There are so many emotions we can discern.

And unrecognizable, never-named emotions,

As many as the stars in the sky.

I want to express the emotions that are shared by all and are easy to understand.

but also to express the fleeting, maverick,

What dominates your life but is ignored by you,

The subconscious exists but has never been caught.

small, failed but great nameless emotions;

It's like capturing every ray of light of a diamond,

to restore the full presence of the diamond;

Their beauty will surprise you,

Let you admire the worthwhile trip of life.

- Shen Hao

*

She really didn't lie to me, and I bless you even if you are no longer a sister

Pure white snow, amber sunset, my plush hat, pink coat, beautiful smile and your stunning promise, dreams are shattered, flowers are gone, who cried...

My cute doll, how long has it been since I have hugged you to sleep, well, yes, it has been a long time, I haven't hugged you, I remember that I used to always hold you, I also took you to the street, and my mother said don't you always take me, I am too naïve, I don't listen to the doll, I am my dearest baby, I wear the dress I designed, I tie my hair, I dress me up beautifully, like a proud princess, every time I am sad, I hold my doll, my tears fall on my hair, my clothes, I look at me, and remember many things... Now I'm sad again, no one sees my tears, I sit at the head of the bed and hold my beloved doll and cry alone...

The heart will still hurt, I miss the flood of memories, the happy person sleeps well, who can't find the way home, today I happened to look through the photos of high school, I think of a lot of things and people, I really think that time is a blink of an eye, you see, now I am a freshman... Everything in the classroom is still there, but the face of the person is gone, and I don't know where to go

*

He said to me that I love you very much, but I don't know how to get close to you, so I feel that it's okay to leave, and it doesn't make a difference, anyway, it doesn't matter if it's good or bad, the important thing is that I used to have a crush on you, just like I was obsessed with Chanel's perfume

Does a love for sweets indicate a person's inner flaws and childishness?

Some people say that if a person is envied by others, it means that I am not good enough, and I cannot be faulted to the extent that I can't find fault with it, and a person with a high degree of integrity cannot be destroyed

It's weird. Some people never seem to be mature enough to take responsibility and take care of others. Opposite. Always love yourself so much. So I don't really want to be friends with people, a lot of the time.

It is cruel that one should not guess, extrapolate, or decide how long one should live

In the morning I saw a text message saying: This is the prosperous life you want. can be given to you.

It doesn't take to prove that you can also think that prosperity is just an illusion.

You said that I must be in a good mood when I sing, and when I said it was okay, it didn't matter, I was getting better, and none of you saw the tears that fell from my cheeks...... I sing just because I'm so sad, I'm helpless, I don't know what to do, and at the moment my smile is full of sadness... Nobody understands.

After the hallucinations. Vanish. It turned out that there was only so much left. Something like warmth. It was all a barren blank. I didn't have a tear after I was 19. Wasted on something meaningless. That's what I really thought one day ago. I feel like I should do it. And then. I found out that I still didn't do it. I really want to be a cold and heartless person. But still show the warmest smile. I don't remember what day it was. At night. Suddenly I found myself having become brave. I don't fear the darkness as much as I used to. When I'm walking through the long, dark hallway by myself, I don't want to cry in fear. You can even take it easy. Hehe. Maybe I'm used to it. Walk alone. You don't have to rely on anyone. Sometimes I look at people and things. It's going to feel ridiculous. And disgusting. Kitsch. Cheap. Ugly face. Maybe that's what this world is? Actually, it doesn't matter. It has nothing to do with me.

*

About Blossoms –

"I'll be good to you."

The promise of juvenile beauty.

… At the beginning of every teenager, there will be a girl like cherry blossoms, falling into life, doomed to decline.

And then my happiness has nothing to do with him.

What is happiness? It's hard to have a definite idea. I think happiness is an illusion. And I always watch the illusion shatter, and you are addicted to it...

I am a broken woman. All the feelings that I didn't come and give always annihilated myself and others. Because it's too turbulent. I smile. Anytime you are sad or happy. All I had left was to smile. I smile. A withered smile like a flower. Warm. Painful.

