If life is only as first seen, what is the autumn wind and sad fan.

Song Zhannan's heart was beating so fast at that moment that he despised himself a little.

He hadn't seen what kind of woman he had, why did he just look at her and smile like this, and the whole person felt like his soul was gone.

Song Zhannan just watched her walk out of the campus, grabbed a boy's arm, and talked and laughed, so lively.

He was suddenly a little jealous, jealous that the girl was smiling at the other boy.

When they passed by Song Zhannan, he could still hear the girl say, "I want to eat mango mille-feuille and chocolate shaved ice in the south of the city." ”

The boy coldly dropped a sentence, "You are not allowed to go." ”

The girl pursed her mouth, did not dare to argue with him, and lowered her head aggrievedly, but pulled the boy's hand and did not let go.

For a moment, Song Zhannan wanted to step forward and pull the girl and tell her not to be with him.

Be with yourself, even if it's a star in the sky, as long as you want, I'll give it to you.

The boy glanced at her helplessly, curled his fingers and flicked her head, "You forgot how your stomach hurt before, you can't eat shaved ice, but Mango Banya can take you to eat." ”

At this moment, the girl resumed her breathtaking smile.

But Song Zhannan also died at this moment, he was a man, of course he clearly knew what the boy's eyes represented.

Spoiling, pity, and endless love.

"Song Zhannan, let's go! Didn't you say you would go to the end of the house tonight? The friend next to him looked at Song Zhannan, stood still and asked, a little puzzled.

Song Zhannan stared blankly at the backs of the two people leaving.

The friend next to him looked twice, "Okay, I'm coming back to my senses." The girl is very beautiful, but it's a pity that the famous flower has a master, don't worry about it. ”

"Who's that?"

"Xu Qingyan, the daughter of the Xu family group, the man next to her is Xiaokai of the Shen family, and the two of them have already been engaged."

"Xu Qingyan ......"

The name was rubbed in Song Zhannan's mouth over and over again.

The apricot blossoms between the light smoke in the dawn, the deep green and the flat sand in the evening.

Xu Qingyan, even the name is so beautiful.

When I saw her for the second time, Song Zhannan had just come out of the bar with someone.

It was pouring rain that night, and the road was pitch black, and I couldn't see my fingers.

"Young master, there is a person in front of you, who seems to be lying on the ground."

"Leave it alone."

"Okay."

Song Zhannan rubbed the corners of his forehead with a headache, every time he went out to drink, he had to be drunk by that group of splashes, but he didn't expect this time to be no exception.

But at such an instant, he looked back at her in a ghostly manner, and it was this glance that made him not miss each other.

He saw the man he was thinking about, walking on the road in the pouring rain of the night, alone.

"Parking! Stop the car! ”

The car stopped, and he rushed out before he even had time to grab an umbrella.

"Hello...... I am a student at the school next door to you, my name is Song Zhannan, I am not a bad person, I know you, you ...... Need help? ”

Song Zhannan was nervous like a hairy boy, and his whole person was full of nervousness.

But Xu Qingyan didn't seem to hear what he said.

Passing him, he continued to stumble forward, little by little to the middle of the road.

He grabbed her hand, but she shook her away.

Walking straight to the middle of the road, I didn't see the big car speeding in the distance.

was dragged back by Song Zhannan, "You don't want to die?" ”

Xu Qingyan seemed to be crazy, and kept yelling, "You let go of me, you let me go, you let me die, he is gone, then I am left alone in time, what is the point?" You let go of ......"

"Calm down and go back. I'll take you home first. ”

Song Zhannan stubbornly pulled Xu Qingyan back to Song's house.

Xu Qingyan, who was brought home, was like a lonely little beast, huddled tightly on the sofa, and no one could get close.

She cried silently, like a needle, piercing her heart.

"What's wrong? Can you tell me about it? Song Zhannan comforted softly.

But Xu Qingyan has been silent, and the sentence she has been muttering to herself is, "He doesn't want me anymore, he doesn't want ......"

Song Zhannan wanted to rush up, hug her, and tell her that he was there, and he was always there.

But he didn't dare.

Now he can only sit beside her and cry with her until dawn.

Early the next morning, she was so tired from crying that she fell asleep.

Song Zhannan covered her with a blanket, looked at her sleeping face, and couldn't help but touch it twice with his fingers, it was very soft and tender, he softly attached himself and whispered in her ear, "In the future, I will be by your side." ”

In this way, he stayed by her side, watching her step out of the shadow left by the man day by day.

I watched her smile a little bit.

Watching her sit quietly on the edge of the windowsill, watching the flowers bloom outside the window.

He was there for her.

But no, it's not right.

Something is different.

On her face, Song Zhannan never saw her smile like that again.

And in his memory, she had never been as coquettish as before, pulling his arm and saying that she wanted to eat the fruit of the east of the city and the nectar of the poplar branches in the west of the city.

He knew that there was still someone hidden in her heart.

Even so, he still wanted to be by her side, as happy as he could.

Song Zhannan thought very simply, Xu Qingyan was the white moonlight in his heart.

He is willing to give up the flowers outside for her, he is also willing to wash and cook for her, and he is even more willing to wait for him and wait for her to forget.

Song Zhannan thought that he would be able to keep his loneliness and his heart.

As long as she doesn't want to, he won't force her.

But he overestimated himself, or underestimated Shen Zhixing's status in her heart.

Day after day, year after year of waiting, he exhausted all his patience and anticipation.

So Lu Wanwan's appearance became his companion to chat with comfort.

At the beginning, Song Zhannan was drunk, and before he got drunk, he was still thinking about just now, when he wanted to get close to Xu Qingyan, Xu Qingyan pushed him away.

Looking at Song Zhannan's eyes, he was a little frightened, and there were some indescribable emotions in them.

Shen Zhi walked for four years, and she kept the festival for Shen Zhi for four years.

And what about him? What is it?

Song Zhannan drank too much, and when he woke up, he saw Lu Wanwan lying beside him.

Lu Wanwan looked at him, her eyes were full of admiration and appreciation, which was completely different from Xu Qingyan's eyes on her.

Losing Shen Zhixing, Xu Qingyan is like three souls losing one soul, and all the sunshine and youthful vitality are gone.

When Song Zhannan was with Xu Qingyan, she always felt as if she was looking at others through herself.

But unlike Lu Wanwan, only with her can he be himself wholeheartedly.