Chapter 482: I don't want to live
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Syllable!
Empress Dowager Tao slapped Emperor Taining Xiao Chengyi in the face.
Everyone present, the palace people, and the imperial doctor, were all stunned.
Everyone was so scared that they forgot to breathe.
This scene is really too scary.
Will it be extinguished?
Will it implicate the family?
All of them lowered their heads, pretending that they didn't see anything, pretending that they didn't exist.
I just hate that there is not a single crack in the ground for them to get into.
Taining Emperor Xiao Chengyi himself was obviously stunned.
The emperor was beaten!
Can the emperor still be beaten?
He covered his cheeks, a little incredulous.
Then he laughed, as if he had figured it out.
"Nothing happens to me, it's not surprising. If the queen mother is not angry, it is better to continue fighting! I'll stick my face out and hit you! ”
"You, you, you...... Do you want to be angry with Hongu? ”
"Everybody get out!" Taining Emperor Xiao Chengyi roared angrily.
The palace man and the imperial physician, such as amnesty.
Finally able to get out of the eighteen layers of hell, they ran faster than anyone else.
In the blink of an eye, only the Queen Mother and the Emperor's mother and son were left in the bedroom.
Empress Dowager Tao suddenly burst into tears, "Emperor, what's wrong with you?" You and Hongu are honest, why are you spoiling yourself? ”
Emperor Taining Xiao Chengyi smiled, his eyes desperate and sad, "Can't the queen mother see it, I'm tired, I don't want to bear this burden anymore." I am a coward, and the burden of the world's great responsibilities is too heavy and heavy, and I am overwhelmed. I want to be a deserter, I don't want to take my responsibility, it's that simple. ”
"But you are the emperor! As an emperor, he is destined to take on the great responsibility of the world! ”
Empress Dowager Tao cried and said.
Taining Emperor Xiao Chengyi looked desperate, "So I want to die!" ”
Empress Dowager Tao's face was shocked and incredulous.
She trembled, trembled, and looked stunned.
"You, what did you just say? Hongu didn't hear it wrong, it must have been a mistake. ”
"The Queen Mother heard me right! I am the emperor, with great responsibilities on my shoulders, and I am burdened with the heavy responsibilities of the world. But I don't want to take on this responsibility, but I can't hide from it, I can't escape. It seems that there is only a dead end that can be completely liberated. ”
"Shut up! Shut up! You shut up Hongu! This palace will not allow you to die, and you will never be allowed to spoil your body. You have to live well! You don't want to take responsibility, you can, the palace will share it for you, and the courtiers will share it for you. I just ask you to live well. ”
Emperor Xiao Chengyi, Emperor Taining, looked at Empress Dowager Tao blankly, "It's more painful to live than to die." Every night and night, countless unjust souls go into dreams to ask for their lives, and one day I will suffocate to death in my dreams. Has the queen mother ever experienced the taste of being out of breath in her sleep? It's like drowning! ”
Empress Dowager Tao cried, "Emperor, you must cheer up!" Have you ever wondered what will happen to your wife and children if you die? Don't forget, your eldest son is still a child! Do you really bear to let the eldest prince sit on that chair at such a young age and be forced out of breath every day? ”
Taining Emperor Xiao Chengyi was stunned on the spot, looking out the window in despair.
After a long time, he said, "I feel like I'm about to run out of it!" ”
Empress Dowager Tao grabbed his shoulders tightly, "No matter what, you must hold on, you must cheer up." At least wait until the child grows up, right? The doctors have said that you are mainly suffering from heart disease, and as long as you untie your heart knots, your body will recover soon. Cheer up! If you let the white-haired person in this palace send the black-haired person, will you bear it? How cruel! ”
She cried uncontrollably!
Taining Emperor Xiao Chengyi accompanied her and wept silently.
Both mother and son are full of despair in their hearts.
Why is all this?
Why can't the emperor hold on?
The courtiers were still able to live as usual.
The capital was burned and the people were slaughtered, except for a few crying, as if it had no impact on their lives.
Why did the emperor fall into deep self-blame and couldn't extricate himself?
Is it because the emperor is too young and too conscientious?
Empress Dowager Tao regrets it!
Knowing this, she would rather the emperor be a person without conscience.
Once, having a conscience was the best quality of an emperor.
A humane emperor always makes people feel at ease and full of hope.
Who would have thought that conscience is also a double-edged sword.
When natural and man-made disasters come, conscience has become a sharp blade that erodes the bones, one after another, digging out the heart and digging out the bones.
All the time, conscience is condemned and tormented.
Empress Dowager Tao hugged the emperor and cried bitterly and said: "This palace regrets it, this palace really regrets it." Emperor, are you listening to the words of this palace and abandoning your conscience? Let's be a black-hearted person, not a conscientious person. As long as it can get you through it, let you get through the difficulties in front of you, whatever you want. ”
Taining Emperor Xiao Chengyi shook his head slowly, he was laughing, but his smile was so sad.