I started my old lifeless life again, and I tried to get back to my old self. The biological clock has long been out of order. Go to bed late. Early. Sometimes look at the pale face in the mirror. Your eyes will be damp. Tears fell softly. I'm so sad. So deep. Sad. Pain. Unreachable again. Eat alone. Go to bed. Travel. Keep a journal. Listen to songs. Read. Cold arrogance. Independent. There are some people who may be right. Didn't betray you. Or hurt you. Because they didn't care about you from start to finish. You feel the pain. Feel the pain. Resentment. That's your own wishful thinking and taking them too seriously. A game. Only you lose the most. The most complete defeat. Because naively, you put all your emotions into it. As everyone knows. No matter how heavy the emotion is, there will be times when it changes. Virtuous. Malignant. Tends to be flat. What are you up against? What is your destiny? Unpredictable. Any emotion. We all have to be able to get in and out. Don't lose yourself. I've been watching Yu Qiuyu's "A Thousand Years of Sigh" for the past few days. Because of Shen Qingjia, I watched it. He was indeed a man of great learning. Familiar with all kinds of cultures. I have my own personal experience. A person with a background is even more extraordinary. The groaning of history. The vastness. At noon, I lay on my desk and fell asleep after a while. Maybe this time is really too tiring. Debilitated. I always tell myself that when these days are over, I need to take a good rest. The first is to catch up on sleep. I told Yun Jiaoran about this. He couldn't laugh on the other end of the phone, saying I was stupid. Hehe. We both kept laughing. Foolish? Maybe?。 When you wake up. We were just in time for class. My class starts at half-past three. So I can go back to sleep. But I didn't sleep again. Wash. Gargle. Combs. The hair was tied up and spread out. In the end, it still didn't tie up. That's it. Pin on my favorite hairpin. And then. Brewed a cup of ice chrysanthemum. Start writing this. Actually, I really don't know what title to choose. I didn't expect that one day I would write these and I would want to be a teacher, it was incredible. But since it was written after I woke up, I simply inscribed: The Age of Awakening.

Summer vacation is walking on the road again. I think I might meet some more people this year. Some stories. Happiness. Sadness. Meet a woman. No makeup. I wore a gray-green cotton embroidered blouse. That kind of green. Like damp moss that hasn't seen the sun. Parasitic in a cool corner. Look up at the sky. I looked up. The clouds in the sky spread across the city in graceful poses. I began to understand. When a woman is looking at the sky. I didn't want to look for anything. I believe. Everyone with intuition. can't let go of the fear in his heart. Sometimes. Intuition hurts. Prelude. I'm a guy with a keen sense of instinct and a sense of skill. The pain is sharp. Sheer. Anne said: Anyone's adolescence. All with bloody cruelty. Kindness. Oh, yes. Our youth is full of premature deaths and accidents. Time is gone. Only the eyes are full of blankness. Some people are good. But it doesn't always come together. Yesterday I saw these words: But in my best time. The people I love are not with me. To those who don't love us. Can't give. Once paid. The sin is great. Collapse crying. It was written by a floating woman. I like me a lot. A pure and cold woman. ……。 I guess there are some things that can be forgotten. There are things that can be remembered. Some things can be willing. There are some things that have been powerless. Finally, end the day with a warm word, and end the day that will never come again. Sky blue day. I stay for you. So who will stop for me.

*

Time goes by without stopping

My young wounds were patched up and molted and colored

No harm in sight

There are only scars

shocking

Some people say that girls who love marshmallows have no love...

I read such an article a long time ago, that girl who likes to eat marshmallows, there are many angels in her life, but in the end, no one accompanies her to the long stream, the sun rises and the moon sets, although it was all good at the beginning.

When I was lonely, I bought a lot of marshmallows, sat on the wooden floor alone, and ate one by one, sometimes crying, it was the brilliance of a lonely woman. No one understands the loneliness.

