"What are you doing up here?" Qi Kexue had actually discovered him a long time ago, but he didn't look back.

Shen Boling came back to his senses, walked forward slowly, and sat down beside her, "I heard that Fifty-six said that you were on top, so I came up to see you." ”

Qi Kexue nodded indifferently, and looked sideways at him, "What are you muttering to Fifty-Six down there?" ”

"It's just to encourage him, don't you think he's very good now, he was the worst among these people, but he has persevered until now, I don't think it's easy." Shen Boling explained with a smile.

"What's not easy, he is to save his life, if he is eliminated, he will die, but his will is a little stronger than other people, and he doesn't need encouragement now, I just want them to survive in the hopelessness and despair, so that the last person who persists is what I want." Qi Kexue said unceremoniously.

Shen Boling was stunned, he didn't expect that he had done something wrong again, and he couldn't help but make a bitter face, but after thinking about it, he suddenly said again, "Xue'er, in fact, there is no need to be like this, we can give them some hope and let them see the good side." ”

"There is no such good side in this world." Qi Kexue snorted coldly, picked up the wine jar on the side and took a sip of wine, these are not the high wines she brewed, so when she drank it like water, wine is wine, although the degree is not high, but if you drink too much, you will get drunk, at this time she is a little drunk, and her eyes are a little blurry.

"You're drunk, don't drink any more." Shen Boling snatched the wine in her hand and threw it down, and there was a snap again, this time Qi Kexue couldn't grab it if she wanted to.

"You..." Qi Kexue couldn't help but glare at him, "It's really boring, it's so sweeping to drink, I'm finally free, but you still care about me." ”

"Xue'er, I don't care about you, if you are happy to drink, I can accompany you, but look at yourself, you are obviously borrowing wine to kill your sorrows." Shen Boling sighed, feeling that the top of the room was even cooler than the bottom, so he took off his coat and draped it on Qi Kexue's body.

Hearing his words, Qi Kexue laughed suddenly, "Which eye of yours saw that I was unhappy?" ”

"I saw all of them." Shen Boling said helplessly.

Qi Kexue glanced at him disdainfully, "Let me tell you, I'm fine now, I've never had a better time like now, I have freedom, I have autonomy, I don't have to control me anymore, but I control the fate of others, and their fate and my own fate are in my hands, this feeling is really good." ”

I don't know if it's because I'm a little drunk, Qi Kexue's words are a little too much, and she looked at Shen Boling, "Didn't you always want to know where I learned these things, in fact, I didn't learn them at all, but I experienced them personally, I have experienced all of them, and they are even more cruel than them, and I am really kind to them now."

They don't have to die if they fail, but if we make a slight mistake, the result can only be death, even worse than death, you see their training is hard and tired, I feel pitiful, but you know that what I experienced is no longer training, just to live.

I was once locked up with a wild beast, I wanted to get out, only one of them fell, and in the end I survived, but I only had half a life left, and in the end I killed my only friend in order to survive, I don't see hope, every day except for thinking about living these days, I no longer have the extra strength to think about anything else, happiness, smile, do you think I can really laugh happily after these experiences? ”

Qi Kexue didn't cry when she told this, but all that leaked from her eyes was sadness, but it was more sad than tears, many years have passed, but they are deeply engraved in the depths of her soul, even if she changes her identity and era, she still can't forget it.

Hearing what Qi Kexue said, Shen Boling felt a deep shock, he never thought that Qi Kexue had gone through so much, but when he thought of the maturity she showed that did not match her age, and those skills and strategies that he was ashamed of.

He was relieved, maybe only after experiencing this would he have the current Qi Kexue, but he would rather not be like this, he thought that Qi Kexue would be like an ordinary girl, she would laugh, cry, be weak, and hide behind him for him to protect, but he also knew that these were impossible.

In addition to being shocked, he was distressed, he felt sorry for all of her, he couldn't even imagine how Qi Kexue survived, if he had changed himself, he might have given up a long time ago.

"Don't look at me like that, I hate it when people pity me." Qi Kexue's voice pulled him back to reality, but she continued, "I tell you these not to make you pity me, but to let you put away your so-called compassion, these children are indeed very small, and their experience is also worthy of sympathy, but if you want to reciprocate, you have to pay first, although the past makes me have nightmares every time I think of it, but I have never regretted it, if it weren't for this, maybe I would have a worse life than this, if I had to choose again, I would still choose this path."

Over the years, I have never relied on others, I have relied on my own efforts to live until now, and I have been living well, even better than ordinary people, although they have some things that I can't get no matter how hard I try, but what I have is what they don't have, and that's enough. ”

Shen Boling sighed, but suddenly reached out to hold her, but Qi Kexue was stunned and didn't hide from being caught by him, "Xue'er, I don't sympathize with you, I don't pity you, I just want to tell you that no matter who you are, you can't be strong forever, it's not wrong to be weak once in a while, find a shoulder to lean on, it's not a shame." ”

Qi Kexue listened to his words and fell silent, and was about to shake off his hand and stopped, just let him pull it in his hand, and after a while, he looked straight ahead, and suddenly said, "I don't need it." ”

Shen Boling, who was originally looking forward to it, was poured cold water head-on, looking at Qi Kexue, who had regained her stiff expression, she sighed helplessly, and many words were blocked in her mouth and she didn't say it after all.

But what he didn't know was that some opportunities were missed, and some words, if he wanted to say more, there was no chance.

Qi Kexue didn't want to talk about this anymore, and suddenly stood up, "Since we can't sleep, let's stop sleeping and get up and play." ”

As he spoke, he jumped up and jumped straight down.

"Ahh Shen Boling was startled when she saw her, but before she could scream, she had already seen Qi Kexue fall to the ground in a beautiful posture, without the slightest intention of being hurt, and couldn't help but sigh, and she honestly went down from behind again.