"I've been thinking about whether my memory is too good or bad. But there seems to be no absolute. It's as if I'm trying to tamper with my memories and perceptions of the past, after all, brain cells don't have cell walls in my head, and it seems easy to just type something into it, so I still stubbornly remember. ”

Qi Li met Li Ruoyu on the second day of the Dragon Boat Festival holiday in a well-known shopping mall in City C.

At that time, Qi Li was working as a counselor for her mother, and suddenly heard someone behind her calling her name, and immediately turned around. I saw a middle-aged woman with glasses and smiling gently, standing there, waving at Qi Li.

After searching for information about this face in her mind, Qi Li replied accurately: "Hello Aunt Wang!" "The ability to adapt to situations is almost perfect. So I symbolically exchanged a few words with the visitor.

When Qi Li was about to walk away, Aunt Wang called someone out to the counter next to her. When Qi Li heard that name, her head crashed on the spot, and when she reacted again, her mind echoed with that name-

"Li Ruoyu"

[Everything is difficult at the beginning, difficult at the beginning]

Qi Li trotted all the way and pushed open the door of the extracurricular cram school with her schoolbag, hurriedly threw out the sentence "I'm sorry teacher, I'm late", so embarrassed that she didn't even have time to look around, so she went straight to the vacant seat next to Yunyun at the back of the classroom and sat down, took out a book, pen and scratch paper, automatically blocked the surprised eyes around her, and began to do the question.

Seeing this, the teacher was embarrassed to say anything, but just knocked on the podium and motioned for everyone to continue working on the questions.

Qi Li was soon trapped by a big question, scratching her ears and cheeks, but she couldn't solve it. I wrote several methods on the draft, and then I shot myself. I was thinking about looking for transparent glue, but there were many things on the table, but I couldn't find it.

At this time, a roll of glue came from the right hand side and said, "Take it." Qi Li didn't look up, took the glue, threw down a thank you, and began to do the question.

A slightly joking voice sounded on the right: "Qi Li, are you still afraid of being late and embarrassing?" When I stayed up late to watch anime yesterday, why didn't I think that today was the morning class? ”

Qi Li looked up in confusion, and what caught her eye was Li Ruoyu with an unfathomable smile.

Qi Li stared at him for two seconds and said, "You, why are you here." He also asked the classmate on the left. Yun said he didn't know. Then Qi Li saw it

The smile on Li Ruoyu's face instantly fell, and he squeezed out a sentence from between his teeth: "Sosilly!" ”

Qi Li was also angry, and replied to him: "Youtoo!" Then he laughed to himself.

Very familiar conversation.

Qi Li and Li Ruoyu were originally in different classes in the first year, but after being promoted to the first grade, the school reshuffled, and Qi Li's grades improved greatly and she was assigned to a key class.

At that time, Qi Li was practicing with Xu Yan, and in order to improve his associative ability, Xu Yan proposed to practice guessing words. Xu Yan described: "Aface."

Qi Li frowned, stunned that she hadn't figured it out. Xu Yan said again: "Thejoker." Qi Li shook her head, indicating that she couldn't guess.

Suddenly, a boy passed by them, threw the word "Pokerface." at Reify, and then glanced at Qi Li with disgust, and said, "Sosilly." Qi Li went berserk on the spot, thinking that no matter how powerful you are, you can't look down on people

No? So she replied unceremoniously: "Youtoo."

Who knew that the boy actually laughed and said, "Qi Li, come on, practice, otherwise it won't be good for us to be in the same class in the finals." ”

Qi Li thought to herself, why is this person so bad.

Later, Qi Li asked Li Ruoyu how he knew that they were in the same class and knew her name. Li Ruoyu had an elegant look of "I am a master in the world" and said: "The roster that the head teacher asked me to fill in on the day I signed up. ”

Qi Li tried hard to recall the contents of the roster, and then secretly embarrassed: she was secretly envious of the person who filled in the roster for her elegant handwriting.

