33.

"Jian Yi, have you slept?" Yu Feifei's voice was hoarse, sounding like an elderly grandmother.

"Nope." A short answer.

"I can't sleep."

"Sleep. Get a good night's sleep and the weather will be fine tomorrow. ”

Jian Yi and Yu Feifei slept opposite each other, Yu Feifei's body was very cold and had no temperature, and her shallow breath hit Jian Yi's nose, which was cold and cold.

Jian Yiliang was held by her hot hand, and it was as cold as expected.

Yu Feifei withdrew her hand back from Jian Yi's hand, a little depressed, "No need, it's not hot." ”

Yu Feifei turned over and lay down, her eyes calm but extremely sad.

The puffiness of her eyes forced her to open her eyes, and she stubbornly tried to open them as much as she could, and the tearing pain came too quickly to open her eyelids, and tears flowed out of her eyes.

The hot stinging pain in the eyes is linked to the infinite soreness in the stomach.

She pursed her lips, her lips were dry and skinny, and her voice was hoarse and blurred, "My parents always say that my existence is their greatest luck, but I feel that their life is bitter because of me." ”

"Don't think so." The girl, who was still in a calm mood just now, sobbed again in an instant. Jane had to be patient and comforted.

Her thin shoulders trembled uncontrollably, her schoping sound staccatocated, she covered her face, and her words were chaotic.

"I said I was going home, and my parents were happy and said they were going to the county town to buy me the best cake."

She wouldn't have imagined that they wouldn't come back.

If she knew, she wouldn't have eaten the best cake.

She didn't expect it. If she knew, she wouldn't have eaten the cake.

Jian Yi tightly wrapped around her trembling body, her voice became choked, Fei Fei cried, and she cried too.

"It was just an accident. It was just an accident. ”

Yu Feifei cried, "I want them to come back." I don't know how I'm going to live on my own. ”

"You still have me. There will be beautiful and gentle boys who will love you and spoil you, you will bear fruit and have children, and there will be more people who love you like your parents. ”

Yu Feifei didn't say anything, she just cried non-stop, Jian Yi didn't say anything comforting, all she had to do now was to accompany Feifei silently.

The choked voice in the room gradually quieted down, and Jane lay on the bed with a lot of thoughts, the two of them had their own thoughts, and their sentimental hearts could not be calmed down for a long time.

Yu Feifei's voice became even more hoarse after crying, she said, "My grandmother hates me very much, I can't remember anything when I was very young, I remember that she hated me very much." ”

The incense of the fish family is already thin, and it is even more so in the generation of Uncle Yu and Yu's father. Uncle Yu and Aunt Yu have been married for many years but have no heirs, and later Yu's father married Yu's mother and became pregnant within half a year.

Grandma was very happy to see the mother fish's bulging belly, and the chicken, duck, fish, and meat were delicious and delicious, as long as it was good for pregnant women, grandma arranged all for her.

Grandma is very sure that this baby must be a boy, and hopes that the little thing still in the belly can pass incense to the fish family.

A month before Yu Feifei was born, her grandmother named her Yu Feifei privately, and ran to the police station without saying a word to settle down for her unborn good grandson.

Mother fish likes to eat sour, and grandma said that the little thing in the stomach must be a boy, a sour and spicy girl.

Mother Fish's belly is sharp, and grandma said that the sharp-bellied man and the round-bellied woman must be a boy.

When the mother fish was seven or eight months old, the fetus moved violently, and the grandmother was smiling, and there was only one line in the whole pair of eyes.

Naturally, everyone in the family was sure that Fei Fei must be a boy, so that when the doctor came out of the delivery room with her in his arms and congratulated her, no one was relieved from the illusion of the past.

Grandma lifted Fei Fei, who was crying and crying, to look left and right, the expression on her face became more and more ugly, and with a flick of her hand, she threw the child who was still crying into the arms of Daddy Yu.

The anxiety and joy of waiting for the birth of the child on her face were gone, and she turned indifferently, and said something that made everyone who thought that people like her had no heart.

The corners of her mouth sneered, and every word she said could make people sad to death. "Hehe, I thought it was a boy."

34.

The relationship between the mother-in-law and the grandmother was originally very good. Since Yu Feifei was born, the relationship between the two has deteriorated. It's not that grandma doesn't like her and targets her. It's that Mother Fish can't see Grandma's indifference and indifference to Fei Fei.

Fei Fei was born to a fish mother, and her own cubs, even if there are thousands of bad things, she can't listen to others and have to do this to Fei Fei.

For three days, the two of them would always quarrel with each other because of Fei Fei's affairs.

Fei Fei always silently watched the two of them arguing, and then stood there crying at a loss.

Grandma hates her, and Mom wants to protect her, so they fight. Grandma hates her because she's not a boy, and the reason Mom needs to protect her is because Grandma hates that she's not a boy, and the source of their quarrels day after day, year after year, is also because she's not a boy.

Fifi is not a boy, she wants to be a boy. She wanted everything to be okay.

In order to be a boy, she observed the appearance of her brother next door, walked with a big grin, kept an inch of hair, scolded a few swear words that sounded very dick from time to time, blended into the boys' pile and only made friends with boys, and occasionally bullied and bullied the little girls in the class like boys.

However, the road to becoming a boy was not as smooth as expected.

The head teacher reported to Daddy Yu, saying that she didn't learn all day long and often mixed in with a group of boys, causing chaos to the teacher and classmates.

When Father Yu found out, he was furious, and when he went home, he didn't say a word to Yu Feifei, and he beat Yu Feifei severely.

Jane's father and Jane's mother knew that she was born hard, and she had always taken good care of her, and that was the first time she had been beaten since she was born.

The pain on her face was hot, Fei Fei's head was buzzing, and she didn't even know what was going on before she was beaten by her father.

Before Fei Fei could cry, Mother Yu cried out before her, she was angry and annoyed, and scolded Father Yu with red eyes, "Can't you say anything wrong with your mouth?" You have so much strength, how can she resist such a small body? ”

"Say, I want to talk about her too." Father Yu hated iron and pointed at Fei Fei and scolded, "Look at what good things she has done in school, she doesn't learn and doesn't know how to do it, bully her classmates, disrupt the classroom, and be lawless." ”

Yu Feifei didn't understand why she just wanted to become a boy and why it ended up with such a bad result.

It's her fault, it's her fault. But why was it wrong in the end? She's doing what everyone expects.

"I'm sorry." Fei Fei lowered her head and sobbed, "I didn't know it would be like this, I saw that the boys in my class were like this, so I learned, I thought that I would become a boy like them." ”

She naively thought that as long as she tried to imitate it day after day, one day she would become a boy that everyone liked.

It's just that what she doesn't know is that the ugly duckling can turn into a white swan because it is a swan itself.

She was originally a female Jiao'e, how could she have a man's body?

Some things are predestined from birth, and you can't change them, and you can't change them.

Father Fish, Mother Fish, heard this, her nose was sore, and she cried. Feeling guilty, they hurriedly hugged her and coaxed her softly.

Daddy Yu's rough palmistry covered her red and swollen right cheek, and it hurt in his heart to look at his innocent son. "Dad can't stand you."

He felt that he was strong and strong, he could afford to cry, withstand the consumption of firewood, rice, oil and salt, and could withstand the sky and the earth, but he couldn't protect his dearest wife and children, and let them suffer so much and be tired for no reason.

If you ask yourself, he really isn't a good husband.