The boy sat on the platform on the side of the playground, the sun was very hot that day, he finished running, tilted his head and drank water, sweat slowly slid down his forehead, slid over his Adam's apple, and wet his clothes.

He lowered his head, and a long white and pure girl ran in front of him, she lowered her head, her body trembled and ran, she looked like she was going to faint, her skin was very white, like mutton cream, she looked very beautiful, like a girl like first love.

The girl ran to the other side of the playground and stopped, and the boy kept looking at her and stopped when he saw that she was so tired.

The sun shone directly on her body, making her fair skin look like it had been roasted, red.

After drinking the last sip of water, the boy was standing up and preparing to leave, but he watched her hands on her knees, and her body slowly and slowly fell down......

When the girl woke up, the first thing she saw was the ceiling, the ceiling of the infirmary, and there was a shaking ceiling fan on it, squeaking and turning, she blinked slowly, and moved with some difficulty, and there was no one around at this time.

The next day, it was still the same playground, and the boys sat on the side after running.

In his third year of high school, he often had a lot of ideas, when he looked up at the blue sky, it was the blueprint he had planned, his dream was to be a doctor, he was wearing a white coat, and the pennant hanging behind him was his achievement......

Just as he was looking at the fluttering white clouds and fantasizing about the future, a hand appeared in front of him, that hand was slender and beautiful, with distinct knuckles, and she was still holding a bottle of mineral water in her hand, and the sunlight was shining on the water, showing a crystal light and shadow on his face.

He blinked, turned his head to look, and realized that the owner of this beautiful hand was the girl he had met yesterday.

She stood in front of him, wearing a cotton short-sleeved dress and a short skirt of school uniform, revealing her long straight legs, and the girl pursed her lips and handed him the note in her other hand.

The boy looked at her and smiled, his eyes were crooked when he smiled, his eyebrows were clear, showing a small row of white teeth, and the girl looked at him, his mouth moved, as if to say something......

He took the mineral water from her hand, and then took the note in her hand, and as soon as he took the note, she immediately turned and left.

Looking up at her beautiful back, the high ponytail flicked one by one, as if there were small ripples in his heart, and he felt that he had never seen such a refreshing ponytail.

Looking back, the boy opened the little pink note, and the fonts on it were all beautiful and clear, as beautiful as hers.

- Thank you for taking me to the infirmary yesterday.

He had always gotten along with his classmates at school with a task-doing attitude, and he didn't have any real friends to talk to, so he never thought he would have anything to do with that girl again.

Unbeknownst to them, the fate between them is much more than that.

At the end of school that day, there was a crowd of people, and the boy and his classmates walked out of the school gate one by one, and after saying goodbye to his classmates at the door, he walked towards the bus stop sign on one side.

That was the second place he had seen her.

She is still pure and beautiful, clean as if she came out of a painting, wearing a white dress like an angel, she wears headphones, standing at the bus stop.

He walked over slowly, and coincidentally, he was also waiting for the bus at the stop sign.

As he walked, he slowed down, because several boys came out of nowhere, standing beside her, and one of them leaned into her ear and said something, she was indifferent, and when he finished speaking, the rest of the boys began to laugh.

After talking for a while, one of the boys patted her on the head with some force, and a group of people walked behind her.

She looked up and ruffled her hair, as if she had only seen them at this time, but she had only turned her head to look at them, and did not dare to look at them a second time.

At this time, the boy continued to walk over.

This time the girl reacted quickly, she immediately turned her head, and when she saw her slightly red little face, the boy was stunned.

Her apricot eyes were red, and her eyes were full of shock, and after seeing that it was him, she slowly reacted and lowered her head.

I've been waiting for the car to come......

That was the third time I saw her.

The fourth time I saw her, it was outside the dean's office.

When he returned to the classroom, he would pass by the dean's office, and at that time, she was standing quietly outside the classroom by herself, she looked very well-behaved, as if she didn't hear the quarrel in the office, just wearing headphones and looking at the sky in the distance.

When he passed by her, I don't know if it was a coincidence, the book in his hand fell in front of her, and it wasn't until the girl had already handed the math book in front of him that he reacted, he took the book, and then smiled at her and said thank you.

She just smiled and shook her head.