Of course, Qi Li didn't tell Li Ruoyu about this, otherwise that person would be proud for a long time, and he would be ridiculed.

[The classroom faces south, the wind is light]

The sunlight hit the half-open window, and the refraction of the light made the teacher's board books turn into white cicadas.

Qi Li was listening to the Chinese teacher's lecture in a daze.

Although it is not three dogs a year, the weather is really hot, and the cicadas outside the window are constantly chirping, but it is a little drunk and makes people sleepy.

"Qi Li, go to the blackboard, come, write the word 'bustling'!" The Chinese teacher suddenly called names, but also pulled Qi Li's thoughts back.

Qi Li stood up slowly, and was wondering what was wrong, when she saw the Chinese teacher's glasses hidden behind reading glasses, staring at her with a smile. Qi Li immediately figured out the situation and understood that the teacher wanted to remind him to concentrate. But I still have to write it.

So Qi Li took a piece of chalk from the chalk box, stood in front of the blackboard, gestured a few times, and then was stunned......

Damn, I forgot to write with a pen, I can't help it, I recognize it......

There was some talk from the podium. Qi Li is the darling of the Chinese teacher, can't write a word, isn't it too ......

Then Qi Li did something that shocked her classmates even more: she directly told the Chinese teacher that she couldn't write "Xi" when she was "bustling". The Chinese teacher was very calm, and said to Qi Li with a smile: "Hmm." Later attention set

Middle. But he didn't say anything about letting Qi Li return to his position, Qi Li had to pestle on the podium in embarrassment, and his right hand holding the chalk was almost white.

Someone in the audience raised their hand.

The Chinese teacher named: "Li Ruoyu, what's the matter?" ”

Li Ruoyu stood up unhurriedly: "Teacher, I'll write, I should be able to write." Qi Li glared at Li Ruoyu and thought, "Stinky boy, don't you want to see me make a fool?!" "But I can't say it.

There was a commotion under the podium, what kind of drama was this? The duel between Qi Li and Li Ruoyu, two heavyweights?!

The corners of Li Ruoyu's mouth curled slightly, nodded slightly to Qi Li, and then strode onto the podium, took the chalk in Qi Li's hand, and quickly wrote the word "Xixi" on the blackboard, also gestured, withdrew his hand, turned around, and said to the Chinese teacher: "I'm sorry teacher, I forgot how to write the 'squeeze' in the back." ”

Qi Li was stunned: Who are you fooling, Li Ruoyu will definitely write these words. He didn't finish writing, how many meanings, deliberately?

The Chinese teacher still glanced at the two people on the podium with a smile: "It seems that you have to pay attention to accumulation... You all go up, this lesson is still going to be taken. Come back to the office after class and come to me. ”

So the two bowed to the teacher and thanked them before returning to their seats.

Recess. Office.

Qi Li and Li Ruoyu stood side by side at the Chinese teacher's desk, waiting for the hair to fall.

The air conditioner in the office sent a trace of cold air, which was supposed to be cool, but at this time, it was a little cold in Qi Lijue.

The Chinese teacher leaned back in the chair and looked at the two with a smile while drinking tea. Qi Li was a little uncomfortable, and was about to speak, but was interrupted by the Chinese teacher's words.

"Oh, Qi Li, I read your essay last week, and it was well written. Just pay attention to the ending, it would be better to deepen it a little. By the way, I have a copy of the mock paper here, you can take it and make a copy of it and give it back to me. That said,

Let's go. The Chinese teacher said lightly, "Oh, and Li Ruoyu, remember to write something to me on Friday." ”

Qi Li's face was full of doubts, and she had no choice but to agree. The two of them walked out of the office in this way, one unfazed, and the other suspicious.

Qi Li thought that it was wrong, and asked Li Ruoyu: "Hey, you say, why didn't the teacher punish us?" ”

Li Ruoyu raised his eyebrows and smiled rottenly: "I found out that your IQ dropped sharply if you were going to take the exam?" How could she fix us? ”

"Hey, I don't want you to say that. But we were wrong. Qi Li said.

