There was a gust of wind that kept blowing

She knew it never stopped

Through the gap between seasons and seasons

At the speed of light

Across her years

*

The fifth week of school was close to the weekend One day in March 2007, the sky in her city was still gray and the temperature was low

So the clothes that had been worn on cold days that had been placed at the bottom of the pressure box were rediscovered

Luckily, the weather forecast says it will be sunny and warm up over the weekend

The students of the Academy of Fine Arts were very happy

It's spring, after all

It's really inconvenient to rain all the time

During this time, all kinds of activities in the school were overwhelming

Every day is busy

When you can't get busy

I also feel very tired and tired

Tired and panicked and burst into tears, because she participated in the student union, sometimes she looked at the table full of books and work files that needed to be organized

I really feel so helpless, very hesitant, I don't know what to do, and the river of loss and sadness is flooding

In the end, I had to be strong and wipe away my tears

Carefully put away these emotions

Continue unfinished assignments and work

Maybe everyone will come across a war with a person like her

The emotions are complicated, and the people who are confused and overwhelmed do not show up all the time

It's as if you can never finish doing such and such things in life

I want to find someone to give it all into

But I don't know who to look for, there are many numbers in the phone book, but this moment is so unfamiliar

Occasionally, a person popped up in his mind, and quickly dispelled this idea, thinking in his heart that it was better to forget it

So what?

If that person still doesn't understand

He may even misunderstand what he meant in the first place

Wouldn't I be more depressed?

So

The last of the last

Or buried everything in the bottom of my heart

Let's figure it out ourselves

It will always work out

Like a lonely drifter on the sea

Obviously exhausted and about to collapse

No matter how sad the days are, no matter how low the mood is

Life still has to go on, and the earth is still spinning.

Birds chirp. She liked the imagery.

Fragmented. The state of life now.

Break. Break. Break. Can I make it up?

Break. Break. Break. Can you forget?

There was a lot of pressure every day, the diary was unprecedentedly accumulated, and when she decided to call him, when he answered our call, she was blank and speechless. What's going on? Hehe. I always thought I understood, but I found out later, and today I found out that no one will always be by her side from beginning to end, and those promises are just unintentional. She's numb. You don't need anyone to hurt it, sometimes it's a good thing that your heart is dead, you don't cry if you don't feel pain. Except for silence. Ask them to stop talking about her, he makes them feel distressed. Because she will believe them. Keep away from each other, and don't hurt each other. Recent studies and school events have brought her to the brink of collapse. It's really sad like never before. In the end, she came over alone, and came to this day, although she laughed at everyone every day, although she didn't have the heart to say anything to them every day, but no one saw the hole in her heart, and even when she sat alone at the back, she was in a daze, thinking that maybe she was what she is now.

She's used to being alone. It's true. And you're going to get used to it. Maybe today. Maybe tomorrow.

No matter who the message on the computer or mobile phone screen is, the incoming call appears to each other, and there is no longer the same mood as before. Something really disappeared. Not coming back. These days are super tired from class, very tired and sleepy

I can't practice my singing voice anymore. Hurt. It was cold. Fortunately, she didn't catch a cold, and she would already take good care of herself. I never expected anyone to understand, she would love herself well and feel sorry for herself

At this moment, she no longer knew who else around her could rely on to make herself no longer afraid. She's the only one. So she told herself every day to work hard and live harder.

Suddenly, I found that there were a lot of messages piled up in my phone inbox

She just flipped down one by one and looked. The emotional color of each message is different.

I don't know how long ago, she started to stop storing information.

She likes to empty all the messages. Leave no message that might remind her of who.

It hurts to miss it. Memories hurt.

So now she rarely texts people. Yes. She started to hate texting.

She used to like to store the messages her friends sent her in a folder called "Happiness". When I'm idle, I open it and look at it, and I have a faint smile on my face, which is happiness.

cry

Or she would copy the information in her beloved diary, including the time it was received. It's neatly copied down. Then smile.

