After more than a year of training, Li Huinan has already changed, her personality is much more aggressive, she makes jokes, and sometimes she will tell jokes, and she will not blush at every turn. During this period, Li Jia talked about three girlfriends, the last one was more miserable, the girl felt that she had paid too much, Li Jia always asked for it, and she usually didn't care too much, and she played her own games, but as Li Jia became more and more attentive, the girl couldn't stand it, and found someone to beat Li Jia and was hospitalized. This kind of thing is not good for the factory, and they simply fired both for the sake of the corporate image.

Besides, Li Huinan enjoyed it at first after returning home, but it became more and more difficult to endure later, after all, there was no contribution at home, and it was inevitable that there would be some strange eyes, especially her father, whose attitude was getting worse day by day, always asking when he would go to work, he didn't want people to gossip, face was always important.

"Got it, I'll be gone in the next two days." Li Huinan was very angry in her heart, but she didn't get angry. But what to do next, she still didn't think about it, she remembered the person she knew in the voice hall, the one who sang very well, and heard him say that Shanghai and Suzhou are a good choice, the salary is also high, the scenery is good, and it is very suitable for work.

Li Huinan hesitated to open a certain job network and browse the work in it, the salary is very high, but it is very empty, as long as you browse the web, someone will call, she listened carefully to their introduction, did not refuse, just said to consider it.

When I go out, in a strange place, I don't know anyone, unlike in the provincial capital, I still know a little. What's more, it's too far away from home, it takes a day and a night to take the train, and she is very entangled and wants to go, she wants to see what Gusu is like, is it really the same as in the poem? Is the magic capital really rich? Gold everywhere? Do all the people there write poetry, and the literati and writers are there? … She had too many reasons to want to go, but these could not support her to go out to work, she had to have a convincing reason, so that her mother could rest assured. So she didn't panic and told her family that her friend was there, it was okay, she had worked for more than a year and had some experience.

Because she wanted to make sure it was safe to go out, she still found a factory to work in first. I was going to go to Suzhou, but I don't know what happened and went to Shanghai to work. It's still an electronics factory, food and housing, eight people in a room, lost clothes and shoes during the part-time job, and even lost underwear, which makes her very vigilant, as long as the washing is dry, she quickly takes it back. Another example is to borrow money from others kindly, but I didn't expect to admit it, I didn't give it, and in the end, people didn't see you directly. When I went out at night, I was followed by a man many times, as soon as you stopped, he stopped, and he insisted on adding WeChat halfway, Li Huinan felt disgusted to death. But the most charming time is the night, because she likes to see the colorful lights at night, the night is lively, quiet, mysterious, but the dirtiest time is also the night. The job didn't last long and I quit.

Tossing back and forth for a few years, my work has changed a lot, and I have been to a lot of places, and I am slowly full of negative emotions about life, and I am very bored. Especially when his younger brother went to college, his father directly asked Li Huinan to study, saying that he was old and couldn't make money, so Li Huinan could rely on his family.

Li Huinan felt very uncomfortable, thinking that when she was studying in the past, what her father said, it is useless for girls to read so many books, it is almost enough, and said that the tuition fee is still so expensive, and it is not a book to read.

After sending money to her brother, she cried alone at the ATM, very aggrieved and uncomfortable, and her tears kept flowing. Thinking about it for so many years, my father never cared about whether he was tired or not, what problems he had at work, and whether he had friends. He never asked, except to ask for money.

The more she thought about it, the more unwilling she became, so she kept running, trying to numb herself with sweat, but it was useless. She didn't know what to do, she just wanted someone to cry about, and she asked herself: why am I like an ATM, why do you never care about me!

A message popped up on the mobile phone, it was the one who was singing, and Li Huinan called directly to the voice.

The person on the other side heard the crying and hurriedly asked, "What's wrong?"

"It's nothing, I just want to cry."

"Well, if it's uncomfortable, then cry out." As soon as she finished speaking, Li Huinan couldn't suppress her crying loudly anymore, the more she cried, the more sad she became, her eyes hurt when she cried, but she was still uncomfortable and wanted to cry, and she was embarrassed to disturb the other party, so she couldn't help but hold back.

"You're better now, aren't you?"

Li Huinan wiped her nose and replied to the other party: "Well, thank you."

"Where are you now? Alone? ”

"Suzhou, alone."

"It's the same city as me, do you want us to meet again, I'm fine these days."

"Meet?" Li Huinan really never thought about it, she was very surprised.

