Chapter 313: Stop Punishing
Jian Xinrou sat there all night without sleeping, thinking about herself and her mother, Mu Jinsheng really couldn't stay up, there were too many things that happened recently, and she couldn't accompany this girl, so she invested in staying on the side and fell asleep, she didn't go home tonight, Sister-in-law Zhang and Mu Zheng were very worried, Mu Zheng fell asleep directly in the living room, and Mu Jinsheng and Jian Xinrou didn't sleep well all night at Jian Xinrou's mother's place.
"I'm begging you, okay? Just rest for a while, if you keep doing this, you're going to burn yourself out, and I don't want to watch you torture yourself like this all day. ”
When it was almost early in the morning, Mu Jinsheng poured a glass of water for Jian Xinrou, Jian Xinrou didn't drink a sip, just sat there in a daze, her lips were a little blue and purple, so the doctor who had never come back didn't go back, and slept in the car for a night, and the doctor also felt that it was very difficult, if it weren't for the high commission given by this family, how could he stay here.
"I can't sleep, as soon as I close my eyes, my mind is full of my mother's appearance, I really don't know what to do, my mother has left me, I feel sad when I think about it, you go back first, you don't have to stay here with me, I want to stay alone for a while."
Jian Xinrou's dark circles came out, and the whole person looked like the armed police made others look very pitiful, she didn't look like a little girl at all, but she looked like a yellow-faced woman, and now her hair has not been cleaned up, her hair is a little messy, her eyes are already red, and her eyeballs are full of red bloodshots.
"Don't be like this, you can't torture yourself no matter what, I know you're very sad, but you can't be angry with your body, I know you can't eat anything, but if you continue to starve yourself, then I won't allow you to attend your mother's funeral in person."
Mu Jinsheng said this softly to Jian Xinrou, originally thought that such a rash threat would have some effect on Jian Xinrou, but he didn't expect this to ignite Jian Xinrou's ignition point.
What do you mean by that? This is my mother, my mother's funeral, shouldn't I be there? Is it up to you to decide whether or not I will attend my mother's funeral? She's my mom, not your mom, so you're just talking on the sidelines, right? ”
Jian Xinrou's eyes widened, as if she wanted to vent all her emotions on Mu Jinsheng's body, Mu Jinsheng's heart felt aggrieved, but when she thought that if this woman could vent her emotions, it might be much better at one time, and sometimes if you don't vent your emotions, blindly holding them in the bottom of your heart will suffocate people.
"Yes, that's what I mean, you see the way you are now, you don't eat, drink or sleep all day, just thinking about your mother there, do you think your mother will be happy to see you like this? I'll tell you mom that when she sees you like this, she doesn't even want you to go to her funeral! ”
Mu Jinsheng stood up and his voice became louder and louder, which made Jian Xinrou even more aggrieved, her eyes were full of tears, and the program accumulated together enough to explode, the gentle ruthlessness that has always made Mu Jinsheng feel too abnormal, a person only when he is sad to the extreme, he is gentle with everyone, and he is calm with everything, from reading the letter yesterday to this morning, Jian Xinrou almost didn't say a word, the more this made Mu Jinsheng feel more panicked.
"You fart! No way, my mom never hated me! Mom won't leave, I feel like there must be some fraud... This is just a joke my mother made with me, my mother doesn't know where you are hiding now, you did it on purpose, you just wantonly retaliated against me, because I made you so sad before, right? All of this is your own work, I'm sorry, I was wrong, can you give me back a mother? ”
Jian Xinrou pounced and knelt down for Mu Jinsheng, Mu Jinsheng didn't expect that all his plans would backfire, and he didn't expect that he wanted the woman in front of him to make the fire, but it made Jian Xinrou more and more emotionally out of control, and the doctor next to him felt that he frowned and couldn't let it develop anymore.
"You listen to me and say it's not like this, I won't yell at you anymore, just now I didn't say what I said to me, don't take my words to heart, I'm a madman, I'm too anxious, I don't want to look at you like this, you hurry up."
Mu Jinsheng is a dignified president, managing so many people, but he can't manage his own woman, looking at this woman sad, disappointed and sad, there is really no way at all, Mu Jinsheng rushed over directly and hugged Jian Xinrou, looking at her sitting on the cold ground, Mu Jinsheng felt that his heart was about to break.
