- Living in this world just to hurt others.

Walking in the path of the school, the autumn leaves paved the golden path for it, and he walked in the sun, but the deepest darkness was hidden in his body.

- Follow the path and wipe your dirty hands clean.

This sentence suddenly appeared in his mind, and Wen Yifan couldn't help laughing.

INTERVIEWER Where did you hear this phrase in your memory?

- Forget it, who cares?

Sighing silently, he walked along the path—the silence of the place was good for reflection and rarely disturbed.

"The thirst for love, the quest for knowledge, and the unquenchable compassion for human suffering—these three pure but incomparably strong passions have dominated my life. These three passions, like a hurricane, to and fro in the deep sea of suffering, blowing me to the brink of despair. ”

Is that why you're alive?

Russell's essay slowly rose in his heart, and Wen Yifan's eyes looked at the fallen leaves all over the ground with a distracted view, and fell into thought.

How can the longing for love, the quest for knowledge, the irrepressible compassion for human suffering, all these high-sounding reasons represent all that I am?

- No, you can't.

- Obviously such a beautiful preface, obviously such a bright thought. But why, in my opinion, are these just boring by-products? It's like a small giveaway hanging on the bag of the product, which can indeed add a certain charm to the product itself, but no one will ever buy the entire product for the sake of the gift alone.

- Why let them dominate their lives? Even if we knew that such passions would 'to and fro like a hurricane in a deep sea of suffering, to the brink of despair,' should we pursue them without hesitation? Why do I think it's just a pathological mentality?

- Am I sick, or is everyone else sick?

With a long sigh, he slowly took out the book called "Russell's Autobiography" and gently opened it.

"I seek love, first of all, because it gives me ecstasy, and it is so strong that I am often willing to sacrifice everything else in my life for the pleasure of a few hours. I seek love, and secondly, because it lifts loneliness—a trembling heart, at the edge of the world, overlooking the cold, dead, unfathomable abyss. I seek love, and finally because in the union of love I see the mystical microcosm of the sky scene imagined by the saints and poets. That's what I was looking for, and even though it seemed too good for life, I got it in the end. ”

- The Charm of Love...... Is it?

- That feeling, I never had time to feel, and it was forgotten in the endless game. I heard that to love someone is to use all your strength to protect her, and to pour all your tenderness on her alone. But in this way, what is the difference between falling in love with someone and becoming his puppet? Aren't the people I manipulate also have this characteristic?

- As for love...... Does Wen Qingyu count?

- No kidding.

His slender fingers gently touched the branch that had long since lost its buds, as if he was amused by his own thoughts.

— It's just a complementary relationship. Even with my cunning, I'm nowhere near as clever as she is in some ways – it seems like she's gifted. This kind of bond and connection is far more efficient than being willing to be subject to the love of one party.

Love is false and the biggest lie in this world.

How can a person who has been indoctrinated with this kind of thinking since childhood be able to face up to his own heart?

"I seek knowledge with the same passion, and I want to understand the human heart. I wanted to know why the stars sparkled, and I tried to understand the power of Pythagoras' mind that numbers govern the flow of things. I've had some accomplishments in this area, but not much. ”

- The power of knowledge is great, I know that better than anyone.

Walking slowly up the old stone steps, in front of you is another flower bed with a superb view, and the fallen leaves fall on the stone benches of the pavilion, swaying quietly with the breeze.

- However, if you are trapped in the cage of knowledge, you will put yourself in a disadvantageous situation. This is the same as the saying that "it is better to believe in a book than to have no book". As a joke, the famous philosopher Ebolash once said in "Philosophical Doctrine" that "knowledge in books is more convincing than the power of words", but it only takes a little philosophical knowledge to know that this sentence was improvised by himself, and Ebolash does not exist at all.

This is the power of books, which can gradually give people a glimpse of the truth, but also can make people completely superstitious.

"Each of us is just simulating the whole world with our own subjective consciousness, and science and learning make this 'mental simulation' closer to reality."

Yesterday, Lin Yunqian's words seemed to be still echoing in his mind, which seemed to be another layer of understanding of this passage.

After a short rest, Wen Yifan got up from the stone bench and thought about walking further ahead.

- In my impression, the front should be the location of the stadium, Lin Yunqian...... Looks like it's going to gym class right now?

"Love and knowledge lead me to heaven as much as possible, but compassion always brings me back to earth. The echoes of the cry of pain echoed in my heart, the hungry children, the victims of the torture of the oppressed, the helpless old people who were regarded as a disgusting burden by their children, and the whole world full of loneliness, poverty and misery, were a mockery of the life that human beings should live. I longed to alleviate these misfortunes, but there was nothing I could do, and I myself suffered from them. ”

- Sympathy for the afflicted, which seems to be more desirable for oneself than pure love. I don't think suffering is what should be worthy of sympathy. "To empathize with others is to make others feel ashamed of themselves as weak", and I never bother to humiliate others.

