This summer vacation is coming so fast, and we're all going to graduate in a month. I wasn't ready to step into the world from university, so I worked hard to memorize professional books to prepare for the college entrance exam. I got up at 6 o'clock in the morning every day to carry Qu Yuan and read Yan Shu under the big tree outside the library, and practiced modern Chinese questions on the first floor of the library with my schoolbag on my back throughout the day.

I thought: only those who are admitted to graduate school understand my dedication.

But who knows, the ending is not good. Providence makes people, what if I get the first place in the major exam, the computer has hit my grades to the bottom, and I have become eleven people after admitting ten people.

This blow to me was fatal, I washed my face with tears every day, I didn't want to cry, but the tears fell desperately as if I didn't want money.

I felt like I was living a huge joke, a joke in the eyes of others.

I was half-dead in bed every day, and all three meals were takeout. Barely alive...

Until you came.

You took the initiative to send me a message:

"Su Hui, what are you doing?"

"Is there something wrong?"

"I'm almost on my birthday and want a birthday present."

"Good. Send me the link. ”

After seeing your WeChat, I kept crying and crying, I don't know whether it's because you don't like me and cry or fail to upgrade, I can't tell the difference.

That watch is not expensive for me now, but for me at that time, when my living expenses were only 1,000 yuan a month, I couldn't eat dinner, and I only dared to nibble on a steamed bun for breakfast. But I'm still willing.

I don't know why, but you were very diligent in looking for me in those days. You said:

"Su Hui, I've regressed physically."

"Su Hui, I've been studying very hard lately."

"Su Hui, I've been arguing with my mother lately."

But at that time, I myself was in a deep well, what energy did I bring to you when I was about to suffocate?

"Chen Feng, let's find your girlfriend. I don't want to hear it. ”

"I've been breaking up with my girlfriend for over a year. What happened to you? ”

"You're divided? Why? ”

"Long-distance relationship, and then she and my brother got together."

"Oh... I'm sorry. ”

"It's okay, what's wrong with you?"

That day, I couldn't reply to you.

I'm happy to hear you break up, but it's only for a moment. Then I think about it, what qualifications do I have? I shattered the only hope we had both.

I've been thinking about waiting for you to go to college, when I'm a junior and you're a freshman, and if we were together, the four-year age difference might not seem so unbearable to outsiders.

One night at the end of May, you called me and asked me why I didn't reply to your message and ignore you, but I never told you about the college upgrade, but I just said that I was going to graduate and was busy.

We still chatted for 147 minutes and 57 seconds, and the content was: You are afraid of the college entrance examination, I encourage you.

Yes, how can you not be admitted to a good university if you are so good, only I am so useless.

During those days, you had to message me every day, you told me all the things you did in school, you told me about your stress, you told me that you wanted to let yourself go after the exam, no matter what.

Those days were the sweetest time between me and you.

You pulled me to show me hope, and I listened to all your uneasiness.

The frogs outside the library had been chirping for a summer, the lonely tree was still pruned into a ball, and a few fake stones were still there turning the path into a path.

We sent messages every day, said goodnight to each other every day, listened to each other's joys, sorrows and sorrows every day, I put your WeChat at the top, and the ringtone was set to a unique "Courage", I started to cheer up, went to the exam interview, and finally got a decent job.

In June, the college entrance examination is coming as scheduled, and I am excited and worried waiting for your news, praying that everything is okay for you all the time. As soon as the exam was over, I immediately sent you a message and waited anxiously until more than eight o'clock in the evening.

You say, "It feels okay." ”

I'm so happy, really, especially for you.

Throughout the summer, we warmly contacted each other, and I accompanied you to wait carefully for the results and wait for the admission letter of Chengnan University.

I thought: except for the "You're going to be my boyfriend?" that didn't come out of the question. ”

We did all the weal and sorrow and joy of boyfriend and girlfriend.

We didn't stop contacting each other for a moment, and even came back to see you during my exams. I always remember that meeting. You said:

"Can you kiss me? This was my first kiss. ”

I didn't speak, I slowly approached you, only two or three centimeters away from you, and you finally avoided it.

You say, "I'm sorry. ”

I pretended not to care and said, "It's fine." ”

This kind of goodness is enough to warm my time in the future. It's enough to sustain me waiting for you for so long.

I thought: You're in college, can I tell you what I like about you?

Only this time, will you reject me?