Yan Heng was extremely depressed, and he drank heavily all day to numb himself.

Between drunken dreams and death, scenes of the past emerge one after another, and all the memories of the past clearly flood into my mind.

The first time he met Xu Promise was when he was 5 years old.

At that time, he was playing football, and accidentally the ball hit Xu Promise, she fell to the ground, covering her head pitifully, Xu was smashed and hurt, and looked at him with tears in her eyes.

Yan Heng was stunned at first sight, this child looked dirty, but his eyes were very beautiful, especially when he cried, his tears were particularly good-looking.

"Hey, where are you from?" Yan Heng originally wanted to use a gentle tone, but he had always been arrogant, and this was already the gentlest tone he could say.

"I, my name is Promise......" the little girl seemed to be frightened by him, and said timidly.

"Cut, coward." Yan Heng was actually a little annoyed that he scared people into tears, but he wanted to put the responsibility on the promise.

When the little girl heard this, she didn't dare to say anything, but her eyes were red again.

Yan Heng had a bad temper at that time, so he liked to look at Xu Promise's appearance, and made a grimace at her very maliciously: "Love to cry bag." ”

It turns out that the promise is indeed a crying bag, and it can't be frightened, and the eyes will be red after a little scare.

But the promise is long in pink carving, like a little princess, crying like a little kitten who has been bullied, only whimpering a few times, sensitive to the surrounding environment, if you can, you can't wait to shrink in your own square inch of land.

But Yan Heng was not happy, so he wanted to tease this kitten out and play with him.

If you think about it carefully, his hobby during that time was teasing and making promises, and even the other children forgot about it.

But these memories are probably proof of bullying her in the mind of Xu Promise.

The naughty and arrogant child will not express his closeness, but will only use the most stupid way of bullying others to show his presence and attract her attention.

It's stupid to think about it now.

is also because he promised to be too well-behaved, never resisted, and didn't dare to sue when he was bullied, so he became more and more unscrupulous, and even took it for granted.

It wasn't until later that he heard that he promised to be his fiancée, but at that moment he was actually unhappy on the surface, saying disgusting words, but he was a little happy in his heart.

When has it changed?

Probably because of the boys' vanity.

His friends were either rich or noble, and everyone looked down on the promise of being an orphan without any background, and even some of his nemesis always teased him about it, saying that he was going to marry a dirty wild girl.

Those sworn enemies have nothing like him, but they mock him for it.

Of course he was not pleased, and he hated promises in order to be gregarious, as if he could maintain his honorable position.

But while he hated it, he couldn't help but be attracted to her, so he could only approach her with all kinds of pranks.

Yan Heng had known for a long time that he had promised to like herself, how could she not like herself?

He always approached Promise occasionally and intimately, indulging his unnatural obsession with her, flirting with her innocent heart, watching her like herself little by little because of her honey.

Since the age of 5, he has been plotting to make her like him.

But when he promised to show his affection for him, he pushed people away mercilessly.

He enjoys the promise of his infatuation with him, but he doesn't want to admit that he will like a wild girl and make people laugh.

What's more, Grandpa Yan's arranged marriage made Yan Heng, who was free and easy by nature, very depressed and resistant, he didn't like his life to be planned from the beginning.

So he hated Promise and bullied Promise, but he was afraid that Promise really didn't dare to get close to him again, so he occasionally gave her a piece of honey and occasionally kissed and hugged, and even he knew that this was an act of harassment.

He promised to resist and threaten her viciously, then secretly hugged her, sneaked to her bed, and even pretended to break into her bathroom unintentionally.

Gradually, he realized that something was wrong with him.

But how could he like a wild girl who was good-for-nothing, and how could he accept an arranged marriage?

At that time, Xia Xue appeared.

At first, he had no thoughts about her, until she saved him from the fire, which caused a little ripple in his heart.

Yan Heng felt that what he liked should be a girl like Xia Xue, smart, beautiful, and temperamental, and she had saved him, such a person was worthy of him.

So they were together as a matter of course, and he enjoyed everyone's blessings, but secretly spied on the promise's every move.

Seeing that Xu Promise was sad because of the two of them, the bad factor of his psychology was ignited all of a sudden, and he liked to see Promise jealous.

He deliberately showed affection in front of her, deliberately treated Xia Xue well in front of her, and then enjoyed the humble and forbearant love in his eyes.

But at that time, he didn't realize that he was paying too much attention to the promise, he only thought that he really hated the promise, and deliberately in front of her was just to stimulate her and make her retreat.

When he got to the back, he also thought that he was in love with Xia Xue, they were a talented and beautiful couple, and promised to be a person who wanted to participate in them.

Until Xia Xue left suddenly, he was forced to marry Promise, all of which made the rebellious him extremely disgusted, and blamed all the blame on Promise.

He regards Xia Xue as Bai Yueguang, and he resists this forced marriage, expressing his dissatisfaction with bullying promises.

But he was still attracted by the promise.

He was drunk that night, but he was still sensible, but when he saw the promise lying on his bed, the clear strings in Yan Heng's mind suddenly broke.

He uncontrollably allowed himself to take possession of the promise, he knew his excitement at the time, and he vented his deep lust for her through alcohol, and did not forget to blame her afterwards.

Later, again and again, he possessed her in the name of punishment, and he didn't know what kind of thoughts he had, knowing that if he really hated promises, he would definitely not be able to touch her.

But at that time, he couldn't even care about Xia Xue, even if he knew that he was betraying Xia Xue, his body was honestly attracted by the promise.

In the end, he couldn't tell whether he was venting his physical desires or psychological desires.

Until he promised to leave, everything was meaningless, there was no promise, and he couldn't even find a reason to be with Xia Xue.

He finally realized that what he had always liked for so many years was promises, but he just didn't want to admit it.

He once thought that Promise would chase him for the rest of his life, which was also the reason why he bullied her unscrupulously, he never thought that Promise would one day not love.

She really didn't love anymore, and he knew what he had squandered all these years.