Sun Shengyi's mother-in-law, Mrs. Kang, devoutly believes in the Buddha, every morning and evening to chant the scriptures, with a string of rosewood Buddha beads on her wrist all the year round, when she has nothing to do, she takes it in her hand, rubs the twist of the Buddha beads, her eyes are stagnant, and she has words.

For example, some people believe that the suffering in this life is due to their own sins in previous lives, and that others are not to blame. So there is no longer a fluke, but to bear it with peace of mind, or to hand over all the choices to the Buddha God, and it is the arrangement of the gods to live a better life than a bad one, and I will no longer carry the burden of my soul and spirit.

This type of person, with a calm expression, can often be distinguished at a glance.

People without faith tend to be more determined and stubborn, but they look more like wild horses fighting alone in the wilderness.

The human brain is a mysterious black box, and no one can properly interpret dreams, hallucinations, premonitions, and split personalities.

No one can explain why some people are as stubborn as cows, but they are easily brainwashed.

Faith, for individuals, is a place of spiritual sustenance. For the ruling class, in the end, it is a means of controlling people's hearts.

Sun Shengyi's second sister-in-law, Li Ruoyun, lost her husband and a child in that bombing, and since then she has lost hope in life, giving people a feeling of losing her soul.

Shen Mengxi looked more like she was suffering from depression, chatted with her a few times, and wanted to explain a thing or two, but Li Ruoyun loved to ignore it, when she was in a good mood, she came to the kitchen to help cook, and when she was in a bad mood, she didn't even go out of the door, and she cried at every turn.

"It's boring to be alive." Shen Mengxi heard her say before closing the door.

Among the five children in their family, three are Li Ruoyun's, but she doesn't take much care of them, she just often looks at them and sighs, sometimes she puts down her job, lamenting that she is incompetent, and she relies on her younger siblings to support her children, and even her mother-in-law is not as good as her mother-in-law, who is in poor health and is not useful, it is better to die.

Everyone comforted her, and when she got better, she would do the same thing, and now she should take care of her body with peace of mind. Several children listened to their mother's nagging, their faces were numb, and they didn't cry, presumably they had heard too much over the years.

Shen Mengxi shook his head helplessly.

Sun Shengyi was stronger than Shen Mengxi imagined, and she also lost her husband and a son, but she knew that she still had two younger children who needed her, so she stood up strongly. In addition to teaching the children every day, she also undertakes some laundry and cooking chores, and in her heart, if she doesn't do more, she can't live in an orphanage with a large family with peace of mind.

The orphanage needs a lot of grain and vegetables every day, and needs a lot of domestic water, which needs to be transported to the orphanage by Bangbang, Bangbang Army, can be described as the hero of Chongqing, it was these people who used their shoulders to transport 100,000 tons of factory materials from Yichang to Chongqing, so that the national industry was reborn in the war.

Every time, Shen Mengxi would give a little more money to carry water, firewood, rice and vegetables, and they were also willing to deliver goods to this generous orphanage. Most of the wealthy people in Chongqing fled from all over the country, and the people who contributed were local farmers.

There have been several thefts from the orphanage, and all the food was lost.

Another time on the way home to transport grain, was robbed, it was five or six half-old children who grabbed the grain, and the stick that carried the burden picked up the stick and smashed it a few times, Shen Mengxi stood on the stone steps and did not move. If she were an adult, she might pull out her gun in anger, but these are children, and despite their bad behavior, she can't shoot at them.

She didn't even call the police.

only strengthened the vigilance of the orphanage, and brought the two guards left by Wang Shouqing to the orphanage from home.

On this day, I didn't see Sun Shengyi's mother-in-law come out at dinner in the morning, and a few children were taken by a few older girls, saying that Grandma Kang was sick and lying down.

Shen Mengxi was puzzled and walked into the room to check. As soon as she entered the door, she heard a painful moan, and Mrs. Kang lay on her side on the bed with beads of sweat from her nose, moaning softly.

"Are you sick? I'll take a look! ”

The old lady wanted to refuse, but Shen Mengxi pressed her hand, tested the temperature of her forehead, and asked her where it hurt.

The old lady finally lifted the placket of her clothes embarrassedly, and Shen Mengxi was shocked, it turned out that Mrs. Kang had a herpes under her left rib and spread to her back.

"Shingles! So serious? How many days? Why didn't you say it earlier? Shen Mengxi stood up and prepared to go back to get the medicine box.

"Don't worry." Mrs. Kang said that she was not tight, but she was still very nervous in her heart, and there was a folk saying about snake sores, that is, if the herpes was wrapped around the waist, the person would die.

