Chapter 59: A Journey of the Heart
If the festival of life of the Streamer people gave all the young people of the Fiji tribe a spiritual baptism, then it was the same for the future Sukaranna. It's just that this festival brought him an incomparably heavy spiritual impact.
Before this festival, he was still skeptical of the history of the Fiji people, but after the festival, he could no longer deny the authenticity of the ancient logbook. But this only made him doubly painful, and it meant that everything he had believed in had completely collapsed, including his perception, identity, dignity, and worldview, and the worship and illusion he had once harbored about his ancestors, which was completely shattered at this moment, and his inner world was suddenly turned upside down.
In the past, he could not have any affection for the streamers who had brought great disasters to the world of Lepeilian, and he always thought that it was the invasion of aliens that led to the fall of the ancient Hill Empire, and the descendants of the Sukarana family lost their due status and dignity, and he was tattooed with the nautical chart that he hated so much. He didn't understand whether the Sukarana ancestors had tattooed the charts in order to survive, or whether they still had delusions about the so-called "land of immortality at the end of the world", but for whatever reason, he was now doubly humiliated.
It turned out that it was his ancestors who deceived him and deceived the whole world! He thought he was a hero incarnated of justice, but in reality he was just a fool who was fooled by lies. This tremendous impact destroyed all the illusory superiority of the past, and left him in agony, ashamed, and traumatized his soul like never before. He ran out in confusion, and he didn't know how long, until he was exhausted, and his frantic thoughts finally calmed down a little.
Then he realized that he had stumbled upon a completely unfamiliar forest, which was far from the small town of Honia. After a long time in the strange forest, he had to admit that he was really lost, and he couldn't help but become more and more irritated, and kicked the big tree in front of him in anger. After exsuming a lot of energy, I only felt thirsty and tired, but the resentment in my heart did not ease at all.
"Why did you hit him like that?"
Suddenly a childish voice came from behind him, and Miku couldn't help but pause, but he didn't look back immediately, he suspected that he might have auditory hallucinations. Because the forest was so deep and far away, he had already circled the neighborhood several times, and he hadn't seen a beast except himself, let alone a human.
But soon, the childish voice sounded clearly from behind again: "Why did you hit him like this?"
Future turned around, only to see a child standing behind him, no matter how he looked at it, he thought it was incredible, and the child was followed by a streamer with only half of his wings. He was so surprised that he couldn't help but be stunned, and it wasn't until the boy repeated the previous question word for word again that he suddenly came back to his senses. Perhaps it was the child's innocent appearance that made him let go of his guard and involuntarily responded, "Hit it?" Oh, I'm just a little annoyed because I'm lost. ”
"Annoyed?" the child didn't seem to understand what annoyance was, and at first tilted his head to think about it, but soon said with clarity, "that's really your misfortune, it's your own fault that you let those harmful things dominate your soul." Then he asked, puzzled, "But why did you hit him?"
"Because I'm lost. Future was a little crying and laughing, not understanding why the kid was asking this question over and over again that he had already answered.
But the child did not think that the future had already answered his question, and then took the trouble to ask, "You have already told me that you are lost, and that is indeed your misfortune." But why did you hit him?"
Obviously, in the child's view, getting lost and kicking the tree are two different things, and there is no necessary connection between the two.
This kind of simple and unreasonable entanglement makes the future difficult to parry, and I can't help but feel a little helpless, but I also unconsciously calmed down from the indignation just now, and then smiled and said: "Oh, because I ......" I was about to reason with this child, when suddenly, something rushed into his mind, and he suddenly woke up: yes, why do I kick and hit a tree repeatedly? Getting lost is indeed just my own misfortune, and it has nothing to do with this innocent tree, and I use it to vent my anger. It can be seen that he must have subconsciously done many equally stupid things in the past, and he was unaware of it. Why do you take it for granted that others suffer my anger?Could it be that it was because of my own unfortunate experience that I had deepened my discrimination against the Fiji people and hatred for the Streamers??Thinking about this, Sukarana could no longer laugh at the future. He walked up to the child, crouched down, and said with a little annoyance, "Well, it's my fault. Do you know how to get out there? This forest is just too big. ”
The child nodded, stretched out his hand to the tree that Fang had been kicked and hit by the future, and said, "He has already told you the direction, but you didn't listen to him at all." ”
Looking back behind him for some unknown reason, he was sure he hadn't heard anything, and besides, there was no one behind him except the trees. Then he looked at the one-winged streamer suspiciously, hoping that he could show him a way out of the forest.
