The story that I thought would be told in the winter was not finished in the days when spring was coming to an end.

It's all going on.

It was the ninth day of the beginning of April. This is not a special day. It's just that the weather is fine. But this kind of weather is no longer special, because it has been like this lately. The long rainy season has come to an end on the last day of March.

Everyone is happy.

Because I finally said goodbye to those damp and moldy days. No more clothes that can't be dried, no more drying racks that can't be squeezed, no more damp mist. The rainy season is finally over. April has always been a sunny day.

What a nice weather.

Shen Qingjia likes this kind of weather. You don't have to have an umbrella, you don't have to wear rain boots, you don't have to worry about muddy water throwing on your trouser legs, and you don't have to worry about clothes that don't dry out. In such a sunny weather, the mood is also very beautiful. Sometimes Shen Qingjia feels that there is not much difference between March and April. It's not just March that the grass grows and the warbler flies, Shen Qingjia's impression is that April is also a beautiful month. Flowers and plants look more lush, vibrant, and vibrant.

Everything is so beautiful.

Life doesn't get any worse. Although some things still remain unresolved -

Shen Qingjia originally thought that when she no longer lived in Dijing Garden, when she no longer stayed under the same roof as Song Fusheng; As long as she does this, she will be able to eliminate the previous estrangement between her and Hua Bijin, and Shen Qingjia translates it as this way, so that she can become the same as before. In fact, they still haven't returned to the state they were in when they lived together in Lianhuadu. It's just what it seems. In the eyes of others, the relationship between Hua Yijin and Shen Qingjia is really good, even if they are not completely inseparable, they go to the cafeteria for lunch together every once in a while. In the eyes of others, Hua Rujin is really good to Shen Qingjia, she always comes to talk to her after every class, and the smiles on the faces of the two of them are as bright as the sunshine on this spring day. It's a really good friend. That's what those who saw said it. Shen Qingjia also felt a little trance. Sometimes she feels that this is the same as when she was in Lotus Crossing, and sometimes she is very confused, because there is always something wrong with this kind of relationship. But she couldn't say anything was wrong, but it had been as unreal as a dream lately.

How Shen Qingjia wished this was true. She wants everything to be true. She wanted everything to go back to what she had hoped it would be.

But where is life so easy?

If everyone really wants what they can get immediately and effortlessly, then life may be even more boring.

*

Shen Qingjia felt that he would definitely remember the story of last winter in particular.

Although as long as it is related to Song Fusheng, she remembers it very clearly. Sometimes I'm afraid that I'll forget, so I write a small diary to write it down. Very neat and very detailed. As long as you open the book and look at it, you can quickly remember what happened that day.

Yun Jiaoran once seemed to have inadvertently asked Shen Qingjia a question.

It was asked after Yun Jiaoran knew about Shen Qingjia's habit.

Yun Jiaoran: Shen Qingjia. I can't understand it, what's the benefit of you recording like this? Anyway, one day you'll forget it. Do you think that makes sense?

First of all, Shen Qingjia was a little confused. She wasn't puzzled because the question was really asked of her. She just wondered why Yun Jiaoran felt that everything had to be meaningful. Isn't there something in this world that you might not know the meaning of itself? It's not that I can't answer. If you have to give an answer, it is that you want to do it, you want to remember it. Didn't the teacher say that before? A good memory is better than a bad pen. Since you will forget it one day, let's remember it more carefully in the days when you haven't forgotten it.

There are always many things to work on. When you can work hard, you must make up for giving up and must go all out.

After listening to Shen Qingjia's answer, Yun Jiaoran's mood also fluctuated a little. On the one hand, she thinks this answer is okay. She didn't find a more powerful reason to refute Shen Qingjia for a while. On the other hand, she was also a little disapproving. Yun Jiaoran felt that this was deliberately making herself uncomfortable. Because the people in this diary may often be the ones who can't ask for it.

Of course, Shen Qingjia didn't tell Yun Jiaoran who the person in her diary was.

The person you want to hide in your heart can't say it casually, because you'll be embarrassed.

So I can only hide it in my heart like this.

Yun Jiaoran didn't ask Shen Qingjia what he wrote. A girl's heart can be shared a lot of times. Even if it's different, it's the same. I like someone's mood, sometimes it's the same.

Song Fusheng didn't say much.

Compared to Shen Qingjia.

But compared with Song Fusheng's past, that day, Song Fusheng may have said the most of his words over the years. So long, so much, so affectionate.

Those words have nothing to do with liking - he still hasn't confessed, and he still hasn't said the irrepressible love for Shen Qingjia in his heart.

Those words are inextricably linked to liking - the reason why he says so many words is because he likes it, or because he likes Shen Qingjia. Those words still reveal the same message - I really like you, I like you very much, I like it very much.

I like it a lot of times and I don't know what to do.

A lot of the time, I feel like crying.

I miss you a lot of the time.

A lot of times I'm scared of losing you, even though I don't own you.

Song Fusheng didn't know if Shen Qingjia understood the hidden meaning in his words. If you get it, that's great. If you don't understand, it's not particularly bad. Because this will always be there, and it will not change. Until the day she understood.

Forever.

Until the furthest future.

This mood will not change.

For Song Fusheng, Shen Qingjia will always be the unbearable weight of life in his heart.

Shen Qingjia was thinking, why did Song Fusheng open his heart like that that day. She has known Song Fusheng for so many years, and she has never spoken to him like that, and Song Fusheng has never said so many things to her like that. Even later in school, in Dijingyuan, I never really sat down and said so much.

Do you have to think so much just because of accommodation?

This was Shen Qingjia's first reaction.

Or maybe it's because I really think of myself as one of my best friends in the world.

This was Shen Qingjia's second reaction.

