I happily carried the beer duck I had bought on the way home, and I guess she would be impressed.

The moment I opened the door, I saw a woman sitting at the dinner table, looking at me with resentful eyes.

When she saw the person behind me, she suddenly showed a surprised and happy expression, "Sister Yu, why are you." ”

The sister she called in her mouth is my sister Guo Yuting, which means slim and elegant.

She immediately ran to my sister for an affectionate hug, and then it was the cliché daily greeting, and the whole time I was a transparent person, I didn't even look at it.

I kindly interrupted the sensational scene, "Hey, this is what you cooked!" ”

I pointed to the pile of unidentified objects on the table, and the losers had started to spoil the food again.

"I want you to take care of it, you've already enjoyed it anyway, I don't have to worry about it even if I put it in the trash, Miss Ben can't eat the food she wants."

She snorted and got up to throw the food away, when I immediately stepped forward and grabbed her hand, "I'll eat—I'll eat, how can our lovely lady waste it." ”

Her expression finally turned a little happy under my sweet words, "You said it, don't dislike it!"

I nodded again and again and then looked at my sister, we looked at each other and smiled, Xu Qing is openly coquettish with me.

Under her watchful eye, I slowly stuffed the pile into my mouth, some too salty and some too light, but fortunately it didn't burn.

I'm still pretending to be "Well, there's progress, it's much better than last time." ”

I begged my sister for help, but Xu Qing soon found out and strongly asked me to finish eating alone.

But today she is quite abnormal, why do you have to force me to eat what she makes. And today, although she is still very short-tempered, she used to be easy to tease her, but today she always has a straight face, as if she is menopause.

So I could only pretend to vomit, and it turned out that this trick was really effective, and whoever told her still felt sorry for me. After I pretended to be choked, she snatched my chopsticks and said, "Forget it, don't eat it!"

We meet in the evening to go shopping, how about not looking closely at the small streets here in this city for so long? What's the view like?

Xu Qing didn't walk me like a shopaholic this time, he just kept walking around the street, occasionally looking at this, occasionally looking at that. also said some inexplicable things to me from time to time, not to separate, very hypocritical.

Somehow she walked to a tavern called Forget Worries, and she hesitated for a long time before turning in.

It turned out that the tavern was being sung by a folk singer, and the lights in the tavern had all been extinguished, except for the little lights on the small stage, all shining on a middle-of-the-middle boy in the middle, who was immersed in the aftermath.

Some of the people here were drunk, some were holding wine glasses, but everyone was quietly enjoying the music, and their eyes were focused on the singer.

We sat down near the door, Xu Qing looked at the stage with a lonely look in her eyes, and I caught her small smile, but it didn't look like a smile.

The spotlight soon hit a wall, and a few big words were written on it: "Forget the sorrow, Tao Yuan." ”

I don t think it will be such a coincidence, I turned my head and looked at Xu Qing's expression very immersively, and then looked carefully at the person sitting on the stool on the stage, it was really him.

Seeing this scene, I remembered Zhao Lei's "Chengdu", when he was also sitting on the stage like this, expecting her to come back to watch him sing, the beginning of his song "What made me cry, not only last night's wine, what made me reluctant, not only your tenderness" made the audience fall silent, but she didn't seem to appear in the end.

The people on the stage began to speak, "Thank you all for coming and listening to me sing, and here is a new song, the song is called "I Miss", I hope you will like it." ”

People who miss from afar are always missed

Wandering is a unique antidote to the North

I can't forget the past three or two cups

It's like whose face pauses in that smile

……

I shook my hand in front of Xu Qing's eyes, and I saw her crying, why? For him or for this song?

I turned my head to look at my sister and was intrigued, I admit that this song does sound very reminiscent of the past, but it is not so exaggerated!

Because at that time, I didn't know what my sister meant when she said parting, and I couldn't understand how much Xu Qing felt when she returned to this place where she had love for the first time.

This world is very strange, we go around and around the world, and when we return to the original starting point, we can understand all the youth for a moment, what is lost traps people, and what we can't get makes people wait!

I remember that Xu Qing stood in front of me at that time, wiped his eyes and said to me, "I'm leaving!" ”

I smiled and shook her, "I know, the train the day after tomorrow." ”

She suddenly couldn't control her tears, and she rushed out again: "I'm talking about forever!" ”

"What are you kidding, it's not funny at all."

In fact, when I heard this sentence, my heart felt like a needle had been pricked, and I felt that I had heard it wrong, and then I said it to myself with a smile on my face.