Shen Mengxi quickly brought the medicine box, and Sun Shengyi also hurriedly followed, and when she saw her mother-in-law's situation, she blamed herself very much.

Mrs. Kang waved her hand to make her feel relieved. She had been in pain for three days, at first I thought it was a boil on the fire, and when the herpes was connected into a piece, I was shocked that it might be a snake sore, and she was embarrassed to wake up others at night, so she had to endure it, and in the morning, the pain was so unbearable that she hummed out of the sound, and a few little girls who helped to bring the child came in, and saw that she was sweating in pain, so she went out and called someone.

Shen Mengxi gave her oral antiviral drugs, applied ointment, and gently wrapped it with gauze to prevent the herpes from rupturing.

Herpes zoster is caused by chickenpox virus, often out of chickenpox people, the virus has not been eliminated, latent in the human body, when the person's immunity is low, the outbreak of the virus, the virus spreads along the nerves, that kind of pain, can be described as an extreme pain, if the herpes treatment is not timely, it has been developed, it will lead to lower and lower immunity, the body is getting worse and worse, and finally it may lead to death.

Li Ruoyun came to visit her mother-in-law when she heard the sound, and after hearing about her condition, she cried and cried, "It's all useless for your daughter-in-law, and it's my fault for you to work hard." ”

Shen Mengxi's head was too big, and he hurriedly pulled her out, "The old lady's illness is to take medicine, just raise it for a month, don't cry, if you have the strength, help take care of the child." ”

Li Ruoyun is very embarrassed, she feels weak every day, although she gave birth to four children, but she has not taken them personally, they are all brought up by domestic servants, she has a good family since she was a child, she can't do anything except embroidery and writing.

Shen Mengxi waved his hand, "Forget it, you teach a few older children to be female celebrities, let's make the clothes in the backyard by ourselves, and buy delicious food with the money we save." ”

That night, the alarm sounded, everyone hid in the air-raid shelter in an orderly manner, Mrs. Kang lay on a low bed, sitting in front of her youngest granddaughter, a group of children, lined up on small bamboo benches, under the dim light, the little daughter-in-law was teaching English to the children, the little granddaughter stretched out her hand to shout to her mother from time to time, but the second daughter-in-law sat in a dark corner, bowing her head and saying nothing. The old lady couldn't help but sigh again, and her back stabbed again.

Huang Jinfang works in the newspaper, and in his spare time he came to the orphanage to help, and he was also in the orphanage that day, he and Shen Mengxi sat together and chatted, "Sister Zhang, in the Battle of Midway, the Japanese army was defeated and four aircraft carriers were sunk!" What a joy! ”

Shen Mengxi also smiled, there was a turning point in the Pacific War.

"But Henan suffered a locust plague"

Shen Mengxi's smile froze, she had seen a movie, it was called 1942.

Shanxi, Hebei, Shandong, and Henan suffered from locust plagues, especially in Henan, although the Nationalist Government took a series of measures to set up porridge factories and allocate funds for disaster relief. However, the Japanese prevented the movement of the victims to the Japanese theater and drove them to the areas controlled by the Kuomintang and the Communist Party.

As winter approached, the number of victims increased dramatically, and in some places they sold their wives and children, and their children were fed.

Hunger is everywhere, hell on earth.

Shen Mengxi didn't want to think about these pictures.

The sound of bombing outside continued, the earth shook, and the dirt in the air-raid shelter fell, Li Ruoyun suddenly screamed and ran towards the door.

Shen Mengxi and Huang Jinfang hurriedly went to pull her.

"Can't live! I'm going to die! I'm going to die! Li Ruoyun looked crazy, grabbing her hair with her hands, irritable. Neither the two people with the strength could hold her down.

Mrs. Kang was so angry that she trembled, endured the sharp pain in her waist, walked over a few steps, and slapped her twice, "Can you live?" If you can't live, you will quietly die by yourself! Who is singing and playing here? Looking at it, how many are still complete? Only you are pitiful? ”

Li Ruoyun was beaten so that blood oozed from the corners of his mouth, and he sat down on the ground and was honest. Her three children pounced on her, hugged her and cried together.

Shen Mengxi looked at her weakly, and didn't bother to pull her.

She remembered Hu Yidao's wife in "Snow Mountain Flying Fox", after her husband died, she threw down her son who had just completed the moon and committed suicide as soon as possible. When she first read this book, she was still a middle school student, and she was very disdainful of Hu's wife, she didn't think it was martyrdom, but felt that it was to escape her mother's responsibility, and death was the easiest and easiest choice compared to raising her children.

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