118. Can a crippled life be counted as a fate?

The silent night is long, and there are a few fires lit on the boundless mountain, and in this lonely night, there are occasional lamentations that are longer than the night, this is the cavalry that Jun Shiwei on Huainan Mountain recaptured from Duan Wang Ye under the pretext of attacking Yasukuni, and they have been stationed here for a day and a night

Jun Shinuo stood in a black cloak, where there was no fire, only the moonlight dragged his shadow, and the long breeze also stood behind him for a long time, and neither of them spoke

It's just that seeing Jun Shinuo has become deeper and less silent since she came back from Lizhou, she began to guess more and more what Jun was thinking, but every time she saw Jun Shinuo's lonely back, she would remember in her heart that Jun Shinuo who talked and laughed calmly

I remember that someone said before, there is a lonely corner in everyone's heart, there is always such a person who will let you expose this corner without reservation, Qingfeng thinks that Jun Shinuo's person must be Xia Nuanyan, because only Xia Nuanyan will make Jun Shinuo jump like thunder, and will let that gentle man lose all his bearing

Before Qingfeng walked down, I, Jun Shinuo, stood side by side, and gently spit out a sentence from my mouth: "Has the prince heard about it, Xia Nuanyan promised to marry King Jing, and they will marry in three days."

Jun Shinuo's clenched fist showed his green muscles, and for a moment he looked sideways at Qingfeng, so playful and unreal, "I won't let her live a good life, no, really, no."

Qingfeng deliberately raised his head and said seriously and righteously, "But the marriage of the two countries has already been agreed upon as soon as the prince and the two countries are married, and life and death are irrelevant, and we have no right to disturb her life anymore, right?"

Jun Shinuo sneered: "Heh, marriage matching, life and death have nothing to do with it, Xia Nuanyan's matter, I am determined to take care of it, Qingfeng, you order, if you don't raze Liangzhou to the ground, we will not return to the court."

Qingfeng stared at Jun Shinuo with compassion, and his bright eyes flashed with obvious surprise in the dark night, "Lord Wang, this is not a joke."

Jun Shinuo shouldn't be so irrational, let alone take revenge on Xia Nuanyan with his life, so as to get pleasure

The night is quiet, as quiet as a human heart, without a little wind, without a little wave, this is destined to be a sleepless night

Xia Nuanyan simply packed a few clothes to make adequate preparations for tomorrow's battle, and when she saw the jade pendant given to her by Princess Duan, she smiled gently, and her heart slowly became a little warm, and she brought it with her for some reason, but she suddenly remembered that it seemed that there was nothing related to Jun Shinuo on her body, and the love between children and daughters was the best to say goodbye to her after all

Xia Nuanyan suddenly remembered a poem written by the ancients, talking about her wishful thinking and fruitless suffering

Qingyue makes a lonely shadow and Jun lovesick, and looks forward to returning

The shadow falls on the top, the loneliness is deep, and the two look at the memory

There is no thing to do with the gentleman, but it is like the first time, and the three emptiness are missing

The old shadow couldn't be moved, and his brows were also on his heart

Thinking of such a poem, Xia Nuanyan's smile was even more miserable, looking forward to it, looking forward to it, looking at it and waiting for three emptiness, and now she is alone, thinking about these complaints, she is not angry, she said to herself in her heart: Jun Shinuo will never forget you from now on, and she will do what she says

Xia Ye knocked on Xia Nuanyan's hidden door, and Xia Nuanyan came back to her senses and "came in"

Xia Ye pushed open the door and stood outside for a moment, both of them were in a trance, thinking of the events of the day, Xia Nuanyan's heart still trembled slightly, heh, now she really doesn't know what identity to use to face Xia Ye, a person who has been opposite to her for eighteen years, but he deceived her to the point of incompleteness

Xia Ye tentatively asked, "Can I come in?"

"Come in," Xia Nuanyan got up, walked to the table and sat down, in the afternoon, Yelu Changhong ordered Xia Nuanyan to serve as a general to go to war, and then there was another point, that is, Xia Ye was the deputy marshal, in fact, Xia Nuanyan was a little sympathetic, Xia Ye was old, and because of her, she would go to the battlefield again

Xia Ye and Xia Nuanyan sat down opposite each other, he looked at Xia Nuanyan with a complicated look, and finally said in a dumb voice: "Nuan Yan's war is not as fun as you imagined, can you not be so willful, do you know, this will make many people worry about you"

"Does this person include you?"

"Of course, I wouldn't have automatically asked Ying to accompany you to fight," Xia Ye said at the end, his confidence was insufficient, and his voice lowered, and he said that it was indeed true that he was worried about Xia Nuanyan, but Xia Nuanyan looked at him so intently, he panicked for a while

Xia Nuanyan hooked the corners of her mouth and smiled shallowly, "Actually, I just want to ask you if you have really cared about me over the years."

