After more than a month, I finally came to Shengjing.

When I returned to my hometown, I was full of sorrow in my heart, and I still remember that when I last came to Shengjing, I was still the eldest lady in the mansion of the general of Zhenguo.

Now the vicissitudes of life, personnel have changed, my uncle died, the Xu family suffered, and I was left alone, walking on the long streets of Shengjing.

On both sides of the street, the sound of silk and bamboo, the cries of vendors are endless, the people on the street are bustling, and there is a prosperous and lively scene everywhere.

Everything seems to have changed, and yet nothing seems to have changed.

I was strolling along the direction of the pedestrian with my sword in hand, but I noticed a very lively place in front of me, and when I followed those people to the front, I saw an ancestral hall.

At the entrance of the ancestral hall, there is a plaque of 'Xu Gong Ancestral Hall', and I wonder in my heart, because in the courts of the Northern Dynasty and the Southern Fu Kingdom, there does not seem to be a prince surnamed Xu who is famous enough to make people enshrine the ancestral hall in the imperial city of Shengjing.

Someone passed by from time to time, and an aunt carrying a vegetable basket hurriedly said: "Today, the little prince and the county lord of the Nandu Marquis Mansion are giving grace to the porridge in front of the Xu Gong Ancestral Hall, this is a rare opportunity to see the little prince and the county lord in a thousand years. ”

The woman next to her asked, "Little prince?" Isn't it the one who fell into the rivers and lakes more than ten years ago, hasn't he already left the Hou Mansion? ”

The aunt rolled her eyes and said, "You don't know this, I heard that the little prince came back a few months ago, it seems that the old prince is not in good health and went home to visit relatives, and this porridge is also to pray for peace for the old prince." ”

She said and sighed again: "If you want to say that our little prince is really a lover, for the sake of a woman, he doesn't even want the throne, the son of the royal family, one person is above ten thousand people, why do you have to go to the rivers and lakes to fight and kill?" Oh, this Xu Gong Ancestral Hall was also built by the little prince in spite of the opposition of the court. ”

Hearing their words, I suddenly realized something, and subconsciously stepped into the ancestral hall, only to see that all the people enshrined in the ancestral hall were members of the Xu clan.

Standing in the ancestral hall, looking at the familiar names on the tablet, I vaguely seemed to hear them calling my name.

It has been more than ten years, and their bones have long been turned into dust in the wind and rain, and I am the only one who is still alive in this world.

"Girl, do you want incense?"

An old man with a stiff figure stepped forward tremblingly, took me a stick of incense, and said: "This Grandpa Xu is a world-famous virtuous minister, give him incense, pay respect, and ensure the safety of the house." ”

I looked at him, was silent for a moment, bowed my head in thanks, paid him the money, and walked over to the tablets.

Respectfully took a stick of incense, knelt in front of those tablets, kowtowed deeply a few times, his eyes were sour, and he couldn't help but cry.

Outside, everyone says that I am the devil, that I am a disciple of Kunlun Immortal Mountain, Xu Jingrong can overcome obstacles in front of the world, and look down on everything, but in front of them, he is just a willful and naughty child, a little bully who makes them helpless but extremely spoiled.

In the past, I always wanted to be free and not be constrained by my family, but now, when I am really alone, I just want them to come back to me, even if they beat me and scold me every day.

Seeing me lying on the ground and crying bitterly, the old man who sold incense suddenly panicked, and stepped forward to persuade: "What injustice has the girl encountered? ”

He sighed and said: "Now that the world has changed, and the people have a good life, if you have any grievances, just go to the government to report the case." ”

More than ten years ago, in the Northern Dynasty, the emperor was dumb and unreasonable, and the officials were corrupt and perverted the law, resulting in the misery of the people.

I began to be confused, what was my uncle desperately protecting back then, and what was the point of what he sacrificed for?

The funny thing is that standing in today's scene, it seems that our Xu family is stubborn and blocks the fate of the people in the world.

Is there something wrong? Naturally, there is.

My Xu family is full of hundreds of lives, along with the demise of the Northern Dynasty, all of them were buried, they shouldn't have died, but they had to die.

It's like after a play is over, we need a curtain caller, our Xu family is the curtain call person at the end of the Northern Dynasty.

Obviously, so many people have died, the old and weak, women and children, loyal ministers and good men, but they can't tell whether it is right or wrong, the so-called injustice, where is the injustice?

I wiped a handful of tears and shook my head at him: "There is nothing wrong, just remembering some things from the past." ”

If it had been more than ten years ago, I might have hated and resented, but now, looking at the bustling streets, I suddenly can't hate it.

It's just a matter of resentment and creation.