And he casually glanced at it, and also saw clearly the people standing in the office, two women and a boy, that boy was the boy who hit the girl at the bus stop.

What they were arguing about inside, he didn't hear too clearly...

In the days that followed, he could see her almost every day at the bus stop, wearing her school uniform, carrying a pink schoolbag on her shoulder, her hair loose that day, her high ponytail that day, and a hat that day.

The boy seemed to be paying some attention to her, and the previous meetings were just familiar, but now he seemed to be able to imagine what she would be like when he saw her after a while.

He walked over slowly, and naturally stood beside her, and she felt it, so she turned her head and smiled at him, and then turned her head away from him.

Such a not-so-enthusiastic move made his heart want to know her all of a sudden closed again, and he wanted to be friends with her.

Even though the last time he told her his name, she acted as if she hadn't heard, and when he asked her her name, she was already in the car.

Today, he didn't have the courage to ask again, so he could only quietly look at the beautiful side face under the brim of her hat.

He sighed secretly, and when he turned his head, he caught another glimpse of the milky white liquid coming out of her hat, running down her long, soft hair, and sticking her strands together.

The boy quickly looked for something on his body, but in the end he found nothing, only a handkerchief, which was kept by his deceased grandmother, and he carried it with him.

He looked at the somewhat old but very clean handkerchief and thought about it, and decided to give it to her.

He gently patted her on the shoulder, but he didn't expect it to startle her. He handed her the handkerchief and motioned for her to wipe the milk off her head.

She raised her eyes and looked at him, then at the handkerchief in his hand, and suddenly her eyes became moist again, and suddenly, he felt that although she looked weak, there was an indescribable tenacity in her eyes.

There is always an indescribable attraction in her.

He seemed to like this friend more and more.

The next day, there were some people standing at the door of the boys' class, they all stared at the girl standing outside, she stood there expressionlessly, still standing the most obedient, until the person she was looking for came out, she pursed her lips and laughed, she smiled, the whole person was rendered with color, beautiful little girl.

The boy inexplicably walked out under the leadership of his classmates, and the moment he saw the girl, he was surprised, and then his heart was a little excited, and he also reached out and took the handkerchief she handed over.

The classmates and the students standing on the side were stunned for a while, and the boy looked around for some reason, until his classmates asked him a word in front of everyone, he first opened his eyes wide, and then looked at the girl in front of him, under the burning gaze of the girl, he hesitated for a while, but still shook his head......

The girl's eyes turned red again, and she looked at his mouth until he finished the last word, and then she immediately turned and ran away, pushing everyone away, and left without looking back......

Looking at her back, the boy leaned forward, his reluctance could only be suppressed in his heart, he looked at the disdainful gaze coming from all around, he was a little nervous, and then pretended to be indifferent and threw the handkerchief into the trash can and returned to his classroom.

And all I have in my mind is the lonely back of the girl.

When school ended, there was no one in the classroom, but the boy went and returned, he quietly walked to the door of his classroom, but he didn't know that there was someone in the classroom, there was a voice inside, the boy looked inside, and he still knew the person, so he quickly hid to the side.

Four or five boys brought the girl to his place, they pushed and shoved, forced her to press her in his position, forced her to lie on his desk, and said unbearable words in her mouth, she didn't comply, they did it, her eyes were cold, at that time, her eyes were not tears, but that tenacity.

As the sun set, the boy sat on the floor outside the classroom, quietly accompanying the classroom, holding his handkerchief in his hand.

The girl sitting in her place, her face was a little red and swollen, and her beautiful long hair was messy, she didn't cry, she just sat there quietly, looking at the dusk outside the window, very well-behaved.

She rendered the quiet dusk with a sense of sadness.

Since that day, the boy has not seen her at the bus stop sign.

She was the same as she had before she first met him, and her mother would take her to and from school every day.

One weekend, the boy told his classmates that he would go to the library together, he didn't really want to go, he didn't have a good relationship with his classmates, but he was glad that he went to the library with them.

Because he saw her, she went to the library alone to buy books, she was still wearing a white dress, she was also wearing a pair of small black leather shoes, showing a small section of white calf, and she was still wearing headphones.

The moment he saw her, his heart was very sad, and he remembered the damage caused to her because of his cowardice at that time, and he regretted it, but he didn't regret it, because maybe he would do it again.

