Ever since I entered Kunlun Mountain, I have always had a strange dream.

In my dream, I was standing on a snowy cliff practicing my sword, and a young man in a pale blue shirt accompanied me.

His temper is not good, he is always cold, he rarely talks to outsiders, and even when he gets along with me, he is always impatient and fierce.

He always corrected my posture over and over again, and always turned his face aside in the face of my playful title of 'junior brother'.

I know that person, when I was in the Jialan Mountain Realm, I saw his face clearly, like Xu Jingrong, Liu Weiyang, who is known as the seventh son of Kunlun, it is obvious that I am not A Jing in my dream, but Xu Jingrong.

Because I was worried that Ling Xuozi would find out about my existence, after I came out of the tower, Yu Wenzhou wanted me to leave, but I was worried about Shen Xingshen's safety, and I was always a little hesitant about going down the mountain.

Seeing my hesitation, Yu Wenzhou said: "Miss Jing came to Kunlun this time just to send a letter to Xuanzhen's nephew, and now that the letter has been delivered, there is no need to stay in Kunlun to take risks." ”

Can...... I still don't want to leave, although I haven't been with Shen Xingshen for a long time, but in the end I still treat him as a friend, he will become like this, and I also have a certain relationship with my senior brother, knowing that he is tortured in the Captive Tower, but he still leaves with peace of mind, I can't do this kind of thing anyway, however, even if I don't want to go down the mountain, on Kunlun Mountain, what can I do for him?

Now I am not Xu Jingrong, I don't have the earth-shaking ability like her, no matter how much nostalgia I have, let the people of Kunlun find out that I am still on the mountain, it just makes things worse.

After being silent for a long time, he replied to Yu Wenzhou: "I'm not at ease. ”

Yu Wenzhou asked: "What are you worried about?" ”

I was speechless for a while, not worried about Shen Xingshen's safety, not worried about Xiao Hese's life and death, and not worried about Xu Jingrong and Liu Weiyang's past.

But what qualifications do I have, and what position do I stand on to think about these things?

Yu Wenzhou said: "Before Miss Jing decides to take care of these things, the first thing to determine is what position she stands on and in whose name she meddles in these things. ”

He paused before he said again: "As far as I know, Miss Jing is just a little girl on Xuanji Mountain, and she has nothing to do with my Kunlun, so there is no reason to meddle in my Kunlun's internal affairs, if it is ...... as Senior Sister Xu."

When he said this, he suddenly stopped talking, and after a while, he lowered his voice and said, "Miss Jing should know what she will face once she admits that she is Senior Sister Xu." ”

I think I'm beginning to understand what Ji Lianhua said to me when I left southern Xinjiang.

None of them can give me an answer as to who I am and where I should be, but it depends on my own heart, on what I really want to be.

Since you want to be a Jing and want to spend this life in peace, don't get involved in Xu Jingrong's affairs.

I bowed my head to Yu Wenzhou and apologized: "I'm sorry, I trespassed." ”

The next day, Yu Wenzhou secretly sent me down the mountain, and I walked step by step along the stone steps of Kunlun, but my heart sank little by little.

Maybe Xu Jingrong walked on the snow-covered stone steps many years ago, has a reckless person like her ever fallen and injured here?

It's very strange, leaving Kunlun Mountain, for me, is like leaving a hometown where I grew up, leaving behind Xu Jingrong's past, like leaving many friends who share life and death.

At the bottom of the mountain, I met my senior brother, who came in a hurry, first glanced at Yu Wenzhou, and then looked at me and said, "Ajing, you shouldn't have come here." ”

I smiled and said, "Senior brother has worked hard to plan to send me back here, isn't it?" ”

Facing his shocked and slightly haggard face, I paused, and suddenly remembered what Ji Lianhua had said to me, and changed my attitude again: "Senior brother, where have you been, I haven't found you in Southern Xinjiang." ”

walked up to him and complained with an aggrieved face: "I quarreled with you that day, but for a while, you really left me in southern Xinjiang and didn't ask?" ”

The senior brother roughly thought that when I saw him again, he would speak coldly, but when he saw my behavior at this time, he was a little confused, and only replied in a veiled manner for a moment: "I have some important things, and an elder in the family is seriously ill......"

I have known my senior brother for so long, and it is the first time I have heard him mention his family, and I still remember that when he was outside Luohe City, he inadvertently mentioned the southern capital, and said a lot of sad words sadly.

I thought that he really couldn't go back in this life.

Yu Wenzhou handed me over to my senior brother, and said some strange things, what kind of protection for me and so on, I think, he was waiting for me at the bottom of the mountain a few days ago, probably because he was entrusted by his senior brother.

On the way out of Kunlun, the senior brother walked in front, and I followed behind him, and the two of them were speechless for a long time, but finally the senior brother broke the silence.

