Lu Fangding looked at it and chatted casually, but I could hear that he had something to say. I've talked to him so many times before, he never mentioned the matter of the ancestral grave of his hometown, He Bao just dug up my ancestral grave a few days ago, and Lu Fangding mentioned these in a timely manner, which is certainly not a coincidence.

"Have you gone to the ancestral grave?" I didn't show too much surprise, just surprise in my heart, there is no need to be surprised on my face.

"No, I just looked, I look like this, can I still sweep the grave?" Lu Fangding patted his leg again and said, "As soon as I saw the ancestral tomb, I remembered a lot of things from the past. You know no, I don't have a surname Lu, my surname is Liu. ”

"I'm sure I do."

Some of Lu Fangding's things are obvious. His original surname was Liu, and he was called Lu Fangding after he came out to mix with the ancient line to fight the turf. A person like him can't use his real name to come out and mix, otherwise others can find out his old bottom as long as they check him.

The name Lu Fangding has been called in the ancient industry for more than 20 years, and in the final analysis, he is still surnamed Liu.

"In the past, when our village was still in the mountains, our family lived on the top and your family lived on the bottom. Back then, the village was poor, and every family was really miserable. Lu Fangding sighed again, squinting slightly, as if recalling a past buried deep in his heart: "There is a shortage of doctors and medicines in the village, and whoever gets sick has to boil slowly." Survive the past, live, can't survive, die. Our family is also poor, and there are three generations of the family, and my father loved me very much at that time, but he couldn't stand the family's lack of money. I also have a disease, I couldn't see it when I was a child, and when I grew up, I couldn't cure it even if I wanted to. ”

"What disease?" I listened to Lu Lu's tone, in fact, he was like an ordinary old man, like a family, in the face of his current state, I was not in the mood to do anything with him anymore, so what he said, I will respond for the time being.

"Celestial Gelding." Lu Fangding didn't seem to feel any shame in this, and told me bluntly.

I was drinking tea, and when I heard Lu Fangding's words, I took a sip and spit out the water I had drunk. Because I didn't expect that Lu Fangding would say anything. Men want to save face, especially this kind of thing, there is really something wrong, and they hide it from everyone.

However, Lu Fangding's words actually solved a doubt in my heart, except for him in our village, there is no man who will be a bachelor for a lifetime. He has never been married and has no children, so that's why.

"When I was a kid, I didn't know what it was or what it meant to have it. When I grew up and my peers got married, I was left alone. Lu Fang smiled to himself: "There are three generations of single generations in the family, and my father is counting on me to inherit the Liu family, but it's a pity." After a few years of treatment, if it can't be cured, my father is anxious, so he passed. ”

"Then you ......" I think this is a tragic incident for Lu Fangding, a man, after encountering this, his heart is estimated to change, but Lu Fangding is not bad as a whole, at least he is a normal person: "Aren't you uncomfortable?" ”

"If it were you, wouldn't you feel bad? For two years, I thought about dying, and living like this is better than dying. However, he did not have the courage to die. I have wondered more than once, what do I want to live my life? What do you live? ”

When he was young, Lu put the top, was negative, decadent, drank every day, and lived one day at a time. However, this life did not last long, and one day, he suddenly came to his senses.

"It was a winter, at that time, Huayang did not have a Qikongqiao market, and the business in the ancient bank was all privately traded, and I ran errands for others to earn a little money to make ends meet. As soon as the money arrived, it was either eating or drinking. The corners of Lu Fangding's mouth flashed with a smile again, as if the years when he was young are still worth remembering: "One day, I received a little money, and I planned to find a place to have another drink, and after drinking, I went back to sleep comfortably, and this day was mixed up again." ”

On that day, Lu Fangding met a disabled person who had a problem with one leg and was struggling to walk. It was snowing heavily, it was almost seven o'clock in the evening, it was freezing cold, and there were few pedestrians in sight on the street. When Lu Fangding met this disabled person, the other party hesitated, then held a basket and lifted the cloth covering it for Lu Fangding to see.

There are a few white radishes in the basket, the conditions are poor that year, after the winter, every household will store some radish and cabbage, and the winter mainly depends on these vegetables to adjust the diet. The disabled person told Lu Fangding that these radishes were grown at home and stored in the vegetable cellar, and now they want to take them out and exchange them for a little money, not much, as long as they are enough to buy two steamed buns.

Lu Fangding looked at this disabled person, and felt a little ridiculous at first, every household has stored radishes and cabbage, who can they sell these radishes to?

However, after two more glances, he could not laugh. The disabled man must have been in his mid-fifties, dressed in shabby and thin clothes, with a layer of snow on his hair and beard, and his eyelashes seemed to be frosty.