All he could do was go up to her and help her get a book out of her reach, and give her a smile so that maybe he could redeem himself a little.

But it wasn't long before his smile lingered on his face that his classmates came, and their language began to grow unpleasant when they saw her, or when they saw her alone.

As he thought, he still didn't move, he just wanted to graduate well and finish the rest of his senior year of high school.

Originally, he was still thinking that he would graduate in the future, so he asked her out alone and apologized to her......

Until that day, his classmates took him to the rooftop of the school building, he didn't know what he was going to do, so he followed the classmate to the rooftop out of curiosity.

There seemed to be a group of people standing on the rooftop, they were tightly surrounded, and the boy was standing at the door, at that moment, the relaxed expression on his face changed, and his heart suddenly became a little nervous, and he kept jumping.

Finally, he was still brought in front of her, the girl was surrounded by everyone, she was calm and distressing, a pair of eyes looked at the person in front of her blankly, she couldn't hear what they were saying, just wearing that pair of headphones, but when the indifferent little face saw him, she was still moved.

"Huh! Brother, you are here, you see, this woman may be interesting to you, I feel disgusted for you, today a group of our brothers are here for you to guard, you make her sober and sober. ”

A boy led by the side climbed his shoulder, forcing him to look at the still cold and charming girl in front of him, she looked at his mouth, her eyes were stubborn, but when she looked at him, there was a trace of tenderness.

He pretended to smile at the boy next to him, and when he looked at the girl again, he opened his mouth, but he didn't say anything.

"What? Are you interested in her too? ”

They seemed to be a little impatient, and the boy smiled and showed displeasure: "How is it possible." ”

"Also, who would like a deaf person? A dumb one? Hahahaha. ”

Everyone around him began to laugh, and in order to cater to them, the boy also laughed, and squeezed out a few tears, he reached out and wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes, and his eyes showed apologies to her in a place that no one could see.

"Please, don't like me! You are deaf and dumb, your liking will bother me a lot, it will make me feel that I am unbearable, you are already so unbearable, can you not delay me? You don't look at what you look like yourself, you like me, I'll think... It's disgusting! ”

He said word by word, and she stared at it word by word, and finally he finished speaking, and she finished reading it.

After a long, long time, he will never forget the girl who wears hearing aids and likes to wear a white dress, and who is like a little angel standing in a filthy place all around.

The girl smiled at him at the end, not complaining, not angry, not angry, it was the most innocent and beautiful smile.

The boy left, he found a reason casually, prevaricated everyone, he ran away like crazy, he wanted to deceive himself, he also wanted to hide his cowardice, the tears in the corners of his eyes were no longer pretending to squeeze out, that was his confession, that was his bond, it was his self-blame, he hated himself for being cowardly, he was afraid of being excluded because he was different like a girl, being beaten and scolded, bullied, isolated, he was not her at all, even after going through this, she could still live her life well, there was still a semester in the third year of high school, She can leave the school that is making her miserable, go to her favorite place, and meet the people she likes......

Later, I heard that that afternoon, she was admitted to the hospital, and if it had not been discovered by the patrol teacher who did not go to the rooftop at all, the consequences might have been more serious.

Since then, those who have hurt her have blamed themselves, and they have expressed a little apology to her with the last bit of conscience.

Except for boys......

In school, he pretended to be unrelated, he would also sit in his place and look out the window, and he looked at the place where she looked that day, and he really didn't see what she was looking at that day.

And when he was alone, he would look at the last diary she left for him, which was full of her delicate and small handwriting, recording her every joy, anger and sorrow.

He had been to the hospital to see her, but all he saw was an empty bed, and the nurse who took care of her handed him a notebook......

Only then did he know that she ...... Not only left the city that made her miserable, but also left this world.

He sat in the playground where they had first met, and there was no sun that day, the sky was gray, and the dust on the ground was flying in the air, they were formless and colorless, they existed in every corner, and they were the most worthless objects.

That day, it was raining heavily, he sat curled up, the place where she had dripping water to him, he tilted his head, let the rain wet his whole body, and couldn't tell whether it was rain or tears for a while, his arms were tightly holding her notebook, and his mouth was saying sorry sentence after sentence......

