That day, I found Joey when I was looking through the school military training photos, but what attracted me more was Xu Chule in the back row, it turned out that the Joey in his mouth was really the Joey I knew, what kind of coincidence.

I suddenly had an urge to get to know him, I knew some information about him through Xu Mengyou, I just wanted to see him, for one person to reject another excellent person, this love is not simple.

Sure enough, I squatted at the door of the laboratory, he is really a person who loves science very much, and he soaks in the laboratory whenever he has time.

I struck up with Joey as a friend and we had Chinese food together in the cafeteria.

At this time, there were a lot fewer people in the cafeteria, and there were students pulling suitcases from time to time, and the meals that were swept away in the past were now so many that no one ordered, so the rice aunt also specially added a spoonful of dishes to me.

He's of average height, and although he usually spends his time in the lab like a workaholic, he doesn't show any scruffiness. On the contrary, he is neatly dressed, with his collar folded neatly, and he does not wear glasses, and he looks like a sunny boy overall.

I saw that he didn't like to talk, so I got straight to the point, "You like Joey very much, right?" ”

It seemed like an abrupt question, but I really didn't know how to say it, or I didn't know what I was trying to do.

He paused, but began to deal with the food on his plate as if he didn't want to answer the question.

I thought about it and decided to change direction, "What kind of person do you think she is?" ”

He finally had a reaction and said unhurriedly: "She is a very special girl, she doesn't seem to like to talk much, but her heart is warm. Although she studied science, she actually likes literature very much, and she usually likes to read. She doesn't like to laugh much, but she looks very good when she laughs......"

I watched Xu Chule talk about Joey in a beautiful tone, and I seemed to see my understanding of Xu Qing back then. Even though Joey and I have known each other for so long, I don't know anything about her habits.

I couldn't help but blurt out, "You know her so well!" ”

"If you like someone, you will unconsciously pay attention to everything about her."

Sure enough, he said it himself, and it wasn't until I smiled triumphantly that he relented.

"yes, I like her, but what about you?"

He looked at me solemnly, and seemed to have completely taken me for a rival.

I deliberately hung his appetite, "I'm like—like—her, and I like her talent." ”

Hearing this, he smiled reluctantly, after all, as soon as someone suddenly saw you, he told you a lot of things about the person you liked, who could let go.

I leaned in and whispered in his ear, "Now there's a great opportunity to make contact with her, would you?" ”

He was still on guard against me, but said lightly, "What chance?" And why would you want to do that? ”

Sure enough, he is a calm man, but I can't answer so many questions at once.

"The chance is that she's going to a ball this weekend, and she invited me along, but I have something to do, so I want you to go instead of me."

Instead of showing interest in the matter, he asked me, "Why did she invite you to join her?" ”

I don't want to say it, but since he asked, there's no need to hide it.

"Maybe she likes me a little, but I don't have this kind of thought, so I want to stay away from her, after all, no one can tell what will happen after being together for a long time."

I was very frank with him and made it clear to him, that people are emotional creatures that will fall in love for a long time, and there is nothing to dispute about this. But I really don't want to touch any more feelings, maybe I don't deserve to be so loved.

Instead of letting a flower bloom in the shade without nutrients, why not let it look into the sun, maybe it will bloom more brilliantly.

The last thing he asked me was, "Why are you helping me?" ”

I replied, "Because you are the one to be trusted, and you love him enough." ”

On the weekend of the ball, Xu Chule dressed up to attend, and he had never been so serious. When Joey saw him, her heart was complicated.

I don't know that I actually hurt Xu Chule by doing this, in fact, everything is my own passion, I regard myself as a savior, but the fact is that I am a clown who can't even save myself.

I wouldn't have known that at that moment, in Joey's eyes, Xu Chule became my accomplice, and what I committed was an emotional crime, and I was playing with her feelings.

She hated me for not being able to see what she meant, or for treating her like this when I knew what she meant. But I do understand what she means, that is, it will be like this, maybe to let a person die will destroy the faith in her heart.

Joey didn't show any unhappiness, she danced a full dance with Xu Chule, but she was speechless the whole time, except for the forced smile when she greeted her friends.

