Chapter 287: Flowers and Faces Are Empty
If Song Fusheng felt that he would really retreat from her if he rejected her like this, then he really underestimated her.
The winter vacation is so long, she is not afraid, she has time to grind with him.
Anyway, she wasn't in a hurry.
Hua Yan thought of this, and her mood became really good. She was so happy that she took three pieces of dark chocolate out of the drawer, and ate them all in quick succession.
Eating sweets can make people feel happy, and now Hua Yan feels that her mood is really great.
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Regarding Hua Yan's inexplicable phone call, Song Fusheng didn't take it to heart.
Song Fusheng has never paid attention to this person all along.
I don't plan to have anything to do with her in the future.
Song Fusheng still continued to think about how he would spend his winter vacation. It's a little closer to Shen Qingjia's birthday. And he hadn't figured out what to send her. Maybe this year should be a little different. He sat down at his desk and went into contemplative mode.
As for Zhuang Zhou.
Since the last incident, Zhuang Zhou has sometimes been a little reluctant to talk about himself. Of course, Song Fusheng understood the meaning, but he himself had something to say to Zhuang Zhou, but he didn't know how to speak. Nothing was done wrong by anyone. Maybe that's why it's even harder to speak.
No matter who it is, no matter what it says, it makes people feel a little pimple in their hearts.
For Song Fusheng, especially a few days ago, Zhuang Zhou was still because of a small thing - what kind of trivial matter? It's just that Zhuang Zhou himself casually said that he was drunk at home. He was originally a drinker. Naturally, because of some things, I felt a little uncomfortable that day, so I borrowed wine to drown my sorrows. Song Fusheng knew the real reason, but he didn't debunk him. Since Zhuang Zhou didn't want to say it, then follow his heart and don't ask anything. Don't speculate too much. Anyway, everyone's hearts are very clear. Maybe because of this, Song Fusheng's heart is even more tormented.
But at the same time, he knew very well that he would not be shaken because of Zhuang Zhou - Song Fusheng's liking for Shen Qingjia would not change, and it would not change in this life.
I always felt that Zhuang Zhou had already handed over the answer to Shen Qingjia.
So what does Shen Qingjia think? Song Fusheng didn't know. He didn't dare to think too deeply, because he was also afraid. He was also afraid that the person Shen Qingjia chose in the end was not him. It doesn't matter who Shen Qingjia chooses. As long as that person is not him, Song Fusheng. Song Fusheng felt as uncomfortable as a knife.
But he didn't have the courage to ask.
Even he didn't have the courage to tell Shen Qingjia how much he liked her now. He liked her to the core. He loved her as much as he cherished life.
Just when Song Fusheng was thinking alone, his door was knocked on by Zhuang Zhou.
Song Fusheng returned to his usual appearance, he got up and walked towards the door. "The door is not locked, you can just come in." Song Fusheng said.
"I know." Zhuang Zhou remembered that Song Fusheng had never been in the habit of locking the door. Especially when you're at home. But that doesn't mean he's going to just rush into his room. Everyone should have their own privacy, even their closest friends should not trespass. Mutual respect between friends is the minimum criterion.
"What's wrong? Do you come to me to play the game or discuss the direction of the plot? There was no wave in Song Fusheng's tone. But he always had questions in his heart and wanted to ask Zhuang Zhou, but he didn't have the right opportunity to say it for the right reason. Even he didn't know what he was saying it for. It doesn't seem to mean anything special. Because of such entanglement, Song Fusheng didn't say what was in his heart after all.
"Neither. Fusheng, you should have something to say to me. Zhuang Zhou handed Song Fusheng a cup of hot drink. The drink in his hand was not drunk. After a long time, he took a sip with a heavy heart. Zhuang Zhou sat down in front of Song Fusheng's bed.