Li Ruoyu shook his head and said, "If you think you are at fault, go and admit it now." I don't see what we're doing wrong anyway. ”

Qi Li thought about it for a while, and felt that she had no clue about this problem, but suddenly she remembered something and asked Li Ruoyu: "Tell me, you obviously know how to write that word, why don't you write it?" ”

Li Ruoyu said: "I don't want to write. ”

"Hey, who are you fooling? Tell the truth, or I'll turn my face! Qi Li said with a sneer.

Li Ruoyu stared at the camphor tree downstairs, didn't look at Qi Li from beginning to end, paused and said, "I don't know, in fact, I really want to see you embarrassed, but I think it's too inhumane, so I'll help you." Oh, you owe me another favor! Qi Li's face said, "Who are you fooling?" He turned his head to look at Li Ruoyu.

Qi Li was stunned. Li Ruoyu smiled. He must be telling the truth, right?

The sun is shallow, the wind seems to be warm and soft, and the cicadas on the camphor tree still have no interruption, one long and one short, like a young heart, full of longing and erratic.

It seems that the sunshine that day is not the best, and there are still many beautiful things waiting for her to see in her life, but Qi Li still stubbornly thinks so, even after a long time, and it is indeed right: the sunshine she saw that day was the purest, and since then there has been no better sunshine than this, and there is no longer the person who is willing to accompany her on the podium.

Maybe that's why I haven't wanted to forget or remember for so long.

After a long time, Qi Li thought.

【Three finger biscuits and a pair of slippers】

"Time is a crazy aquatic weed, which has wasted our years. The railing of Empress Li's faint sadness has long been demolished, the flowers that Daiyu once buried have turned into fertilizer many years ago, Du Fu's thatched cottage is now a scenic spot, and even the road to Jiuzhaigou, which is in the earthquake zone, I don't know how many people who yearn for a natural paradise have been buried. Qi Li wrote in her diary.

Exams are an unwelcome devil's party, and the earnest advice of teachers and the ardent hopes of parents make students feel sad.

The atmosphere approaching graduation is like a magical powder, sprinkled in the air to calm all restlessness.

The three-day quiz and the five-day quiz undoubtedly make the children who are immersed in the sea of books feel like they are "confused".

Qi Li looked at the bright "111" on the test paper and almost didn't take his breath. Damn, it's a three-finger biscuit if it's good, and it's three singles if it's not good.

Zou Zhetong, who was at the same table, leaned over and glanced at it, and said while waving his hand: "Hey, I thought it was serious." I'm so angry that you're big, and you don't let people live, it's boring. I only have 88 what do you have to say! ”

Qi Li glanced at him with a bitter face and said, "I hope it's 88. ”

Zou Zhetong thought for a while and said, "But it's also good." Hey, I said, your grades are already okay, what are you worried about? Seeing that Qi Li didn't speak, he said to himself: "Isn't it just to take the exam for a school, you can go horizontally and vertically, is it necessary?" ”

Lin Yan, who was sitting behind Qi Li, poked Qi Li's back and said, "Alas, alas, alas, a depressed ghost, a sad ghost." Zou Tongzi doesn't know, but I know exactly what you think in your heart. ”

Qi Li didn't speak.

Integrated Practical Lessons.

Li Ruoyu sent a piece of paper: Hey, I didn't do well in the exam. Help write a confession.

Qi Li glanced at Li Ruoyu again, he was pretending to be a serious lecture!

Qi Li smiled, picked up the pen and started.

"Dear Mom and Dad,

Recently, graduation is approaching, and there are exams one after another, but my son and I are anxious, and my brain cells will drop exponentially after each exam. In this math test, my son was very uncompetitive and didn't do well. But my son won't be left to think about it, so don't worry.

