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When did such suspicions arise?

Spring return is not certain. But she didn't suspect that Fan Da Da was so frustrated, or that under the bullying and humiliation of everyone, the grief and anger accumulated over the years and the anger that had nowhere to be discharged would completely destroy his sanity. Even if she just found out that Fan Da was lying, his wife and children died of strangulation and he died of knife killing, all kinds of unreasonable strangeness, when Chun Gui Da felt suspicious, she actually didn't think that Fan Da was the real murderer of his wife and children.

Perhaps it was when she listened to Lan Ting's testimony of Mei Banzhan's confession, and learned that Fan Er, a seven-year-old child, would rather die than live such a miserable and desperate life after his mother was forced to commit suicide, and he even voluntarily sold himself as a slave and embarked on another path that was actually equally unlucky, and was willing to exchange the price of lifelong freedom for the opportunity to get rid of this life, that she "chuckled" in her heart.

She doesn't know if Fan Er is indeed an adultererous child, and the truth of this matter may only be known to Fan's mother, who has committed suicide by throwing herself into a well.

But Fan's father stubbornly and firmly regarded the only "sound" youngest son of the family for several generations as the hope of life, Fan Er ran away from home and there was no news, Fan's father was finally crushed by such despair, he didn't even need to end his life with his own hands, grief and despair had made him unable to survive.

Fan Da completely repeated the trajectory of his father's fate, and even lived a more difficult life, and when he returned to the spring, he thought, what is his hope?

He strangled his daughter because he didn't want to live a more shameful life, he may not be able to bear the abuse and bullying that was enough to bend his backbone, but after that ruthless strangulation, he fell into a more miserable situation, how long can he bear it?

A person has been living in a gloomy hell, when he finally realizes that there has never been and will never be a light in his present and his future, even with the three hundred taels of silver that Fan Er gave him, but he still can't raise his eyebrows and win the respect of everyone, there is no way to wash away the curse and ominous luck of God, even gold and silver money can't change his status, Fan Hui will not be completely desperate?

How is there no difference between living without hope and dying?

This is not the cognition of Chungui, but she thinks it is the cognition of the Fan family.

She tried to further figure out Fan Da's psychology to come up with this guess, but she was actually deeply suspicious of her guess, she didn't expect that Fan Da would admit it with such a question.

She heard even Qu Chu exclaiming, and asked angrily: "Did you kill your wife and children with your own hands?" Are you crazy?! ”

"I'm crazy, and I'm driven crazy by those people! None of you have experienced it, and all of them have trampled you on the soles of their feet, as if you were not a person at all, a beast inferior to a pig or a dog, and humble and dirty than a mustard and a rat! You haven't experienced it, so it's impossible for you to sympathize with me, you will reprimand me for being cowardly, think I'm crazy, think that I'm trampled on is really reasonable, none of you can understand, can't understand......" This time Fan Da didn't cry bitterly, not even his eyes were red, and even the gloom on his body was completely covered by the resentment at this moment, only as hideous as a trapped beast, all the accumulated anger in life was difficult to suppress, and these accumulated anger had indeed formed a vicious attitude.

"Your delusion is not hatred." Chungui looked at the man who was still standing in the corner, her expression was calm, maybe only she knew the complicated feelings at this time, it was difficult to express

of pity and regret, of course, there is also contempt, you can understand why Fan Da is crazy, but you can't fully agree: "Since you strangled your daughter with your own hands, you have never let go of your resentment towards yourself, you know your daughter's innocence, you also feel sorry for the cruelty she suffered, you ended her life with your own hands, maybe when you put the rope around her neck, you try to convince yourself that you will die a hundred times, and you can ascend to bliss after death, this is a complete liberation, you feel that letting your daughter leave like this is a hundred times easier than staying in the world to suffer."

But you can't convince yourself, can you? Because you know that you have not fulfilled your responsibilities as a father, that you are not in a position to shelter your daughter, and you know that you are not doing this to free her, you are doing it for yourself! The death of only one daughter can save the other four members of the family from being bullied again, isn't it? ”

Chun Gui clearly caught Fan Da's clenched fists trembling violently.

"What do you know?! You know my coincidence from that day...... Since the day Liu Yuanbao was ruined by the murder of a thousand knives, she has not slept peacefully for a day, she will be awakened by nightmares every night, beating her chest and shouting still can't make a sound, she keeps gesturing, telling me how tall and strong that bastard is, she grabs and gestures to pull her hair, slap herself in the face, she hates why she can't speak, why can't she make me more clear about her expression, she hates herself for knowing that the villain is the person in this area but can't identify who he is, for three years, For three years, I didn't know until yesterday that it was the surname Liu who killed her!!

