186. It turns out that love is so bitter

"Let's go out for a walk." Jun Shinuo when he was close to Xia Nuanyan. Xia Nuanyan instinctively took two steps back. forcibly separated the two people.

They came to the pool. A pool of colorful fish playing. Sometimes the head is exposed. Plop down into the water again. Xia Nuanyan's whole body leaned against the fence. Look at the fish. Silent and silent.

Jun Shinuo leaned over. Sideways gaze lingering on Xia Nuanyan. There was obvious remorse and embarrassment on his face." Nuan Yan. How are you doing?"

"It's good." Xia Nuan nodded. I don't think these words are convincing enough. added. There are people up and down Nangong Villa who take care of it. Moreover. Over here. There is no dispute with the world. I might not be having a good time."

"It's good to have a good life. Well done. That's it. That's it." Jun Shinuo muttered to himself. Throat knots." Heard. Nangong Chen is going to set up a new concubine again."

Xia Nuanyan turned her head. Strange looked at Jun Shinuo. I don't know why." Didn't expect. The prince even cares about this. Yes. Truly. There's such a thing."

"He's going to take it. Is that you?"

Jun Shinuo's words. Like the wind. Secreting Xia Nuanyan's heart. Bingbing. Cool. She used to say. If you are not a gentleman, you will not marry. She also used to say. Except for Jun Shinuo. Marry whom. It's just the same after all. Correct. But she didn't think about it. In Jun Shinuo's eyes. Original. She's such a casual person. Feel free to arrive. It is possible to grab a straw. Just climb up desperately.

Truly. As long as she wants. Whether it's Nangong Villa. NANGONG Wei. Or Nangong Chen. Are happy to do her drowning driftwood. But. Except for Jun Shinuo. Who. She didn't want to be attached. This is naked. At Jun Shinuo's place. Unexpectedly. So vulnerable.

"How. Is the prince trying to stop it? Still want to say that old saying. You don't want to look at me and other men. Rejoice every night." Xia Nuanyan hooked the corners of her mouth and smiled. The last four words. She stretched long. She would have wanted to take a stand. Out of the mouth of the words. But it became a burst of sourness.

Jun Shinuo opened his mouth and stared. It's hard to put into words." Nuan Yan. How did you become like this?"

Xia Nuanyan moved her lips. smiled lightly. What has become of me? Night after night. Isn't that what the prince taught me? That's what you can say. I said it wouldn't work. Still is. What do you think. I did. There is no shame in it. Again. It's also what you taught me, Lord Wang. Candle night in the cave room.**Hard to find. It's supposed to be loved."

Jun Shinuo's eyes locked Xia Nuanyan deeply. looked at her with a light face. Speaking of love, it is so understated. There was a wave in my heart. Another bout of excruciating pain. Xia Nuanyan shouldn't be like this. She shouldn't have been so lighthearted.

"Lord Wang. Isn't there anything else to say?" Xia Nuanyan smiled warmly. A bewitching smile.

Jun Shinuo was stunned there for a while. before I reacted. He bowed his head. Biting his lower lip. I said lightly." Nuan Yan. I'd rather you hate me. I'd rather you blame me. I'd rather you hurt me. I don't want to see you like this. Did you know? You despise yourself like this. It hurts my heart a lot."

Xia Nuanyan pursed her lips. Turn around. He stopped his gaze on the fish pond again." Rajah. You're wrong. I said it. I love you so much. How could it hurt you. Again. Hate you. Or blame you. I can't even afford it."

Xia Nuanyan continued. You're right. Hate you for the rest of your life. Bitter. It's not me after all."

"But you're like that. Are you happy?"

"What's so unhappy. What kind of life to have. What to say. It's all up to me. You may not know. Without you. The people of the world are to me. It's all the same. I don't have to love you anymore. And condescend to yourself. Although it can't be said to be a relief to the noble. But you also have to put yourself very low. Very low. Very low. Low to. You can't discern who I am."

Jun Shinuo was stunned. These words. Xia Nuanyan never told her. Again. He never thought about it. Marry yourself. will make the other party suffer a little bit of wronging. In fact. As far as Xia Nuanyan is concerned. Or. That's right. After all. Xia Nuanyan has always been. They all live among the powerful." I'm sorry. I do not know. You've always been. It's been so hard."

"That's it. I'll talk to you so much. Nothing more than to make it clear to you. Leave you. Maybe. For me. It's a good thing." Xia Nuanyan lowered her eyebrows. Raise your eyebrows again. One eye is warm. And stubborn." No. It must be a good thing."

A smile slowly appeared on the corner of Jun Shinuo's mouth. Even though Xia Nuanyan did everything possible in front of him. Thin and light yourself. Correct. She's still her. Her innate stubbornness is still there. She. It's still the Xia Nuanyan he loves.

Think about it. Inevitable. It's a little sad again. own beloved. Marry and marry. Eventually. Married to a wife. It's not about me. Is it. Or. Nangong Chen. Indeed she is present. The best place to be. It's just that. Nangong Chen. A group of wives and concubines. Xia Nuan is such a high-spirited woman. Nangong Villa. Can you really tolerate her?

Jun Shinuo's repentance. Xia Nuanyan has a panoramic view. Suddenly. It's a little unbearable. People have worked so hard to get over. At the cost of his own life. For her tranquility. She just doesn't know what to do. It's good to hurt people.

Xia Nuanyan restrained her expression. Wen smiled." Rajah. In fact. I'm now. Nothing bad. Universally. There is the state of Chu in the south. There is Yasukuni in the north. I've been there. Right now. And Nangong Villa treats me so well. Presumably. This world. There weren't a few people. To have such a blessing as I am. Favored by the heavens. It's such a good experience."

"I think. There weren't a few of them. Like you. It's been a bump." Jun Shinuo looked directly at Xia Nuanyan. Choked up.

Not long since. Xia Nuanyan said. He owes her. It's a lifetime. A lifetime is so long. Later. He always thought. Can be returned. Jun Shinuo really thought about it. Love with your whole life. to repay the debt to Xia Nuanyan. But. Now. People are all over the world. He has the heart to return. But it is already powerless to repay.

Xia Nuanyan lowered her eyes deeply. Didn't speak again. Jun Shinuo's words. Speaking to her heart. Ultimately. She was in this life. It's bumpy and unattached. She just wanted to find someone to lean on. I never thought about it. It's so hard. Original. It's so difficult.

From Yasukuni to Chu. From the first marriage to the second marriage. From family matters. to state affairs. She adapts to the situation in everything. Overwhelming. Always have to wait. She couldn't do it. only to make her understand. Jun Shinuo. It's not her sweetheart after all.

Scold. What a painful realization. She kind of got it. Even if you drag and get tired. Nor will I receive the slightest mercy from God. Otherwise. She wouldn't end up like this. The whole country has a series.