"Beauties, winter is here, and it's time for you to wear short skirts and shiver and show your legs and breasts."

"It's a pity that you're not a beauty."

It didn't take long after I posted this in the space to have a message and forward the dynamics.,Click on it to see.,It turned out to be a reply from my crush.,There are two pouting dynamic emojis in the back.。

I'm such a person, I don't play email, I don't play WeChat, I don't like to call, I don't talk about QQ, and all my thoughts and thoughts are recorded in QQ space, but few people can understand it.

I pouted, and when I found that the person over there couldn't see it at all, I smiled again, and realized that I was really two to the extreme.

"Love the world of your pen and be a simple little woman."

I posted a new update, and the message of my crush came again. "Love the world under your pen and be a simple and beautiful man." This time, there are no dynamic expressions, and it seems to be serious. I haven't replied to the message again, he sent a QQ message again, "Demon, I have left beforehand, I will leave you again, okay." ”

Before I could reply to his avatar, it darkened, and my heart suddenly felt a little cold. Why, why do I feel lost? Is it that he won't talk to me anymore? But he said he would leave me another message, but how could I have a feeling in my heart that I was about to lose and a feeling of loss that I couldn't be more familiar with.

This feeling, déjà vu, as if he was present in my life, where? How could I not remember?!

I clenched my fist and knocked my head on the head, but I still couldn't remember.

Did I know him, or did he and I just sympathize with each other, so that I had such a strange but familiar feeling?!

It must be so!!

I let go of my heart and smiled. The computer has long since been locked, and those childish animations have jumped and jumped on the computer screen again. With my hands down, I felt like I should leave, and I can't guarantee that I won't be indulged if I stay here any longer.

The piece of paper flew to the ground, and I must have touched the piece of paper that Zheng Xiaoyang gave me, on which was the phone number he gave me.

I didn't look at the eleven digits, I kept thinking of what Song Qiqi said to me, like a magic spell that stimulated my nerves, which were already fragile because of Zheng Xiaoyang.

I thought I could forget about talking to my crush, but it was, and I would forget it completely in the world of words. Forget the deep sorrow that this world has given me, and forget my own heart...... Because of Zheng Xiaoyang's reappearance, my heart was restless again.

And now, my hands are lowered, and the rare winter sunlight appears in my room through the annoying glass through my fingers.

The piece of paper, a little wrinkled, fell miserably white and gently under the perspective of the sun, like a sad white butterfly abandoned by the world because of its ugliness.

Bending over and reaching out, that was the only past I could grasp, and that was the only way Zheng Xiaoyang and I could meet again. How could I bear it to slip and disappear again in my world?!

Without a trace, without a trace of such cruelty.

Absolutely not!!

But why did the piece of paper slip through my fingers, I looked at it, it didn't move, it fell to the ground softly and delicately, and there was only a gray shadow in the sunlight.

Suddenly gray, thinking of Sophie Fei, the bewitching woman who took away all Zheng Xiaoyang's eyes, did she also take away all Zheng Xiaoyang's heart?! Zheng Xiaoyang, is it as Song Qiqi said, that we no longer need to contact each other?!

When I closed my eyes, I knew that the sun would fall on my hunched back, and that the rest of the world would fall fairly on my cheeks. My eyes moved, my eyelashes must have trembled slightly, and it must have been beautiful, I thought.

Zheng Xiaoyang, it's because I'm not beautiful enough that you don't know that I've been secretly liking you, right?!

Zheng Xiaoyang's eyes are full of Su Feifei, and my eyes are full of Zheng Xiaoyang's smile, but Zheng Xiaoyang only smiles at Su Feifei, so tender and beautiful, but Zheng Xiaoyang ......

What is suffocation?

Suddenly, I didn't want to see Zheng Xiaoyang again, and that Sophie Fei.

A plain woman like me, what else can a woman like me who has nothing use to win Zheng Xiaoyang's attention?!

In a world like this, I am a loser, a loser forever!! I lost before I even started, didn't I? Zheng Xiaoyang......

So, what else do we need to meet!!

When I opened my eyes, my aching back reminded me of the unbearable pain.

Raising my hand, pieces of paper flew down the window with the tips of my fingers, and I looked up at the sunny world.

The sun pierced my slightly squinted eyes.

On the roof of the building opposite my eyes hung colorful clothes, with the wind, like the wonderful dream world of flowers and butterflies flying in the wind that I have been dreaming of in my heart.

Sitting on the messy pile of books next to me, I wanted to cry, but I didn't have the strength anymore.

......

I sat there with my head buried and wrote a letter to the knife without a trace. We are pen pals, pen pals that my master Xiao Qi found for me, we can chat, we can get angry, and we can talk nonsense......