That's why I've never been willing to have mercy on someone. Instead, I gave my mind to reason. I don't sympathize with any of the weak people in the eyes of the general public, and the name of weakness or misery is something that I detest in my heart—it will make people lose their motivation to move upwards and become content with the status quo.

- Or is it the negative effect attached to these three "giveaways" that caused Russell to say, 'like a hurricane, in a deep sea of suffering, wantonly blowing me to the brink of despair'?

"It's my whole life, and I feel like it's worth living. If I had the chance, I would love to live again. ”

Closing the roll, he gently closed his eyes, felt the breeze blowing, and walked quietly like this, and came to the noisy playground.

- There seems to be no meaning in living, or in other words, everyone lives just to find the meaning of life for themselves. That's what it means.

- And obviously, hurting others is the easiest meaning to find.

INTERVIEWER Perhaps, should we take some time to finish reading "The Autobiography of Russell"?

Slowly taking it into his arms, looking at the laughing and noisy students, he actually walked towards Lin Yunqian's side in a ghostly manner.

"Look, look! Isn't that Mr. Wen? There were bursts of exclamations in the distance, Wen Yifan didn't care about these sounds, and walked towards the student's activity place in the distance with a somewhat comfortable smile like a spring breeze.

"Look, you Teacher Wen have come to see you." Lin Yunqian also noticed Wen Yifan, who was walking this way. He smiled and waved his hand and looked at his classmates, "If anyone is lazy, ask your teacher Wen to assign him a bunch of homework." ”

"Speaking of assignments, I'm not good at adding a lot of homework, so I probably won't be able to help you." Hearing this, Wen Yifan smiled and replied, "But actually, I'm here to find you, Teacher Lin." ”

"Looking for me?" Lin Yunqian was obviously slightly surprised by this answer, but the reaction of the students around him was much greater than his......

"Wait, did you just hear what Teacher Wen said?" I'm here to find you'~"

"Isn't it, the two of them are ......"

"Yes, yes, I also heard that the reason why Mr. Lin was able to come here as a physical education teacher and also took a class with Mr. Wen was because Mr. Wen went to find the principal in person~"

"So, the two of them are really ...... Couple? ”

"Haha, absolutely! And Mr. Wen maybe...... It's a little suffer~"

A group of students chattered around and discussed, which amused the two and made them more sure of their ideas.

- It's so good, so energetic, so vibrant...... That's probably why I chose to become a teacher.

"Come to me at this point, there shouldn't be any urgency," ignoring the evil smile on the face of the student next to him, Lin Yunqian chuckled lightly and walked over slowly, his height of one meter eighty-three made him bow his head slightly, which was opposite to his gaze, "What's more, looking at your speed, it doesn't look like there is something urgent." ”

"So, have you ever seen me in a hurry?" Sighing lightly, Wen Yifan said with a smile: "It's really nothing, it's just a whim, and I suddenly want to come here to have a look." ”

"The result?"

"It's been very beneficial."

chatting nonchalantly, the two walked side by side, as if they had left all their troubles behind.

"Don't you go ahead and see your students? Judging by their expressions, it seems that the thinking in their heads has begun to develop in some strange direction. Glancing back, Wen Yifan asked, "And if you leave your students halfway, you will be scolded if you are caught by the principal." ”

"I don't seem to care much about either of these aspects." With a tolerant smile in return, Lin Yunqian looked at the sun in the sky, and at a certain moment, he even felt that if everything could develop like this, it would seem to be fine.

But alas, he wants to avenge the dead; He's going to get rid of his threat.

- After coming to Yunhe City for so many days, the expected onswoop of the "writer" did not happen. On the contrary, the years are quiet, and everything seems so beautiful, but it makes me so uneasy—the more beautiful things are, the more I worry about the day I will lose.

- Why do I always find similarities with me in you? You are always so dazzling, even among countless talented people, you can highlight your noble temperament. I don't know what that feeling looks like, maybe it's because you and I have both been robbed of our loved ones by "writers" - we should be, will be the same kind of people.

Not noticing the thoughts of the people around him, Wen Yifan quietly felt the weight of the book in his arms—it seemed to be like the heart hidden in it, beating slowly up and down with his steps.

- To live is to find meaning, some people find it, and some people do not.

- It is always said that one cannot live for others, but for oneself. But no one can live alone. We ourselves are all more or less connected to others.

- Perhaps, these people around you can also become the meaning of life?