"You send me the location, and I'll go find you."

"This ...... I ......"

"What, are you afraid of me?"

"No, the first time I saw it was on the Internet, and I was a little uncomfortable."

The other party smiled, "What should I be, seeing that you are in a bad mood, I have nothing to do these days, so I will accompany you to relax." ”

"Okay then, I'll send you the address later."

"Well, don't cry either, it's not good for your eyes, are your eyes swollen now?"

Li Huinan rubbed her eyes, "It's okay, it's just a little painful, and it will be fine later." ”

"Well, I'll come and sing to you, what song do you like? See if I will. ”

"Ancient."

"Well, you'll be disappointed, that's not my forte."

Li Huinan was amused by the tone of his voice, "You are so funny." ”

"It's good to laugh, have you eaten?"

"No, I'll go back to the dormitory in a while, there's a restaurant downstairs."

"It's pretty convenient, what are you doing now? Still working in a factory? ”

"I didn't go early, now I'm doing sales, selling health care products and the like, what about you?"

"I opened a small bar, the business is not very good, I plan to close the store, change to something else, and I haven't figured out what to do."

"You sing so well, do you want to compete or something?"

"Forget it, those who show up don't have a good reputation, I don't like it."

"Can you sing me a song, then? I want to hear it now. ”

"Listen to what?"

"I'll listen to whatever you sing."

""Time, I'll sing this to you......"

Li Huinan was immersed in singing, very satisfied, very happy, she didn't know why she liked him very much, he sang, and wanted to listen to it all the time, this strange warmth made her heart warm.

The call lasted one hour and thirty-seven minutes, Li Huinan looked at the numbers on the screen, and sighed that time passed too quickly, and it was over before he could say anything.

The address was sent over, and an appointment was made to meet on Sunday. Li Huinan was excited and uneasy, not because she was afraid, but because she was afraid of meeting, and since then she has been a stranger, because the Internet is absolutely dead, although it is a friend's kind of rush, there is also this possibility, she still wants to listen to him sing, and it is good to be a confidant. She began to regret agreeing to it, but it had been more than two minutes since the message was sent and she couldn't take it back. The other party's mobile phone number Li Huinan has long been asked for it, but she has never called, and now she finds that she likes this person, not the kind of appreciation, probably because he often encourages and comforts himself, and slowly develops a sense of closeness, which may be an illusion of liking, or a seedling of love.

She thought about what she should wear that day, how she would meet, what was the first thing she said, would he like her, and what she looked like now...... After thinking about countless scenes, all kinds of embarrassing situations, and all kinds of sweet dreams, she smiled and touched her hot cheeks shyly, this seems to be the feeling of love, and she is sure that such a shy feeling must be liked. Yes, in her world, those who sing well are good-looking people, and she still meets good-looking people like that, revealing inferiority complex in her bones.

Although Li Huinan has been out of society for many years, she has never been in love, this is the first time she has this feeling, and she urgently needs someone to care about herself, have a boyfriend, and be cherished, loved, and protected like others. Panicked, imaginative, uneasy, excited, unable to express it, only humming the song that the person sang just now, his steps were brisk, he was in a good mood all of a sudden, and he was playing with the dog on the side of the road, and the dog was also well-behaved, she touched its fur and it was quite soft, and the puppy's tail kept wagging and wanted to hug it, but she heard someone shouting in the distance, and the puppy ran away.

Li Huinan smiled and waved her hand in the direction of the dog, continued to walk forward, and saw the flowers in the yard of a house blooming out of the wall, which was particularly beautiful, and couldn't help but take pictures. She was in a super good mood and thought it would laugh when she saw the tree, turn around, jump, stop and go, and just walk slowly and leisurely back to the dormitory. Unfortunately, the downstairs restaurant was closed and not open, Li Huinan had to go to the nearby supermarket to buy some snacks to fill his stomach, and the colleagues in the dormitory had not come back yet, it seemed that everyone had a good time at this party. If it weren't for the money, she would have been going there today, but she didn't like that kind of party, and felt that there was no point in wasting money. She feels that the money should be used on the blade, the money that should be spent, and the rest of the money should be saved, and it will be used as her dowry in the future, so that she will not be bullied and looked down upon when she goes to the man's house, and she will not be pregnant and ask for money, she feels embarrassed to do this kind of thing, she feels like she is inferior, and she wants money to see people's faces, and she is just a child, and she still does this when she grows up, and she has no dignity at all, so she often tells herself that she must be independent and autonomous.