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As if he had lost his soul, he leaned on the rocking chair like a stall of walking corpse, his hands unconsciously resting on the armrests, and he didn't hold on to it for a while, and almost fell to the ground.

The back is no longer as tall as before, leaning on the back of the bamboo and rattan chair, the back of the epiphysis is weakly resisting, looking at the blue sky and white sun outside the balcony, full of melancholy.

For so many years, I have been looking for your figure, standing at the top and eager to find your footprints, but I was told that you have long been hidden and forgotten in the depths of the camera......

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, whose real name is Lei This day, the name of his parents who are not careful, and the lack of care have made him have a wish since he was a child: to stand at the top, to stand at the height that they can't see when they look up.

Choosing a cool name, you can't let this shameful name disappear, confused in the night, confused in the future, confused about what you are for.

It was the confused age, the confused time, and the squatting in front of him gave him new motivation.

There are so many people who are as confused as him, but in the end, they still haven't changed their original intentions, why don't they be one of them?

Strange to say, it was just a stranger, but he gave him the love he longed for. He wanted to know who the man who had helped him back then.

When I studied fashion design, I first learned to draw. When I painted the face of the benefactor back then and asked the people around me, I still got a shameful smile.

"That's the queen of the movie, will you take care of a poor student?" The classmates thought it was Lei making a joke on this day, it was harmless, and it was over with a smile.

This information couldn't have come at a better time.

Lei laughed at himself this day, the fairy in the world who made herself feel like a spring breeze was actually a new generation of famous actresses...... I can't help but think too highly of myself.

He is still that small existence, and the world will still turn and fade out of sight without him.

After that time, he continued to study design, and his mentor said that his work was all meticulously crafted, but lacking in aura.

What is Reiki?

Lei didn't understand it at that time, so he thought that his design was immature, so he buried himself in study and practice even harder.

However, in exchange for only worse conditions.

"How many times have I said it, Reiki! It's the soul! The mentor looked at the work handed in by Lei this time, and it can be said that he couldn't bear it anymore, "You are the wind and snow, what's the use of zombies wearing a gorgeous costume?" ”

After knowing that the roar at that time, Ray suddenly realized that the clothes he designed lacked soul...... Isn't that soulless one?

Why the hell did he come here to study? Is it just for the parents of their biological relationship to see? How much does design contain that he doesn't know?

Unexpectedly, and reasonably, Lei may not have a soul now.

If you don't have a soul, you're not a human being, what's the difference between the walking dead and the walking dead?

He remembers that when he was a child, his elementary school teacher said that the material for his composition could be observed from his side; In junior high school, what the teacher asks for is truth, true affection; In high school, it's an argumentative essay, and it's rare to be emotional when you express your opinions.

That night, instead of studying, one of the few people tried to find his own soul, the soul that is unique to the individual.

He turned on the TV, and when his roommates were not there, he turned up the volume to the maximum with peace of mind, enough for the lost and scattered soul to find its home.

It was an awards ceremony to award the top powerful actors in the entertainment industry such as the hottest stars of the actresses. Lei felt that the host's serial words were still worth listening to, so he stayed on this channel and did not change them.

"Empress Yan Ying, this is the second time you've been here, how do you feel?" The moderator asked.

"Gratitude, of course." It was Yan Qi who was answering, wearing a bandeau dress, shining, with a thin and light ice-blue ribbon tied around her waist, and down was a group of yarns, decorated with small diamonds.

"Why gratitude?" The moderator continued to ask questions.

"Without the audience and fans in front of the screen, although I am still me, but without the audience, I feel that I am missing a motivation. This motivation will make me feel accepted, tolerated, and understood, because my efforts have paid off, and everyone can see me, not a one-man performance. ”

"Have you ever met someone who helped you a lot? In life, in the circle, it counts. ”

"Then the one I'm going to talk about may not be the one who helped me the most, but the one that made me feel the most." Yan Qi bowed his head slightly and began his own memories.

"Once, it was also a low period, and I was sad because I didn't succeed in getting the play, because it was just a trick role, and I didn't think I was inferior.

I touched my backpack, and there were only a few dozen yuan left, and the rest was life-saving money, which was stored in the card for emergency use. There happened to be a boy on the side of the road, sitting on the stone steps, with his head buried alone, which aroused my curiosity.

I asked him why he was here, the stone steps were so icy, it was better to find a convenience store to rub the air conditioner.

He told me that he had no hope but had to live. At least you're still in this world, even if you're small, someone will always notice you.

I think that's like me. In the past, running the dragon platform was a common thing, and I was tired of running around all day, and I couldn't get much money, and I didn't have a foothold in a city.

I also thought at that time, forget it, give up, it's not that no one wants you, at least the face is on yourself, and it's not impossible to interview for a job at the front desk after some training.

But in the end, I still didn't do that, because of the original intention.

The reason why I took the art examination in the college entrance examination that year was because of love; Why do I still want to go to art school even though my college entrance examination score is enough to get into 985,211, it is because of my dream; Why do you still insist when you are so down, that is because of the original intention. ”

This speech shook Lei's heart on this day.

The little boy back then...... That's him!

Thank you for giving you a warmth that you yourself didn't realize when you were down; Thank you for giving me a gem you didn't even expect when I was puzzled!

Looking at the design drawings stacked messily on the table, and the mahogany tabletop that had been marked with several cuts, Lei had a new inspiration this day.

Gratitude, care, and looking up are not part of who you are now?

Wait for me, catch up with your footsteps, and say in person what you didn't expect back then!

It was changed and changed, and the pencil print was mottled, but Lei still didn't stop this day.

He was still playing TV, occasionally looking up at the beautiful figure on TV, and then lowered his head and made his own design: Thank you, when you are down, the words of exploration!

Although he also listened to all the speeches that followed, and there was also applause from the audience, they all seemed to lack the share they wanted.

Because I'm the one who witnessed it......