Could it be that Song Fusheng also likes me. Could it be that Song Fusheng also knows my mind?

This was Shen Qingjia's last reaction, and it was also her most red-faced thought. She really couldn't believe that it was true. Even if Shen Qingjia secretly thought about it in her heart for many days, she couldn't easily believe that this might come true.

A daydream come true?

Hahaha. She'll literally laugh until her face cramps. Oh, my God. It's incredible.

Shen Qingjia has always been a very cautious person, so she dismissed this idea, she told herself to be realistic, not to break her original plan because of this unrealistic fantasy.

Naturally, she didn't think about it anymore.

"Song Fusheng. I'm glad you've been able to explain so much to me. "I've known you for so many years, and I've never seen you say such long words to anyone. I am happy. Shen Qingjia was smiling all the time that day. Later, after Song Fusheng didn't leave, she didn't feel a little bit of a sense of gain and loss as she did on weekdays, she was inexplicably a little relieved, and felt that it didn't matter, it didn't matter,

She didn't know later that she didn't understand why this was happening.

But then it didn't over-interpret, and it's not a bad thing anyway.

"You don't blame me, I'm glad. Thank you. Qingjia. Song Fusheng never said long, long words, he always spoke so slowly and logically, full of an indescribable charm. Shen Qingjia had never seen Song Fusheng yell at anyone. Song Fusheng has always been elegant. It's an intrinsic temperament. A kind of cultivation.

"Nothing. It would be nice if the misunderstanding was solved. We're still friends. I was too naïve to ignore you so awkwardly before. Please don't take it to heart. That's that, anyway, don't take this kind of little thing to heart. You have to be happy. Shen Qingjia was really nervous when he said these words. Shen Qingjia was really worried that he would not be able to control his emotions at that time, so he directly told Song Fusheng his mind along the scene. Everything was ok. Thankfully, she was calm. Otherwise, it's unimaginable.

Shen Qingjia didn't dare to think about it.

"Hmm. Don't worry, I won't force you to do something you don't want to do in the future. It's all my fault for making you feel bad. This is the first and last time. You are welcome to supervise me. Song Fusheng actually laughed later. But the laughter was very soft, very soft. Just like his unfazed attitude, like the wind, it comes and goes in an instant.

“…… Ha ha. Suddenly so serious, I kind of didn't know what to say. Shen Qingjia blushed. It's like a beautiful sunset.

"When do you think I'm not serious?" Song Fusheng didn't pay attention to Shen Qingjia's face, he seemed to be asking a question very intentionally and as if he was asking her casually, expecting her to answer him casually.

That's not what it means. I'm just not used to it. You know, when we were kids, we didn't really talk much, except for studying. You probably don't remember. But I still remember. We never had anything in common. I don't know what you're saying. As I said, you're not interested either. Anyway, the only thing we have in common is talking about exams and how to get a better score on the next exam. There seems to be nothing else to say. Shen Qingjia seemed to be caught in a memory. These are her memories alone. She really didn't think that one day she would personally tell Song Fusheng about it. I feel a little embarrassed when I finish speaking. Maybe it was embarrassing at the time. After all, if the other person doesn't remember what you say, then you are talking to one person, and one person is talking to yourself. No one understood.

"You don't remember these things. Also. It's also not a big deal. You really don't have to take it to heart. I'm a person because I have a better memory, and I usually remember all trivial things as long as they are related to me. It's a bad habit, so don't take it personally. Because Song Fusheng didn't immediately answer her for a long list of topics. Shen Qingjia began to get nervous. Because she guessed that it must have been because she was talking about something old, and she didn't know when it happened. Song Fusheng might have laughed at her in his heart. What kind of girl from an old age is this? What do you remember about this?

But what Shen Qingjia didn't expect at all was that he didn't gain the contempt from Song Fusheng.

It's so lucky.

Shen Qingjia heard Song Fusheng say to her, "Of course I remember. No one asked me about that time, so I didn't have a chance to say it. "In fact, there are many things that Song Fusheng remembers, good and bad. Song Fusheng remembers. Song Fusheng never forget.

But in the second half, Song Fusheng chose to keep it in his heart. For so many years, he has always kept it in his heart, and it is the same now.

"Huh?!" Shen Qingjia was shocked.

This is really a situation that I never thought of in any way!

Originally, Shen Qingjia thought that Song Fusheng would say one thing at most, but he didn't remember it, it was all when he was very young. It's all trivial.

But Song Fusheng didn't say that.

It's amazing.

The joy on Shen Qingjia's face was beyond words, and it was the first time she looked at Song Fusheng's face so seriously.

This boy is still the same boy he was at the beginning.

But he grew up, and from winter to winter, from winter to spring, everything began to slowly change.

The boy still likes to be habitually silent, and the boy still maintains a cold face most of the time, and he doesn't like to laugh much, but when he laughs, it's like the flowers of the whole world are blooming. You can even hear the flowers squirming and opening.

So wonderful.

So innocent.

Don't think too much about the reasons, just remember that everything is because you like it.

Because she likes him, she remembers all the details related to him so carefully, and because she likes him, she is so careful, she doesn't want to lose, she doesn't want to lose.

*

Everything is not for its own sake.

The whole earth, the stars in the sky, exist for the sake of faith.

What is Faith?

What are your beliefs?

At the end of winter, Shen Qingjia suddenly understood a very important thing - the things she pursued, whether it was love or dreams, were inextricably linked to Song Fusheng.

She originally just lived a step-by-step life, not asking about the future or the past.

It wasn't until she had a person in her heart that she began to think about the meaning of this life.

I want to be a better person, to be a shining person.

She was illuminated by him, and now she also wants to be the light of whom, whose life she illuminates.

From now on, no longer alone.