Your sons

Sweet potato day in the year of potatoes"

In fact, after the scores came out, Qi Li asked Li Ruoyu's scores, and the test was not only good, but also the highest score in the grade.

But why he wrote it, Qi Li didn't know.

Maybe I just want to spice up the atmosphere.

【Weaving into a net】

After the results came out, they were reported to Zixuan for help.

Qi Li remembers very well that she was eating watermelon in front of the computer at that time, and then saw Brother Xuan's dialog box.

"I did a good job."

Qi Li immediately replied: "I don't know the results yet." ”

"Huh? Don't you know? Well, the report card was received by my dad, who is the twelfth in your class and the fourteenth in the grade. ”

"What about Li Ruoyu? How did you do on the exam? "I don't say anything about my grades.

"I know you pay attention to him the most. He is third in the city. It's really amazing. ”

“…… Well, thanks. ”

"Don't worry, your city-heavy experimental class is proper, and you can also rush the provincial small rocket class, but I think it's better to stay, the resources may be better."

"Ah, as for Brother Ruoyu, his grades are no problem in the rocket class of that school. It's just that maybe the school interview and the test are a little troublesome. ”

"I see. Refueling after that. ”

Qi Li knew how hard she worked during that time, including Xu Yan, including Lin Yan, including Li Ruoyu, and even everyone. It seems silly to measure your own effort by the consumption rate of your own refills and the consumption rate of your exercise book, but in fact every student has done it.

But Qi Li still couldn't be happy.

Not for graduation. Not for separation.

She's just unwilling. Or they complain that they are timid.

Later, the days of working together and being busy together seemed to be with the refills that were only written, and the scratch paper that was full of paper was finally smelled into the trash.

After that, he thought about his own thoughts, and Li Ruoyu must have seen it.

He would write homework together, and even the geometry finale questions later, he would quietly do it in the English cram school, just so that he could tell her as soon as possible.

Qi Li is a straight person, but she won't say it herself anyway. No one who is proud in his heart will open his mouth.

[Later]

It's still the same place. It's just a change of environment, a different group of people around me. Qi Li felt that it seemed to be actually not bad.

She wasn't in the mood to wonder if "seemingly" and "actually" could be used together, and no one had ever told her.

In June, I agreed with a group of former classmates to go back to my alma mater.

It turned out to be a cloudy day.

At 7:53, Lin Yan rang the doorbell of Qi Li's downstairs program-controlled door, urging Qi Li to go downstairs.

Qi Li went downstairs and saw Xiang Zixuan laughing thiefly, Xu Yan, Shili and Jiang Shangbei were also there, and several people were making a fuss. Soon Cheng's father also called and said that he would be there in a while.

Lin Yan was a little angry, and directly burst into a foul mouth: "Damn, do you know that I waited downstairs at your house for a long time, and you never went downstairs, you died of cold." ”

"Hey, yes, yes. I was wrong, I was wrong. Qi Li was so helpless.

"Forget it, I won't talk to you," Lin Yan waved his hand and said again, "Your name is Brother Ruoyu." ”

Qi Li heard that this was not a question, but Lin Yan was very sure that he knew. Maybe Lin Yan can guess it, Qi Li must also guess it, and Li Ruoyu will definitely come.

Sure enough, it's good. At the intersection of the school, I bumped into Li Ruoyu.

Qi Li didn't know that she would smile, walked up to Li Ruoyu, and said, "Hug it." She thought she would be speechless.

After all, the separation has been going on for a while. The environment is different, and the heart is far away.

Even Qi Li was afraid in his heart that he was no longer as good as him.

Li Ruoyu turned out to be very natural, he hugged him when he said it, his face was still disgusted, and he said with a smile: "Qi Li, do you still want to be disciplined." ”

Qi Li laughed on the spot, and excitedly patted Li Ruoyu's shoulder, forehead, it seemed to have grown taller.

To be honest, Qi Li was a little disappointed when she heard Li Ruoyu still say the same thing as before.

She thought she would hug it and say something.