He felt that the other party was pitiful, and it happened that he had just gotten a little money today, so he took two cents casually, threw it into the basket of the disabled, and turned around and left.

He walked in front, and people chased after him, and when he hurried and hurried, the disabled man caught up with Lu Fangding, and he must hand over the radish in the basket to him.

Lu Fangding couldn't cry or laugh, and it was useless to hold a few radishes. However, he thought this person was quite interesting, so he chatted with the other party for a while.

This disabled person has never started a family because of his poor health, and on such a cold day, he waited hard on the street just to get two steamed buns for his blind brother.

The disabled person is just an ordinary person, and this matter is only a small matter. But Lu Fangding was greatly touched, because he knew that this disabled person lived with humiliation and burden, not only for himself, but also for others.

A person who is not physically disabled is completely worthless.

The two were chatting, and Lu Fangding suddenly bowed deeply to the other party, then left all his money and turned to leave.

It may have been from that moment that he had a new set of values and outlook on life. People can't just live for themselves, everyone is for themselves, then the world will be chaotic.

I don't think Lu Fangding is talking nonsense here. There are people with names and surnames in the ancient line, although I don't recognize them all, but at least I know them. The bigwigs in the ancient industry are all local tyrants on the rich side. Only Lu Fangding, who does not store private wealth, regards money as dung, and he earns not much, but he spends it all when he changes hands.

"You were young then, what about the years that followed?" I asked, "Who have you lived for all these years?" ”

"I don't know who I'm living for, but I don't live for myself."

I wanted to say more, but Lu Fangding refused to continue the topic, and he began to talk about the old village again.

Actually, there are many things in the village that I don't know. At that time, when our village was moved out of the mountains, land was allocated to it, and every family had it, including homesteads and farming fields. But some families moved, and some families didn't move for the time being, so at that time, there were people living in both villages in the mountains and outside the mountains.

Lu Fangding was familiar with the things in the village in the past, such as a few family treasures, and the Zhang family, Li Jiaxiao, and he was all clear. As he spoke, his topic suddenly turned to my family.

"You know your grandfather's name is Lian Pai, right?" Lu Fangding said: "That's really a good old man." ”

My father rarely talked to me about my grandfather, and our family has been in the business for several generations, but it has always been very small, just to make ends meet. In the middle, due to environmental restrictions, business stopped for decades, and when Huayang Qikongqiao Market first opened, my grandfather opened a store in it and opened a small shop. Although the business was small, it had an income, and at that time, our family in the village was rich, and whoever had difficulties found my grandfather here never failed.

Lu Fangding is older than my father and younger than my grandfather, and he can see what my grandfather usually does. My grandfather was a warm-hearted man, not only lending money, but also helping the villagers to find work outside.

"Your grandfather had a monkey at that time, probably a little monkey picked up in the mountains. In order to raise this monkey, he often went to the city, looking for those who played monkeys, and as soon as he sat down, he watched for a long time, and chatted with people, asking how to domesticate the monkeys. Lu Fangding smiled and said, "That little monkey later let him train him to be quick to understand human nature, and he was very clever." ”

I can't speak anymore, these things Lu Fangding said today seem to be just common gossip, but if I listen carefully to it, it seems that every sentence has a deep meaning.

In my grandfather's grave, a bronze statue of a monkey was dug up, and Lu Fangding mentioned that his grandfather had raised a monkey before, what did he want to express?

"That little monkey, your grandfather raised it for two years, and then he got sick and died. For two years, the little monkey was with him every day, eating at the same table, the little monkey died, he was very uncomfortable, and even the business of the seven-hole bridge was not good, carrying a small whip every day, slowly swaying outside. Lu Fangding closed his eyes, calculated, and said, "Less than a year later, your grandfather died, and at that time, you were not yet born." ”

"Then, my grandfather was buried in the ancestral grave of the old village on the mountain?"

"Yes, when a person dies, he will be buried in peace." Lu Fangding picked up the teacup in front of him, took a sip of the tea that had been cooled, and said, "I should go." ”

"Leaving now?" I paused for a moment, I thought Lu Fangding was going to say something, but he refused to say anything more, and was in a hurry to leave.

"If you don't leave, what are you going to do here?" Lu Fangding took out a mobile phone from his body, probably sent a text message, and then turned his wheelchair and came out of the house, and when he reached the threshold of the courtyard, he couldn't cross, and waited here for someone to pick him up.

"How do I contact you? Your phone is always getting through. I hurriedly followed, chasing Lu Fang and asked.

"I have done everything I could, and once upon a time, I thought I could do everything properly, but unfortunately, I still overestimated myself." Lu Fangding turned his head and said to me, "I, I did my best." ”