"Yuan Fang"

The light and the sound made Li Yuanfang, who was sitting on the ground, instantly in a trance, she blocked the light with her hand, squinted her eyes, and saw the person clearly between her fingers.

Who else could that sound be, and who could she hope it would be?

"Suman, is that you?" There was a hint of tiredness and a hint of disappointment in his voice.

Su Man didn't close the door, she hid a crack in the door. Gently walked towards Li Yuanfang, and then followed the other party, found a place to sit on the ground slowly, and then looked at the beautiful marquee in front of him.

There are a few children frolicking in the horse lantern, chasing firecrackers, grabbing rabbit lanterns, gently turning the lights, and the pictures on the board seem to be moving small videos, and the lively Lantern Festival weather is displayed.

"Is this what Brother Yuanying gave you?"

Hearing this, Yuan Fang's body stiffened slightly, she raised her eyes in surprise and looked at Su Man, then pulled the corners of her mouth slightly, as if laughing at herself, and said, "Song Ci told you!" ”

"Hmm!" Su Man nodded and said, "She is very envious that you have such an elder brother as Yuanying, who is willing to use most of his New Year's money to buy beautiful lanterns for his sister." ”

"If I can, I don't want anything, as long as my brother lives, lives well" Li Yuanfang buried his head between his bent knees and took a deep breath, choked up but said clearly

"I am willing to exchange my life for a life, as long as my brother lives well, my father and mother will also be well, and the house will be the same as in the past...... Good."

"Yuan Fang, whether it's Brother Yuan Ying or you, whoever has any misfortune, your father and mother will be sad"

"Suman, you don't understand. In our world, men are respected, and my brother is the only male in our house. He is also my mother's heart, "Li Yuanfang leaned on the corner of the desk a little tiredly, and sighed

"Mother put him first in everything, he is gone, and his mother's backbone is gone. She couldn't see anyone else, she couldn't see her father, she couldn't see me.

Everyone is sad when my brother is gone, my father is uncomfortable, my grandmother is uncomfortable, and I know that my mother is even more uncomfortable. Everyone is trying to accept the fact that their brother has died, but their mother can't get out, and she doesn't want to come out. ”

Hearing this, Su Man approached Li Yuanfang and gently patted her shoulder to reassure. It's just that Li Yuanfang has fallen into a painful memory at this moment, and there may be some words that she doesn't want to say to anyone in this world.

It's just that Su Man is different, she is not from here, she is a visitor from outside the world. I know the other party's secrets and the weaknesses of the other party, so can the other party let myself talk to myself like a tree hole:

"Su Man, do you know, on the day my brother was buried, my mother had a big fight with my father, and she injured all the porters who came to carry my brother's coffin, and even the family members in the house were injured to varying degrees.

Her mother didn't want her brother to leave her, and seemed to think that the person who was going to bury her brother that day was the murderer of his brother. In the end, my father couldn't, so I could only put medicine in my mother's tea, so that my brother could be buried proudly.

It's just that since then, the two of them have become strangers, it should be said that the mother unilaterally turned a blind eye to the father, and she locked herself in her brother's house every day, the place full of his brother's belongings.

My mother never interacted with anyone except for a few days when she would come out of my brother's house and say a few words to me.

And the father is caught between the grandmother and the mother because of the mother's various behaviors, and it is very difficult. My father has not been drinking outside since my brother's incident, and only on good holidays will my father drink a little wine in front of my brother's funeral hall and talk to himself until dawn.

He kept blaming himself and repenting, but what was wrong with him? Isn't it the wrongdoer who has been sentenced to death? Father, what did he do wrong?

And Suman, my mother knew my father's pain, knew that he repented in front of my brother's funeral hall, but she turned a blind eye to it.

Even if she sat down with her father, she would talk about her brother in a few words, and then she would blame her father for not being able to accompany her to incense because he was drunk the day before, which led to his brother's death. She would blame her father, insult her father, and force her father to admit that it was because she ate flower wine that she made a mistake, and then questioned whether her father wanted to find someone to have a new son to inherit the second house.

Of course, her mother will also blame herself for not watching her brother that day, blame herself for not fulfilling her responsibilities as a mother, how can she let her brother face such danger alone, she keeps saying that she deserves to die, deserve to die......

But Suman, she never blamed me......"