Song Fusheng said thank you, glanced at Zhuang Zhou several times, and finally said calmly: "I do have something to say to you, but I don't know how to speak." Of course, this is not the only reason. I think the most important reason is that I personally don't think it makes sense to say it or not to say it, to ask or not to ask you. for I will not declare war on you. Song Fusheng said the truth, and he said the real words in his heart. There is no need to lie in front of Zhuang Zhou. They have been tacitly acquiesced for so many years, and many times this is how they are honest. You believe me, I believe you, and we don't cheat on each other. Of course, there is no such serious and serious agreement between the two of them, and there has never been any three chapters of the covenant, which is purely a tacit understanding.
A tacit understanding of years of getting along.
"Since you've thought so much, why don't I tell me about it first. If you think you can say it, just follow my lead. What do you think? After a while, Zhuang Zhou had already drunk all the hot tea in his hand. He held an empty cup in his hand and did not let go for a long time. It seems that he is thinking about whether he really wants to say it, and it seems that he has nothing in his heart.
"Good. You said. Song Fusheng nodded.
Many times, Song Fusheng felt that Zhuang Zhou was more upright than himself. Although he may seem a bit scoundrel at times, he has always thought a lot of things through. He doesn't just think about himself, he thinks about the people around him. He's always been used to empathy, and he's always been considerate of others. The angry words that Song Fusheng once said were really just angry words. It is impossible for him to hate Zhuang Zhou, and he will not really want to be unrelated to him for old age. It was all a momentary breath, and Qi Zhuang Zhou left alone at that time. Fortunately, fate is always there, going around and around, but it still hasn't dispersed.
For so many years, his best friend has always been him.
Over the years, his most remembered friend has always been him.
"I like Shen Qingjia. You know about it, right? It's okay not to know, I'll tell you now. As for what I like about her, I won't say anything. There's nothing like that to talk about. Anyway, there is only one result, and that is that I like her. It's not just a casual joke and a casual talk, I'm really moved by her heart, and I am sincere to her. When Zhuang Zhou finally decided to say this, he no longer hid his feelings. He was indeed full of praise for Shen Qingjia. When he mentioned Shen Qingjia, his expression was radiant, and it would not be an exaggeration to say that it was radiant.
Zhuang Zhou glanced at Song Fusheng, he didn't see any surprise or dissatisfaction on Song Fusheng's face. Thinking about it, Song Fusheng really knew it a long time ago. Maybe it was known that morning, or it was suddenly known at some point on a certain day. Anyway, he did know about it. But it's not impossible. It's better to know earlier so you don't get too surprised. There's nothing particularly strange about it. Zhuang Zhou thought about it a lot, but he still didn't regret his honesty. He was ready to continue. "Floating. Life is probably so impermanent. I like the same girl as you. When I liked her, I guess you've been liking her for years. Even though I don't know when you started liking her, I'm sure you'll always like her. Because you have never been a merciless person. Once you have feelings for someone, you won't let go easily. I know. I know that better than anyone else.
You haven't confessed to Shen Qingjia yet. You can rest assured. Neither do I. Ha ha. Telling you about it today, you can rest assured that I won't say it. I won't say it now, and I won't say it in the future. I won't say anything about it in my life.
You don't have to worry and don't think about it. I'm not for you, and it's not for you, it has nothing to do with the friendship between us. As for why. You'll definitely understand later.
I don't think it's interesting to say it now. Floating. I'm telling you this today, I just don't want any gap between us. You're still you, I'm still me, nothing has changed. The relationship between us and Shen Qingjia is still the same as before. ”
"I won't let Shen Qingjia see my intentions. It won't stop you from pursuing her. It's business as usual. ”
"Floating. Perhaps I say this just to show that one's heart cannot be easily changed. I won't pursue her, but I'll guard her, watch her out of her sight. As a loyal friend. That's all. Zhuang Zhou said.
Zhuang Zhou suddenly understood after saying his mood, the reason why he said so much was just to be able to stay by her side and use the way that would not disturb her life.
Because he knows her heart, he won't embarrass her; Because I know her heart, I am willing to respect her choice.
Because Song Fusheng is his best friend, he doesn't want to have many unwarranted misunderstandings with him for no reason. It's best practice to solve problems before they happen.
Although Song Fusheng didn't know Shen Qingjia's mind yet, he would understand one day. It's just a matter of time.
