Bai Ling smiled and handed over the tea bag in his hand This scene has been born many times, how many times, Bai Ling has not counted, but every time she comes, the Queen Mother will happily tell her that it will be her birthday in half a month.

She seems to have been going through a certain day of her life over and over again.

But the real birthday of the Queen Mother was in the winter, which was told to her by Fourteen.

For Bai Ling, all the changes were born one night four years ago, when she came to the palace to deliver dinner to Bai Shijun as usual, and then met the queen mother, who was fleeing.

That night, Wei 14 happened to go to Beizhen Fusi, and left Cining Palace after the Queen Mother fell asleep. No one knows how the old queen mother unwittingly bypassed the overlapping guards of the harem and finally appeared near the western side.

The richly dressed old man with a frightened face was stunned for a moment when he saw Bai Ling, and then shouted to her in ecstasy, "Ah Ling 1! ”

Bai Ling will never forget the scene she saw when she turned back because she heard the voice.

It was an old face full of tears, cloudy eyes, and a disheveled head.

In the past, many villagers who came to the house to see a doctor would call her "Ah Ling", but Bai Ling had never seen this old lady who came out of nowhere, and she didn't know that she was the queen mother.

Bai Ling just stood there in a daze, and after a moment, he saw the surging guards knock down the old man in front of him.

But the old man's surprise at her, the joy of reuniting the old man after a long absence, also made her suspicious and moved.

That night, Bai Shijun was hungry, because Bai Ling, who delivered the food, was also arrested on the spot and interrogated all night.

But fortunately, it was a relatively gentle inquiry, there were no torture instruments, no torture, only a eunuch whose face could not be seen clearly stood behind the paper window and asked her many questions.

What is your name?

Burling.

Who is your father and mother?

My father was a doctor at the Tai Hospital, and my mother had passed away.

What is your mother's name?

Well, it should be Yao Chu, Bai Yao's.

Do you even want to think about your mother's name?

Well, because she died very young, I hardly see her except for visiting the grave with my dad every year.

What other relatives do you have in your family?

And my brother.

Why are you on the west side?

Because I want to bring food to my father.

Has your family been in the capital all the time?

No, we've only been here for almost a year, because the old hospital of the hospital appreciates my father, so

There were about fifty or sixty questions in all, and the eunuch asked her over and over all night, from whose name she was, where the family lived, and what the family had done at what time.

She couldn't rest, she couldn't drink, she couldn't walk, and if she was sleepy, a masked eunuch would come and stick a needle in her arm, so that she would wake up instantly.

What is the purpose of this interrogation, Bai Ling knows very well that people cannot lie in this state, because this kind of quick and coherent question and answer will not give you time to think, and if one of your later answers is inconsistent with the previous one, it will immediately show your feet.

Bai Ling remembered that in the room not far away at that time, the night cry of the old queen mother kept coming, and that night made her live like a year.

When the sky was bright, she was finally allowed to get up and was brought to the old queen by several eunuchs.

The moment she saw Bai Ling, the Queen Mother stopped crying, revealing a kind of sad look revealed because of trust, the kind of sadness that reminded people of a puppy that was wet on a rainy day. The two said a few words, and the Queen Mother leaned on Bai Ling's lap and fell asleep.

When she was taken out of Cining Palace again, Bai Ling was told that she could not tell anyone every scene she had seen and heard from last night to this morning, and that if others asked, they would say that they had met the Queen Mother on the west side, and that the Queen Mother liked her very much when she saw her, and she had to be ready to accept the summons of the Queen Mother at any time.

During this whole process, she didn't see any specific faces, either a palace man wearing a mask, or a figure standing behind a paper window, and now she thought that the person behind the paper window might be Huang Chongde, but Bai Ling was not sure.

After the initial period of intensive pacification, the palace told her that in the future, she would come to the palace on the eighth day of the beginning of each month to talk to the queen mother, and everything else would be considered unborn.

Bai Ling did so.

This fear is difficult for anyone to digest on their own. She experienced nightmares and insomnia for a period of time, and later Bai Yi saw the clue, so Bai Ling spoke with difficulty and quietly told Bai Yi about the interrogation that night, but she still did not mention any details about the Queen Mother.

As Zheng Shu said before, "the less you know, the safer" is not an empty phrase in the palace.

Bai Yi had not yet started to learn to cook with Wan Fushun, and was working with a carpenter master who had not been in the city for a long time, and after learning about it, he took a leave of absence for half a month to take care of the frightened Bai Ling at home.

During that time, Bai Ling's abnormality was so obvious that Bai Shijun, who had always been dull, noticed it, although he didn't know what was going on, but he often brought a bunch or two of wildflowers picked from the mountains when he returned from collecting medicine, tied them with dry straw, and then picked up a small clay pot and put it at the head of Bai Ling's bed.

It's hard to say how much of a change in the situation this kind of care can bring, but when you know that someone is going through a difficult time with you, something is happening.

The past four years have passed in a flash, and Bai Ling has gradually learned how to deal with the summons of the court, but in the case of the Queen Mother, time seems to have not changed at all.

At first, Bai Ling suspected that the Queen Mother was born of some kind of anterograde amnesia, which may be caused by the deterioration of brain function, such as the atrophy of the hippocampus and medial temporal lobes caused by Alzheimer's disease. That is, she can no longer have any memory of what happened after a certain moment, and her life will always be only the time before a certain moment, and all the new things will not be able to leave any trace in her mind.

But this conjecture was dispelled after seeing Fourteen, Wei Fourteen's age was too young, and he could not be an old friend of the Queen Mother when she was young. If the Queen Mother could accurately remember the identity of Wei XIV, then what was born in her could not be a complete anterograde oblivion.

So Bai Ling's conjecture turned to another one, which may have been a kind of psychogenic amnesia.

The cause of this mental illness is usually not an organic lesion. Patients have typically experienced a blow that was so severe that it crushed her entire person, to the point of touching the internal defense mechanism, causing the person to temporarily erase certain memories.

Some people with dissociative personality disorder develop dissociative amnesia. Some of them forget who they are, some of them forget their family and friends, what they have done, and even the most important person they once had.

Bai Ling could feel that the Queen Mother, who had forgotten many things, had mistaken someone she knew and trusted, but Bai Ling never asked who that person was.

The reason for this is very simple, the Queen Mother's nonsense will not bring any disaster, but once the Queen Mother gives a specific and exact answer, does she really have the ability to bear the truth? .