"I was wrong, I was really wrong, if you can give me back a mother, you can let me do anything, but you can't pay it back, you know? You can't pay it back, only I can bear all this, you are my dependence, you can't say that about me. ”
Jian Xinrou finally felt a trace of warmth in his chest, and was finally willing to vent all his emotions, crying and shouting, the doctor next to him tried his best to remind Jian Xinrou to maintain his emotions, and Mu Jinsheng took the doctor to go out first, this girl can only get real relief if she vents all her dissatisfaction.
When Sister-in-law Zhang and Mu Zheng came to deliver food, they saw that the doctor was driven out, and they also frowned and stood outside and did not dare to go in, hearing the shouts inside, Sister-in-law Zhang also felt that her heart was in a heart-rending pain, Mu Zheng heard her mother's voice, and tried to run in, but was stopped by Sister-in-law Zhang.
"You listen to my shepherd now, my mother is just sad because of your grandmother's death, and if you go in to comfort your mother now, it will make your mother feel even more sad if you add oil and vinegar. Mu Zheng don't think that Mom doesn't like you anymore, Mom has always liked you, but now Mom's Mom has passed away, Mom has no time to play with you, understand? ”
Sister-in-law Zhang half-squatted down and talked to the little child in front of her, although Mu Zheng could understand what was going on, but she still couldn't believe that her mother would be so sad, and she didn't take the initiative to rush in after listening to Sister-in-law Zhang's words, thinking that she could help her mother cheer up outside, and she must get through this difficulty.
"I know, Grandma Zhang, I know that you are for my mother's good, so I won't go in to make trouble for my mother, when will my mother stop crying, let's go in and comfort her, okay? Seeing his mother like this, Mu Zheng's heart was so sad, Mu Zheng didn't want to go to kindergarten anymore. ”
Mu Zheng began to rub his eyes, tears in his eyes, it was Sister-in-law Zhang who looked very distressed, and also cried together, this hard-working child, why is Jian Xinrou's life so bitter, everything has just passed, and it has become like this again.
Sister-in-law Zhang didn't sleep well all night last night, thinking of the son she died, remembering her son's body, when she was lying in front of her, the numbness in Sister-in-law Zhang's heart was a sense of guilt, and when Jian Xinrou was comforting herself, the smiling face and gentleness of the whole person, that kind of positive feeling, made Sister-in-law Zhang really like this girl very much, why did she have to suffer so much, when would God stop punishing her?
"I won't leave you, don't worry, I will always be by your side, I will let you understand, I may not let you understand, I can share all your sadness with you, you are not alone in this world, you must not lose any hope in life, because I will always be by your side."
When Mu Jinsheng said this, there seemed to be stars in his eyes, and Jian Xinrou in his arms was forced to look at the man in front of him, and only then did he find his true backer, as if he could see his future and the hope of his life.
"Really?"
Jian Xinrou didn't want to ask such a stupid question, but seeing Mu Jinsheng talking to herself so seriously, she unconsciously forgot all her pain and troubles, and at this moment she handed herself over to the man in front of her, not thinking about the previous things at all.
It wasn't until she heard that there was no crying in the house, no noisy sound, and no sound of Jian Xinrou going crazy, that Sister-in-law Zhang carried the thermos bucket and Mu Zheng into the room and saw that Jian Xinrou was already lying quietly in Mu Jinsheng's arms, as if she had been given a tranquilizer, which was completely different from yesterday's mood, Zhang Zao put down her heart and exhaled.
"Xinrou, this is the chicken soup that Sister-in-law Zhang just stewed in the morning, and put some wolfberries and jujubes in it to nourish yin and replenish qi, I know you may be very sad recently, so put some more tonic food, you hurry up and drink some, I know you are not in the mood to eat in the past few days, but you must eat some liquid food, if you don't eat, you will collapse your body."
Sister-in-law Zhang became two bowls, one bowl of meat is more, and a bowl of soup is more, to Jian Xinrou is because of Sister-in-law Zhang's knowledge of knowledge and understanding of human nature, so that Jian Xinrou was very moved, and the bowl of meat was given to Mu Jinsheng, Mu Jinsheng has been working day and night recently, and has paid a lot for this matter, because of this, Sister-in-law Zhang also brought some food to Mu Jinsheng, after all, a big man has to eat more than a girl.
"Thank you, Sister-in-law Zhang, I'm bothering you during this time, and I'm bothering you to run a few more times, because after all, this time is a special situation inside, and we are not used to eating other people's meals, only if you are such a careful person serving us, we can rest assured."
Mu Jinsheng's whole person was a lot haggard, and overnight, Sister-in-law Zhang felt that the boy she loved in her heart had suddenly grown up, and she learned to carry a piece of the sky, which was not only in her career, but also in her family.