"The country is easy to change, and the nature is difficult to change! If Heaven is destined for me to endure all this, to carry the burden in the torment, then I can only accept my fate. ”
"This palace does not allow you to die! You can't die! For the sake of the children, for your own sake, you should also live well, watch the imperial army return to the capital, and kill the grassland to take revenge. ”
Emperor Taining Xiao Chengyi sighed, "Don't hide it from my mother, I am trying to live every day, trying my best to support every day, and I want to survive this catastrophe." But it's so hard!
I suffer every day. Ever since I learned that the people had been slaughtered and the capital had been burned, I had never slept peacefully. As soon as I closed my eyes, I saw charred corpses in front of me, and I looked at me with wide eyes. As if questioning me, why did I give up the capital, why did I give up on them.
I am a sinner, not only sorry for the ancestors of heaven and earth, but also sorry for the people of Limin. I live as a sin! Perhaps, I am the lone star. ”
Empress Dowager Tao scolded sharply, "Shut up! You're stunned! Rest assured, Hongu will cheer you up. The palace will now order a diversion, we will go up the mountain, let the monks for the slaughtered people in the capital, pray for Your Majesty, pray for the world!
You have to be confident that everything will be fine. From now on, Hongu will live next door to you. If there is anything, you tell Hongu, and Hongu will solve it for you. ”
Empress Dowager Tao changed her gentle and gentle attitude, and showed full courage to help the emperor cheer up.
She summoned Shi Wen and Ling Changzhi.
After a long talk, the team split into two groups.
A group continued to go south and went to Jianzhou Xinggong, which was equivalent to going to the front station.
The other group went to the famous mountain to find the monks who were slaughtered in the capital, and prayed for the emperor and the world.
……
On the official road four hundred miles away from the capital, a huge team is camping.
The lord of Zhuyang, Xiao Shi, was taken out of the capital in a daze, and he didn't speak after waking up, just looked in the direction of the capital stupidly.
When she learned that the people had been slaughtered and the capital had been burned, she cried like a child who had lost everything.
Yan Yunge's heart was very strange, and he suddenly had a strong sense of guilt.
She hugged her mother Xiao Shi and cried with each other.
"Mother blames me! It's all my decision, it's all my fault. ”
Xiao Shi cried so hard that he couldn't say a word.
Hundreds of miles away, it seems that you can hear the people wailing, and the capital is trembling.
In front of me, there seems to be a sky-high fire, enough to blind my eyes, which makes people tremble.
"The capital is gone!"
After a few days, Shaw finally spoke.
Yan Yunge let out a "wow" and cried.
These days, she is also suffering, and she is also carrying a heavy load.
One of her decisions is related to the lives of countless people.
The overwhelming pressure of Tarzan weighed on her to suffocate.
Until this moment, she finally let go of everything, didn't want any face, no image, and cried happily.
In the distance, Xiao Yi's brother-in-law Yanyun was together.
The two of them were relieved to hear the crying coming from inside the carriage.
"It's good to cry, it's good to cry!" Xiao Yat was relieved.
Yan Yuntong poured a sip of soju directly, everyone is suffering these days, and no one is relaxed.
……
Yan Yunge cried, but Xiao Shi was frightened.
She was panicked and a little at a loss.
"Yunge, don't cry, don't cry! Hongu didn't blame you. Hongu knows that you have done your best, and no one blames you. ”
Yan Yunge shook his head frequently.
Let her cry!
Let her cry bitterly.
The emotions that have been accumulated in the depths of my heart for many days are all vented.
Xiao took out a handkerchief and wiped her tears.
The mother and daughter are both crying bitterly.
Everyone's fate is closely related to the fate of the dynasty.
No one can really stay out of it.
A hearty cry made Yan Yunge's eyes red, but her spirit was better.
For a few days, the pent-up emotions were released.
She turned her back and wiped her tears, a little embarrassed.
"Let the mother see the joke."
"Silly boy, I haven't seen you like in this palace. Hongu said before that I don't blame you, it's all true. Don't be sad. ”
Yan Yunge nodded, straightened his clothes, and then turned his head to face his mother Xiao again.
She asked solemnly: "The people were slaughtered, the capital was burned to ruins, does my mother hate me?" ”
Xiao Shi looked north and shook his head slowly, "This palace doesn't hate anyone. If you have to say who you hate, this palace hates God, hates the Xiao royal family, and hates the world......"
After speaking, there was another sigh, and the tears that had just stopped fell again.
Yan Yunge said softly: "Xiao Yi sent someone to the capital to check the situation, the capital has been destroyed in one fell swoop, and it is impossible to rescue. Only a handful of people escaped, and the number was only a few thousand. The soldiers and horses of Wuheng are still active in the Gyeonggi area, and they should be the troops after the break. The whole of Gyeonggi has been plagued to the point that it is not in shape. ”
Xiao nodded, she had expected this to be the case.
It's just that when she heard it with her own ears, her heart seemed to be firmly grasped by a pair of sharp claws, which made her breathless.
She whispered, "This palace is a sinner!" After death, I have no shame to see my ancestors and ancestors! ”
Yan Yunge smiled sadly, "From the emperor, we also got the news. I learned that the people were slaughtered, the capital was burned, and the emperor vomited blood on the spot and fell into a coma. ”