Chapter 191: All Thoughts Are Lost
"Okay, let's talk about something else, baby, do you mind if I ask you something?"
"What?"
"Just your stupid ex-boyfriend, does he have a problem with his brain? The more I thought about it, the more I realized that it was a possibility. ”
Gao Xiaoying looked at him with a frown, with a look of anger on her face. She felt that Baili Minghui was laughing at herself.
Baili Minghui forcibly pulled her over and hugged her, and then laughed and said, "Don't get me wrong, baby, your husband and I just think it's strange."
Hehe, you may not have been in contact with those poor people, but I know them too well. Especially for D-level credit, those guys are all fools who are crushed by life to the point of collapse, and almost none of them are in their right minds.
However, when you get into that situation, it's all self-inflicted, it's just a bunch of rats and cockroaches that don't deserve sympathy, hehe. ”
Gao Xiaoying didn't answer him, nor did she pay attention to the arrogance and sarcasm in his tone, even if he was in the same situation as Xie Yunhe in the past. Now she is no longer Gao Xiaoying in the past.
Xie Yunhe was the first to notice this, and he didn't say anything, making his senses extremely sensitive. And the man next to her, who is about to become her husband, doesn't notice anything, just like a simple fool.
She silently looked out at the distant sky, the gray sky giving her a sense of déjà vu.
Gao Xiaoying suddenly remembered something.
A long, long time ago, when her life was not as complicated as it is now, a warm breeze on the way from school would fill her heart with happiness.
There was a boy who, on the darkest days of her life, looked at her tenderly, comforted her, and covered her with his equally thin body the gray sky that tried to swallow her.
It's as if she was the most precious treasure of his life.
On December 1, Xie Yunhe took out 500,000 yabi in cash from his bank card, but instead of taking the money to the exclusive intelligence group to pay taxes as in previous years, he walked straight back to his home.
Xie Yunhe sat on the ground, quietly looked at the pile of cash in front of him, and made a decision.
Since there was no longer any reason to live, he decided to end his life with his own hands.
After entering December, the first snow fell in Silinglong District.
For a while, a piece of silver covered the streets and alleys, and this colorful city turned into an entrenched silver dragon, and the pedestrians on the streets wore thick and warm clothes, looking a little bloated.
Xie Yunhe stood in front of the mirror, staring at his face.
Half a month has passed since they separated from Gao Xiaoying. During this time, Xie Yunhe lost weight as if he had changed into a different person, his cheeks, which were hidden between his messy black hair and beard, were sunken at a speed visible to the naked eye, and his eyes bulged out like dead fish.
Xie Yunhe could feel that he had lost something important now, and it was not just his weight that had changed.
He cleaned his room carefully early this morning. But because the house is poorly lit, no matter how it is cleaned, the room looks lifeless, and only the gray light wanders around lonely.
Xie Yunhe was on the day shift this week, and he was supposed to be working at Miki Izakaya now, but Xie Yunhe called in the morning and called for two days of sick leave on the grounds that he was unwell.
Since Xie Yunhe had never asked for leave to rest, the boss also readily agreed, and even pretended to care about him for a few words.
Xie Yunhe didn't want to be a civilian anymore, and he didn't plan to continue living.
But he wasn't going to die right away, he wanted to go on a tour before he died, as every ordinary civilian would do.
Xie Yunhe went outside to buy several sets of new clothes and shoes, all of which were the brands he used to love to wear. After taking off the old clothes on his body, he threw them all into the trash.
After that, he went to the barbershop to cut his hair and shave. After asking several companies, he finally found a movie theater that could be entered by poor people with D-grade credit, and then bought a ticket to go in and watch the movie.
Xie Yunhe started watching it at noon and watched a movie for an afternoon. He watched four shows in a row, but he didn't find it boring at all.
If he could, he would have liked to keep watching.
Around four o'clock in the afternoon, the street lights began to turn on the side of the street. The orange-yellow halos on the side of the road bring a touch of warmth to this silvery city.
Xie Yunhe went to the bus station to buy a ticket for a night bus, and the departure time was 11 o'clock in the evening.
After returning home, Xie Yunhe opened his newly bought travel backpack and filled it with new clothes, shoes, and various other bits and pieces.
Eventually, he put a brand new hemp rope in as well. This rope is for hanging, and he will return here after the trip and then end everything.
After installing it, Xie Yunhe thought about it and decided to throw away all the unnecessary things in the house.
After all, it would be too troublesome to clean up after returning from the trip, so it's better to tidy it all up before you go.
The first thing to bear the brunt of is the brick cake.
The brick cake bought at a discount filled the entire refrigerator, and the few edges were already deformed. As soon as I opened the refrigerator door, an indescribable stench hit my face. Xie Yunhe retched for a while, and only spit out some gastric juice.
In the past half a month, of course, Xie Yunhe has never eaten any brick cakes, and he originally wanted to eat something good, but he has never had much appetite, so he basically only drinks juice and occasionally eats a cup of instant noodles.
