049 Schizophrenia of personality
The carriage was quiet, Shao Ting moved uncomfortably, but he didn't show too much pain, and the injury on his back went from the sharp pain at the beginning to the current pinprick pain, as if he was used to it.
"How's this time going?" Yu Zhixing looked ahead without squinting, but his gaze under the glasses was extremely soft, and his tone was full of gentleness that he had never had when he spoke to Lu Shaojun.
"It's okay." Shao Ting looked at him in surprise and replied casually, "The Wen sisters are very good. ”
Shao Ting has something on his mind, after all, it is a major matter about his identity, he doesn't know how to talk to Yu Zhixing, and he doesn't know what kind of changes will happen in his life after he asks the question in his heart, he doesn't dare to act rashly.
Yu Zhixing probably knew what he was thinking, just like his conjecture some time ago, he must have guessed something, and he needed to find an excuse to take him to James to confirm.
When he arrived at the hospital to treat the injury on his back, Yu Zhixing sat opposite him, looked at his hair that was much shorter, and said with a light smile: "Didn't you like such short hair before?" ”
"It was burned, so it was cut short." Shao Ting touched the bangs in it, he still can't adapt to such a length, and he always feels like something is missing.
"When are you going to go home?" Yu Zhixing was silent for a long time, looking at his still gloomy face, it seemed that he was still very resistant to returning to Yu's home.
"I don't want to go back." Shao Ting lifted his eyelids and stared at his eyes as if he had mustered up courage, he could see the tolerance and helplessness in Yu Zhixing's eyes, but he couldn't understand it.
No way, Shao Ting's temper is still quite like Lu Shaojun's many times, the same stubborn temper, and he knows how to pinch him, but this is probably also a matter of his details, he is reluctant or doesn't know how to refuse him.
Yu Zhixing, who had nothing to say, held his glasses, waiting for Shao Ting to speak without holding his breath first, he had a hunch that Shao Ting was definitely brewing something now.
Originally, he came today to answer the doubts in his heart, he didn't open his mouth, and Yu Zhixing couldn't take the initiative to give him an answer, Shao Ting poured himself a glass of water impetuously, looked at the water lines spread out in the cup circles, and finally looked up at Yu Zhixing after a while.
"Can I ask you a few questions?" Shao Ting's voice trembled uncontrollably, he felt afraid, afraid that everything would fall into his own guesses, afraid that he was just a wandering soul that should not exist in the world from beginning to end.
"Absolutely." Yu Zhixing was colored, his heart contracted slightly, and a burst of light flashed in the eyes behind the glasses that made Shao Ting's heart frighten.
"Who is Lu Shaojun?" Shao Ting lowered his head and didn't look at Yu Zhixing, he already had the answer in his heart, and he asked again just to get confirmation from his mouth.
"President of Luyu Company." Yu Zhixing stared at his face closely, he could see an emotion called fear in Shao Ting's eyes hidden in the shadows, as well as his trembling voice, he could have tried to hide it again, but Shao Ting had a lot, and there would always be a day when he couldn't hold back if he concealed it again and again.
Ten years of time is enough to hide it from him for ten years.
"You know that's not what I'm asking." Shao Ting was a little resentful, he trusted Zhixing, from the first time he met him ten years ago, the spontaneous trust and dependence on him had always been with him, but now, he found ...... He's been deceiving himself.
"This question, I'll tell you when I take you to meet someone tomorrow, I won't be able to give you an answer." He couldn't tell him directly, saying that you Shao Ting was just a personality of Lu Shaojun, and you shouldn't exist in this world.
Is he going to say that? Yu Zhixing smiled bitterly, and the bitterness in his heart was almost revealed from his eyes from the inside out, but he couldn't, James told him that he couldn't show any sympathy for the sub-personality.
Although cruel, Yu Zhixing knew that it was the best way to hide the truth about him and let him disappear slowly, and disappear silently one night.
But now, his identity can't be hidden, so it's himself who suffers in the end.
“…… Who? The blood on Shao Ting's face receded, his pale lips opened and closed, and he looked at Yu Zhixing in a daze, and spit out a few inaudible words in his mouth.
"You'll know when you go, you've seen it." Yu Zhixing seemed to be unable to stand it, and Yu Zhixing was even more sure that Shao Ting had probably guessed the truth.
He was like beating a drum in his heart, gently appeasing Shao Ting on the surface, but his heart was already anxious, he didn't know what Shao Ting would do after he thoroughly understood, he was soft, but knowing that he would one day not wake up, would he still be at the mercy of them?
“…… I know. After being silent for a long time, Shao Ting pulled away a faint smile, got up and walked to the room arranged for him by Yu Zhixing, and closed the door without looking back.
