Bai Ling didn't answer immediately, she thought for a while before she continued,

"Hichiwa must have seen my dad many times...... Do you think others are good? ”

"Well, it's rare to see someone as selfless as him now." Zeng Jiuyan spoke softly.

Bai Ling blinked, "I have discussed it with Bai Yi many times, and we think he is the most selfish one in the family. ”

"Selfish ......" Zeng Jiuyan was a little inexplicable again, "this is ...... How so? ”

Bai Ling smiled, "Because, he only cares about his own happiness." ”

Zeng Jiuyan frowned, "No, Imperial Doctor Bai is obviously -"

"He has, why doesn't he?" Bai Ling chuckled softly, "He is happy after curing the patient; Helping others is really helpful, and he is also happy...... As for how Bai Yi and I can live faster, he rarely thinks about it, at least not as carefully as he does with his manuscripts. ”

Zeng Jiuyan was shocked by this logic.

This seems to say that Bai Shijun's selflessness is his selfishness, and his dedication and sacrifice are not dedication and sacrifice, but the pleasure he covets.

“…… Also. Zeng Jiuyan nodded, "Imperial Doctor Bai is good to outsiders, but being his son and daughter is probably a different taste." ”

"Yes, Bai Yi can't stand his style, but most of the time, I think it's good."

Zeng Jiuyan frowned, "What do you think?" ”

"Yes, of course." Bai Ling said softly, "My father has one thing that everyone else can't compare to - for me and Bai Yi, although he uses less heart, he can also limit less.

Just like Bai Yi was reluctant to study medicine with him at first, preferring to be a carpenter and a cook. He was a little unacceptable, but he didn't stop it either.

"He always puts what he wants to pursue first, and the same is true for me and Bai Yi. He has given everything we should have in life, and the rest is up to us.

"His logic has always been consistent - others can't force him, and he doesn't force others."

Zeng Jiuyan silently turned the cup in his hand, and after a long time, he said softly, "...... Not everyone can have a father like you. ”

"yes." Bai Ling said softly, "It's also a maverick way of living. ”

Zeng Jiuyan was a little stuck in his throat.

He wanted to hear Bai Ling talk about Fang Cai's sentence "Who are you punishing", but Bai Ling seemed to jump the topic elsewhere.

Zeng Jiuyan lowered his head slightly, "What do you want to say, just say it, don't go around so many bends with me." ”

"I didn't go around the bend," Bai Ling picked up the cup again, "I think Jiuyan ...... Don't be so self-conscious. ”

The movement in Zeng Jiuyan's hand stopped there, and after a long while, he smiled dumbly, "You think I'm suffering myself?" ”

"Isn't it bitter?" Bai Ling looked at him intently.

Zeng Jiuyan clenched his sleeves slightly.

"Boling...... Are you trying to convince me to open a little? ”

Bai Ling shook his head.

"Maybe Hichiwa is the same as me...... Trapped by everything in front of me. ”

In fact, it is better to go north to join the army, or to stay with your parents and do your filial piety...... No matter which one you choose, you will lose and gain.

But the people in front of him don't seem to occupy either now - they are reluctant to make the old marquis sad, so they force themselves to stay in Pingjing; But he couldn't let go of his desire to go north, so he couldn't live here calmly, and he had to spend the ridiculous days of singing all night in Baihuaya.

Zeng Jiuyan's eyes drooped slightly, "You're the first one to think so." ”

"Yes."

"If it is hard to stay in a gold cave like Baihuaya, then there is probably nothing in the world that is not bitter," Zeng Jiuyan smiled in a low voice, "...... Sometimes I think it's boring, but doing something else is even more boring, I can't get them to change their minds, but it's impossible for me to be obedient. ”

“…… But why do you have to agree to the old marquis," Bai Ling said softly, "Just leave, is it okay?" ”

The room suddenly fell silent, and Zeng Jiuyan was stunned for a moment.

“…… Leave? ”

"Hmm." Bai Ling nodded, "When the Great Zhou Dynasty was founded, weren't there two county lords who left Beijing directly from Congrong...... Haven't you thought about this road? ”

Zeng Jiuyan suddenly laughed, he was about to answer, but suddenly remembered the situation when his parents forced each other to die in the past, and couldn't help but sigh again and frowned.

"You don't understand, Bai Ling. They will, they will—"

"Then Kuiwa can also figure it out?" Bai Ling said softly, "I think the best thing to do is not to give them a chance to object. Think about my dad, be chic, there are always trade-offs in life. ”

Zeng Jiuyan's expression became solemn.

It's not that he hasn't thought about this road, but this is really too nonsense - the prince of Hou Fu ran away from home?

When it really comes to that time, I am afraid that the official document looking for someone will not be pasted from the south to the north and from the west to the east......

And at that time, how his father would sigh and how his mother would weep, Zeng Jiuyan almost didn't have to think about it, he had already seen what it was like.

He suddenly felt a little sad again.

"That's it, I'm really going to let them down."

“…… But who didn't grow up like that? Bai Ling said in a low voice, "If you always think that you can't live up to others, you can only live up to yourself." ”

Speaking of this, Bai Ling paused for a moment, "However, I think the most troublesome thing here is not this ......."

"What?"

"Has Kuiwa ever been on the battlefield?" Bai Ling asked.

Zeng Jiuyan shook his head.

Bai Ling hummed softly, and said after a while, "Although it is a place where you can make a name for yourself, it is also a place where you can die...... It's romantic to start from Rong's head, are you really ready? ”

"I ......" Zeng Jiuyan frowned, not knowing how to answer for a while, "How can I be prepared?" ”

"I don't know." Bai Ling said softly, "You have to ask yourself?" ”

Zeng Jiuyan felt that his heart was slowly warming.

"Anyway, internal friction is the most tiring." Bai Ling said softly, "Whether things will work or not, you still have to start preparing and give it a try." A man has to fulfill himself...... Isn't it? ”

Zeng Jiuyan didn't answer for a long time.

He really didn't expect that tonight's topic would be on him - he obviously wanted to ask Bai Ling if there was anything else she needed in life, he was now half a benefactor, and he could help her make up what she wanted first.

"Bai Ling, you really ......" Zeng Jiuyan thought for a long time, and couldn't find any good words to describe it, so he said after a while, "...... You are really reckless. ”

Bai Ling laughed, "Each other, each other." ”

"But what are you going to do when I'm gone?" Zeng Jiuyan asked, "Have you thought about this question?" ”

"I've thought about it," Bai Ling said softly, "and this is one of the things I'm going to tell you tonight, and I've already discussed it with the bustard...... May Crescent line, you will not redeem mine. ”

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