Whether it was her before, or she is now,

These are my stories with her and her,

A story that will never be forgotten,

It's going to be a part of my life.

......

"Xiao Sheng, classmate"

It's just a few steps away, but they are so dazed that they can't seem to see each other's faces clearly.

Probably because of the slightly serious night that hangs over us, it makes each other seem so unreal.

I slowly approached her, but the flash of panic in her eyes, and the half-step back movement, forced me to use words like "approaching" to describe myself.

I stopped, what kind of mood was she in now?

Sad? Guilty?

If I get close to her like this, will it only make her more uncomfortable?

She recovered, everything can go back to the way it was before, obviously this is a thing that should be happy, why do I really have a faint heartache?

What a strange feeling......

The lights, the honking of cars, the noise of the crowd, like a flood of beasts, came at me, even suppressed to the point that it was difficult to breathe, I gulped for fresh air, but,

At the end of the day, I thought I could save her, but I didn't get her out of that nightmare.

......

It's a nightmare, and it's a sweet dream.

All along, I was a cowardly, timid person, scared of the crowd everywhere, like a rabbit, trying not to attract attention.

But I don't provoke the devil, the devil will come and haunt me, and I will never escape from hell like that.

To be verbally abused, to be beaten, to be ravaged, to be ......

Since the first time, I've only been silently forced to accept,

Even the air inhaled every day seems to have a little more disgust, disgusted with oneself and the world.

I never deserved to be saved, I didn't deserve to be loved, I didn't deserve to live,

Originally, originally, I thought so,

But I was shamelessly saved by him, with disgusting selfishness, hoping to be loved by him all the time, and I almost forgot what kind of person I was.

I don't deserve to be treated so gently by Yechen-san.

"I'm sorry, Mr. Yechen, I'm sorry for the trouble I have caused to everyone."

"No, no, people like me can also save Xiao Sheng, I'm very happy."

Feeling that there seemed to be a warm hand on his head caressing gently, he raised his head, but found that Yechen's classmate had come to him at some point.

He's still so gentle.

"But, but, I have already remembered all these things, whether it was before that or the days when I was with Yechen recently, I still remember them."

It seems that she has remembered everything, I looked at Bai Xiao behind her slightly, probably what she did, although it felt impossible, but I still subconsciously thought so.

"And what kind of mood are you in right now?"

"I, Yechen-san, I don't deserve to be treated like this by Yechen-sang, and even brought so much trouble to Yechen-swi."

She probably felt so guilty, so inferior, but

"I don't need your guilt, I just want you to live with a feeling that you can bear this love, for Aunt Liqing, for me!"

"I ......"

The body couldn't help but tremble, and what he wanted to say stopped when he wanted to speak.

In this case, I, I can't help but cry, Yechen-san,

At that moment, it seemed that the oppressive air around was dispersed, and even the sound of traffic seemed so small and distant,

Ah, why can he be so gentle with me, why can I be redeemed by him,

I looked up at him, it seemed that there was only each other left in this world, and the night around me seemed to have turned into warm colors, but it didn't matter, because in my eyes, he was so dazzling, so warm, that people couldn't help but want to hug him.

"Yes, Yechen-san, I will repay your love with the rest of my life"

Reach out and touch his cheek, it turns out that this is not a dream, everything is within reach, you can hold him tightly with your hand, you can feel the warmth on his body.

I was suddenly hugged by her, a little overwhelmed, but I heard her crying in my arms carefully, I reached out and hugged her tightly, hoping that this would make her better,

"It's okay, it's okay"

I can only comfort her with words like this, but I think that's enough,

I've always known that what I'm looking forward to, that she who hasn't recovered her memory, is incomplete, missing that painful memory, you can live happily, I think so, but I can't understand that she is more afraid of the missing memory, but when she recalls everything, even if all the pain strikes again, but this Xiao Sheng is a complete Xiao Sheng, with pain and despair, only in this way can she be a real her, complete, strong, and live again, Whether it's for Aunt Li Qing, or for those of us who give.

"Yechen-san, can we still go on a trip together?"

"Well, yes"

"I, can I still get the gentleness of Yechen-san?"

"Yes"

"Forgive me, forgive me, so many wayward demands"

"It's okay, it's okay, it's okay if Xiao Sheng is willful"

Compared with Xiao Sheng, who has low self-esteem and guilt, I hope that she can be more willful and hope to be loved and tendered by others, instead of immersing herself in the pain of the past.

Maybe the painful memories will never go away, until a long, long time later, when she recalls the past, maybe the pain will come again, but I hope that at that time, she can still recall tenderness and love, so that it will probably alleviate a little bit of that pain, I think this is enough.

Probably a long, long time later, when I think back to the past, I also know that I have been saved by him and warmed by him, and I am not a person who does not deserve to live, because he told me

"You can be loved, too", in that case, I think I will be enough.

This is our story with him, no, it's me with him.