Chapter 30: The Key to Twilight
Zheng Yi, who was enlightened, almost became a Buddha on the spot, but he was indeed disturbed by Cao Yunjuan's parting behavior at night, he understood that some things were not experienced, and he would not be enlightened now. It is infinitely close to the long-awaited pleasure of the first time, and the sudden interruption of the god comes to make yourself have an epiphany. The persistence of this epiphany is a rootless wanderer. I did regret it a little at night. Thinking that it's like that during the day, isn't it natural for you to be restless? The will is not firm, and within a few hours, he regretted his righteousness at noon, and the loss of the position seemed to be in an instant.
Zheng Yi, who was lying on the bed scratching his heart and liver, regretted it very much, and he didn't understand where he had smoked the evil wind, and Wang Hua's lesson seemed to be still in front of him. Obviously, I can't sleep anymore, but I still can't sleep peacefully, anyway, if I don't figure things out, I definitely won't be able to sleep tonight. I can't figure it out when I think about it, so forget it, think about what to do tomorrow. I have already taken the exam once a few days ago, and my results are miserable, today is a day of enlightenment, and I should do what I should do at my age, thinking of this, Zheng Yi suddenly had a flash of inspiration. That's right, my willpower is not strong, wouldn't it be good to stay away from Cao Yunjuan for the time being? If the two love for a long time, how can it be in the morning and twilight? Being separated for a period of time can also make you completely understand whether you should bravely step on the red line or continue to stick to your understanding of love. At the same time, since I have decided to do what I should do now, shouldn't I learn now? Thinking of this, Zheng Yi fell asleep very wonderfully.
When he got up in the morning, Zheng Yi suggested to his parents that he temporarily suspend classes and have a distant cousin of his own raid at home to make up for his class. Zheng Yi's distant cousin happens to be studying at a university in the city, which is also very convenient. Zheng Yi's parents gladly accepted it, the high school entrance examination has been more than a month, according to Zheng Yi's current state, it must be hopeless for high scores, let people come to make up for the class, it can be regarded as grinding the gun in the battle, just do it, act separately, Zheng Yi is waiting at home, his father goes to the school to communicate with the teacher, and his mother goes to his cousin's university to invite his cousin to come home.
The sudden disappearance is also a small mockery of Zheng Yi to Cao Yunjuan. Who told her that she still had a grudge against herself last night, even though she deserved it.
Zheng Yi, who received special tutoring at home, really did it without distractions, and nearly a month passed in a flash, and it finally came to an end, and I couldn't fill anything in my head, so let's rest. As soon as Zheng Yi calmed down, he thought of Cao Yunjuan, I don't know what happened now, after he changed sex, it seems that love is really not all he lives. Although not all, Cao Yunjuan is still her own concern, and Zheng Yi feels that she wants to go and see it.
After eating at noon, Zheng Yi arrived at school, everyone felt very close to Zheng Yi when they saw him, people are like this, they are happy to meet every day, and when they say goodbye after a little separation, they are overjoyed when the flowing water continues. However, the figure that Zheng Yi wanted to see never appeared. Zheng Yi is not very good at asking the people around him, after all, in the eyes of everyone, he is Cao Yunjuan's real boyfriend, and he has to ask others about the recent situation between boyfriend and girlfriend, which is really naked irony. With a glance, he finally saw a familiar figure coming in from the school gate like a boneless wandering spirit, Zheng Yi flashed out of the crowd, and hurriedly ran to the school gate, Cao Yunjuan saw Zheng Yi, was stunned, didn't wait for Zheng Yi's instructions, turned around and walked outside the school, Zheng Yi chased to the school gate, and saw Cao Yunjuan waiting for him at the mouth of the alley next to him.
"What's wrong with you?" "What's wrong with you~?" All expectations would have expected such a reunion. Zheng Yi knew in his heart that he was asking why Cao Yunjuan was so listless, and Cao Yunjuan was asking why he suddenly disappeared. When I hadn't seen him before, Zheng Yi wanted to at least have a passionate hug, but when he heard this, Zheng Yi instantly lost a trace of evil thoughts in his heart. "My family asked me to tutor at home! Why are you so unmotivated? "Can't sleep at night, take sleeping pills" "Take sleeping pills? This...... "It doesn't have much to do with you" Well, it turns out that waiting for me is not a hug, but a complaint, and the reason is not what I think. Is the relationship just fading away for no reason? Why is the morning twilight in the poem different from my own morning twilight? Zheng Yi instantly felt that it was not Cao Yunjuan who was standing in front of him, but Wang Hua, and he saw the appearance of a woman when his feelings faded. So what do you do now? "How can you go to class like this, I'll send you back!" Cao Yunjuan was noncommittal. Zheng Yi put his hand on Cao Yunjuan's shoulder and walked in the direction of her house. Along the way, Cao Yunjuan's body swayed in the wind, and Zheng Yi had to use all his strength to move to her house step by step. Sent to the entrance of the building, Cao Yunjuan struggled and walked back by herself.
Zheng Yi looked at Cao Yunjuan's back, he understood one thing, Cao Yunjuan may have only been a way to relieve their troubles from the beginning, the unknown of the future, the fear of the future, so that Cao Yunjuan was at a loss, maybe she was really emotional about herself, but in fact she didn't really need love, she needed herself, after she suddenly disappeared, Cao Yunjuan couldn't get rid of her boredom, and could only use sleeping pills to keep herself in a state of confusion. He was glad that he was not reckless a month ago, and even more glad that he had taken a break from school. Otherwise, once you are immersed in a love that is difficult to distinguish between true and false, it is not your own life that is wrong. Feelings, love, can only be because of attraction, because there is a real need.
During the exam, everyone saw each other for a few more days, including Cao Yunjuan, Zheng Yi and her intimacy, and it disappeared on that night full of regrets, resentments, and happiness. When they first got together, there was no vigor, there was no earth-shattering, and when the relationship disappeared, it was so light and light, and there was not even an obvious definition. That night, at least one more wave goodbye and a playful and cute grimace. Zheng Yi asked himself, whether there is still attachment in the bottom of his heart, yes, the emotional payment is not a river flowing at any time, but the echo of the empty valley, only when the passion is surging, the more intense you are, the clearer and stronger the voice comes back.
Zheng Yi doesn't understand why every relationship is so unclear, full of regret and unwillingness, if you insist on summing up a conclusion, Zheng Yi can only say that those are just jokes, some unforgettable, unforgettable jokes, some jokes that should not be experienced at that age.