As he wished, Chi Mo gave a hint: "Plants have the ability to discern directions, you just need to observe them carefully to find the answer they give you." ”
"Ahh Before, he was so angry that he forgot even such simple common sense. In vain, he had lived at sea with the Fiji people for so many years, and now he had to rely on others for such simple things as discerning directions. He wasn't supposed to get lost in this forest, but he let negativity dominate his mind, which affected his judgment and forgot more important things. After realizing this, the future couldn't help but regret secretly: now I finally understand that what she once said about 'seeing the world with affection' is actually this truth...... I was so stupid!
During the conversation with the streamers, the remaining resentment in the future's heart unconsciously dissolved, and he naturally walked back with them. On the way, his gaze would always involuntarily move to the lone wing behind Chi Mo, because of that unbalanced sense of vision, which made him feel very uncomfortable. Although it was a bit rude, he couldn't help but ask curiously, "Your other wing...... Why is it gone?"
But as soon as the words came out, I regretted it a little in the future, and I vaguely felt that the reason for it would definitely not be pleasant. But unexpectedly, Chi Mo said calmly: "It was broken many years ago. ”
Broken?Chi Mo's tone was unexpectedly flat, but it turned out to make the future even more concerned. How did that wing break? He couldn't find the slightest clue from Chi Mo's calm face, and his heart became more and more uncomfortable, and he subconsciously asked, "Do you hate those who broke your wings?"
"Hate, why?" Chi Mo probably understood the meaning of the word, but he couldn't feel the feeling. He knew that this was an irrepressible negative emotion unique to the Lepeilian people, but because there was no similar emotional consciousness in the soul of the streamer, there were no words such as "hatred" and "anger" in the streamer.
"Don't you feel angry, why don't you hate them because they hurt you and you can't fly from now on?" asked Future, incomprehensibly. The importance of the wings of the streamer must be equivalent to the limbs of the Lepelian people, right? If someone chops off a hand or foot, wouldn't he be angry and hateful? Although Future Sukarana never took the initiative to hurt others, he would never easily forgive those who maliciously hurt him. He will surely take that hatred to heart, and always remind himself that one day he will have to pay the same price for his enemies.
"No, that would be against our rules of survival. Because resentment is a harmful emotion that only makes it more painful and not beneficial. Chi Mo calmly explained, "The Streamer will never let any destructive thoughts infringe upon or dominate our souls. Because the soul is the most important thing, we must protect our soul, it is our responsibility to ourselves. ”
Chi Mo's answer was completely unexpected by the future, and he couldn't help but ask in surprise: "The law of survival...... Do you mean the law? Are the laws of the streamers so severe? Don't you even have the freedom to be angry?"
Between words, he unconsciously substituted his own emotional experience. Because, at this time, the future Sukarlana has not yet realized that the difference between the streamer and the Lepelian is not just in appearance, but in the deeper soul. Some things that he thought were natural and unquestionable did not exist for the streamers. Even the use of the phrase "the difference between the two races" is not enough to describe the differences between the two races.
"It's not like that. The rules of survival in our homeland are for us to survive better, not to govern our thoughts and behaviors. Streamers are born with self-discipline because our souls tell us that the law of survival is the wisdom of survival. Moreover, not only for the streamers, the law is the same for all life in the homeland. Chi Mo explained calmly.
"However, haven't you ever doubted the correctness of the law?" Thinking about history and your own past, the future can't help but measure and question the way of life of the streamers with their own experience.
"The law of survival is fair to all life in our homeland, and it gives us peace, tranquility and prosperity, and its correctness is beyond doubt. Chi Mo said with conviction.
"Is it because of fairness...... Future is skeptical, after all, the word "fairness" was not only coined in the world of Lepelian, but has also been used for thousands of years in various books and verbal terms. Ironically, however, there is little evidence of the existence of "fairness" in Lepelian's world from ancient times to the present day. It is precisely because of this that he thinks that people cannot be fair and just to everything under any circumstances, and this is really too difficult! Therefore, there is such a doubt: how can the streamers do it? Do they really do it?
But no matter how much Sukarlana questioned it at this time, as he came into contact with the streamers more and more, the remaining prejudice and hostility in his heart gradually dissipated unconsciously.