Yu Zhixing leaned back on the sofa with a headache, sighed heavily, took out the phone and sent a text message to James, "He knows, I'll take him over tomorrow." ”
As a psychiatrist, James knows how to appease the second personality to the greatest extent, maybe Shao Ting can accept the status quo of two people sharing a body, and then continue to live in peace.
But is it possible? Yu Zhixing asked himself, if there was another person in his body who asked to share his body and time, would he agree?
Human nature is self-interested, and no one will be generous enough to ignore their normal life, let alone Lu Shaojun and Shao Ting.
Even if he sympathizes with Shao Ting, even if he subconsciously hopes that Lu Shaojun can have a little bit of Shao Ting's shadow, but that is impossible after all, they are two different people, different personalities, and different memories in the final analysis.
Early the next morning, Shao Ting opened the door and walked out, and when he looked up, he saw that Yu Zhixing was still in the same posture as when he returned to the room yesterday, leaning back on the back of the chair and sleeping deeply.
The gold-rimmed glasses were thrown aside by him, his hair was softly on his forehead, and the contours of the whole person softened a lot.
Shao Ting walked over lightly, looked down at the obvious dark circles under her eyes, and then looked at him with his eyes closed, his eyes flickering and uncertain.
Yu Zhixing opened his eyes It was already nine o'clock in the morning, raised his watch to look at the time, and then turned his head to look at Shao Ting, who had washed up and sat on the sofa reading the newspaper, and asked in a dumb voice, "Are you hungry?" ”
"It's fine." Shao Ting thought about it and answered, in fact, his stomach was already very empty, but he didn't feel hungry yet, and he didn't have much appetite.
"Let's eat something." Found Shao Ting, Yu Zhixing was finally able to sleep peacefully, although it was uncomfortable to lean in a chair one night, but compared to not being able to sleep in the office, his sleep quality today was already very good.
Yu Zhixing called to deliver the food, and then went to the bathroom to clean himself up, and when he came out, he had already seen Shao Ting eating with relish.
Looks like I'm really hungry.
Yu Zhixing smiled, tried to ignore his heavy mood, walked over and ate casually, and saw that Shao Ting had almost stopped his chopsticks, then hesitated and said, "Then let's go now, and come home with me when it's over?" ”
"Besides, I have to go back to the Wen family." Shao Ting wiped his mouth clean and looked at Yu Zhixing calmly, his eyes were extremely calm, as if he had figured it out after a night.
"Okay." Yu Zhixing couldn't bear to refuse him anymore, nodded and agreed, "Let's go." ”
On the way to the James Institute, Shao Ting kept facing out of the window, his eyes were dazed and he didn't know what to think about, Yu Zhixing tried to talk to him, but this person seemed to have no ears, and he didn't know whether he couldn't hear or didn't want to pay attention to him.
However, the possibility of the former is zero, Shao Ting is simply angry with him, Yu Zhixing saw that he didn't want to deal with himself, so he simply didn't bother him.
After getting out of the car, Shao Ting looked around and saw the familiar research institute not far away, which was the place he used to come to often - every time he woke up in a daze, he could always see a foreign uncle with a beard.
"Let's go inside." Yu Zhixing held his back, for fear that he would run away and buckled his shoulders, Shao Ting did not have the intention of running away, the Yu family has a big business, and now add the Lu family, unless he goes incognito to live in an unknown small village, otherwise, he will be found sooner or later.
James looked at it and seemed to look a little bit better than before, Shao Ting sat in front of him, fearless and even a little curious When James looked at James, James was almost scared half to death.
He didn't expect Shao Ting to be so calm and calm after knowing his identity, to put it bluntly, he was going to "kill" his enemy, and he was a little embarrassed to be so calm.
Is Shao Ting lacking roots? Or have you already recognized the reality?
"Tell me. Who the hell am I? What has happened in all these years? Shao Ting said lightly, "Am I not nervous about anxiety?" ”
The reason why Shao Ting knows James is because every time Shao Ting wakes up and is hypnotized, James comes to do it, he can't let Shao Ting know that he is a sub-personality, but he has to find an excuse to hypnotize him, so he can only prevaricate with his nervous anxiety and need to cooperate with treatment.
"No, you're split-personality." James hesitated to tell him the name of the disease, watched his bright eyes suddenly dim, and then lowered his head for a long time without speaking.
"I'm ...... Is it not the one that is needed? The sour throat seemed to be so constricted that he couldn't speak, Shao Ting tried hard to restrain his urge to shout, and raised his head with a self-deprecating smile, "Am I the one who should disappear?" ”
Why did he come to this world, and if he disappeared, would anyone else know that he was no longer there.
No one knew when he appeared, and he could have been silent when he left.
But his reaction was too cold, even though his eyes were red and his voice was trembling, he was still too calm.
James calmed down instantly, and looked at Yu Zhixing with some surprise, Yu Zhixing nodded at him, indicating that he had been calm since yesterday.