She has looked for death, she knows that her grandmother died by throwing herself into the well, she also sat by the well, at first she was sitting, she sat and sat and planted her head, it was her mother who hugged her, tied her in the house, pried open her mouth and let her drink gruel to continue her life, and then the old man announced the sentence in public, Qiao'er knew that she was sentenced for adultery, and let her parade naked in the streets! She was dead at that moment, and I saw that she was smiling, but like she was blind, you know, her eyes were like the eyes of a blind man, she couldn't see anything.

Qiao'er loves to clean a child, there is no one in the area of Chai Hupu like her, the clothes must be changed for a day, the two younger brothers are naughty, often dirty clothes, she saw them to change down, and then she immediately cleaned up, she gestured to tell us, if we don't pay attention to the burying of the dead, the more people look down on it, she thinks that it can be different, she has always thought that our lives still have hope to improve.

But from that day on, she was desperate, she no longer went to the well, she drank water and ate by herself, no longer looked for death and did not let her mother tie her, but she began to urinate on the kang, she ...... She has despaired, and she has made us start to hate her as well, to abandon her completely...... She watched me cry when I put the rope around her neck, and she didn't struggle at all, she just looked at me with tears in her eyes until she finally closed her eyes. ”

Fan Da smiled: "I don't regret strangling Qiao'er at all, but I also really hate myself, you're right, I don't have the ability to shelter her, from the time she was raped/humiliated by the bastard surnamed Liu, from the time she had to walk back naked step by step, she was destined to die, because even if she can identify that bastard, there will be no other changes, Chen Mazi will not come out to cordicate it, I dare not argue with Liu Yuanbao about anything, I can't defend her innocence at all, how can she stand those abuses and bullying, She can't get out of here for the rest of her life, one more day of life is like one more day of torture, I hate my own, I gave her hope and pushed her into a desperate situation, I just

I shouldn't have promised her that I could protect her, I shouldn't have convinced her that I could convince the neighbors to understand her innocence, I shouldn't have persuaded her to continue living. ”

Speaking of this, Fan Da finally had tears in his eyes, he walked out of the corner, and he didn't know when he had let go of his fist, but he was approaching the spring return, and his expression was still hideous: "Does Grandma know?" Even my two boys hated their sister, they thought it was Qiao'er's fault, so they were insulted, and I thought, how similar are the two little rabbit cubs to me? I hated my uncle and grandfather like this at that time, and I felt that my uncle and grandfather were all to blame for causing us trouble. ”

Chungui was terrified for some reason when he heard this.

"I suddenly woke up at that time, it turned out that my father and I may be cold-blooded and ruthless in our bones, and what is more terrible is that my son has also become like this, in order to protect himself, in fact, he can trample on blood relatives, they hate Qiao'er, and they hate their grandmother, they attribute all the misfortunes they suffered to their relatives, but they don't hate those who really bully them, what a terrible bloodline, generation after generation, is this the reason why our Pan family is really humiliated?"

"This is cowardice, you are all cowards, you will only be in the nest!" Qu was so angry that the soles of his feet were light, and he was angry and indisputable while floating three feet high.

But Fan Da didn't seem to hear her accusation, he suddenly calmed down and became rational, as if he had cleared the layers of mystery and finally saw himself: "I just pondered like this, in fact, I didn't dare to think about it, but my wife was more sober than me, when the two boys cursed their poor sister, when the mother had no way to teach them with words, but pressed them, slapped them on the back, and told them that Qiao'er was innocent, and the hateful ones were those who bullied and persecuted Qiao'er, but those two boys were not taught at all, They even dared to insult their own mother, scolding her for being dumb, scolding her for being eccentric, and scolding her for not teaching her to be a good child.

Later, the child's mother didn't care about teaching, and sat by the well all day long, holding the last pair of soles that Qiao'er gave her, and began to cry, crying and crying, and even tears were gone.

I know that she is also dying little by little, and one day she will not be able to stand it, like my mother, like Qiao'er.

I saw the result, but I couldn't change it, I could only go to despair day by day, I thought when I might be able to be like my father, I just died of illness like this, and I didn't care what happened to the two boys when I closed my eyes, but at this moment, the second brother actually came back, and the second brother actually came back! ”

Hearing Fan Da take the initiative to mention Fan Er, Chungui couldn't help but ask: "Do you know about him selling his slave status?" ”

"He didn't tell me this, he just gave me silver, he said that the money was useless to him, let me take it, go to another place to buy another family business, don't stay in Chai Hupu, it's better not to stay in the capital anymore."

"Then why didn't you listen to Fan Er's advice?" Chungui thought that if Fan Da left the capital, maybe what happened later would not have happened, and their family would have a different place to live well, which would most likely be a new life, allowing them to completely get rid of the haze of the past.

"I also want to go, but I want to raise my eyebrows in Chai Hu Pu before leaving, I want to see those who once despised and trampled on my faces, when I learned that I suddenly shook how envious, I think if I can really be a man with my head held high in Chai Hu Pu, I don't even have to move out, our old Fan family, this is the hope of our old Fan family for generations, but only this time is the most likely to be realized!"