It's really too cruel, nothing hurts more than the knife of feelings, the words are on the lips but the taste that can't be said is more uncomfortable than anything father did die, but he survived in another way, but he was not Zhao Deren, he could only be Mo Nineteen.

I think back to the past, more and more I feel unbearable heartache, he is always taking care of me, I obviously feel familiar, why is he unwilling to take the last step, the mask is just a disguise, I know that the Mo family has the technology of disguise, why is it unwilling to get to the bottom of it.

Maybe I'm afraid, there are many times when the answer is coming out, it's that I don't dare to take the last step, I can still get along as friends when I don't know anything, if I really know that he is my father, how should I face him.

No, he is not my father, I am so entangled that I am about to die, just like my father said, it is very uncomfortable, I don't know how the Mo family accepted him, I know very well that he has been helping me and taking care of me from beginning to end, but there is always something different, nothing can describe this feeling like a fish in my throat.

The bits and pieces of the past will only make people sad, I took a deep breath, since I am sad, since I am reluctant, it means that I care about him, even if he is not my father, it is also an elder who treats me sincerely, I should have thanked him, how can I change because I found the truth, then I am too bad.

After thinking about it, my father finally unlocked the blood curse, although it was in another way, so I felt a little comforted in my heart, although he can't be regarded as a real father, but he cares about my heart is the same, then he is still my father.

It's enough that he's still alive, no matter what his name is, whether he can see him again in the future, knowing that he's still in this world and cares about me, that's enough.

I took a deep breath and flipped the page, there was still content in the back, but the handwriting had obviously changed, it was indeed my father's handwriting, and the writing was also very smooth, but at a glance I could see that it was written with the left hand, and the bodies of these replicants were completely reversed, and they all became left-handed, and I could see that there was a slight friction on the edge of many handwriting, which was what was brought about by left-handed writing.

He inherited his father's memory, and naturally knew that he left a diary under the old house, his mood and thoughts were the same as his father's, he knew that this was what his father was going to leave to me, although he had been erased by the world and completely became a member of the Mo family, but he still hid something from the Mo family, this diary The Mo family should know, but they definitely didn't know that Nineteen told me about the existence of the diary.

He has always stood firmly on his father's side, he didn't do anyone's puppet, he only did what he wanted to do, I couldn't help but worry again, he revealed the existence of the diary to me, I don't know if it will be discovered by the Mo family.

It must have been him who worshiped my father, and if we had come back a few hours earlier, I really wanted to see him again, and the discomfort in my heart gradually faded, and I felt more and more that he was my father.

Lao Huang didn't speak, only the shock in his eyes exposed his heart, he was also thinking, and he was also thinking, he was also thinking, and he didn't know what he could find from his perspective.

I looked down at the diary in my hand, and I wanted to see what my born-again father had written.

June 2018

He's dead, no, I should say I'm dead, I've seen my body become so ugly and horrible, I don't want Daze to see my embarrassed appearance, but this is his father, he deserves to see him, it's the only thing I can do for him.

I knocked the village chief unconscious, changed his memory with corpse incense, I disguised myself as him, and waited in the crowd for Daze to come back, that was the first time I saw him with my own eyes, seeing him crying so sadly, I couldn't help crying, I knew that he was not crying, but I felt that it was me, I really wanted to tell him that I was by his side, but I couldn't.

It's not a good thing to be reborn, I suddenly feel like I shouldn't go to that ancient city, I suppressed it, I almost drove myself crazy, God knows how much I wanted to tell him the truth, I knew he would be scared, he should live an ordinary life, this is my heart's wish.

I held back, pinched my palm and bruised, I kept telling myself that I was not Zhao Deren, I was Mo Nineteen now, I had nothing to do with Daze, but my heart knew how painful it was, I was Zhao Deren, Daze was my son, for the rest of his life, I was willing to endure, I could do everything to protect him, even if he died immediately.

He disobeyed the teachings of the ancestors, he wanted to keep my body, he didn't know what it would bring, he looked at me with tears and red eyes, I knew I was destined to not refuse.

I agreed, he was really sad, he didn't even notice that I was doing things in the incense burner, I could let him be willful, the bad guy was up to me, I stunned him and dragged my body out of the coffin, it had already begun to change, fortunately I burned it in time.

The corpse incense was originally used for the rest, which was destined to be a hidden danger, Daze really woke up soon, he found me, fortunately, it was dark around, and he didn't see me on the face of the village chief, I panicked and fled quickly, but I didn't dare to let him know the truth.