One day, for some reason, she deleted all the information she had saved, including the diary. She remembered that she cried and tears fell to the ground. I really cried for a long, long time. At that time, she knew very well that she would never store anyone's information again. It will even hate texting.

She calls them when she thinks about them, and she's not scared as long as the voice is there.

If they miss her and remember to call her, she'll be happy.

Long Shang said: She used to like to send messages and call friends the most, why do you hate these things so much now, what's wrong?

What's wrong? I remember that Shen Song asked Liu Ran in the summer of "Liu Ran Summer": Why does he ask her to wait for him every time, wait for him to come home for dinner, wait for him to answer her phone, wait for him to reply to her message, she is always waiting for him, but now that she is tired, she no longer has the strength to wait for him...

The wait may be long, but it shouldn't be endless. You must know that waiting too long is not what you want. The heart is different. Maybe tired and tired. Waiting for a person's care is finally waiting for oneself to close one's heart.

She has always felt that truly loving someone is a small and huge thing.

It also takes time and effort.

You need to think about it from time to time, maybe you don't need to be by your side all the time, but when he is sad and sick, the greeting of that person will be there. Even if it won't be the first person to care about him. At least he is. It's always been there. Knowing that he is there will be a lot of peace of mind in him, a little less fear and a little more warmth.

… After thinking about it for a long time, I finally emptied my inbox.

My heart hurt slightly.

When she saw that it displayed: 199 messages have been deleted

I really feel empty in my heart

There was a gap missing

The faces of many people appeared in their eyes

Eventually disappeared

One day

Suddenly, I miss being alone

Then the text message passed

The time for getting a reply was 4:38 the next day

She remembered falling asleep while she was waiting

After waking up

Still no reply from him

She didn't reply the next day

Because the mood is already different

She is not used to making a fool of herself

It would make her feel like a hypocrisy

She's going to hate herself

When they told her it was very distressing for her

She swears

Really impressed

I feel super happy

hehe

It's true

Don't lie to him

Many people say that in fact, he is really just a child in love, and he can be happy for a long time because of some very small and ordinary words, and he will feel happy.

Everybody says you have to be cheerful.

At that time, she was really happy and happy.

Although some people just have mouths and no hearts.

Although many promises were not kept.

Although those who felt sorry for her still made her feel distressed.

But she believed.

When they say they feel sorry for her, they really want to be nice to her, right?

Only later,

Everything has changed.

Dear friends, she understands.

It does not matter.

Although they all said that she was like a child, so naïve, so innocent.

Although they always suspected that she could not take good care of herself.

But

Right now.

She's already learning how to take care of herself.

I just saw a sentence: A girl who has the ability to be willful will also have the ability to be strong.

She always remembered that Daiyu said to Baoyu in "Dream of Red Mansions"; But to return all the tears of her life to him, it is okay to live.

Baoyu didn't ask; What's the use of her asking for tears for his life?

He has a lifetime of fine clothes and food, and love is nothing more than luxury, as long as beauty is enough

And they're just ordinary people, and they want something more solid, like care, comfort, or just a little bit of support. That's fine. Please don't leave her alone, okay?

*

After everything is done, I can't find anything to keep myself busy, hateful, sad sadness begins to sprout again, she really doesn't know what to do, there are a lot of numbers in the phone book, but she doesn't know who to look for, the number is dialed to the last digit, after all, I don't have the courage to press the green button, and finally give up or put it in my heart, okay, it's really just my own business, I'm sad alone, how can I let my friends worry about her, now the only thing left is to paint, draw some pictures to prove that she is not nothing, after all, she still has her own dreams to rely on, she knows that this is the only one that belongs to her, it will always be in her only one, and she will never leave it。

He can choose to ignore her, really thinking too much is not an opportunity to be sad, even if a heartless person sometimes does not mean that he is really happy, but he is better at hiding than her, thank them for being good, she will learn to be happy, he can choose not to see her sadness, then he forgets that she is so sad, she can also pretend, maybe she has never been sad, and he doesn't have to worry about her.