In a trance, I remembered that I ate a large ball of marshmallows when I was a child, and I still have this habit of eating marshmallows with a happy expression, and I still like to eat marshmallows, and my friends around me all say that children eat things, why are you still so naïve... There is no reason for... When I am sad and lonely, I will eat a lot of marshmallows, drink a lot of boiled water, write a lot of calligraphy and paintings, listen to a lot of songs, cry silently, in fact, this is not good at all, I will feel hopeless and powerless, but they are all vines that grow in the blood, entangled with each other, and there is nowhere to escape...

I let you tolerate everything, but you can't help but look at me with such useless eyes, I'm not angry... Because I decided I was leaving... You + Me = We?! I'm starting to get suspicious... I went back to my old living area, quiet and alone, and the door was closed, saying "Don't Disturb If You're Honest!" My happiness has never been recognized, and my sorrow has been understood... It doesn't matter... Because we have never been anyone, no one has me, but I have always been too ignorant and stupid

In this way, a person stayed in the dark for so long, so long, strangely, he was not afraid, his heart was very peaceful, there were no impurities, there was no light, the classroom was very quiet, because everyone fell asleep, and wrote a short essay and English composition by the light of the mobile phone, and then listened to the song alone, listening to the song at night is always a special feeling, especially in the dark, empty, the whole space is only music and thoughts, endless, you can cry freely, you can sing shallowly. It's a huge loneliness and pale for you alone. I also hoped that someone would come and find me and come back with me. But subconsciously know NOBODY. Gradually despair no longer expects some things, but the point is broken but distorted, if the heart is in harmony, how can it be like this... I came back at 12 o'clock on time, I almost fell asleep, I sat quietly at my desk and wrote these words, tears fell from my eyes, no one saw them, and no one cared... How can darkness and light dance together? In fact, I am a willful child, always crying and sad for no reason, writing these inexplicable words, and having inexplicable dreams, so I never pray that anyone will stay with me for a long time to watch the vast snow in November

“

There are not always good skies after a storm

It's not that the sky is sunny and there will be a rainbow

So just because you're innocent doesn't mean you're ignorant

Not all relationships have a beginning and an end

The end of loneliness is not necessarily scary

But life is always inevitable with the first pain

May all you see in your eyes is a smile

May every tear you shed be touching

I hope that every dream you will have in the future will not be empty

Heaven and earth, if it is really worthy of praise

It's also because of you that you will become noisy

The world is hasher than you think

I can't bear to lie any more, but I hope you understand

I hope you'll know where to go."

*

When the whole world is immersed in a sea of joy, your sorrow alone is so vast and dark as despair.

Flowers, flowers, flying all over the sky, red incense, broken, who pities me, I hope that this day, my wings will fly with the flowers to the end of the sky.

I remember when I was young, you loved to talk, I loved to laugh, and I sat side by side on the stones, the wind was in the treetops, people were laughing, I don't know how to fall asleep, how many flowers fell in my dreams...

Once when I looked up and saw that the sky was very blue and the clouds were floating, I would be inexplicably sad and start thinking about how much time I had passed.

One day the sun was shining brightly and the clouds were blooming, and that day reminded me of the big balls of marshmallows and the scene when we ate them together. Actually, you don't like marshmallows, but you will eat with me every time, and there are colorful chocolate beans, the box you gave me last time was used to eat, and the other box was strung together by you, four words are inseparable, this is my favorite word, warm and incredible. If only it would never melt, keep it all the time. Some time ago, I also bought a box of chocolate chips and used some to spell out the name of a good friend, but in the end I still didn't have the courage to send it to him.

When I looked down, I found that tears had fallen to the ground.

What a nasty time it is.

Take a book and a mat to read on the lawn when the sun is shining, and occasionally butterflies will fly by. When I saw a single butterfly, I always wondered why Liang Shanbo left Zhu Yingtai and flew away alone? With Stefanie Sun or Faye Wong in my ears, I am no longer a woman who dances at midnight listening to the kind of intense and noisy concert, and the dust that falls from the ceiling will never fall in my dreams again.