The next day, the matchmaker came and brought someone with her, and her mother asked Li Huinan to dress up and hurry up to take a look.

"I don't even know it, and I don't like it."

"The lad is very handsome, go check it out, you'll like it."

Li Huinan didn't believe it, how could a handsome guy take his turn, it was. Looking through the crack in the door, he was very familiar with a person, but he couldn't remember clearly, the person was average, a little whiter, and his body looked quite strong.

"How? Doesn't you like it? ”

"I seem to know him, I can't remember it, maybe it's a little bit different, I always feel like I've seen him somewhere."

"Acquaintance, it's very easy to do, how do you feel about him?"

"It's good."

"Do you want to try it?"

Li Huinan shook his head, "I'm not used to it. ”

The people in the house came out to ask about the toilet, this pair of eyes, Li Huinan thought about it, and the person in front of him was the person who often bullied him when he was a child, and he stepped on his foot directly.

"You little girl, you still step on labor and capital, and you die of pain. When you grow up, you are broken. ”

"Why did you run to my house to propose?"

"I'm not still thinking about you."

"Phew, it's shameless."

"Hitting is kissing and scolding is love, and you like me too."

"Are you in the water in your brain or have hair in your ears, and you have the same virtue as before."

The man had a hippie smile on his face, and Li Huinan's mother left as soon as she saw that the two of them were familiar.

"Zhang Yuhao, I don't care what you think, I won't agree. Who knows if you are married for five or six years and still have children, in case you are physically defective, right, labor and management can't destroy themselves. ”

The man leaned closer and lower, "Are you afraid of me?" ”

"I think about it too much, I'm still afraid of you in my house, I'm unlucky to die, and the ghost will not go away."

"I'm not married, my girlfriend has made a few, I don't like it very much, I think you're good, I only found out that you weren't married when your brother got married a few days ago, and I don't want to see many people introduce you to someone, then I can't be slow, I was trampled by you before my ass was hot, do you say my life is hard?"

"Pull it down, you're not in your right mind."

"When I marry you, hehe."

"you, Zhang Yuhao, you're dreaming."

"Where's your toilet, I'm in a hurry."

Li Huinan deliberately ignored it and ran to his house and closed the door.

"Your dad will agree, I don't believe you'll wait." The man was full of confidence, and Li Huinan wanted to laugh when he heard it.

It's really funny, a child who often bullied himself grew up and said he liked you, and came to your house to propose, like a premeditated spoof. How can love appear on TV, it is obviously a secondary injury, Li Huinan is not so generous, and he does not believe in the so-called fate.

The truth is as the man expected, and his father is very satisfied with Zhang Yuhao.

"I understand that the family conditions are okay, and it is not far from our home. How do you feel when you hear him say that you are classmates and people you have met? If it's good, let's talk about it, get married before the age of thirty, and it's hard to get married when you're a little older. ”

"I see, I'll think about it." Li Huinan wanted to refuse, but she couldn't say it in the face of her father, at least not immediately.

"You think it's okay, the date is set early, and your mother and I can help you."

"That's not necessary, my brother is also soon, it's not a few months, it's very busy, I will have my mother-in-law to take care of me when I get married. It's useless to think about it in the long run, forget it, that's it, it's one thing whether it will succeed or not. ”

"I've never had a heart with you, I know you don't like me, as a father I have responsibility, I'm getting older and older, and I feel more and more indebted to you, I know that your brother got married and you gave more than 60,000 yuan, and you haven't left any money for so many years, blame your parents for being useless, you didn't go home for the New Year, and then you didn't want to call, we talked for a short time, and the number of times was very small, only six or seven times a year, and I couldn't do without money every time, I know you hate me."

"Don't say it, as long as you're doing well, it's all over."

The father sighed, said no more, turned around and disappeared into the night.

For Li Huinan, her father's words just now are like a bomb, which will explode at any time, she is extremely looking forward to it, but she can't be happy if she really has it, just like someone slapping you in the face, and then saying sorry to you, could it be that if you say sorry, everything has not happened, the wound will not exist, how can the memories be erased, they are all deceiving themselves.

Open the journal to record your feelings:

I want to be a layman, a very vulgar person, so that there will be no pain, a layman will only live for herself, only care about herself, take herself first, she loves herself more than anyone else, respects herself. Those who always like to reason are too strong, and they are also hypocritical, and it is not uncommon for them to have different hearts. Can people really deceive themselves and live happily if they disobey themselves all their lives? Life is sometimes too long, I can't wait to speed up the clock, disrupt the rhythm, life is too depressing, I haven't experienced a lot of storms, I'm just afraid, a person grows up not as free and happy as he thought when he was a child, but more and more shackles, and then there is no self, and the soul is also bought. Perhaps the real happiness is the one who has never seen the darkness, the poor have a hundred lives, one is more ill-fated than the other, and the miserable abounds, everything seems to be predestined, and it is like a cycle. I don't believe in superstition, I don't believe in karma, if it is true, how can there be a demon who lives so freely and lives a happier life than the victim. What I believe in is what reality destroys. Longing for it, even if it is close at hand, it is like being separated by thousands of mountains and rivers, unable to find a trace, disoriented, trapped and locked all its life, losing all senses, like a puppet.

The night, the silence is terrible, there is no sound, this may be the reason why I am afraid of the night, I like to sleep with a lamp, there is a lamp to be steady, and I can sleep well, and I will not have nightmares.

People's hearts are fragile, and if there are people fanning the flames on the sidelines when something happens, then this person is basically finished.

Writing this, Li Huinan felt very uncomfortable and tore it up again. "How can I be that kind of person, too different from my life, how can this kind of brain be garbage every day, always thinking about unhappy things, even if it has nothing to do with you, it will always affect yourself, they all say that women's minds are delicate, this mind is too sensitive, and they want to be a big grin and don't remember, even if they are crazy, at least they don't know how sad, everyone is afraid of you, not you are afraid of everyone, is this sentimentality born to women? Woman, it's always a bit heavy to read, girl to woman, woman, short and long, maybe it's really my heart that the problem is too serious, I don't think women are a word of praise, the bigger the more frightened, the more I want to escape. ”

That night, Li Huinan fell asleep as soon as she closed her eyes, and she slept very soundly and panicked, because she had a dream.