She only sets the main story, and leaves the rest to the actors to play freely - which also leads to a pitiful number of actors who can make her fanciful.

But it's not the only one. No matter what kind of acting skills the actors play and what kind of side stories they develop, Sister Hua can anticipate them and prepare the most perfect environment for them to play to their heart's content. Lu Qun, have you seen this kind of movie before? ”

Lu Qun shook his head slowly.

With a hint of fanaticism in his eyes, Ishikawa said, "In the eyes of the audience, this movie may be inexplicable and may be extremely boring. But in the end, there will be some people who are touched to the heartstrings and cannot be forgotten for a long time.

Lu Qun, you must know that it is these things that will eventually melt into their flesh and bones. It's not those things that make any variety show into a movie, full of copper smell! ”

Lu Qun looked at Ishikawa silently, and inexplicably felt a trace of kindness.

If he likes to read, maybe I'll be friends with him. Except for the difference in the field, the other concepts, they are almost the same. Not recognized, not loved, but also to stick to the goal you want to achieve.

The long road can lead to countless forks in the road. Because life is already difficult, everyone is silently trying to move forward. But in the end, you have to reach the other side that you are so eager for and so obsessed with.

The self that we once firmly believed in a purpose does not completely fade with the passage of time. Excerpt from "Tazaki Saku without Color and His Year of Pilgrimage". This is one that Lu Qun particularly likes.

Ishikawa exhaled, looked at Lu Qun's appearance of silently bowing his head to eat, and smiled with relief. He knew he didn't have to say anything more. Lu Qun will stay and join them.

If Doomsday Flower is a genius who has the ability to see through a person's "realm" at a glance, then Ishikawa is like a guide dog with a keen sense of smell, who can find the lonely person in the vast sea of people and guide him on the way ahead.

They are all made for the real thing. But that's not a big deal.

It's just an attitude to life.

Lu Qun took the mug of steaming instant coffee, returned to his wooden cabin, gently closed the door, and sat down at the table. He silently recalled the conversation Ishikawa had with himself before he separated.

"Should I also do some improvisation?"

"Lu Qun, do you have a dream?"

“…… Let's just be a family. ”

"Good. Whether you have a dream or not, as long as your dream is not to be an actor, you don't need to deliberately do any acting skills. Know what I mean? ”

“…… You mean, acting in your true colors? ”

"Hmm...... It's a little different. I mean, since you didn't want to be an actor, you don't have to force anything.

Empty yourself as if you were an empty chrysalis that fell to the ground. Wait quietly for something else to find you and enter your chrysalis. All that remains is to feel, to observe it, and then to act according to its will.

Lu Qun, in this crew, you don't have to lie anything. The more real it is, the more you can feel it. Even if you don't want to act in the end, it will help you write, right?

This experience doesn't happen very often. Think about the rest, remember to go to bed early, and don't be late. Sister Hua will be furious. ”

Lu Qun scratched his head, touched his feet again, picked his nostrils again, and put his fingers into his mouth to bite in distraction.

"I'm definitely going to have insomnia tonight." I couldn't help but look up and sigh.

Studied but cannot comprehend. Lu Qun decided to pick up a pen and write it on a piece of paper to observe. He does that a lot. If there is anything you can't figure out, just write it down in one go, which will help sort out your thoughts. It's probably the same as combing your hair.

It may be chaotic at first, but as long as you continue to write slowly, the idea will gradually become clear, and everything will return to its place.

Lu Qun wrote on the paper:

"First of all, I went to a university that I didn't want to go to. Distress.

Playing football, fighting. Sing K. Eating cake alone. There is some emptiness.

Beautiful Shen Yu. Damn cops. I'm depressed.

Mom and Dad divorced. On the pavement. It becomes a glass heart. Become confused. Thinking of suicide.

Beautiful maidens, eccentric clowns, out-of-tune drunks, some peace of mind.

A speechless female director, curious.

Staying in the crew and filming, there may be a hint of expectation, but there is more confusion.

The winner of life, Sakura, poor Hanarang.

Of course, but it unfolds with a sense of disobedience.

Poor Sakura. Sad and happy Hanarang.

The clown who attracts him, but can't get an answer, the hateful, but pathetic drunk.

Today let me completely break off the only love for a period of time - grapefruit. Who is this actor who is sacred?

Ishikawa, who has an extremely strange idea but doesn't make me hateful, may become friends in the future.

Today, I still have questions about the script of "Bug Man".

I don't know anything but the main story. Ahead is a foggy wilderness.

Is it really what I want to do most when I hide in my house and write? ”

After a long time, Lu Qun tore off the paper, crumpled it into a ball, and threw it into the trash.

The world is very big, and a person is as small as an ant, but he has a life full of infinite possibilities like the sea.

Now, Lu Qun has plenty of time, but he doesn't write anymore.

At three o'clock in the evening, Lu Quncai gently put down the script, made a cup of instant coffee, leaned on the balcony and drank it silently, looking at the frozen moon with unblinking eyes.

At half-past three, his cell phone rang. After a long time, Lu Qun gradually dragged his mind back to reality from his thoughts about Yingyun, and silently picked up the phone. Who's going to call at this point in time? Due to mental exhaustion, Lu Qun didn't think much about it although he picked up the phone.

It doesn't matter who he is, you'll know when you take it.

"Is it Lu Qun?" It's a woman's voice.

"It's me, may I ask who you are?"

“…… Shen Yu. ”

Lu Qun took a deep breath and touched his hair. Talk to Shen Yu at half past three in the middle of the night. It's not a particularly good choice. At least not a pleasant conversation.