Xu Chule could see her emotions, but he was willing to endure it, and he was willing to stay next to her and accompany her through all the unhappiness.

Joey couldn't see her in his affectionate eyes, just as I couldn't see Joey in his heart all about me.

Xu Chule prepared a lot of words, he had been brewing, and he planned to say them all at the last moment of separation. What he said to Xu Mengyou that he wanted to confess to the person he liked was not a joke, he didn't care about the result, but if he didn't say something, he might never have a chance again.

But Joey didn't see that he was still speechless, and said to him with a smile: "Thank you for your company today, next time I invite you to dinner, that's it today, goodbye!" ”

Xu Chule only said the word "I" in her mouth, she had already turned around and left in a hurry, Xu Chule looked at her back and silently said, "I've liked you for a long time, Joey." ”

He stood there for a long time, he didn't like to express his feelings, "Although I have never said anything ambiguous with you, but I really like you, can't you see it at all?" ”

After a brief goodbye to everyone, I pulled my suitcase and walked down the stairs and out of the dormitory, out of this familiar area. I looked back and took one last look, and I was just a temporary bird, but I was full of nostalgia for each nest because they had brought me warmth.

Once upon a time, I also became a grain of sand in the torrent, rising with the wind and scattered with the rain, and the rest of my life is a mystery, guess it.

On the way to the school station, I was stopped by Joey, who had been waiting for a long time.

We had already met eye contact at a distance, and she looked at me with an indescribable expression, maybe reluctantly, but I couldn't feel it anyway.

I lifted the shoulder strap of my bag and continued to walk forward to her.

She spoke first: "Are you leaving?" Why didn't you tell me? ”

I swallowed, "You're leaving, take care too." ”

I continued to walk forward to get rid of her, but she caught up and grabbed my hand, "Am I a stranger at heart?" Don't you want to talk to me about anything? Or am I so annoying to you? You have to let someone else go for you, even at the prom. ”

I sensed her true feelings when she said this, and she should blame me for doing that, I have nothing to defend myself.

"Maybe, we didn't work out, you can let it go."

I broke free of her hand, but she wouldn't let go. She said again: "You know, I've liked you for so long, I pretend to have a trip with you every year, but in fact, after getting off the bus, I'm going to have to drive back in the opposite direction, you know?" I'm not going to give up because of your words. Please, just open your eyes and look at me in front of you, why do you have to live in the past, she is gone, she can't come back, do you understand? ”

As she spoke, tears poured out, and the car I was waiting for happened to pass in front of me.

I didn't break free of her hand anymore, because I seemed to see my own shadow in her, and I didn't care about it. Who is at fault in falling in love, but who can say a clear truth.

I pulled a tissue out of my pocket and handed it to her, "Don't cry, wipe it." ”

She took the tissue and looked at me all the time, her eyes were red, I had never seen her so vulnerable.

"You are very good, you should find someone who loves you more, such as Xu Chule."

When she heard this, she threw a tissue directly on me, "Guo Longyi, I'm fine, and then you don't want me, you said it so well." Is that why you don't like me and push it on someone else? ”

"I'm not ......", she interrupted me directly.

"You know what? You got drunk that night, you said you couldn't forget, you said you were afraid of being alone, you hugged me and shouted someone else's name. I don't care about any of this, because you said you were going to forget about her sooner or later, you said you were starting to like me a little bit, and when you said that, did you know how happy I was, and I told myself that I was finally at the end. But when I woke up, you said that you had forgotten everything, and now you want to push me to someone else, and it will be irresponsible to hug me, is this how you treat me, what is this? You bastard, you deserve to be loved. ”

This time she took the initiative to shake off my hand, she cried so loudly that she walked away without looking back, and I held back my tears as I watched her figure fade away.

People around us hurried by, sometimes looking at us. We are like a couple who have broken up, no matter how embarrassed we are, only we know the pain in our hearts.

I didn't know I said such things to her, I didn't know she loved me so much, I didn't know what I thought, but I was destined to hurt her.

I still caught the last train, the lights were getting cooler, and both times I leaned against the window to say goodbye to the city with tears in my eyes, this is a sad city, and I can't get out.