That night, I realized that my mother was not the crazy woman I thought she was, but she was actually helping me test Xu Qing's answer.

I would never have imagined that one day she would say to me, "If you like it, go after it, you've grown up." ”

Silly boy, who else in this world can really be good for you without asking for anything in return, except for your relatives?

I don't really understand the meaning of this sentence now, and in fact many words are like this. That's why there is the sentence "I don't know the meaning of the song when I hear it at first, and I am already a person in the song when I listen to it again." ”

My mother took the next day's train back to her hometown and would accompany my father through the last difficult time.

After contacting several attending doctors, my father was about to undergo surgery, and we knew that even if the surgery was successful, his health would not be as good as before.

In fact, how many people in that era were not dragging a sick body and were willing to go under the knife until they couldn't hold it anymore.

I am a person who is not qualified to say filial piety, because I can never say a word of "love" to them, because I never ask them what they like to eat, because I never give them a birthday. On the contrary, they have been giving to me selflessly.

But I think I'll be like that because the love in my heart has never been buried.

All those who are silent and do not express love, do you often feel as lonely as I am? That's a question I often think about.

The streets are deserted at night, the lighthouse is still bright, no matter how long the night is, there will always be the dawn of tomorrow, I pray that everything will be better, in fact, I don't believe in gods at all, so what?

The busy semester is about to come with the final exams, but I didn't feel like winter was coming.

Occasionally, it drops to minus a few degrees Celsius on a few days, but you don't feel the bone-chilling cold.

In this century, there are two theories: global cooling and global warming, one because of people and the other because of people.

Xu Qing and I made an appointment to watch this New Year's Day party, and the New Year's Day show of high school seemed to be still in front of us, and it was already the university's New Year's Day party in a blink of an eye.

Speaking of which, there is also a sad memory, the New Year's Day performance in the first year of high school, how can the sketches in our class not be able to make up people. Compared with the sense of honor of the class, everyone obviously cares more about their face, and if the performance is smashed, it will be a big shame, and the big deal is that Class 5 will become the first class in history to abstain from participating in the performance.

At that time, I participated in it as soon as my mind was hot, and I worked hard to memorize the lines every time, and I was very active in the evening self-study rehearsal, and I had to review it again when I got home, all because of my lack of self-confidence.

is getting closer and closer to the show competition, everyone has already memorized the sketches, and even the props are in place, just waiting for the day of the selection.

But until the day of the performance, no one thought about the background music, but the part of the campaign just needed the background music, and my prop, the flute, needed music even more, because I couldn't play it at all.

When the horn reached Class 5, I remembered it, and my mind went blank, as if all the fears were coming to me.

At the urging of others, I watched them wave to me, and I could not hear any voices, only shouting, and I never dared to go on stage.

Actually, I've always had this problem, and I've been trying to overcome my fear ever since I found out, but I still get nervous when I get to a crowded place, which I call mental illness.

In fact, everyone has mental illness to a greater or lesser extent, mostly from childhood experiences, but apparently I don't know about my unknown experience, probably too long ago.

I have also had people around me who have severe blood sickness, and you may not imagine that they will faint in fear even if they accidentally cut their hands, although there is a reason for the physical condition, but the bigger reason is psychological fear.

In fact, your abyss has always lived with such a devil, as if you can't get rid of it for the rest of your life, have you bowed to them?

So whenever I look at those people who are swaying their youth on stage, I admire them very much, in fact, standing on them is already a kind of success.

This time's program list is attractive enough, including the classic stage play "Romeo and Juliet", the one-person solo "Because of Love" with a change of male and female voices, and the adapted sketch "Not Bad Money" has also attracted much attention, but what I care about most this time is the drama "A Flower, Not Fu Lao".

This is a suite of songs composed by the Yuan Dynasty dramatist Guan Hanqing with a self-described mind. The author's romantic life and versatility are described. shows the determination to never compromise with the dark reality, and is known as the masterpiece of Guan Hanqing's rhyme.

When I was a child, when my family still lived in an old house, there was no color TV, only VCD, and my grandparents often played Huangmei Opera and Peking Opera.

I also often learn the paragraph in "Farewell My Concubine": persuade the king to drink and listen to Yu songs, and relieve the king's sorrow and dance. Ying Qin has no way to break the country, and the heroes are fighting in all directions. Since ancient times, as the saying goes, don't deceive me, the rise and fall of success or failure, and sit in the treasure tent with a relaxed heart.

However, at that time, I didn't like such a woman's tone, but I was sorry for Xiang Yu's "Pull out the mountain and cover the world, the times are not good, the shuts will not pass away, but what can I do, what can I do?" "Very impressive.

At that time, the movie screening team still took turns to set up the stage in each village, once a year, like the current tour.

On that day, when it was a little dark, everyone moved small benches and stood in front of the curtain, which was tied to two fixed pillars, but it was only when they grew up that they knew the principle of projection.

Xu Qing and I were seated next to each other, in a good position, with a panoramic view of the stage.

When they met again, she changed into a trench coat, her hair was scattered, and her red lipstick was even more charming.

As the show progressed, only the stage was left with lights, and the auditorium became a world of glow sticks.

Occasionally looking back at her dancing, she looks like a child immersed in the game world.

When she saw the wonderful clip, she would unconsciously hold my hand and say excitedly: "Look at it, look at it, that dance is so dazzling, and the boy who leads the dance is so handsome." ”

Or, "What does this folk song mean, I don't understand it?" ”

He turned his face and saw that I was staring at her, and then he turned around embarrassedly and whispered, "Why do you keep looking at me, I'm embarrassed." ”

"Because you are the most beautiful existence in my heart."

I don't know why I said such a thing, and Xu Qing also blushed when he heard it, and he didn't know how to put his hand.

After a while, he said coquettishly: "Oh, don't be poor, I don't believe men's nonsense." ”

I smiled and didn't say a word, watching everyone on the stage sway their youth, vividly, and if I wasn't crazy, I would be old.

In the play, "With my hands of folding willows and climbing flowers, I was so bad that the flowers and willows were defeated." Half a lifetime to fold willows and climb flowers, sleep in the world and sleep in the willows", I don't want much of the free debauchery, I just hope to be able to hold hands with the people I like to see the world.

The purest likes to have the purest dependence.

In the sweet singing, the two hands gradually approached, then touched and then instinctively flicked away, and finally held tightly together.