He said bitterly, "I thought you had a lot to say about me." ”

I was stunned, reacted to what he meant, and curled my lips and smiled: "No." ”

After a pause, he added, "I won't ask again in the future." ”

Senior Brother's tone was very light, as if he couldn't believe my current choice, and asked tentatively, "Ah Jing, are you really going to go with me?" ”

I smiled, "Of course." ”

The sunset on the edge of the sky, falling on the snow-capped mountains of Kunlun, reflecting a crimson color, I don't know if Xu Jingrong many years ago had ever sat on the top of Kunlun and seen the scene today.

After a moment, he said lazily: "After leaving Xuanji Mountain for so long, Master should be in a hurry." ”

Thinking back to what we have encountered since we came down the mountain, I think that I know some of my brother's plans, and he did want to use me at first, but now he regrets it.

Although he had deceived me and taken advantage of me, in the end, he chose to protect me in the face of his plan.

Away from Kunlun Mountain, walking on the road, there were gradually more people from the north and south, and my senior brother and I felt that something was not right, so we deliberately found a teahouse and sat down to listen.

But what they heard them talk about was still about Kunlun Mountain and Xiao Hese.

Ling Xuozi really caught Xiao Hese, he had been keeping it secret before, and even the people of Tianheng Dao Sect didn't know about it, but now he was holding a conference on Kunlun Mountain with great fanfare, claiming that he wanted to kill the demon girl in front of everyone.

I thought about it, the reason why he did this was probably for me, to be precise, for Xu Jingrong.

Anyway, Xiao and Se are Xu Jingrong's senior sisters, when they were on Kunlun Mountain, the two of them had a deep relationship, like sisters, and he did this to lead me back to Kunlun Mountain.

To be honest, I still remember Xiao Hese, although there are only bits and pieces of memories about her, I still miss her safety very much.

On the way, the more people I meet, the more pain in my heart, I want to go back to Kunlun Mountain, I want to see her, I don't want her to become a name I have only heard of when I don't know, and die like this.

Therefore, that night, while the senior brother was asleep, he secretly took the package and wanted to leave, but was blocked by the senior brother in the middle of the road.

Seeing my outfit, he sighed and asked me, "Do you really want to go back to Kunlun Mountain?" ”

When I saw my brother, I was a little scared, afraid that he would stop me, so I replied slowly: "I...... I would love to meet Xiao and Se ......."

Senior brother said: "Xiao Hese is Xu Jingrong's senior sister, not yours, there is no need for Ah Jing to risk her life to meet someone she doesn't know." ”

"......"

I paused for a moment before I added, "I should know her, don't I?" ”

For some reason, I felt him begin to fall into despair, as if once I left here, I would never come back.

I could only retreat step by step, and apologized to my senior brother: "I'm sorry, senior brother, I thought I could be a Jing forever, the one who didn't know anything on Xuanji Mountain, but it turned out that I wasn't ......."

"I used to think that in this world, apart from you and Master, I would not have a third person close to me, but I was also wrong, someone told me that I had a second name, a second life, in that life, there were many people who cared about me, and there were many people who hated me, but I forgot about it, so I thought I was someone else, I used to think that I could let go of those pasts, and I could go to be a brand new person, but ......"

Thinking of the gentle and kind senior sister who always wore a red dress in my memory, I pinched my fingers and said in a low voice: "There are always some people and things that I can't let go of no matter what." ”

Senior Brother frowned and said, "Do you know that if you really go back this time, you will most likely die." ”

I pulled out an ugly smile and replied, "If you die, you are dead, and you are not dead." ”

Hearing this answer, the senior brother's body shook, and for a moment, he lowered his head gloomily and said bitterly: "I should have thought of ...... a long time ago."

I really want to ask him about his identity and who he is, since Ah Jing is not Ah Jing, then Yi Chulian can't be just Yi Chulian.

In the end, I found out that in fact, I should have known this answer a long time ago, but I couldn't believe it, so I lied to myself and said I didn't know.

Now the clues are gradually becoming clearer, but I can't say it anymore, in my life, whether I am a Jing or Xu Jingrong, I owe him a lot, and before I think of how to repay him, maybe pretending to be stupid for the time being is the best choice.

I thought he would stop me, but the senior brother turned his back and walked back the way we came, and seeing that I hadn't followed, he turned around and frowned, "Aren't you going back to Kunlun, what are you still doing standing there?" ”

I mean, I'm going back to Kunlun Mountain alone, after all, Kunlun's affairs have nothing to do with him, so why risk me again?

Seeing that I hadn't moved, Senior Brother roughly guessed what I was thinking, sighed, and said, "Do you remember what I said to you when you and I went down the mountain? ”

I was stunned, but I heard him pause for a moment before he spoke again: "If there really is a day when someone wants to kill you, I will kill that person, no matter who it is, without hesitation." ”