Chapter 103: Crying
After Qi Kexue opened his mouth, she knew that her reaction was a little too big, but her temper couldn't open her mouth to apologize, so she just fell silent.
But he didn't expect that Shen Boling not only didn't care about her, but also said such words to comfort himself, and suddenly felt a little sour in his heart, looking at Shen Boling, he only saw his clear reflection in his bright eyes, and he couldn't see a little anger, but a strong concern.
She didn't know how long it had been since she had seen such a serious and concerned gaze, and even more so since she had experienced the warmth of someone caring.
Qi Kexue suddenly felt that she was a little excessive, Shen Boling didn't owe her anything, but since the establishment of 'Xuewei', she had been helping herself before and after, and she was willing to do things for herself, and even the people brought out by the Prime Minister made them listen to Qi Kexue's orders, but he didn't complain at all.
Although he can use his revenge to convince himself, but now what he has done has already exceeded his duty, Qi Kexue looks at himself again, but he is a little dependent on his good to himself, and slowly goes a little too far, and even feels that this is taken for granted, but at this time, think about it, what is there in this world that can be taken for granted.
At this time, he couldn't help but be silent, and looked up at Shen Boling with some embarrassment, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done this to you, I'm a little too excited." ”
Shen Boling couldn't help but be stunned when she heard this, this was the first time she had spoken to herself so gently since she met Qi Kexue, and it was the first time she apologized to herself.
Seeing Shen Boling's expression, Qi Kexue's face was even more embarrassed, it turned out that she was really a little too much for him, "Shen Boling, do you say that I am usually a little too fierce and unbearable?" ”
"Uh... No, I think it's good, that's your personality. Shen Boling finally came back to her senses, but looking at Qi Kexue's gaze, she was a little strange, and her eyes were full of feelings that she was abnormal, "Xue'er, in fact, you are very good, you don't need to care about other people's eyes, and you don't need to change yourself because of this, of course, if you really want to change, there is still some room for improvement, for example, when it is not usually related to business, you can speak softer, and it is normal to joke or something, so it is more humane." ”
Seeing Shen Boling look at herself worriedly after speaking, Qi Kexue laughed in her heart, it seems that she is usually too powerful, not only the people of 'Xuewei' are afraid of her, even Shen Boling is a little scared, especially when she is really serious, no one dares to refute her opinion, and now that she thinks about it, it is really too arrogant.
But after listening to his words, he didn't rush to answer, stared into his eyes, but never moved, and didn't know what he was thinking.
Until Shen Boling was a little hairy when he was seen, he coughed lightly uncomfortably, "I... I'm just going to say it casually, if something is wrong, don't care. ”
Hearing his words, Qi Kexue couldn't hold back any longer, and burst out laughing, but this laugh didn't stop, and she laughed out loud while pointing at him, as if she heard some funny joke.
At first, Shen Boling was a little happy, at least he amused her, but later he found that he couldn't be energetic, and he was a little choked up in laughter, Shen Boling also put away his smile and asked with some worry, "Xue'er... Me, am I saying something wrong? ”
When Qi Kexue heard his words, tears flowed down, and she couldn't help but just shake her head, but her performance made Shen Boling even more at a loss, and she didn't even know where to put her hand, let alone persuade her, but Qi Kexue looked up and saw him, but buried her head in his arms, and immediately there was a choked sound, and she felt wetness in her chest.
Shen Boling's whole body froze suddenly, looking at the person in his arms in a daze, and when he heard the cry he had never heard before, his heart hurt, so he couldn't help but gently patted his hand on her back to comfort her, but he didn't know what to say, and in the end, he could only let her vent quietly like this, and didn't say anything.
Qi Kexue is not a weak person, let alone a girl who loves to cry, but today, Shen Boling's words seem to have peeled off her hard coat, exposing her weak appearance, maybe she hasn't cried for too long, and the grievances accumulated over the years broke out all at once, and she cried louder and louder.
Suddenly felt that it felt good to be cared for like this, it turned out that she would meet such a person one day, not for anything else, just because she was her, and caring about her and being good to her, and that was enough, and the tears could no longer hold back.
In Shen Boling's arms, Qi Kexue indulged herself wantonly with tears for the first time, she had never cried since she was five years old, and it seemed that she wanted to vent all the tears accumulated over the years, but no matter how much she cried, there was an end.
Hearing the sobbing sound slowly stopped, Shen Boling looked down, but saw that Qi Kexue also raised her head to look at him, but the two looked at each other, and she immediately lowered her head again, Shen Boling was stunned, but she was a little surprised in her heart, if she was not wrong just now, Qi Kexue should have blushed.
I just wanted to say something, but Xiang Qi Kexue interrupted, "Don't speak, don't ask anything, what you can do now is to lend me your shoulder for a while, and then you forget about today's events." ”
Shen Boling really didn't speak again, nodded lightly, feeling that she was leaning on her arms, her hands couldn't help but tighten again, the two had actually had intimate contact by mistake many times, and compared to before, this is nothing now.
But this is the first time that Qi Kexue has taken the initiative to hug him, and it is the first time that the two of them trust him so much and rely on him, this feeling is the first time that Shen Boling has experienced it, and his heart was immediately infected by an inexplicable emotion, but he fell into it even more.
After a while, Qi Kexue calmed down, raised her head and gently broke free of Shen Boling's hand, although there were still tears on her face, her expression was no different from usual.
Shen Boling didn't stop it, let go of his hands and let her leave his embrace, but at this moment he suddenly felt a little lost, but he raised the hand that wanted to put it on Qi Kexue's shoulder to comfort her, but he put it down in front of her recovered expression, sighed and said, "Sometimes crying doesn't mean weakness, it's also a way to vent, you know that during the time when people at home left me, I ran for my life every day, and I didn't have a chance to think about anything else."
When I escaped the chase and finally calmed down and thought about them, I couldn't cry, not even tears, but my heart was so uncomfortable that it was like a group of ants gnawing every day, sometimes I would think, if I cried out would be better, I knew that even if I cried no matter how much they couldn't come back, but that was a way to commemorate them, but also to let their pain be vented, we were so tired of living, there was always a way to vent, right? ”
Shen Boling seemed to be narrating her own affairs, but through these persuasions, she wanted her to feel more like an ordinary girl, at least crying.
"But this doesn't have to be crying, since the age of five, except for the purposeful crying and the use of tears to achieve something, it has never cried, it seems to me like laughing, it has become a superfluous emotion to me, it should not be." Qi Kexue shook her head lightly, "Actually, I should thank you, since I met you, my emotions seem to have returned, sometimes like a normal person, crying for no reason, just laughing for laughing, although I don't think it will do me much good, but at least it makes me feel the feelings that a normal person should have." ”
"Xue'er, why can't you laugh out loud when you're happy, cry out loud when you're unhappy, it's a good thing for a girl to be strong, but you don't need to be so strong forever, be weak, find a shoulder to rest on, it's to go further, it doesn't mean you're useless." Shen Boling said softly, he said from the heart, sometimes, he really hoped that Qi Kexue could be weaker, instead of relying on himself for everything and facing everything like now, he was so tough, and he could only endure it by himself if he was wronged and unwilling.