Li Yuanfang's eyes suddenly turned red, like an injured little beast grabbing Su Man's arm and shaking it vigorously, expressing her self-blame and her anger:

"Why, why doesn't she blame me? In fact, it's because I'm greedy, because I like to eat persimmons from that family, and my brother is buying persimmons for me, and the gangsters I met on the road died innocently!

Isn't it because of me? I should be damned! It's me damn it! ”

Li Yuanfang's face was distorted, she threw her shackled hand, threw herself back in despair, and hit the foot of the desk again. Unable to feel the pain, she looked at the marquee on the ground with red eyes and gritted her teeth

"I only hate that it wasn't me who accompanied my mother to the incense.

If it were me who died, would they all be a little less sad, my grandmother would no longer embarrass my mother, and there would be no other people between my father and mother, and there would still be harmony in the house.

It's just that there is one less daughter, the parents are still young, and they can have another one, and the elder brother has reached the age of marriage, even if they don't have children, they can directly hold a grandson.

In that case, the Li Mansion will still be a place full of laughter! Right......

How nice it would be if it were me who died! ”

"Yuan Fang" Su Man hugged the other party and patted her back gently, slowly comforting, "If you had encountered an accident at that time, Brother Yuan Ying would have blamed himself like you, painful, you know that he loves you and loves you, how can you let him accept your departure." ”

Su Man let go of his embrace, touched his heart to Li Yuanfang and said

"It's like you can't accept his departure, it's going to hurt here.

There's no better saying that anyone is dead, and you don't deserve to die. The damned one has already been sentenced to death.

And all you can do is slowly heal the wound and get out of that pain. I believe that this must also be what Brother Yuanying has in mind.

He is such a gentle and humble gentleman, he must hope for the well-being of his family, and hope that you will be happy. But now?

You keep saying that your mother can't get out of the shadow of Wonyoung's brother's departure, so what about you? You're not locking yourself in the past.

You forced yourself to eat on a diet that made you the size of your brother. You practice your handwriting like your brother. You did well in your schoolwork but kept failing in the exams, and you tried hard to learn your brother's hobbies.

And what about yourself? Yuanfang, where are you? Where is the Li Yuanfang that Yuanying's brother likes? ”

Su Man felt that Li Yuanfang's body was constantly trembling and sobbing, as if he was enduring it, and he didn't dare to release his emotions.

Looking at Li Yuanfang, who was holding back tears in front of her and kept telling her that if Yuanying was still alive, everything would be so beautiful, Su Man felt very distressed.

This child was trembling in the house, even if he laughed and cried, he seemed to be entangled in whether he was worthy or not.

"If it's uncomfortable, cry out loud!"

Su Man gently patted Li Yuanfang's back and comforted her, "Don't be afraid, I will accompany you"

In that dark room, Xiao Yuanfang, who had been sad alone and had been ignored, seemed to see someone and came to comfort her, telling her that he would always be with her and let her not be afraid.

Yes, she has always been afraid, she has been afraid, and her brother, who has always protected herself, is gone. Father and mother are strangers, and there are singers at home, and grandmother always sighs when she sees her. She was afraid, afraid that this family would be scattered. She missed her brother, but she didn't dare to say it.

She didn't dare to open her mouth even if she wanted her father, she was afraid that her eyes would be full of sadness and nostalgia when they looked at her. She was afraid that she would accidentally touch their heartbreaks, but they lived separately under the same roof, and the closest distance was also the farthest distance.

Li Yuanfang sobbed at first, was still suppressed, and gradually let down his guard under Su Man's patting and comforting. Then the crying gradually became louder, and finally turned into a howling cry.

The pain and sorrow of the past five years, all the exhaustion, everything is released at this moment.

Li Yuanfang cried for half an hour before he gradually quieted down. She looked outside and saw that it was already dark. At this time, the sun reached the west, and no one was visible at this moment.

The door to the study, which had not been closed tightly, had opened a wide opening because of the wind. It happened that the shadow of a person outside the house was reflected. The weakness of the shadow twitching slightly against the door frame, the silhouette seemed to be ......

Li Yuanfang's eyes blurred again, she staggered to her feet, and slowly walked to the door, but her hands trembled, and she didn't dare to open the door.

She hid inside, the man hid outside, and each had a person in their hearts that they could not forget, but they both loved each other deeply and did not want each other to see each other's discomfort. Hold your heart tightly closed, and the wound will never heal.