She didn't speak again, just looked at me with teary eyes, then suddenly hugged me, and finally cried hysterically, only to turn into silent crying again after a while.

I thought I understood everything at that moment, maybe I shouldn't have thought about it in the first place, how could she and I have a result?

At that moment, Tao Yuan on the stage and my sister next to him all saw this scene, and the eyes of all of us seemed to reveal sadness and the price of growth.

I thought she was the most nervous person in the world, but in the end I realized that it was actually me who was sluggish, and today I didn't even notice the kindness and sincerity of her unusual behavior.

I learned this unbelievable news that day, I didn't expect that the person I thought would be the whole life would say goodbye to me so soon. I was still that humble teenager, deceived by life.

I have a vague memory of how we got out of the tavern that day, as if I was too depressed and always chose to escape.

In fact, I only knew that I was still a child at that time, and I didn't even know what to say to her. If I say, "I like you," I feel like I can't speak, and if I say, "Don't go, okay?" "I feel too pretentious. I just remembered that I had promised to take her to watch a rain of fireworks.

My sister was no longer in our sight at some point, and I just told Xu Qing that she had left temporarily.

Xu Qing said that I don't want anything at home, and if I don't like it, I can throw it all away. I watched as she stopped the pear blossoms and rained, and finally decided to pluck up the courage to say that.

As I approached her, she didn't pay any attention to her preoccupation, and just as I was about to pat her on the shoulder, she turned around and looked at each other, and my hand touched her face, a little hot.

"I ......" the next second we said the word almost at the same time.

"I want to take you somewhere." Finally I said that.

"Okay, I'll go." Her affectionate answer made my heart ache a little.

At this moment, his chest was beating violently for some reason, wanting to take her into his arms and ask for an affectionate kiss.

I couldn't help but swallow, "That's it." ”

Just as she was expecting me to say something touching, I was expecting her to say the same, but in the end no one spoke.

"Okay." She replied in a low voice, but her voice echoed throughout the space.

Why did you run away from home? Why did you meet me again? It was the first time I felt such a heartache. I used to just want to study hard and graduate and get a good job.

This should have been the words that I should struggle with in my heart, but it said without complaint or regret at this moment.

On quiet nights, we wandered the lightly lit paths, already knowing that it would be indefinite. But you still have to keep going, after all, time never stops, for whom.

There's a string of conversations flickering, "Now that you think about it, do you regret running away from home?" ”

"I regret and I regret it, I regret that I came to the wrong person, and I don't regret that I can meet you."

"Then do I have any advantages other than the delicious food I cook?"

"Take special care of people. Except for my family, no one has been so unreciprocated to treat me so unrequited. ”

"And what about me asking for something in return now?"

"Huh?" Confused but not surprised, she stopped and turned her face to look at me.

"And what do you want?" I could feel her blush slightly.

"Laugh, I've never seen you smile seriously."

Who would have known that in the days to come, this photo would become the only photo we had together.

A light rain suddenly fell from the sky, rendering the earth particularly sad. I took her hand and ran through the drizzle, to the square pavilion where I used to enjoy the shade. We stood in the middle of the lake, the rain rippling in the water. I tried to straighten up her loose hair, but in the end I let go of my restless hand. I looked at the time, and it was exactly 9 o'clock.

At this time, it seems that everything is still, the fireworks are blooming, falling, and dissipating, and I promised to take you to see a fireworks rain. I took out the pre-prepared rag doll from the flower bed, her favorite Doraemon.

In fact, it is all thanks to my sister who silently supports me behind my back, and she can see my love for Xu Qing at a glance, so she agreed to help me.

"Remember not to pretend to be strong in the future, forget about me."

It's the most cruel thing I've ever said in my life, and I still don't have the courage to say it again, only the one at the time would make me so stupid.

She looked at me crying and laughing, suddenly nodded forward and kissed me, and bit my lip hard. I was as stunned as I was at the class reunion, and let her kiss me.

Then she took the rag doll in my hand and whispered, "Okay." ”

Then he covered his eyes with his hands and turned around and ran out, each step heavy. How could I be fragile and tearful, and I knew she must be crying again, because I tasted her tears.

In the future, I only remember you with long hair, and you have some nerves.

Actually, I know that as long as I say, "Stay" or "I like you", she can stay. But I'm probably too young to mature enough to say to you, "I'll raise you." ”

Everyone will have different choices, and my choice is to let go, in fact, we should no longer be dragged down by each other, and it is best that there will be no time after that.

The truth is that we are destined to have no chance to continue that day, our lives have never been completely chosen for ourselves, we are actually imprisoned.