"yes, why were you so calm at the time? The situation seemed urgent. And I'm sure you haven't been in touch with grappling for a long time, right? But your movements seem to me to be very skillful......"

He smiled and threw the cigarette butt into the ocean outside the ship.

"Officer Shao, although I resigned, but, I guess you also know that even if a professional athlete retires, he won't indulge himself and disappear like this, right?" He looked at me with a smile on his face.

"I've been practicing grappling on my own, and I'm also practicing boxing in my spare time. I don't go to the gym very much, though, and I don't really like people who have muscles but don't have any real experience. So, you see, even if you fight me for a few rounds now, Officer Shao, I can't guarantee that you will be able to gain the upper hand. ”

With that, he stretched out his hand and made a defiant gesture to me, as if he wanted to try his hand at me.

Looking at him like this, I smiled and waved my hand, and said, "Come on, I don't think I can beat you." Hong Xiao, you haven't answered my first question yet. Why, you can be so calm? ”

As soon as I asked this question again, Hong Xiao seemed to be a little silent.

"Officer Shao, as for the question you mentioned...... It's a bit of a long story. He suddenly lowered his head and looked at the floor.

"How?" I frowned, and it seemed that he was still a little unspeakable. "If there's anything you can't say you need to say, don't tell me, I'm just curious. After all, even if you are a police officer, it is easy to get nervous in this situation and cause some mistakes. ”

He waved his hand and said:

"There's no such thing. Since Officer Shao wants to hear it, then I'll tell you. It's just that you're going to think I'm joking, you're going to think I'm talking about some kind of fantasy. ”

"No," I reassured. "I'm sure to believe every word you say. Besides, why do you have to lie to me? Right. ”

Hearing my words, he lifted his head against it, and then looked me in the eye. At this time, there was still the sound of birds in the sky, and I looked over his head and saw that many seabirds were gathered together, hovering together over a sea of water.

He followed my gaze, then smiled bitterly, and looked back at the endless sea beyond the deck.

"I have a disease. The name of this disorder is loss-sophobia. He said to me word for word.

My eyes had just returned to Asuka, but my mind had already repeated what he had said twice. As if to confirm what I had just heard, I asked again.

"What disease?"

"You heard you right, Officer Shao, fear of deficiency." He looked at me with a serious look on his face.

"Fear of missing out?" I asked incredulously. "What is this?"

"Hmm......" he scratched his head, as if searching his mind for words that could be used to explain the condition. Strictly speaking, this is not a physical disease, but a psychological disease. My psychiatrist called this 'fear cognitive deficit'. ”

"'Cognitive deficit'?" I repeated the words he had just said.

"Hmm." He turned his head and looked into the depths of the sea with a deep look.

"Simply put, I don't feel fear. In other words, I will never feel scared. Let's say, if the ship were to sink now, everyone would die. Maybe everyone is a little scared, but I ...... Absolutely nothing will be felt. ”

"I don't feel fear......" I listened to what he said in a daze, but my heart was already full of surprise.

How terrible it must be for a person who has no feelings for fear! He doesn't feel fear of anything, he doesn't get nervous or scared in any dangerous situation. If he had been allowed to jump from the upper floors of a dozen floors, he would not even be aware of the impending death in the process of falling.

Standing on this deck at this time, I was greeted by a warm sea breeze, but I suddenly felt a cold touch touch on my skin.

"This ...... How is this possible. I rambled.

"Haha," he smiled helplessly when he saw my reaction: "I knew you wouldn't believe what I said, after all, it's impossible to listen to it." Right, how could a person not be afraid of such emotions? ”

"So, you weren't calm at the time, or because you knew that he was tied to a fake **, but because you didn't feel scared in the first place, right?" I said it, but I still felt unbelief in my heart.

"That's right. Ever since I was a child, I have never been afraid of anything. This may seem like an enviable thing, but it is extremely dangerous for a child who is curious about everything. ”

"I am not afraid of fire, I am not afraid of darkness, I am not afraid of thunder and lightning, I am not afraid of pain. So when I was trying to touch everything in my house and didn't give up until I was injured, my parents noticed something strange about me. They know that I am a different child than any other child. ”

"In order to keep me from easily touching those dangerous things, my mother who loves me marked all the dangerous places and objects in the house in red. If I were going to touch those things, my mom would beat me with a whip and hit me hard until I had a signal in my mind that I would rush to it when I saw red. ”

He told me stories from his childhood. I asked, "But your mother can't keep you in your room forever, you're going to have to get out of this house one day, you're going to have to go outside one day." But outside, your mom can't protect you all the time. ”

"Well, you're right." He said. "So, in order to make me aware of my illness as soon as possible, my parents took me to a psychiatrist very early. By telling him my story and then doing a series of tests on me, this doctor, like you, was amazed. ”

However, he had to trust the results of his tests. That is: I am indeed a person who has no sense of fear. In other words, I am indeed a person who lacks 'fear cognition'. He looked at me and said it all with a blank face.