45. Self-blame
"Third brother, if you say this again, I'm going to be angry. It's not your fault that I'm going to get hurt, and it's not my big brother's fault, I can't just watch my big brother get hurt. Liu Xiaoyao looked at Liu Qianshui very seriously and seriously, and expressed her thoughts to Liu Qianshui, because she didn't want Liu Qianshui to blame herself.
Liu Xiaoyao could see that Liu Qianshui did not stop blaming herself because of her words, but blamed herself even more, so she couldn't stand it anymore: "According to what you say, is it still a mistake for me to save my eldest brother?" If you really want to count it, it's my fault, and it has nothing to do with you. ”
Originally, she had selfish intentions to save Liu Qianfeng, because the Liu family in the book, especially Liu Qianfeng and Murong Liu, became more and more kind to Zhao Linglan after Lizhou City.
According to the plot she remembered, combined with the events of this time, she could probably guess some reasons.
Murong Liu's words, on the one hand, were a sense of guilt, and on the other hand, because Zhao Linglan could be said to be the great benefactor of their Liu family.
And Liu Qianfeng, although he is not sure that a favor can make him remember it for so long and help Zhao Linglan in the later plot, he can't let go of anything.
A few days before I came through, I actually had the idea that I could wear it back, but when I found that I couldn't seem to go back, I had to find a way to save myself.
It's a pity that not long after he came through, he faced the first big separation from the Liu family, and he had no memory of the original owner, and the original owner was actually more willful and troublesome in the minds of the Liu family.
When she was on the road, when she put forward some ideas at the beginning, she could see that everyone's eyes were all about: my little sister/daughter/granddaughter/young lady is going to do something again, what to do can only follow her.
According to everyone's thoughts and actions at the beginning, she can also roughly guess the image of the original owner in the minds of other Liu family members, and the biggest problem at present is that there is no opportunity to change other people's opinions of herself, how can she let go of such a good opportunity this time.
Reading a book is one thing, what the original owner does in the book is her business, but since she is dressed as her, there is no reason to let herself live so pitifully, I originally thought that I could succeed in designing Zhao Linglan, but when I saw Zhao Linglan in Lizhou City, she was already shocked.
Later, when Zhao Linglan saved Nangong Haoyu as described in the book, the only thought in Liu Xiaoyao's mind at that time was: Since Zhao Linglan couldn't stop Zhao Linglan from saving Nangong Haoyu, then Zhao Linglan couldn't be allowed to become the benefactor of the Liu family again.
She only remembers the plot in the original book, although she doesn't know if Zhao Linglan saved Liu Qianfeng and Nangong Haoyu at the same time in the same accident, but she knows that no matter what, as long as Zhao Linglan and Liu Qianfeng are on the same occasion, then she needs to keep an eye on all Zhao Linglan's actions.
So her attention at that time was not on Liu Qianfeng, so she didn't actually know that there was a hidden arrow to hurt Liu Qianfeng, she just followed the eyes of the injured Zhao Linglan and looked at Liu Qianfeng's position, and then found the hidden arrow.
At that time, the only thought in her mind was to be faster than Zhao Linglan, so her body naturally rushed towards Liu Qianfeng's position, and when she reacted, she was already injured.
And the thought in her mind after she was injured was not that she was glad that she saved Liu Qianfeng, but that she was glad that she didn't let Zhao Linglan save Liu Qianfeng.
But can such thoughts be known to others? Definitely not.
But she can't make Liu Qianshui blame herself for this incident all the time, because Liu Qianshui has been really good to herself along the way, and her purpose this time has been achieved, because judging from the current situation, Liu Qianfeng should not have any gratitude to Zhao Linglan for the time being, so this is enough.
Liu Qianshui wanted to continue to blame himself, but when he saw Liu Xiaoyao's expression, he knew that the little sister was not laughing, and along the way, he had already figured out the temper of this little sister after amnesia, so he could see that she really didn't want to blame herself.
However, this time it was indeed because of his own negligence that she was injured, so he couldn't forgive himself.
Liu Qianfeng didn't expect to see this side of Xiaomei, because in the past, every time it didn't matter whether it was Xiaoyao's fault or not, but as long as their brothers were present, they must be the ones who took the blame, in fact, everyone has long been used to it.
This time she will save herself, she was also surprised, she has already done her job and will ask herself for credit after she recovers, but she didn't last night, she thought it was just because she was too tired last night. I didn't mention it just now, but I didn't expect the third brother to blame himself, the little sister couldn't stand it, and didn't take the opportunity to ask the third brother to do anything, it seems that this little sister after amnesia is a little different from before.
Liu Qianfeng is still analyzing.
On the other side, there were a few people who had already known Liu Xiaoyao's temperament along the way, and they also knew that the two brothers and sisters really felt that this matter was their own fault, and Murong Aosong and Zhao Yan couldn't stand it.
"Okay, okay, Xiao Yao is right, if one of us is one of us, we won't look at the other person in danger, Qianshui, you don't need to continue to blame yourself with this matter." Murong Aosong interrupted the brother and sister's gaze.
"Okay, Xiao Yao's injury is not serious, you see her spirit today, besides, I am here, you Grandpa Zhao and I have no other skills, and the ability to save people and heal injuries is still reasonable." Zhao Yan also helped to play the round.
"That said, aren't we talking about the Assassins? Why did it suddenly become a criticism meeting for your brother and sister? Lisan also interjected.
Liu Xiaoyao thought about it, and knew that Liu Qianshui had already regarded himself as more important than his life, not only Liu Qianshui, in fact, she could see that everyone looked at themselves and their mothers very closely, because only the two of them did not know martial arts, every time there was an assassin, everyone was most afraid that he and his mother were injured, and this time Liu Qianshui watched himself being injured under his nose, no wonder he felt that it was his fault.
Liu Xiaoyao thought about it, and saw that the third brother still looked like "everything is my fault", stretched out his little hand and pulled Liu Qianshui's sleeve, and said patiently: "Third brother, this incident is not your fault, nor my fault, we are not wrong." It's the Assassins who are at fault, so what we have to do is not to blame ourselves here, but to find a way to find them. Instead of blaming yourself here, you might as well take care of your injuries, and after you recover from your injuries, go to these people's base camp and beat them up, what do you think? ”