"Of course there is"

"Then have you treated me as your own daughter from the bottom of your heart?"

"I, I, I" Xia Ye opened his mouth for a while, and finally squeezed out three words from his throat, "I think"

Xia Nuanyan bit her lip and looked out the window, only the dark night could keep her from being so frightened, I thought about how helpless Xia Ye was, how aggrieved he was, as if he couldn't help himself

Xia Nuanyan's heart throbbed little by little, commenting on her heart, she didn't make too much sin in this life, she had to suffer so much torment, no wonder Xia Ye has always responded to her needs, if anyone offends her, she will have no good fruit to eat, it is not because Xia Ye spoils her like a jewel, but the Xia family has always been the king's order, so she got this kind of favor

Xia Nuanyan put away her eyes and looked at Xia Ye, "I must go tomorrow, I have to do something for the people, I have to accumulate some blessings for myself, so that in my next life, even if I am a cow or a horse, I will not be an outcast."

Xia Nuanyan said decisively, and every word made Xia Ye unable to resist

Xia Ye sighed deeply, and finally he believed the old saying, a woman is virtuous if she is not talented, once a woman reads a little book, it seems that there is a soul in her heart, and no one can control it at all

"Nuan Yan, I just hope you understand that all these years, I and the previous kings are all for your good, and we are protecting you in the most gentle way"

"For the sake of me, how much more high-sounding dad is said today, I still call you Daddy, that's because I have lived in the Xia family for eighteen years, you can afford it, but you don't want to think about who stood up for me when I let others joke about it, who gave me warmth, when I was lonely, who gave me warmth, no wonder I couldn't get a little warmth in you, it turned out that you never gave me any warmth, now that the king is gone, you want me to have no complaints, sorry, I can't do it, I really can't do it"

"This ugly thing that shouldn't have let you know about this thing a long time ago, the last thing we want is to scandalize your heart, and in the end it will hurt you"

When a lie is torn apart, there are always a bunch of suitable reasons, and there are always a bunch of reasons that have to be convincing, but lies are only between people who trust, Xia Nuanyan no longer knows how to believe Xia Ye's gentle statement

This night, Xia Nuanyan didn't sleep soundly, and it was dawn with Xia Ye and them with an army of 150,000 that Lu Yun was also in the army

Xia Nuanyan led the troops to fight for a while, and it became a hot topic in Liangzhou City, she could produce a joke, there were so many military generals in the imperial court, Yelu Changhong actually let an old man and a yellow-haired girl fight, isn't this a joke about the country

Lu Yun and Xia Nuanyan rode side by side, although he never understood why Xia Nuanyan had this decision, but he would support any decision Xia Nuanyan made, just like when Xia Nuanyan insisted on marrying Jun Shinuo, everyone thought it was a bitter fruit, and he didn't say a word

Lu Yun endured it for a long time, but still asked, "Third Miss, do you know who the general of Chu is?"

"I don't know who it is, maybe I know it," Xia Nuanyan was expressionless, "No matter who it is, I will do my best"

"I heard about it," Lu Yun paused before saying, "It's Jun Shinuo, I heard that he used his soldiers bravely, and he threatened not to raze Liangzhou to the ground, and swore not to return to the court."

Xia Nuanyan pursed her lips and her face turned pale, but she quickly recovered: "Brother Yun believes that Nuanyan will do the duty of the world, and I will be at the mercy of all the people, and I, Jun Shinuo, and I have long since lost the slightest kindness at all."

"But the other party is Jun Shinuo, I still have some worries," Lu Yun muttered to himself, Xia Nuanyan still heard his words

Xia Nuanyan put the horse across the horse in front of Lu Yun and grabbed the horse rope, "Brother Yun, you have to make this clear today."

Lu Yun thought about it for a while, and said confidently: "One day husband and wife, one hundred days, Enjun Shinuo will not do anything to you no matter what."

"You're trying to say that he will leave my life behind no matter what, right," Xia Nuanyan glanced at Lu Yun and said through gritted teeth

Lu Yun nodded without hesitation, "Dead life is also life, there is nothing better than being alive"

"If it's a cruel life, I'd rather not," Xia Nuanyan raised her head and said stubbornly, her expression betrayed the sadness in her heart, yes, begging for a crippled life in front of Jun Shinuo is more uncomfortable for Xia Nuanyan than living

Having said that, God likes to make people worse, if it comes to Jun Shinuo's hands, it is not Xia Nuanyan's decision, nor Lu Yun's decision

One day, Xia Nuanyan will understand: if you want to stay for 10,000 years, if you want the people to be well, and you care about the people, you have to let go of some things, such as happiness, such as self-esteem, and some things that you can't accept, and you have to learn to accept them

This world has always been the law of the jungle, and sometimes you are destined to be humble and survive, and you must be humble and humble to survive