Chapter 42: I Want to Love the World (42)
Without waiting for Shi Xia to answer, Xi Fan continued: "Do you know what he was doing when I saw him again a month later? He's cutting his veins, and he's cut three times. You tell me, what is the sunny handsome, optimistic and cheerful good baby in your eyes? If you don't believe him, when you see him, you can see if he still has scars on his wrists that have not fully recovered. ”
"This, how is this possible...... Xiao Zhan, he is such a happy child. ”
"Is he really happy? Did you really get to know him? He is good at studying, good at literature and art, good at personality, all of them are bad, is that the real him? Is he really willing to do that? ”
In the face of Xi Fan's repeated questioning, Shi Xia's shoulders that had been straight began to collapse, and she said with some unconfidence in her eyes: "But, if he doesn't want to, just don't do it, his father and I have never forced him." ”
"Your countless compliments and pride in front of outsiders are a powerful pressure. And I heard Fang Zhan say, he still has a younger brother, right? What did you and your lover do to your little son? If you think about it carefully, maybe you can understand why Fang Zhan was so painful, so painful that he wanted to get out of this world to be free. ”
Xi Fan sat quietly aside and didn't say more, and let Shi Xia think about what she and her husband had done to Fang Zhan over the years.
As time passed, Shi Xia seemed to have figured it out and didn't seem to figure it out, and fell into a deep confusion.
Xi Fan got up and went to Fang Zhan's room to get the medicine and came back: "You can take a look at these, these are all drugs that Fang Zhan has been taking to control his body's hormones to calm his mood recently.
I am telling you these things in order to remove the external pressure on him so that he can get completely well, and as for whether what I say is true or false, I think you have the ability to judge and check whether it is true or not. ”
Shi Xia took the medicines, looked at the drug instructions on the package, and couldn't help but tremble in his hands.
After a moment of silence, Shi Xia asked, "Xiao Zhan, has he also been ill recently?" ”
"Before taking the medicine, I will use the wall to relieve the discomfort when the disease occurs, and this has not happened for a long time after taking the medicine, but today, after he went to see your lover, he will definitely cause mood swings when he comes back, and it is possible to get sick."
"So, if, I mean, if Xiao Zhan is sick, can you record it and show me? I wonder what he's been through. ”
"Nope."
Faced with Shi Xia's request, Xi Fan seriously refused.
"I have saved him twice, I am the person he trusts and relies on the most, when his family can't give him spiritual support, I am the only person he can rely on, if I record the video of his illness and show it to you, have you ever thought about what kind of damage will be done to him if he finds out, what kind of damage will happen to him after I, the person he trusts the most, betrays him? Have you ever wondered how serious this can be? Do you want to push him off a cliff with your own hands? ”
"I ......" Shi Xia has never been at a loss as now.
Faced with the aggressive question of a fifteen-year-old girl, she couldn't refute it.
Xi Fan eased his emotions and took back the medicine bottle that was in Shi Xia's hand. "If you really want Fang Zhan to be good, don't put pressure on him anymore, even if it's what you think is good for him. Whether you have the throne to inherit or the golden mountain to defend, as long as Fang Zhan is unwilling, don't force him to do it. Don't you have a son, let him go! Maybe he's still complaining to you, only seeing his brother's goodness, but not him. ”