willing to die for the birth and death of the Great Zhou Dynasty, fought in the north and south, and never dared to slack off with all his might.

The girl had him in her heart, and she tried her best to make him glorious and dazzling, and he didn't do his best to keep this happiness and protect her stability for the rest of her life.

"Uncle Huang must blame me for taking away what you love, but you get it but refuse to cherish it." He looked at Buddha Leng with burning eyes, and saw his affection for Yun Geci clearly, and it was even more painful: "But we have no way to go." ”

Heaven refuses to fulfill his only joy, but if there is a way to live, how can he go so far with her?

"Uncle Huang must not have thought that at the beginning, I didn't have much ambition, I just wanted to be a prince in peace, do you know, since when did I have to win the country?"

He smiled and asked Fo Leng, who had been silently listening to him babbling about the past, without interjecting or interrupting him.

After so many years, Xiao Lisheng has probably never talked about these past with anyone, and he doesn't dare to tell anyone, and he doesn't want to.

On this night, facing the bones of Yun Geci, he wanted to talk about that part of the past.

"It was in the third year after I got married to Ah Ci." Xiao Lisheng didn't need a cold answer from Buddha at all, he just wanted to vomit quickly: "Three years and one month, the second year of junior high school." ”

Fo Leng finally interjected: "That day is the death day of Concubine Luan." ”

After Xiao Lisheng and Yun Ge got married, he stayed far away from the border for a long time, and occasionally returned to Chang'an, and he knew very little about how much the palace had changed.

Yao Yao remembers that that day should be the death day of Xiao Lisheng's biological mother.

"Uncle Huang is right when he says that." Xiao Lisheng squinted, raised his hand to catch the water curtain hanging from the eaves, watched the water droplets slip from his fingers, and was stunned: "This is the day I killed her." ”