But no, but I don't feel sorry for it at all, but I think it's good.

The whole process of visiting the teacher was quite easy.

I took off my identity as a student and became friends with my teacher. How much a teacher I used to hate, I was kind in a moment.

The doorman still remembered them, and he deliberately didn't open the door with a smile, and Cheng's father actually smashed the door with his student ID.

Qi Li thought that Cheng's father was going to bribe with money, but he didn't expect it to be a student ID.

The doorman was impressed with him and said, "The guy who always came to play on Saturday is back." Let not be peaceful. ”

Then the whole group laughed, as if they were all back to the past, you are still the same you, and I am still the same.

The teachers were almost inundated with gifts, including a box of things that the math teacher had received that fell to the floor. Because the math teacher had gifts in his arms, he couldn't bend down to pick them up, so Qi Li helped.

Qi Li was picking it up, and suddenly a hand reached over to help, Qi Li looked up and saw Li Ruoyu's eyes behind the lenses, still like that, as if he could see everything.

It was still the same hand, handed her the transparent glue, snatched her pen and quarreled, pinched the chalk and then stood with her, gave her the middle finger, applauded her dance......

It was also that hand, when she failed to get the ideal score in mathematics again, quietly hooked her hand, and said: "If you can't pass the 110 math test next time, it's really in vain for me to give you a lecture." I ran out of time to watch Shoji Shimada. ”

After returning home, Qi Li thought a lot.

That's it. Li Ruoyu once touched her and made her understand a lot.

He is a star in his own world, far away from him, but so real that he feels right in front of him. Just look at the stars from afar, they are the guides, guiding you how to work hard and how to become who you want to be.

It's the warmth of spring, not the flowers.

Qi Li felt that she seemed to be quite philosophical.

【Bells, Sea and Tree Hole】

After that unforgettable summer, Qi Li went to the school where she had to compete with Wuhan University for the most beautiful university for four years every year.

There is a point in failing the exam, even if the national policy is evaluated, it is very dangerous to press the line, and only then will he be admitted.

However, when I thought of Li Ruoyu, who was also a little defeated, he was originally the seed of Qingbei and ended up in Zhejiang University, and I felt a little comfortable, but I felt very uncomfortable and a pity.

I didn't cry in the KTV, and finally went home and locked myself in my room and cried for a long time.

In the end, he called to say his results: "Qi Li, I didn't get my wish. You see, we're the same. ”

"You're sad, and I'm not feeling good."

Hearing this, Qi Li was even more sad.

The voice over there was obviously panicked, and said, "If you really don't want to stay too far, you can stay in the province...... Don't be so sad. ”

When Qi Li heard this, she felt that this person actually didn't know anything at all!

was inexplicably angry, and seemed to be less sad, and said viciously: "Who said that I stayed in the province!" I'm going to the South! The farther away the better! You don't comfort me, you ...... who recruits students on your own."

Li Ruoyu knew that her emotions were too unstable, and it was all her nonsense, just thinking that she was venting.

Qi Li yelled again, calmed down, and said, "Me too." Yes, if you recruit yourself, don't I also pick up leaks? ”

"You say we're the same, so do you think we're worthy?"

Without waiting for Li Ruoyu to speak, he hung up the phone.

Anyway, it all shows that I have nothing to be afraid of. It's a big deal, and after that, it's embarrassing to die.

Sure enough, in the next month, although they got together, they were also a large group of people, and the two of them didn't have much intersection in private.

remembered the joke everyone made on his birthday, and anyway, he took it lightly.

can still justifiably tell yourself that it is all false and does not exist.

Just think it was the last birthday I spent with him.

Because she was going to take the postgraduate entrance examination, Qi Li did not go home this summer vacation and stayed in school to review. There is a beach behind the dormitory, and occasionally when you are tired, you can take a hat and go downstairs to step on the soft sand.

To say that there are no too intimate friends now, the people who accompanied themselves through the rebellious period and walked back to the well-behaved are now chasing their dreams.