"How are you doing?"

"Does this have anything to do with you?" Shen Yu's voice was flat and peaceful, and he couldn't hear the slightest fluctuation of feelings.

“…… Are you angry? ”

“……”

"Shen Yu, if you're angry. I want to say I'm sorry to you. ”

"I'm in front of the nightclub right now."

Lu Qun stopped touching his hair, "Why?" ”

Shen Yu seemed to sigh lightly. But the tone was like a laugh.

"Calling you, there's only one problem. Did you break up with me? ”

Lu Qun's headache was terrible. Knowing that Shen Yu would call at half past three in the middle of the night, he would never think about Yingyun. No, maybe it's not for him at all.

"I don't know, but I think I still like you. Just sorry. ”

"That is, you don't like me. You didn't like me from the beginning. ”

"Why do you think so?"

"Sooner or later, you'll break up with me. Listen to the landing group, I don't know what exactly you've heard. It bothered me and hurt me. I don't want to be miserable and humiliated.

So I'll be honest with you – I've actually been being fostered all along, the 60-something boss of an IT company. Her daughter is in the same class as us. But after dating you, my relationship with him is over. ”

Lu Qun walked to the balcony, he raised his head, but he couldn't see the moon, it was hazy, his brain seemed to be gurgling and boiling, and his whole body was uncomfortably like all his bones were expanding by a millimeter at the same time.

"I like you. It's the first time in my life that I've fallen in love with a boy so blindly. Why didn't you invite me to spend the night with you that night? Lu Qun, you don't like me, for sure. It's ridiculous, it's ridiculous, but poor I'm mentally prepared.

Lu Qun, your family is very good, right? Actually studying abroad...... Sorry, I may have said a bit of a mess, because that's all in my heart, and I don't hide it. My secrets have happened in the past, and you can't blame me, can you? So you took revenge on me, studying abroad, and didn't tell me a word. ”

"I'm not ......"

Lu Qun closed his eyes tightly, but his logical thinking flew in like a flock of birds flying in through a window, standing in the room with his head stretched out and chattering noisily, without a clue at all, and he didn't know what to do.

"You may think that a material woman like me is not qualified to be in love, but I still have to tell you that if you love you as much as I do, now you have to put on your clothes, whatever I am, run out into the street, look for me like crazy, and hold me tightly in your arms. It doesn't matter if you scold or beat; Cry or laugh, never separate. ”

Shen Yu said in a hurry, and Lu Qun vaguely heard high heels banging on the floor and cars honking.

Looking down, a pitch-black van was slowly driving downstairs and stopped.

Lu Qun even had the illusion that Shen Yu was downstairs.

But if Shen Yu said about the nightclub, it is not a kind of reference. That's a complete delusion. There are no nightclubs, just a small building where people are sleeping and working alternative movie shoots.

Heels no longer tap. The car stops honking. Even the slightest murmur of the phone disappeared.

"Break up, Lu Qun, I wish you a happy study abroad."

"Wait, Shen Yu, why are you going to a nightclub?"

"Everything is revenge, senseless revenge. Ten times a hundred times the revenge. ”

"Toot ......"

Shen Yu simply hung up the phone. Lu Qun stared at the phone screen - 3:45.

Lu Qun took a deep breath, opened the door, and walked down the stairs. The iron gate at the entrance of the building is locked, and it stands like a dark stone wall. The sound of slippers echoing loudly.

Lu Qun looked out the dim window - there was no car. Nothing. But the space seemed to be in turmoil. As if something had just left.

Lu Qun squatted in the corner of the wall and lowered his head.

Maybe Shen Yu had just been downstairs and raised his head like that, staring at him. She must have looked like she didn't want to see it.

Shen Yu may have completely exuded his budding charm, like a butterfly that has just broken out of its cocoon and happily sucked the nectar among the flowers.

It was nearly 4 o'clock, and Lu Qun fell asleep. At 5:10, Ishikawa woke him up and stared at his bloodshot eyes in surprise, "Are you sleeping here?" ”

Lu Qun shook his head and said nothing, except for the sticky tiredness, there seemed to be something different from the previous thing on his body. It's like a jellyfish with tiny transparent tentacles growing all over its body.

Doomsday flowers make people send out tickets. They are not filming here today, they are going abroad to shoot a few scenes.

Throughout the journey, Lu Qun only felt that the feeling of something more was getting stronger and stronger. The closer you get to abroad, the stronger this feeling becomes.

Think of yourself as an empty chrysalis. Lu Qun confirmed this sentence with Ishikawa about seven times on the way. At the end, when the other party stared at him worriedly, Lu Qun realized his abnormality and sat back in his position silently.

Something was vigilant around him, creeping into his body.

Feel, observe. He has to learn to adapt and then act according to its will.

The airline flight attendant has neat black hair, a professional and comfortable smile, and her eyes are gentle but not pretentious when she looks at the passengers who have stepped off the plane.

In the afternoon of the same day, Lu Qun didn't have to film, so he stayed alone in a hotel double room that cost 600 yuan a night, stood in front of the mirror, and looked at his body.

Ishikawa is in the same guest room with him, but he follows Doomsday Flower to the filming site. Don't worry he'll come back suddenly.

Lu Qun has fair skin and some fat on his body. This has something to do with his dislike of sports. But not so much as to completely swallow up the entire silhouette. The hair is a little too long and it's time to trim it.

The eye sockets are a little sunken, and there is a faint blue-black color under the skin. The edges and corners of the collarbone are quite clear, and there is a little fat on the chest and stomach. Lu Qun sighed.