- But can this meaning really make the heartless rebuild the heart?

- For some reason, I seem to have found in you the answer that I had been puzzled by all along. I don't know what my origins were, and I don't know what the person who trained me wanted me to do with so many skills - Wen Qingyu was the same.

But perhaps, as a bystander, you can help us find the root cause and the meaning of life for the truth that we as authorities cannot explore?

- After all, we should be the same kind of people.

"I said, you don't come here to find me in a hurry at this time because you're still afraid that those thugs will harass you." The corners of his mouth hooked up a hint of curvature, and Lin Yunqian quipped: "It's okay, they have already found a way back on me, and they shouldn't be looking for trouble for you." ”

——Unexpectedly looked down upon~

"Actually, I'm not afraid of them, don't look at me like this, I'm actually very strong." As if in a dissatisfied tone, Wen Yifan said with a little displeasure, "Actually, that day, even if you don't come, I can handle those little gangsters completely." ”

"Well, you're right." Lin Yunqian looked him up and down carefully a few times, and then nodded seriously.

- Suddenly wanted to tie this guy to the dissecting table...... Is this kind of emotion unpleasant?

- But...... If you cut him into even slices, it seems to be a beautiful work of art......

- Maybe that's what the girl wanted to do to me......

"If you laugh at me like this, will I feel 'uncomfortable'?" After a little thought, he decided to hint at him again, "If I were a perverted murderer, you should be sliced~"

- Psychological change requires many hints in daily life, and now that I have made up my mind to turn him into my help, a help that is higher than that of a puppet, I must slowly change his heart, step by step to arrange its hidden psychological hints, and finally with a light push, he can be reborn.

But he didn't know that his remarks had stirred up a thousand waves in Lin Yunqian's heart.

- The "writer's" murder modus operandi is my reasoning...... It seems to have been cut into thin slices......

- Is it a coincidence?

There was a bit of solemnity in his eyes, but in the next second, he was calm.

- No, a real "writer" and his cunning do not deliberately joke about their modus operandi. Even if you use reverse thinking, it should be a move that you will only use under your own active temptation - at the moment it is just small talk, and there is no hint of temptation, so even a real "writer" will not deliberately show such flaws at this time.

- So, is it a coincidence?

Subconsciously glanced at Wen Yifan beside him, and when he found that the latter's attention was not on him, he slowly breathed a sigh of relief.

- That's right, even if it's to clear my name, it can't escape from continuing to observe my own performance, but now his attention doesn't seem to be on me, it should be just a coincidental joke.

In fact, Wen Yifan was indeed not observing him - it was just a psychological suggestion, and he didn't need to observe his expression too much.

"Okay~Okay~, you're strong, I believe in you~" With a ruffian smile on his face, Lin Yunqian replied.

- I always feel like this guy is ...... How to say, "molestation" me?

- It's really such a bad character, could it be that he is really bent?

- Too lazy to care.

"I have to say, you are really a very interesting person, you can not only show that you are not inferior to me in the field of literature and art, but also can inadvertently make funny jokes, how can you say this feeling?" Tilting his head and thinking about it, he smiled, "Is it comfortable chatting with you?" ”

"At least you can't find anyone else to talk to, can you?" Lin Yunqian pursed his lips and smiled evilly.

- He is really confident, if he knows that Wen Qingyu is twenty-four, and he is not inferior to me in many aspects, I am afraid he will be very surprised!

Hearing the familiar sound, the two turned around and walked towards the outside of the campus.

"The motorcycle hasn't been repaired yet, which probably means we're walking home." Looking at his watch, Lin Yunqian said: "However, fortunately, the location of the villa is not far from home, and we don't need to walk much to get there." ”

"Yes, you have to hurry back home and cook for Wen Qingyu's girl, otherwise she will be messing around again." Nodding slightly, Wen Yifan said.

The two walked out of the campus one after the other, and the noisy crowd around them had nothing to do with them. They were silent, but their hearts gradually returned to their original thoughts as the pace accelerated......

After all, there is never much time left for the two of them to rest.

There was a slight vibrating sound from the phone in his pocket, and after noticing that the person walking in front of him did not notice, he quietly opened the phone, and after only a momentary pause, he turned off the phone.

- Is that so?

After a little distraction and coming back to his senses again, Wen Yifan noticed that the group of people in the distance seemed to be a little familiar......

Lin Yunqian obviously noticed this as well, he turned his head slightly, gave Wen Yifan a look, and motioned for him to run immediately. But when he turned around, he realized that the latter was also looking at him at the moment.

"I told you, I'm actually very strong." Patting him on the shoulder, Wen Yifan showed a faint smile.

- It seems that it has to be done.