42. If you don't see it, you don't regret it
Xia Nuanyan hired a carriage and came to Huainan Mountain alone, got off at the bottom of the mountain, and walked up by himself.
"Big brother." Xia Nuanyan walked up and screamed softly, her dumb voice was very fast, and she disappeared into the endless dry wind.
Xia Liangjun turned around, Xia Nuanyan's heart trembled, and his steps subconsciously moved back, he hadn't seen him for a few months, Xia Liangjun in front of him was no longer as majestic as he used to be, and there was a faint melancholy in his smile, as if he had been in the sky overnight.
"Our Nuan Yan has really grown up and married, and she has really forgotten her home."
Xia Nuanyan felt shocked and terrified in her heart, "Big brother, what happened?" ”
Xia Liangjun choked in his throat, looked at Xia Nuanyan faintly, and spit out a sentence from the gap between his mouth, "My mother, gone, when she left, my father was always by her side, mother, she walked very peacefully, and she was very satisfied." ”
Xia Nuanyan raised her eyes in horror, and looked at Xia Liangjun's red eyes, and suddenly had mixed feelings, sadness came from it, yes, she hated the eldest lady, hated all the women of the Xia family, yes, she once swore to the sky that she must let those women of the Xia family live a stormy life, but she never thought about it, to see who died, and in fact, she just wanted to be out of sight, and she didn't really think about it, how to want the women of the Xia family.
"Big brother, how could this be, a few months ago, my aunt, wasn't she okay?"
"The doctor said that it was depression and illness, in fact, since you got married, my father misses you every day, rarely at home, and my mother and Aunt C are not happy for a few days, my mother said, I have my father to accompany her to the end of her life, she has no complaints, and her remaining wishes are enough."
Xia Nuanyan swallowed and squinted at Xia Liangjun, "How can she have no complaints, the eldest mother loves this man, all her life, she has guarded her all her life, and she has a boy and a girl for him, how can she have no complaints, what has her father given her, except for brocade clothes and jade food, there is nothing, how can she have no complaints, how can she have no complaints." ”
Xia Liangjun patted Xia Nuanyan on the shoulder, "Nuanyan, don't get excited, my mother said, women are affectionate to the depths, and the picture is just a destination, I don't know, don't you understand marrying a woman?" ”
Xia Nuanyan's lips trembled, she wanted to say more, she looked at Xia Liangjun, but she couldn't speak, Xia Liangjun has always loved her, although it is not obvious, as the son of the Xia family, since she was a child, he has never ridiculed her for half a sentence, let alone like other sisters, saying that she is a wild child of unknown origin, and now at this juncture, she still wants Xia Liangjun to comfort herself, her little sister is a bit excessive.
"Big brother, did the eldest lady leave anything behind?"
"Yes." Xia Liangjun replied decisively, his words were put aside for a while, he picked up Xia Nuanyan's broken hair, and took a deep breath, "Mother said, the most regrettable thing is that I didn't see you for the last time, she wants to say something to you, I'm sorry, Mrs. Xia, if it weren't for her conniving aunt and younger siblings, you wouldn't be so stubborn, and you won't, having a home is like having a home." ”
"It's not your fault, Bai Ruyue is not wrong, at a young age, people are excluded, my mother said, if it was her child, she would definitely be distressed to death, so, Nuan Yan, let me say to you on behalf of my mother, I'm sorry, I didn't treat you as my own daughter, you forgive her."
There is a saying, Xia Liangjun is right, Bai Ruyue is not wrong, yes, she was ruined, accidentally conceived a daughter, conceived in October, to tell the truth, this fetus is in Bai Ruyue's belly, it is a shame, she is wrong, she has no courage to deprive this little life, and she also has no courage to give birth to Xia Nuanyan, and she is wrong, she gave Xia Nuanyan life, and at the same time let Xia Nuanyan bear this humiliation.
The liquid swirled in Xia Nuanyan's eyes, she raised her head, and forced her tears back, "Why." Why do you say I'm sorry, why I haven't had a good life, she went, why! ”
"Nuan Yan, don't be like this, when the eldest brother sees you like this, he will have no choice." Xia Liangjun hugged Xia Nuanyan into his arms, and he felt bad in his heart.
Over the years, the wife of the Xia family and Xia Nuanyan have never quarreled and quarreled, but they have never said half a sentence in good words, Xia Nuanyan has become accustomed to it, in front of everyone, she does not cry, now, she is used to it, not a tear for Mrs. Xia, or, get used to it, not weak in front of Xia Liangjun, no matter what the reason, for Xia Liangjun, there is more distress than sadness, he feels sorry for Xia Nuanyan to hide all the pain in his heart, and gnaw on the pain alone.
"Big brother, I'm fine, I'm really fine." Xia Nuanyan gently pushed Xia Liangjun away, met his eyes, smiled faintly, and smiled mottled and blurred, at that moment, what Xia Liangjun saw was a trace of stubbornness and coldness, "At least, the eldest mother walked peacefully, do you know, in this world, there is no immortal person, but there is an immortal thought, and he is thinking of a person alive and alive, death, maybe a relief, dying in his father's arms, aunt, relieved, we should also be relieved." ”
Xia Liangjun was surprised that Xia Nuanyan said this word, the immortal thought, death, is a relief, if it is not for the deep love, how can he have this thorough understanding, "Nuanyan, what's wrong with you, Jun Shinuo, he, is it not good for you?" ”
Xia Nuanyan pursed her lips and didn't speak, she shook her head insistently, she set her eyes on the far north, there, there was once a land that belonged to her, there, there were countless people, for fame and profit, for wealth and sex, came to ask for marriage, of course, among them, there are also people who sincerely just want to marry her, but her heart, from the beginning, only lives in Jun Shinuo, isn't it, as the concubine said, if she has not seen it, she has never regretted it, and now, she is also happy with her children.
Xia Liangjun let out a long sigh, he didn't understand Xia Nuanyan's insistence and shook his head, did he mean that Jun Shinuo treated her badly, or did he say that Jun Shinuo treated Xia Nuanyan badly, which was a wrong statement, he only knew that Xia Nuanyan shook his head, hiding a deep powerlessness, what kind of person could make a woman as cold as the moon sad.
"Nuan Yan, do you know why I have to ask you to meet here today?"
"I don't know."
"Because, I want you to know that after Huainan Mountain, you are still the third lady of the Xia family, the princess that the Great Khan likes, and the proud daughter of our Dajing, there is no need to live an unsatisfactory life for one person, here is the mountains and rivers of our Dajing."
"Big brother, thank you!" This is the first time in seventeen years that Xia Xiayan has said thank you, and she finally understands that some people are good to you, not inevitably, and caring, just because you have a place in his heart.