Wednesday, October 30

Recently, when I was about to abstain from sexual cultivation and immortalization, my roommates began to urge me to find a boyfriend. I met someone through a dating site, but I didn't feel any joy.

Thursday, October 31

After last night's phone chat, I, a bit of a "Yan dog", began to accept this netizen Mr. L a little.

This morning, the morning self-study was going on as usual. Mom suddenly sent a WeChat message: "Will you come this week?" "We happened to have a team-building activity this week, from the night before until 8 a.m. the next morning. If I ever had to go back, it would have to be a very hurried journey. I explained to my mother as it was, and she expressed her understanding, but she still babbled about my grandfather's illness: "Your grandfather is old this time." "I don't know anything when I sleep in my bed."

I asked, "What does the doctor say?" ”

"Wait"

"One word."

"Would you like to come back and see him?" My mother asked me again.

"Of course." As his only granddaughter, he shouldn't go back to see him anyway.

Grandpa is really dying this time, just like I thought, he can't take care of himself anymore, and he can't even recognize people. It stands to reason that the sooner the operation is done for such a serious condition as cerebral congestion, the better, but he has been suffering from a high fever and cannot undergo surgery.

So, there is only one word left - etc.

Mom also said, "Your dad watched over him all night yesterday." “

In a word, it made me feel their difficulty, and it also made me feel the pressure again. Yes, if you don't become better, how can you face the ups and downs of this world. Although, now that I have slowly matured, my grandfather's crisis is also expected by me, and I don't feel too sad. Perhaps, I am the one who is slow to reflect in family affection, and I always wait until they really leave, and then I will suddenly leave tears under a certain starry sky one day.

I didn't sleep at noon, I really couldn't stay up, and the English class was completely mixed up, and I barely listened to the high math.

There was a class meeting in the evening self-study, the class leader talked about some learning problems, and the counselor also said a few words. Then, the squad leader talked about tomorrow night's team building activity - villa party. This was the first class activity, so it was very grand and the booking process was very difficult. The details will be explained in detail the day after tomorrow.

There was a small episode during the evening self-study, when the class leader was handing out the student ID card to his good-looking roommate, he deliberately showed it to the girls in the front row and teased his roommate behind his back. The squad leader also joked, "He's single." The kind of single with a girlfriend! "I was confused when I listened, but according to my inferences and observations, he should have a girlfriend. After all, most of the little brothers who are so handsome are famous! Otherwise, I would have wanted to chase him.

Friday, November 1

Since this is still the eighth week since the beginning of the school year, we have no classes all day except for morning self-study. But, this week's homework is still a lot for me to rush home. So, I need to go to the studio this morning to finish the rest of my sketching homework.

Saturday, November 2nd

I went home and went to the hospital with my mom after lunch.

"If, in the future, the country is euthanized, and we have Alzheimer's disease or paralysis, let us be euthanized." That's what my mom said several times.

Maybe because of being sick for a long time, people's willpower has weakened a lot, and people have become naïve. Grandpa just took two pills, and stopped taking two more, and complained: "Where did you get so many medicines?" "It's a bit much, only since the age of 60, my grandparents haven't stopped taking medicine every day.

Every time my grandmother was hospitalized, my grandfather counted the money to get by. Every penny is distressing. However, in reality, they still don't realize that they are wasting money in many ways.

I spent almost the whole afternoon in the hospital guarding my grandfather. My mother asked me to talk to my grandfather more, which helped him recover from the exercise of brain supplementation. But I'm a person who has never talked much with them, I really don't know what to talk about, and the messages of several friends on my phone keep flashing, I don't want to sit still, so I choose to bow my head and play with my phone.

This reminded my mother of checking my account again. She directly asked me to open the Alipay and WeChat bills on my phone, and my mother especially didn't like me to use HB, she said: "I especially don't like people who borrow money to live!" "She just held my phone and counted my bills one by one from one day on. I squatted lazily next to her, looking like I had nothing to love.

Later, my mother said a lot, but I only remembered one of her nagging: Your father hasn't been to work for half a month.

Obviously, this means that my family's finances are even more strained. I know very well and clearly that my life will be harder than others, and I really clearly perceive the arrival of this crisis, however, my heart is extremely unwilling to accept it. I want to buy what I want, but I know that every penny I spend is blood and sweat; I want to eat good food, but I understand that what I eat is not necessarily worth my waste; I also want to earn some of my own living expenses through my own hands and share a little pressure for them, but I am very confused, why do I live in rushing homework and tasks every day? I don't feel like I'm going to have any free time. No, maybe I have.

Wednesday, November 6

Four days have passed, and I sacrificed my meagre little free time this week to write this tonight in my evening self-study.

Repeat the last time, do I not have time? I think there is. As the saying goes: time is like water in a sponge, there will always be a squeeze.

However, it seems that I didn't spend much of my time on the so-called "business". I've had a lot of things to do this week, and it stands to reason that I'm supposed to step up my memorization tonight. It will take some time to memorize the words of the whole unit at one time, and besides, we will have a class test tomorrow afternoon, and I will have to complete three sketches tomorrow morning, which is also quite a time-consuming project.

For a week like this, I really want to say, "Life, it's so hard!" ”