On March 19th, fine, today's physical education class, I forgot to bring a water cup, and no one wanted to borrow me, and I didn't dare to go to the commissary, but a nice boy gave me a bottle of water, and this was the first time that someone was willing to approach me......

March 24th, Qing, since the last time I saw him, it seems that I can see him every day, after my observation for a few days, I feel that he is very good to everyone, I want to be friends with him a little, but I don't dare.

April 1st, yin, I'm sad, today is April Fool's Day, they put glue on my chair, poured milk in my hat, and tore up my homework, I can't resist, I don't dare to resist, fortunately, when my mother picked me up, I saw the boy again, and his smile seemed to cure my sadness.

On April 20th, Qing, I want to know him more and more, he is different from everyone, his eyes are clear, his heart is clean, everything about him is shining, and I, because of the car accident when I was a child, so I lost my hearing, and gradually I can't speak, so I don't dare to know him.

April 28th, rain, it rained today, fortunately I brought an umbrella, but he didn't seem to have an umbrella, so I quickly stuffed my umbrella into his hand, and then ran away, although it rained that day, but he didn't rain well, just I didn't dare to tell my mother, my skirt was wet by them with water.

May 2nd, sunny, so happy, although I was forced to help others run today, and I fainted, but I seem to be one step closer to him, even if he doesn't know me, at least we are one step closer, and what I didn't dare to do before has been facilitated by accident today.

On May 3rd, Qing, so excited, in order to show my gratitude, I sent him a bottle of water, I knew that he was the one who sent me to the infirmary, because I went to the security room, begged the security guard uncle to adjust the monitoring, I didn't dare to do sign language with him, because I didn't dare to tell him that I was ...... Handicapped.

On May 5th, Qing, still found out by her mother, she came to school, and the mother of the boy who bullied me every day also came, and they quarreled in the office, I couldn't hear it, but when I saw him, I was a little panicked, and I didn't dare to let him hear about my unbearableness.

On May 6th, I didn't ask my mother to pick me up for the past few days, I told her that I had a new friend, so I could go home with him, in fact, even if we didn't take the same bus, but just for a short while, it was enough to stay with him for a while, and I didn't dare to ask for more.

May 9th, rain, today they poured milk in my hat again, my bag was full of shredded paper, but he gave me his handkerchief!! I didn't dare to say thank you to him, but the unhappiness of the day was swept away.

May 10th, cloudy, why? Why should I give him a handkerchief in front of so many people? Now that he knows my secret, will he treat me differently like everyone else? I don't need him to be familiar with me, I just want him to know me, but he said he doesn't know me, but that's fine, I don't dare let him be isolated because of me.

May 20th, sunny, is it Valentine's Day today? They all seemed to be very happy, and I really wanted to have friends, and I saw him today, but it was in my mother's car, and I didn't dare to say hello to him because I was afraid that he would hate me.

On May 24th, Qing, we met in the library today, and he smiled at me! It was before his friend came, but I was so satisfied that I didn't dare look at him any more.

June 6th, fine, the sun outside is good, this is the last diary I wrote, I wrote it to you, I am not sure if you will come to see me in the hospital, but I still want to write to you, the last time, let me be brave once.

I'll admit, I want to be friends with you, and I know how unbearable I am, so that day on the rooftop, I took off my hearing aids, and I didn't want to hear you say things against your will, and I knew you had to do it.

I'm gone, I'm leaving this world, the last stage of life, it's nice to have you, although you don't know me, although you don't know my name yet.

I don't know my last laugh, did you see that? I've always wanted to smile at you like that, smile at you and say my name, smile at you and say I want to be friends with you.

At this moment, maybe I have turned into a wisp of soot in this world, am I also like dust down to the dirt? Scattered haphazardly, silent in every corner of the city, no one will feel sorry for the dust.

But don't feel sorry for me, and don't blame yourself, even if I am an inconspicuous dust, at least there is light that illuminates me.

Thank you for your unwitting companionship with me, in this world, I am enough, so I just want to go to another world to see.

After a hundred years, I hope I can be friends with you in that world, okay?

Really, really don't blame yourself, I know you're a very good person, so you're going to blame yourself for my departure, and I'm not leaving to blame you.

It is you who shine the light on me, so don't let it be extinguished......