The old man said: "Looking at the girl's appearance, it seems that she is a foreigner, today the little prince and the county lord are engraved, and the girl can take a look at the excitement here." ”

Knowing that Li Dongyang was coming, I found a teahouse nearby to sit in, and at almost noon, I saw people from the Nandu Hou Mansion appearing, Li Dongyang and his sister were surrounded by everyone, because the distance was a little far, some could not see clearly.

I left the teahouse, stood at the door of the tavern not far from the ancestral hall, hid in the dark and peeked, but saw Li Dongyang wearing a pale yellow costume, wearing a crown of golden dragons and jade on his head, and many guards in the Hou Mansion were following him.

I haven't seen him for many days, he seems to have been a lot whiter, and he has gained a little fatter.

I suddenly began to hesitate, always thinking about coming to him and telling him what was in my heart, but I didn't really put myself in his shoes.

He was originally a royal nobleman, and he enjoyed all the glory and wealth since he was a child, because of me, he fell into the bloody storm of the rivers and lakes martial arts, and now that he is back, he has regained his former status and power, what qualifications do I have to come to him, let him follow me again to live that kind of life of fighting, killing and killing?

Li Dongyang and the county lord of Wuyang gave porridge in front of the ancestral hall for two hours, I hid in the dark and watched them for two hours, during which a girl came to them, the girl was very cute, wearing pale pink clothes, helping Li Dongyang to give porridge, bouncing, weird elves, looking close to Li Dongyang, extraordinary.

Because there were a lot of people in front of the ancestral hall, it was inevitable that the appearance would cause others to misunderstand Li Dongyang, so I waited until they returned to the house before going to the Hou Mansion to find him.

I was going to leave after seeing him, but I met his friend at the door.

When the man saw me wandering near the Hou Mansion, he thought I was an assassin and stepped forward to interrogate him, but I didn't tell him my identity, only that I wanted to find Li Dongyang.

Unexpectedly, the man's eyes looked at me cautiously for a moment, and replied: "Li Dongyang, the little prince has been preparing for marriage recently, and I am afraid that he does not have time to meet idle people and wait." ”

When I heard this, I couldn't help but be stunned and asked, "...... him Getting married? ”

The man snorted and replied: "The daughter of Lord Liu, a cabinet scholar, is born with a bright water and water, and it is good for Dongyang, the two are talented and beautiful, and they are very compatible." ”

I couldn't hear the next words clearly, and in a trance, the only words that echoed in my ears were 'the daughter of the cabinet master-sama Liu'.

Thinking back to the girl who helped Li Dongyang cook porridge at the entrance of the ancestral hall just now, I suddenly understood something.

In fact, it's okay, he should have had such a life, and it was because of my fault that he was in the rivers and lakes for so many years.

Now everything has started again, from now on, he is soaring, his wife and children are happy, and what belongs to me is perhaps, only the ice and snow on Kunlun Mountain that will not melt for thousands of years, and those past events that can never be let go.

But the strange thing is that even if I think about it in my heart, I still can't help but feel sad, I thought that he had been waiting for me for ten years, and he would wait for me for a while.

Li Dongyang of the Southern Capital Hou Mansion and Yi Chulian on Xuanji Mountain have nothing to do with me from now on.

Saying goodbye to his friend, I left Shengjing, the huge world, but there seems to be no place for me.

Tossing and turning, and finally came to Luohe City, at this time, it was winter, Luohe City was frozen with frost, and there was a desolate scene everywhere.

I sat on the Yuntai Pavilion, drinking wine, listening to those old stories, they said, ten years ago, there was a dignitary, prepared ten miles of fireworks on the Luohe River, in order to make his newlywed wife happy, some people said that more than ten years ago, there was a young man named Yi Chulian, in response to the battle situation of the little prince, in the Yuntai Pavilion in the limelight.

After thinking about it, this Yuntai Pavilion seems to be the place where Li Dongyang and I met for the first time.

The wine on the Yuntai Pavilion was very good, I called a lot, sat by the window and drank one jar after another, drunk for two days, and dreamed a lot of things from before.

More than ten years ago, I was in trouble here, my brother and sister came to look for me, we walked under the moat outside Luohe City, at that time the willows were green, we were fighting together, noisy, all joyful scenes.

Ten years ago, I rushed to Luoyang, was chased and killed, Li Dongyang saved me, along the way, we talked about the past and the present, got along very happily, he looked at me in the eyes, but also full of joy.

Ten years ago, on the small island of Yingzhou, I was drunk and confused, pulling his clothes and saying light words, but I forgot that when he heard those words, he was stunned and happy for a moment.

And when Vijan's accident happened, I tossed and turned in the swamp of death, looking for his body, exhausted and wounded by miasma, and woke up to find myself lying in a safe place, covered with a robe.

So many people, so many memories, in the end, there is only one person left, and one person's story.

He's been helping me all the time, and he's always been watching me in the dark, but unfortunately after all these years, I don't know anything about it.

Li Dongyang, Li Dongyang, I think, I really can't let go of him.