At that time, it was popular to have pen pals, and he wrote me back, or I wrote him back.

The sunlight fell on the desk through the gray glass window, and there were classmates on the podium wiping the blackboard, and the chalk ash was full of tiny particles in the sunlight, flying everywhere in the dazzling sunlight, so presumptuous, so stubborn, just like the one in my dream.

I was writing, and there were a couple of people behind me sitting at their desks chatting. I didn't look back, I was never interested in these things, I just blindly indulged in my own small space and world.

"Pen pals are fools!" The familiar voice came, it was Zheng Xiaoyang, my heart moved, and I still didn't look back, because I hated boys like him, in and out of a lot of people, with poor grades and self-righteousness.

Then there was laughter, laughter of a group of people, I looked back angrily, what was the matter with my pen pal in his hands? They are not qualified to laugh at me!

Look back, freeze frame.

Those classmates who were good friends with Zheng Xiaoyang were talking about funny things together, and their attention was not on me. Only Zheng Xiaoyang, only him, he looked at me, I looked at him, and at this moment we are all stored in the eyes of this.

Zheng Xiaoyang placed his legs apart on his classmate's stool, his right elbow propped up on his knee, and his right palm propped back on his cheekbone, as if smiling.

I looked at him, just at him.

The last time he spoke to me, my heart throbbed and I was probably crazy, but this time, oh my god, I was completely crazy.

I looked at him, and suddenly he pulled his lips and smiled, and this was the second time he spoke to me. I saw his taunt in the corner of my lips, and then my gaze darkened, and I turned away with a straight face, saying something about your.

I didn't see his expression, but I was sad and sad, why? I don't know.

Then their giggles were gone, the classroom was quiet, and the few scattered students who were still in the classroom were staring at me.

I've always been an exporter, but I didn't expect it to be "dirty" now. I have always been a good student in the eyes of my teachers and classmates, I don't often answer the teacher's questions, I am often the first in the class, and I will turn in the homework of other subjects on time even if I copy it at the same table, and no one knows the rebellion in my heart.

And at this moment, I wanted to say something, but I opened my mouth but said nothing.

The bell rang and he returned to his seat, I was in the middle of the fifth row, and he was on the far left of the third, against the wall. Actually, I could have sat in the front, because I knew his habit of choosing a seat, so I chose to sit in the back. I've been working hard to do well in the exam, just so that I can choose to look up and see his position in front of the ranking, even if it's just a side face, even if it's just a back.

Neither friends nor class teachers will know this secret.

I didn't listen to a word in the rest of the lesson......

The days of such a lonely crush are infinitely repeated, and he and I never cross paths again.

When it was time to divide the class, he chose science and I chose liberal arts.

I knew that science was more promising, and my homeroom teacher talked to me about it, but I really hated science, those physical phenomena, those chemical reactions. Therefore, I chose to persevere, the head teacher was helpless, and I was destined to be separated from him.

I think there is always a chance to meet in a school or a grade, and the chance is very small, but it is not impossible.

It's better to let me face those pesky physical chemistry than to let me die, but if I die, I won't see him, I ......

He walked through the corner from the big playground to the small playground, the beveled edge, I passed, I didn't look up, I looked down.

"A flower comes the gentle ...... who passes by"

Music committee member Wang Xia taught the whole class to sing "Millennial Love", and I listened to him sing, soft, warm......

Are you singing it to me?!

Or, is it just a coincidence?!

I turned around, and he was gone, and I looked at his back, not knowing that it was the last time I saw him.

He was gone, completely out of my world.

Zheng Xiaoyang, do you know the last thing you said to me when you leave?!

"No, Zheng Xiaoyang......."

When you open your eyes, the past is cut off from thousands of mountains and rivers.

When I rushed downstairs, the paper was long gone, and the wind swept the ground, leaving only the cars next to me coming and going. What kind of hustle and bustle is related to me?!

The wind is blowing, my head is hurting again, and I remember the past.

Zheng Xiaoyang broke off contact with each other again because of me this time, God will definitely not give me a chance to meet you again, right?!

But Zheng Xiaoyang, why am I not firm enough?! Is it because I don't love you enough? No, it must not be, no, it must not be like this! But why?

I thought too much, I indulged in it, and my head hurt a little more.

"Sister Susu, as long as you don't miss Zheng Xiaoyang, your head won't hurt." The words of the torture dream rose from my troubled heart again, but how could I not miss Zheng Xiaoyang?

Looking up, the wind swept over my eyes, where did the sun hide just now, and what about the butterflies in the dream, which country I could not predict.

