Chapter 18: Into the Abyss
In the hospital room.
Feng Yaya sat on the edge of the hospital bed, spoonful after spoonful of Gu Xiaodi's anti-hangover bean soup.
Gu Xiaodi instinctively drank one sip after another with an expressionless face, the taste of this soup was slightly sweet, and it was very smooth to drink without any scum, but when it came to Gu Xiaodi's mouth, there was an indescribable bitterness.
She would never have thought that the hangover bean soup she was drinking now was carefully boiled for her by a man who had no status in her heart, or even a man who was still a little strange to her.
She was only sadly imagining in her heart now, if it was Hao Yiyi who was guarding her bedside at the moment, he was looking at her affectionately spoonful by spoonful, and pampering her to drink this soup, how happy and gratifying the picture should be.
Thinking of this, she couldn't help but tears rolling down her eyes again.
Feng Yaya looked at Gu Xiaodi's appearance, feeling uncomfortable and distressed.
She put the bean soup on the table next to Gu Xiaodi's bed, grabbed Gu Xiaodi's hands on the hospital bed and said seriously: "My dear, no matter what happens in the future, I will always be by your side." Now you don't have to think about anything, we have to take care of our bodies as soon as possible. Since we want to leave, we also want to divorce him Hao Yiyi in a beautiful manner, and let him Hao Yiyi know that you Gu Xiaodi are not easy to bully. He doesn't want to take away from you a spare piece that doesn't belong to him. ”
Gu Xiaodi was in tears, and nodded at Feng Yaya.
"Also, you have to promise me not to do stupid things in the future, especially not to touch alcohol." Feng Yaya looked at Gu Xiaodi and said again.
Gu Xiaodi suddenly raised her head, looked at Feng Yaya and cried heartbreakingly, "Yaya, what should I do with my child?" What about my child? ”
Feng Yaya wiped the tears on Gu Xiaodi's cheeks, and couldn't help but feel gloomy in her heart: "Alas, pity Hao Tong." ”
She then looked at Gu Xiaodi again, and said to Xiaodi firmly in her dress: "Don't be afraid, with us, we will never let Hao Tong be hurt." ”
"I tried my best to give Tong Tong a complete and happy home, how did it end up like this? Why is all this? Why? Gu Xiaodi cried and muttered to herself while beating her chest in pain.
yes, why exactly? She didn't understand, and she couldn't figure it out.
She also felt that her life was a combination of wrong questions.
From the unhappiness of birth to the unhappiness of her current marriage, she was suddenly confused and overwhelmed.
She even felt that people like her should not come to this world for a while.
At this time, a hopeless thought of life welled up in her heart.
"Xiaodi, calm down, calm down, believe me, everything will be fine." Feng Yaya stood up, took Gu Xiaodi, who was out of control on the hospital bed, into her arms, hugged her tightly and comforted her.
Gu Xiaodi thought that she had found the love of her life, and she could hold his hand with him and grow old together, but who knew that it was just her own wishful thinking in the end.
Over the years, the man she has loved with her life, the man she cherishes everywhere, just treats her as an old mother who doesn't need to spend money.
How sad and ironic is this for Gu Xiaodi?
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Three days later, Gu Xiaodi was discharged from the hospital accompanied by Feng Yaya.
Feng Yaya repeatedly told Gu Xiaodi to negotiate with Hao Yiyi for the last time. Whether it is Hao Tong's custody or the right to divide the property of both of them, she hopes that Gu Xiaodi will take the initiative, and he Hao Yi, don't think about taking away any extra money from this family.
Gu Xiaodi squatted stupidly in the living room, stupidly recalling the bits and pieces of the years with that man, and in the end it dawned on her, as if she had been performing the fairy tales of the prince and princess alone in the enclosure all these years.
She kept in her mind that she was busy with work and family every day, and the man behind him either came home late or sat on the sofa in the living room, leisurely, as if no one was around, playing a game on his own.
"It turns out that I have been snubbed by him for many years."
She whispered in a dull voice with blurred eyes, tears sliding down her thin cheeks and falling on the floor tiles of the living room, instantly forming a splash.
Over the years, she has regarded Hao Yiyi's indifference as a man's spoiling, living in the fairy tale world she weaved.
She thought that Hao Yiyi's kind of letting go of love was a great love that pampered her to the limit, but she didn't know that it was a manifestation that she had not taken her in her eyes for a long time, and the corners of her mouth rose slightly, revealing a self-deprecating smirk.
"I'm so stupid, I'm really stupid, why didn't I see it before?"
The living room once again heard Gu Xiaodi's muttered muttered muttered muffled muttering of pain.