This so-called happiness, she doesn't want everything to end now, okay, he can say anything, she can tell him anything, she believes in him more than once, and believes in their friendship, but in the end, he still destroys it and lets her live alone, to get to know those simple and simple people, this day still comes, she still chooses to leave, he gives up the promise he once had, because everything has lost its meaning, she knows that even without her, he will live well, so she is not worried that he will be sad tomorrow or in the future, for her, he now has a new person to accompany him, it doesn't matter if he is lonely and lonely, as for herself, she firmly believes that she is slowly becoming better, to be a beautiful woman, kind and simply standing in the crowd, likeLegacy independence.

Happiness is endless, but it is difficult to reach far away, and those things they once thought they would never forget are gradually forgotten in the process of remembering

Who told her that everything is a void, the wind is chasing the wind, no one has time to see anyone's growth, no one can really accompany anyone to cross the mountains and mountains to reach the bliss of life, they are just a short paragraph in her life, and one day she will also become his paragraph

She would often fall into a kind of panic

helpless

powerless

Her favorite writer Shen Song said-

Life is a decay

His presence was a ruin for her

Reaching out and grasping a blank space, he finally knew that they had nothing

She may only be able to draw something when she is bored, and she feels that dreams can only be thought of after something has happened. She wasn't like that before. Recently, I have really suffered from gains and losses.

Happiness far away from cherries

Where is it

How could she find it?

She wanted to give up... In fact, she also knew that it was a small setback, and it didn't matter, but she was such a proud person... Maybe starting again from the highest point, I can't let go of my heart, the road is my own choice, even if I kneel, I have to finish it by myself, she understands deeply, but now she wants to give up, really, what if she wants to give up......

*

She said that she was not wrong, she really was not wrong, so even if they didn't believe her, it didn't matter, why should she care about what happened to them today, she was really wronged, and the tears were endured for a long time, and now she finally fell down, and she was crying again, she used to think that she would cry when she was on the phone with her friends, and finally held back, she promised that the people who cared about her the most should be strong, not give up easily, do better, my friend was right, so she absolutely couldn't let him down, she felt guilty for her decision just now, how could she be like this, she didn't have nothing, after all, there was the person she loved the most, she was never alone, if she was confused and helpless, they would always wait for her to come home and never abandon herEven if people all over the world misunderstand her and ignore her, so she is happy, tonight this is just a very small thing, how can it destroy her, they can't be human beings, they are not born to be defeated, he can eliminate him as much as possible, but he just can't defeat him, if she gives up, then won't she admit that she is wrong, she is not wrong, no, so she must not give up on her, he must not give up, absolutely must not give up, wipe away tears, smile slightly, she is still the proud girl.

I told him, yes, they were the guest of honor, okay, she knew that he had the same idea as them, because he had told her that he wanted to tell him what she was doing, but in the end it was too naïve, if one day he saw her and heard her say this, please don't ask her what her purpose was, because it was meaningless at that time, even if she knew that it was not her original intention to be cold to him, just every time she saw those scenes, she would wish he would stay there and ignore her, if he chose to leave, she could accept it, after all, she made him feel annoyed, he didn't owe her anything, so he could choose to ignore her sadness and sadness, she didn't blame him, she knew that he sincerely took her to heart and treated her as a good friendShe understands what he said today, and she is also very moved, when one day they all feel that she is already very strong, and their promise has been fulfilled, she knows that this day will come soon, so please don't worry about anything, she won't change what he said, she now clearly knows what her goal is, what is the meaning of what she is doing it, although she is not happy, but she is happy, don't doubt, there is still him in her heart, but she is really tired, just like he said, she is very fragile and vulnerable, so she can no longer stand being disturbed, she is indifferent, smiling slightly, and it is not hurt.

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