I don't know what kind of premonition it is, Zhuang Zhou believes that Song Fusheng and Shen Qingjia will one day understand each other's hearts, and eventually there will be lovers who will eventually become married.
It's just a matter of time.
But about Zhuang Zhou's own time. About the time of his life. He is willing to give all to the woman he loves. In the most silent way.
He doesn't need anyone to understand him, but he doesn't want to be misunderstood, especially his best friend.
Can Song Fusheng really understand his mind?
Can Song Fusheng understand his helplessness?
Zhuang Zhou is not 100% sure. Empathy is not useful all the time. Because sometimes you are not him, and he is not you. Everyone wants and cares differently.
Zhuang Zhou was silent for a minute after saying these words.
A minute later, Zhuang Zhou calmly looked at Song Fusheng's face, he looked into his eyes and said seriously: "Fusheng." Do you see what I mean? That's what I thought. "The future is uncertain. Who can be 100% sure of the future. Zhuang Zhou actually didn't know anything about this life.
But in the dark, he was sure that he would always like Shen Qingjia. He will always watch over her. I don't need her to know, I don't need her to understand. He would guard her in the clumsiest and smartest way.
Everything Zhuang Zhou said was what Song Fusheng expected, but some of it was not expected by Song Fusheng. For example, Zhuang Zhou said that he would only like her alone in his life. Although Zhuang Zhou didn't say it explicitly, isn't that the meaning the same? Is Song Fusheng angry? Certainly not angry. Because the other party is Shen Qingjia. Because the person he likes is Shen Qingjia. Shen Qingjia deserves all the beauty in the world. Song Fusheng thought this way from a long time ago. He still thinks that way.
He will never be the only one in this world who likes Shen Qingjia, and he will definitely not be the only one who is fascinated by Shen Qingjia, and now he knows that this is really the case. Zhuang Zhou's personality Song Fusheng is very clear. Zhuang Zhou's ability, Song Fusheng also understood. Such a person said that he wanted to protect Shen Qingjia, and he felt very good.
"There is one more person in this world who is willing to protect Shen Qingjia, which is good."
Finally, after being silent for a long time, Song Fusheng said to Zhuang Zhou.
Originally, Zhuang Zhou thought that Song Fusheng would say more, but he waited for a long time, but he only waited for Song Fusheng to say such a sentence.
It's just a sentence, but it's enough.
But didn't he have anything else to ask? "Aren't you asking me any more questions?" Zhuang Zhou asked Song Fusheng. Zhuang Zhou doesn't like to save today's problems for tomorrow or later, since he decided to make this matter clear today, that is, he must explain everything clearly today. Dragging mud and water when solving problems is not Zhuang Zhou's style.
"I don't have anything more to ask. Is there anything else you want to say to me? Song Fusheng inexplicably wanted to laugh, but he couldn't laugh. Zhuang Zhou also has a cute time.
"No more. I'm done with what I need to say. Zhuang Zhou said seriously.
"That's it. So be it. Song Fusheng showed a knowing smile.
"Okay." Zhuang Zhou was about to go back to his room.
However, when he got up, Song Fusheng seemed to suddenly remember something, and suddenly grabbed Zhuang Zhou's arm: "Wait." Zhuang Zhou, I think I do have a question for you. ”
"......" Zhuang Zhou was stunned for a moment, and then said, "Ask." ”
"I listened to what you said just now, it seems like saying that Shen Qingjia likes me. That's what you mean, right? Song Fusheng's face was obviously flushed when he asked this, and he looked embarrassed. It was the first time Zhuang Zhou saw Song Fusheng look so shy. Sure enough, people who fall in love are cute.
"Can't you see?" Zhuang Zhou couldn't help but smile and said.
"I don't see it." Song Fusheng said truthfully.
"I know." Zhuang Zhou said lightly.
"......" Song Fusheng's mood is really complicated now.
He had never thought of such a thing. Shen Qingjia actually liked him back. Ah, it's unimaginably magical. That's great. At this moment, his mood was inexplicable and a little happy, if what Zhuang Zhou said was true, it would be good.