Fortunately, the village chief's memory was very well changed, and he gave the money to Daze as I had arranged, but unfortunately I couldn't personally participate in all this, and I kept hiding around them and watching from afar.

It's time to carry out the next plan, I know how stubborn Daze's character is, if he doesn't have the horror of reality, he can't give up, we have already arranged the chess pieces, and now it's time to play a role. ”

My hand shook, the diary fell to the ground, after coming out of the ancient city, I knew that it was the Mo family who did it, they did not change my memory, at that time I thought that the corpse incense they used was just a convenient one, but I didn't expect that Nineteen was by my side, and he turned out to be the village chief.

Don't say that I was heartbroken at that time, even if I still kept my sanity and sobriety, it was impossible to notice, I originally only thought that there was a shadow of them in this matter, but I didn't expect them to be involved in the whole process, this must have been asked by Nineteen to go, he wanted to see me, wanted to help me.

I can understand the mind of a father, he is not worried about giving his son to others, if it is replaced by another Mo family, my desire to keep my father's body will definitely be refused, they will do it neatly, not let me notice a trace of abnormality, it is the softness of Nineteen's heart that allows me to grasp the clues.

It turned out that he had been there all along.

I picked up the diary and took a few deep breaths before I dared to turn the pages, the handwriting was getting newer and the time was getting closer.

July 2018

Everyone thinks that eternal life is a treasure, everyone is desperately chasing, they know that they are likely to die on the way, but they still go forward, I am a person who has died once, I know better than anyone how terrible eternal life is, it is against the sky, just like me, I live with evil magic, but I am not a human or a ghost, I always have to give up what I want to get, and I often give up more than I get.

Everyone doesn't understand this truth, except for the Mo family, people always have desires and demands, they don't, that's why they're strong.

That person was really confused, he wanted to know more about the secret of eternal life, and he didn't hesitate to abandon Osawa, Agawa told me about it, I put down my phone and added another stroke to the diary, no one can escape the desire, I knew that he would choose so, so I have been waiting here.

A refuses to recognize me as the master, I know that I am really dead, I have frozen it for so long, just for this day, if the plan fails, then it is the back hand that remains, I don't believe that Daze will not give up when he sees such a horror, I just hope that he can be an ordinary person, do not live up to my efforts for more than ten years, I know very well what a terrible thing this is, I don't want him to experience such horror.

Ah Chuan told me that the plan failed, Xi Shi Tomb failed to scare Daze, this kid is really as stubborn as me, I know that he is not so easy to give up, my arrangement will come in handy, I know that he is timid, I don't want to scare him, but compared to the horror that I will experience if I persist, this is nothing at all.

Osawa, give up, if you can hear my prayers, give up. ”

My father's voice seemed to linger in my ears, I could vaguely hear his voice telling me to give up, I understood everything, I understood everything, Achuan's madness, Nineteen's obsession, I didn't hate him for scaring me with the living corpse of the old horse, if I knew everything, I would also stop my father like this, because the living corpse is really nothing, if I see it again now, I will definitely not hesitate to smash its head with a tool at my fingertips.

It's a pity that people are like this, they have to hit their heads and bleed to understand that it is not the best way out, from generation to generation, everyone is like this, just like thousands of teenagers now, a few are willing to listen to the persuasion of their elders, they must understand that this is wrong after failure, life is such a joke, it will never let you have a shortcut, now think about it, my experience in the past two years is really sad and ridiculous.

I have long known that Lao Ma is the handwriting of the Mo family, and now I see him written in the diary with my own eyes, I only feel that the dead person is alive again, the Mo family has long known that he has other thoughts, but he still has to use him in the end, the Mo family is giving him the last chance, if he chooses to give up, he doesn't have to die.

Jade guides desires, whoever has an unclean heart, the blood curse will fall on whomever head, from ancient times to the present, none of these people who chase eternal life have a good end, they all die in their own greed.

At that time, I was so stupid, I always regarded him as a friend who was willing to accompany me to life and death, but I didn't know that people were separated, I thought, I felt that I was really hateful at that time, I turned a blind eye to my good, and turned my back on me as a friend, if time could be turned back, I hated to go back and kill myself who didn't know the height of the sky, what I regretted the most was not being involved in these terrible events, but letting down the people who treated me sincerely.