After a long time, he smelled this familiar smell again, and Xie Yunhe found that he couldn't stand it just by smelling it.
The thought of having been stuffing this disgusting thing into his stomach for six years made him feel angry.
Xie Yunhe took the brick cake to the balcony, and then threw it all at the mountain of garbage that blocked the view.
In addition, there were some clothes and shoes that he had picked up, expired drinks, a radio that could only make a noise, and a bag of stinky dried fish that had been frozen for an unknown period of time, and he threw them all towards the garbage mountain.
After throwing it away, Xie Yunhe returned to the house and locked his eyes on the small photo frame placed on the cabinet.
This is a photo taken by Xie Yunhe and Gao Xiaoying when they were 17 years old. The most extravagant thing Xie Yunhe has done in the past six years is to wash out the photos of the two and put them in a frame.
He grabbed the picture frame and threw it towards the mountain of garbage without hesitation.
"It's all over."
Xie Yunhe muttered, his expression both like crying and laughing.
Xie Yunhe returned to the house, sat down in front of the computer and turned it on.
He stared silently at the boot screen, and suddenly had an incredible feeling.
After becoming poor, of course, he could not have the money to buy a computer, and he picked up this old machine.
One day, Xie Yunhe came home from work in the early morning, and suddenly found a cardboard box at the door of the apartment, with a small note on it, which read: "The computer can still be used, if you need it, please take it home by yourself." ”
Because there are basically no residents in the vicinity of the apartment where he lives, it is even more strange that this computer will appear at the door of the apartment.
But Xie Yunhe really needed a computer at that time, so he didn't think much about moving directly to his home.
Now that it's all over, the computer is no longer useful.
And before throwing it away, Xie Yunhe was ready to play Beyond the Limit again: Plan Z.
At present, his highest record in the game is still stuck at 14,002 points, and only Xie Yunhe himself knows that this record is actually not his real limit.
In order to get as many record-breaking bonuses as possible, he has been consciously controlling his scores over the years.
This is unlikely, as it could easily allow other players to outdo themselves.
But the reality is that when Xie Yunhe refreshed the record to more than 10,000 points, no one could refresh his record.
Xie Yunhe is playing this game again, of course, not for the prize of 10,000 Yabi.
As a powerful gamer, Xie Yunhe also has his own small self-esteem, and he wants to know what the new record will be when he exerts 100% of his strength.
Maybe it doesn't make much sense, but for Xie Yunhe, this is probably the last time he will play a computer game in his life, and he doesn't want to leave regrets.
Xie Yunhe took several deep breaths repeatedly, making sure that he was in good shape.
Double-click on the game icon, and the familiar game interface appears in front of his eyes.
After clicking to start the game, Xie Yunhe's expression became serious, and all his attention was focused on the game.
At six o'clock in the evening, Xie Yunhe ended the game. Two lines of nosebleeds came out of his nose, all dripping onto his trouser legs.
Xie Yunhe's lips were trembling, and after he held out until the new record appeared, the whole person passed out directly backwards.
On a faintly lit computer screen, a few lines of data are written.
Nickname: Xie Yunhe 2026
Today's ranking: No. 1
Points: 32000 points
Comments:
Unlike in the past, this time there was not a single word in the comment column.
And soon after, without one to operate, the game interface gradually disappeared by itself.
At this point, the game icon on the desktop that has returned to normal has also disappeared.
But Xie Yunhe, who fainted directly because of excessive use of his brain, did not find this.
When he woke up again, it was about seven o'clock in the evening, Xie Yunhe dismantled the computer after washing his face, and threw it directly from the balcony, and the computer smashed on the ground with a loud "bang".
After throwing away all the unnecessary things, the room suddenly became much empty. Xie Yunhe turned on the small TV and watched the program on the TV boredly while waiting for the passage of time.
The departure time of the night bus is 11 o'clock in the evening, and Xie Yunhe can fully catch up with the departure at home at 10 o'clock.
The room was quiet for a while, Xie Yunhe watched the TV, and suddenly felt a little hungry.
He sat up in some surprise, for the first time in more than half a month, he felt hungry. In the past, he didn't eat for several days, but he just felt weak and didn't feel hungry.
Xie Yunhe decided to go to Silinglong District to get something to eat.
He happened to have an appetite, so he went to eat an expensive meal, such as grilled steak, cream stew, grilled white fish, fried shrimp, salt sea urchin, these things he used to like to eat, and this time he had to eat them all.
And just as Xie Yunhe got up and was about to go out to eat, the doorbell at the door rang with a "ding dong".
He stared at the door in a daze, a little suspicious in his heart.
In the past six years, the doorbell has never rang, because he has no acquaintances in this old town, and even he is the only resident of this apartment, so there is no neighbor coming to the door.
Seeing that there was no movement in the house, the doorbell at the door rang again.
After thinking about it, Xie Yunhe still decided to open the door.
After opening the door with a "squeak", Xie Yunhe saw a shadow standing at the door.
“…… Zhu Xiaoning? Xie Yunhe was stunned for a moment and muttered.