The original plan was normal for Liang Beixuan: to please him, and finally go to it, and return everything one by one as it was so many years ago.

Happy times are always so short-lived. Valentine's Day is also his mother's memorial day...... Her mother was buried in a fire on Valentine's Day.

I only know that the spark of safflower can burn the prairie fire, but I don't know that the real fire of the prairie is in front of me, simple and straightforward, and regret can not be left, only the ashes are left to extinguish.

His vision was blurred, and he didn't know if it was the choking black smoke that blinded him, or the red light that couldn't see the edge, and everything was like blood and never returned; Or maybe his eyes are still fine, but the person he wants to see is gone, and the light in his eyes is also extinguished......

In short, the letter that records his recent life is laid down, and placed in front of the mossy stele of stone, pale yellow and lime, occasionally pale green, intertwined and entangled, is so desolate......

I remembered so many things from the past.

His heart was moved.

But it's not the heart of liking, but the heart of being touched.

The black-and-white photo, reflecting the smile of a young woman, is so bright, but it is seen in such a muddy, overgrown place, how desolate!

Mother is smiling, still as good-looking as she was more than a decade ago...... It's also stupid, looking forward to something that I don't believe in. This smile is so beautiful, what a sarcastic beauty, he is so moved by his enemy's daughter, and he wants to let go of so much heaviness......

In a trance, the heart was tightened by an invisible belt, and the blood vessels were intertwined and broken, gushing out a scarlet, redundant and colorful breath.

He couldn't be so selfish anymore!

He has been preparing for a rainy day for so long, and he is one step away from finally getting married together!

He can't give up!

But......

Just as he was thinking about continuing the plan that had been deployed for many years, he still looked up, the light was too dim and he squinted, and his mother's smile seemed to be changing.

Why?

"Beibei, have you ever thought about what kind of girl you will be with when you grow up?" That was when he was a child, and his mother had always been confused, and she was embarrassed to ask questions. But that's his mother, and it's because of him that he's always confused.

"It's pleasing to the eye." When he was a child, Liang Beixuan also had a cold aura, and when he said this, his brows were still frowning slightly, and his delicate little face seemed to say "If this young master is unhappy, everyone will be unlucky".

"You...... But there's not much that pleases your eyes, right? Anyway, a good start...... If you want to end, you have to be good, don't chill people's hearts. It's not easy to love someone......"

It's over, too.

Liang Beixuan thought about it, changed his plan, and ended it well. He thinks that he can do it, don't be soft, let alone soft-hearted, and use all the chess pieces that can be used, step by step......

However, these are just self-perceptions.

The chess pieces that can be used turned out to be an unexpected stumbling block.

Hearing the news of Ling Xuran's return to China, his first reaction was to take advantage of this situation to let Nan Shi leave by himself, and he was also many times gentler than his previous plan. As a result, the variable is that Nan Shi still believes him......

Naturally, it was the misunderstanding created by Ling Xuran that made him and Ling Xuran go farther and farther away. He felt that he wanted to pretend to be intimate with Ling Xuran, but it was not realistic......

To put it mildly, together with the self-inflicted amorous, he also became a bastard with him.

The final answer, of course, is regret.

He regretted that he took the opportunity of Ling Xuran's return to China to drive Nanshi to leave on his own initiative; He felt guilty that he had taken advantage of Ling Xuran's affection for him and Nan Shi's trust in him so many times and the opportunities he had given him; He was even more annoyed that he should have hesitated and hesitated when it came to making a straightforward choice......

The most indescribable thing is that he deceived two people at the same time, took advantage of two people, and unknowingly chilled the hearts of both people.

Now, he really regrets it. It wasn't the natural regret of the past, but the pain in his heart that was hard to dissipate so many times that he understood.

He was not only moved, but also liked, and even fell in love.

fell in love with a pure time, without vanity and grievances, without heavy missions and oppression, without lonely and desolate words......

Why did he feel so struggling and even uneasy when he first sent a message to deceive Nan Shi that he had something to do, afraid that he would never get it again if he lost it?

Why is it that a period of darkness in the exclusive cabin of the two of them will make his whole person almost immersed in a color of confusion and melancholy, and he has an indescribable self-esteem for everything clear?

Why is it that today I pretend not to care, and the sourness in my heart when I play with my eyes is not only sad, but also a "oh" or "um" that has blocked the crying and sobbing that has been held in my heart for a long time?

Why is it that now he has not faded the shadow of his mother in his heart, what frequently emerges is Nanshi's laughter and little naughtiness, and what gradually disappears is the heavy burden and the so-called "you must" and "have to" over the years, and even the burden is much lighter, and the air is full of fantasy pink love......

It seems that those old hatreds have faded.

Now, he still lives in his heart with his mother, a confused mother who often forgets things and needs his help when he was a child. What he can't forget is the person who was unconditionally good to him when he was a child.

The tragic death of her mother is inseparable from Nanshi's mother. But Nan Shi is right......

Nan Shi is the one who is unconditionally good to him now!

So why did he use the enemy's daughter to distort this unchangeable good?

When did he begin to be blinded by so much darkness and ugliness, only to see through the darkness and continue to be depressed, but he forgot to break through the darkness to see the dawn?

When did it begin, when the dawn was shining, the passion was unlimited, and under the dazzling and brilliant light, the hidden ugliness and the ensuing ashes disappeared...... The eyes are gone, and the heart is purified, and they are gone......

When did he begin, so selfish and greedy, bathed in the hope of the dawn and looking forward to the future, while still narrowly stuck in the past......

The window opened, the sun in the south was exceptionally bright, all the way into the window lattice in the north, the dawn is still the dawn, even if it runs all over the north and south of the river, after the gray and black darkness and pale melancholy, it will not be bleak......

Because it is the dawn, a symbol of hope.

I opened the window of my soul and greeted the dawn, even if I saw the paleness and darkness brought by the way, I still faced it with a smile and calmness, and embraced it warmly. While enjoying the baptism of light, we accept the past that stains our bodies with tears......

It doesn't matter anymore.

If you want to accept it, let's come together.

Think clearly, there is no need to hesitate, whether it is light or darkness, everything in front of you is dark or clear, and the past and future cannot be balanced in your heart......

You must understand that everything that is beautiful is unattainable, it is relative, not absolute, similar to some kind of situation that can be met but cannot be sought.

The pursuit itself is the meaning.

He is a lost guy who is chasing his own heart, in a world with no end in sight, chasing an answer to accept and let go.