Zheng Xiaoyang, my beloved Zheng Xiaoyang, why did Song Qiqi ask me not to contact you, didn't she say that she wanted me to be happy. She knows I love you and loves you to the core, but why doesn't she support me in contacting you? Why, should I ask for a reason, and how should I speak?!

I can't tell the difference between reality and dreams again, leaning against the tree, my body is shivering, it's so cold, why is it so cold?!

When I looked up, the sky seemed to be darkened, and it was cloudy, so that I couldn't feel the slightest tenderness.

It's time to go back, and you'll have to walk the rest of the way alone.

Turn around and leave the noise behind me.

Those prosperity that has nothing to do with me still have nothing to do with me after all.

Climbing the stairs, feeling weak, leaning on the railing and looking out, how can there be a familiar figure?

I was wrong, my delusion?!

Oops, I'm too deep indulging, it's time to go back and get some sleep, maybe tomorrow will be fine, forget about all this, hopefully.

turned around, laughed at himself, and smiled. I don't know what they will think when they run out willfully, the current situation is what they want to see the most, it's just a joke, what kind of courage do they have to survive?

Alas, life is nothing more than this, always strong, always unbearable, still no love, still have no heart......

I don't think about it, I'm still more tired.

The stairwell was a little dark, and the voice-activated lights weren't on. Someone came in, getting closer, and I leaned up the stairs to get the man up first.

The man approached me, and suddenly, the voice-activated light came on.

I turned my face, the light pierced my eyes, there was a familiar figure in my eyes, did I see it wrong?!

I'm trying to keep my eyes open, I'm so tired, I think I'm sick, I think it's very serious.

"Sister Susu, why are you here? It's good that you're here, so you don't have to come down and open the door, I guess you haven't moved yet, so I'm here. When are you going to go to me? I'm afraid you'll release my pigeon again, so this time I'm here myself, don't play tricks......."

Mengmeng opened her mouth to say a lot of words, I looked at her, it seemed to be real and real, Mengmeng was really by my side.

"Mengmeng, you...... I ......"

I couldn't speak, I wanted to cry, but I still didn't have the strength, thinking that if I cried, I would cry more than I did, so I could only bite my upper lip and couldn't say anything.

"Sister Susu, you ......" Mengmeng said and took my hand, put her face on my face, and said in surprise: "Sister Susu, are you sick, my face is hot."

"Headache, uh......" Thinking about it, she still doesn't know that Zheng Xiaoyang and I have reunited, forget it, wait until I get better and my head is sober and then slowly tell her everything that happened. Headache, I originally wanted to go to the doctor, but I didn't know that I was tired when I walked down, and I was also tired when I climbed upstairs. "I kept my head down, I couldn't see Mengmeng's eyes, and she would be upset if she found out I was lying.

"Sister Susu, why are you sick again? Wasn't it okay to call yesterday? Mengmeng helped me upstairs, and I looked at Mengmeng's face sideways under the light, just as quiet, but there was more anxiety in my eyes.

I looked at her and smiled, and she looked at me, not knowing why.

After being silent for a while, she suddenly shouted as if she remembered something: "Oh, Sister Su Su will wait for six more days for my mother to come, haven't you seen her before, this time I will let you meet her, and by the way, we will discuss some more things."

"Things, what are you discussing?" I stood in the doorway and pushed the door open. "Ah, Sister Susu, you didn't even lock the door when you went downstairs, you ......"

Mengmeng was a little surprised, looking at the messy room, I didn't look at her, she was soft in the old sofa, "I forgot to close the door, I'll be back soon, don't change the topic, what do you want to discuss?" "I pretended to be angry and didn't look at her, but I was actually looking at her with the corner of my eye.

"Ah, Sister Susu......" stopped for a minute, she hadn't figured out what to say, I thought she wanted to say it, and looked at her.

"Oh, by the way, Sister Susu, you haven't taken the medicine yet, I'll help you get the medicine, I saw the pharmacy when I just came, don't worry, it's very close, I won't get lost." After saying that, her person was gone, and I was still a little stunned when I saw that the red was gone, and I lowered my head.

"Sister Susu, only we cook our own noodles tonight." A small head appeared in the doorway, and the long hair swept away her smile.

Xing Mengmeng, like me, can't do anything but cook noodles. Cutting a vegetable can often cut your hands, the same is an Aquarius road blind woman, the same is a very infatuated woman.

The only difference is that she is beautiful and I am mediocre.

The biggest difference is that she is rich, while I am very poor and poor......

We met because of my acquaintance, and because we had the same personality, we became very good friends.

She got home with a car, an elevator; And when I go home, it's still a bus and I climb the stairs......

Under the covers, the phone rang.

Zheng Xiaoyang, we can't meet again, so I'll run away.

Perhaps, this is the best ending for you and me.

Isn't it?!