She is now as if she has completely woken up from that fairytale dream, and every cell in her body is calling "Gu Xiaodi, you are really a stupid hat".
She slowly stood up and walked uninhibitedly to the floor-to-ceiling glass window of the living room and looked at everything outside.
A terrible thought suddenly surged into her heart, and she saw the corners of her mouth slightly raised, and a strange smile appeared on her face.
The next second, I saw her bring a stool and place it in front of the glass window. She opened the locked curtain first, and then opened the other layer of glass behind the curtain.
Then, she stretched out half of her body directly from the window, and looked down from the height of the sixteenth floor, and instantly a cold breath hit her.
She shuddered.
"If you jump from here, all the suffering of the earthly world should be over, right?"
She muttered to herself, no glimmer of hope in her empty eyes, and the eerie smile on her face was even more eerie.
Suddenly, her hands grasping the frame of the window were let go, and her thin figure, like a bouquet of withered roses, stood on the edge of the window as if she were now standing on the edge of the cliff.
With a light jump, it's all over!
It's over!
There was a voice in her heart that had been seducing her, and she was still doing her last dying throes.
Jump? Don't jump?
Jump? Don't jump?
Her mind felt like she was in an endless loop.
At this point, two-thirds of her body was leaning against the edge of the unclosed window.
As long as someone gently pushes her from behind, or if one of her is careless, her body is slightly tilted ten degrees, her thin body will immediately fall from the height of the sixteenth floor.
At this scene, people were so frightened that they didn't dare to take a breath.
At this moment, the ringtone of her mobile phone "jingle bell" suddenly rang from the living room.
She shivered unconsciously and leaned forward defenselessly, her hands grasping the frame of the window with her hands.
It's dangerous! It's really dangerous! She was on the verge of falling.
I saw her trembling and crawling down from the stool, and she almost trembled her legs to the coffee table, and then squatted down in the gap between the sofa and the coffee table.
She forgot to answer the phone at the moment, and just squatted there in a daze, not yet able to come out of the moment when she was frightened.
"Gu Xiaodi, are you really just dead? If you die, do you want Hao Tong to bear the halo of a "mother jumping off the building"? ”
She shouted self-deprecatingly in her heart, two lines of tears washing her cheeks incomprehensibly.
She eventually got scared and gave in to life! She whispered in her heart again with self-deprecation.
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The person on the other end of the phone seems to be very persistent, and the ringtone of the mobile phone has been noisy.
Almost a quarter of an hour later, the phone was still so noisy.
Gu Xiaodi adjusted her mood slightly, stretched out her hand, and reached the mobile phone on the sofa, and it was connected in the next second.
"Hey, dear, what are you doing? How did it take so long to answer the phone. The person on the other end of the phone has changed to the same crisp as before, and at this time there is an inexplicable worry.
"Oh, Yaya, you...... What are you looking for me? Gu Xiaodi, who was on the other end of the phone, asked in a daze.
"What are you doing? My right eye in front of me kept jumping, and I was worried about you, so I called. You...... You're not going to do anything stupid again, are you? ”
Gu Xiaodi reacted at this time, and she immediately pretended to be calm and said to the person on the other end of the phone: "Yaya, you don't have to worry about me, you can go to work hard." You call every hour like this, aren't you busy? Besides, letting the company know won't do you any good. You can go to work with peace of mind. ”
Since she was discharged from the hospital, Feng Yaya was afraid that she would do stupid things again, and called her every hour on a regular basis every day, Gu Xiaodi knew that Feng Yaya was worried about her before she did this.
"If, just now, if Feng Yaya's call hadn't come in time, would she really do something stupid today? What about jumping off such a high window? Gu Xiaodi muttered to herself in her heart again.
"Okay, it's best if you're okay. Then I'm relieved. ”
"You haven't rested well for my business in the past few days, I'm really sorry you don't worry, I don't think I will let you worry anymore. You can go to work in peace, and I promise you won't do anything stupid in the future. ”
Gu Xiaodi said this on his mouth, but he didn't have any confidence in his heart, and the whole person was empty.
"Hey, that's good. By the way, when are you and Hao Yiyi going to negotiate? ”
"Tomorrow Saturday morning."
"Okay, I'll come over early tomorrow morning to bring Hao Tong to my house, and you can talk to him."
"I don't need you to pick it up, I'll send it to you earlier."
"Okay, I'll be waiting for you at home."
"Hmm." Gu Xiaodi nodded silently.
After Feng Yaya finished explaining, she hung up the phone.
Gu Xiaodi sighed and squatted on the floor of the living room again.
Talk? How should it be discussed? Her empty eyes, without a trace of light, seemed to have fallen into the abyss, and she did not have a chance to breathe.