When liking something to the extreme, it must be a sin, and Li Huinan thinks so.

In her spare time, she likes to listen to the radio, and in her adolescence she listened to all about love, gains and losses, envy and disgust.

She sounded the emotional anchor that she had been particularly annoying for a while again, the more she listened to it, the more sad she became, her eyes were red, her nose was slightly sore, she was distressed, she couldn't control her head when she thought of the events of the day, it was tense to the extreme, she was deprived of oxygen, she had no strength in her body, she wanted to struggle, she wanted to get rid of it, she thought she was going to be finished, she was afraid and celebrated.

"Obviously, there is still warmth in the world, but why can't I feel it, is it because I'm too selfish? I'm a woman and a girl, I'm lonely, I just want someone to protect me, what money, what status, haha, I never care, why try to find happiness but get farther and farther away. I don't want to, I don't want to be cruel to myself, but it's happy, how can anyone naturally like to torture themselves, I'm useless, I don't want to, I'm sorry. ”

Li Huinan buttoned the wound on her arm bigger and bigger, she watched it flowing, slowly, excited, stimulating, satisfied, happy, satisfied smile, she quickly took out the mirror, eager to see her current face, just looking for the answer on it: happiness? Happy?

In fact, every time she looked at it, she would look in the mirror and laugh and cry when she laughed.

"It's all a lie, who said that you will be happy when you look in the mirror, obviously not, every time you are serious, you are looking back on the past, you are about to forget the past, this photo is all remembered, it is really ridiculous, you will have a good mood when you look in the mirror, you will lose all your unhappiness, this is obviously a big lie. But why am I not happy, why? My dream is gone, I was hit by reality, the blame is only that I am too fragile and can't blame others, but I also hate, why, even after a long time, I still blame myself and can't forgive, it's me who is too weak to bully. From birth to now, everything has become a nightmare. The mood is good and bad, and when I reach the trough, I feel like I have lost my soul and lost my life. ”

It's like drinking wine, my face is red, it's hot, especially my eyes are too hot, I can't help but rub it with my hands, but the more I rub it, the more it hurts, I stop and feel uncomfortable, a little angry, but I don't dare to attack after all, it's a rented place, how can I be so free, I have nowhere to vent my sorrow, so I got up and went out, and running is the only way now.

"I didn't expect that for so many years, I am still alone, I have no friends at all, it's all virtual, the more you escape, the more you can't escape, people, it's really strange, naïve and insidious, kind and cruel, desire is a bottomless pit, never satisfied, wandering around, uncontrollable footsteps, unstoppable heart, can't go back and can't pull out, haven't seen, haven't experienced it's really a kind of happiness."

Li Huinan looked at the people around and cried happily, it stands to reason that she shouldn't run out again because of the daytime and the discomfort just now, especially at night, she also found a place where no one was, this girl is really strange. She thinks the same way, she can't figure it out.

When he was a little sleepy and a little cold, Li Huinan hurriedly walked back, and met Wang Weilong, who had just returned from dinner, on the way, the young man was not walking very steadily.

"You've been drinking a lot, aren't you?"

"Are you, Li Huinan?"

"You're so drunk, you're so drunk."

"No, the lights were flickering just now, I couldn't see clearly, I was a little drunk but not drunk."

"Really? You see you're staggering when you walk, and your dad won't be able to talk about you when you go back. ”

When the man heard this, he became anxious. "I'm afraid of him? Jokes, you don't care if I live or die, he only knows his face, I'm like this, I don't work hard, I don't struggle, I'm lazy, I don't want to do anything, I sit and eat, I'm like this, I just want to get something for nothing. ”

"What nonsense, you're not working hard, you're at work, you're working, you're working, you're working hard, and you're not doing nothing. You're good, don't talk about yourself, you're much better than those who don't do anything and reach out to ask for money, and punch and kick if they are not satisfied. ”

"What are you talking about, I'm so bad!"

Li Huinan realized that what he said was wrong, and these words hurt people's self-esteem more than not saying them. "Look at what I said, don't think about it, you can't live every day, your father is also for your good, how can any parents harm their children, be considerate and considerate of each other, it's really not okay you buy a house or rent a house, the problem will be solved."

"No, I think I should find a girlfriend, and everything else is easy, but, hey..."

"What's wrong again?"

"It's okay, let's go home."

Li Huinan didn't dare to ask again, "Hmm." ”

Wang Weilong took out three oranges from his pocket and gave them to Li Huinan. "It's sweet."

"Thanks, it's pretty big."

"No, I picked the big one."

"I'm..."

"It's okay, I have more at home, I was originally going to give it to you, but why are you still outside so late, I watched it for a while, have you cried? The mental state is not very good, what is on your mind? Is it because of the rent? Or..."

"It's not that I just got insects in my eyes, you know, there's a lot of garbage on the bridge over there, I just happened to pass by and flew insects, rubbed my eyes for a while, and felt very uncomfortable, I just wanted to buy some snacks, went to the supermarket, turned around and didn't buy anything, it's strange, I didn't want to eat snacks so much."

Wang Weilong looked at the person in front of him and remembered his ex-girlfriend, it has been a long time, it should be the second year of junior high school, and the time is a little long, and I don't remember it clearly.

"Why, I still have something on my head and face, looking at me like that."

"No, I might be the wine."

"By the way, I know a local method, it seems that drinking vinegar can solve the problem of getting drunk, drink more vinegar, it can induce vomiting, it's good to vomit, and you can buy some chewing gum to cover the taste of your mouth, I have perfume on your body, I can help you cover it."

"If you're thoughtful, go to the supermarket."

Back at the residence, Wang Weilong went to Li Huinan's room, everyone who was lonely and widowed felt unnatural, Wang Weilong was embarrassed to look carefully, but he smelled a smell, so he asked: "What is the smell of your room, I can't say it's like the room hasn't been inhabited for a long time." ”

"That's damp, I'm not airtight here, and there's always water on the floor."

After Li Huinan said this, Wang Weilong squatted down and looked at it carefully, a little distressed. "Let's change it tomorrow, you live upstairs, and there's an empty room above."

"This... You'd better go back early, not early. ”

"Tomorrow Saturday, shift, I won't be on it, you will move in tomorrow."

Li Huinan didn't speak, just took the perfume and sprayed it, her perfume smelled very good, not strong at all, it was just that fresh and elegant.

Everything was ready, Wang Weilong quietly went upstairs, fortunately he was not arrested this time, his father had escaped because he had not come back because he went to the hospital to see his relatives.