The bell of Nanputuo Temple came with the wind, and I watched the footprints left before being slowly consumed by the wind.

Some time ago, I wrote in the tree hole of the school: Is the road to growth sometimes getting narrower and narrower, and the people around you are getting fewer and fewer.

Of course, the pressure of going to graduate school is great, and the last time I contacted my friends was a month ago I wished a happy Dragon Boat Festival in the group.

Just when I felt that my English was still on fire, the red corner of the one-on-one chat that I hadn't seen for a long time popped up.

Li Ruoyu said a few very formulaic words: "I got a bunch of English materials here." Guess you should use it. ”

Qi Li thought about it, replied to him with a bowing emoji, and didn't say much.

When she opened the tree hole in the school at night, a stranger replied to her: There are fewer people around, because they are also pursuing their dreams like you, don't worry about being separated, people with dreams are always similar, and their temporary departure is paving the way for their future and yours. I hope to be happy every day, and your road is getting wider and wider. ”

The day the re-examination results came out happened to be my twenty-second birthday.

She hid it from everyone, but she still reported to Zhejiang University, I don't know what else she thinks in her heart, maybe it's just to alleviate the last bit of unwillingness in her youth.

Li Ruoyu read it even with her bachelor's and master's degrees, and it took her nearly four years to figure it out slowly, and she felt that she couldn't be sorry for herself no matter what.

When I saw the results of the admission, I wasn't too happy, but I just felt that it was a matter of course, that I had earned it with my own efforts, and that this road was my own.

Qi Li still decided to send this result to Li Ruoyu. is still a person who has been proud for several years, how can it make people feel uncomfortable.

Don't wait for yourself to figure out how to speak, or just throw a picture over, and the person over there will send a message: "Happy birthday!" Eighteen forever! ”

Bent his eyebrows, he couldn't suppress the joy in his heart anymore, and sent a picture over.

After waiting for a long time, there was no response, and I was a little annoyed, and I was about to send another message.

The conversation bubble sent: "I knew that Qi Li would always try to make herself get her wish." It's really exactly the same as me. ”

"Do you think we are worthy?"

[Later later]

The epidemic situation is gradually improving, this small town is slowly picking up, and spring is really coming. The rape fields in the back mountains have bloomed one after another, and the cherry blossoms on the other side of the Qingshui River have already bloomed for a season.

Qi Li was finally able to go out and asked Lin Yan to go out for a walk the day after tomorrow.

Lin Yan said: "Why don't you want me to celebrate your birthday?" ”

Qi Li glanced at Li Ruoyu, who was playing games with Xiang Zixuan in the living room, and said, "Eh, Li Ruoyu said that there was a surprise for me." Well. I'll share it with you the next day. ”

"You're done Qi Li, you're so disgusting, I'm going to report you and Xu Yan! Inhuman! A single dog is also fate! ”

Qi Li smiled and closed the line, feeling that everything was really good.

But when I saw the person in the living room who occasionally played games like he did when he was a teenager, he hated it a little bit, and shouted: "Have you summarized the new data in the spring!" Staying home isn't for you to play! ”

Li Ruoyu heard a carp fighting, threw away his mobile phone, and said, "I'll go now!" ”

Watching the man burrow into the study, he smiled again.

I was a year older, and I dragged the tablet and began to write something that I had always wanted to write but couldn't write. I was in a daze, and I didn't even notice that there was anyone standing next to me.

Someone behind Leng Buding read: "Sosilly! ”

Subconsciously I still want to take a sentence, react, and see the person who would complain before because he was going to take up his time to see Shoji Shimada, and would tell her about his unhappiness to make himself happy, or an unfathomable smile, which made him unwilling for many years, and also made him feel that what was true.

He also said that he is a child of spring, please always aim high and be vigorous.

Spring is coming. I also hope that everyone has survived the cold winter, the spring is warm, the spring is happy, and the spring is always happy.