At this time, there was a shadow at the door, holding the person outside the door in his arms and comforting him. It was dark, the wind was blowing, and the door was open. The barrier between the three members of the family also opened.

The elders are immersed in the pain of losing their first child, but they forget about their other child. The child who seemed to grow up like an ordinary child was so painful, sad and scared, but they didn't notice it.

They have already lost one child, do they want to lose a second?

Su Man's words about Mrs. Li just now made Mrs. Li realize at that moment that she was too sad and too selfish.

Yes, Wonyoung is her first child, and she has put a lot of thought into it. He is very well-behaved, very caring, and the most gentle son in the world. But Yuan Fang is also her child, and she is also a well-behaved and sensible child.

Because she is too sensible and well-behaved, she has never troubled her at all since Won Ying's death, and she does not rely on her at all. Carefully and cautiously maintain balance at home, but the house that lost Yuan Ying has long lost the balance of the past.

At this moment, Mrs. Li can see the child in front of her clearly, the glutinous little girl who loved beauty, smiled and coquettish when she was a child......

No longer coquettish, no longer smiling, and no longer caring about her appearance, she didn't know when she changed her original life track, she walked in the footsteps of Yuan Ying.

So painful and sad walking, lonely and scared child. Why didn't they see it? How can you not see it?

Looking at Li Yuanfang, who was crying and her eyes were trembling in the door, Mrs. Li couldn't hold back any longer, stepped forward and hugged her tightly and cried, "I'm sorry, Yuanfang, I'm sorry"

"Mother......." Li Yuanfang cried loudly again, tears like bursting embankments.

Then Li Zhanshi at the door also walked in, he also looked sad and apologetic, he stepped forward and hugged Yuanfang's mother and daughter into his arms, the family has never had time to stay quietly in one place since Yuanying's death.

There is no suspicion, no accusation, no abuse, it's just that everyone is missing the same person, and sadness flows backwards.

Li Zhanshi, who had just returned to the mansion after leaving the court, took a deep breath, and now he needs to be more energetic when he returns to the mansion than the previous court.

At this time, a servant came over and reported that Mrs. Li had beaten Su Man, the daughter of Su Cheng. At this moment, several people were in Li Yuanfang's Xiaoxiang Garden's study......

Li Zhanshi told the other party to shut up, and after rubbing his sore temples, he immediately strode in the direction of Xiaoxiang Yuan. In the past few years, he has really been tired of dealing with such things, and his wife can't see his efforts at all.

He is also sad that Yuan Ying is gone, he is his eldest son and only son. The one who gave him help him coax his wife after socializing in the court, he is a literati, and naturally likes to drink and chant poetry with friends, but it is a poetry meeting once a month.

He never drank flower wine, and he didn't like messy things. Although the lady does not have the grace and gentleness of a scholarly woman, her heroic posture when she asked the saint in the main hall to compete with the Fanbang barbarians made Li Zhanshi fall in love.

The model family, which was originally happy and harmonious and the envy of everyone, was finally ruined and completely ruined because of the murder of the crazy gangster.

Madame once wanted to stab the enemy, and she also wanted to retaliate with a tooth for a tooth, but he stopped her. When is the time for retribution, the enemy is dead. Do you want to destroy the other party's full door?

How could that former lady be so indistinguishable and kill innocents indiscriminately! She became more and more violent, because the singer was going to beat Yuan Ying to death if she touched Wonying's things......

Li Zhanshi also put all his eyes on his wife, and he had to deal with his wife's violence and his mother's various births in addition to his grief. Du Du forgot her daughter Yuan Fang, the brother who lost her love and care, and also lost her two parents who loved her.

In a corner that they couldn't see, she forced herself to grow up, forced herself to wear layers of disguise, and the sensible and quiet Yuan Fang made people feel at ease.

But his little Yuanfang is not such a child! At her innocent and pampered age, she grew up lonely and scared.

They lost a child, should they lose another one? Li Zhanshi also left tears of regret.

Su Man here felt that it seemed a little embarrassing to keep herself in such an environment, she walked out of the side door, nodded to Li Zhanshi and left quietly.

That night, the three of Li Fu hugged their heads and cried, crying out all the grief in the past few years. Subsequently, they missed Won Young together, and at the same time, they began to accept the present.

Some knots cannot be restored immediately even if they are untied, but taking this step out of that closed room is half the battle. The days to come will gradually get better.

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